Experience

10.5.14

Heroic failures

“Success is overrated”

“The worst is not so long as we can say, This is the worst.”

Exploring & articulating one’s own most fundamental assumptions & feelings…

Glory ~ holiness ~ beauty

Revelation of truth through incarnated love!

Truth, beauty & goodness ~ intellect, senses & will ~ faith, joy & love

Agonistic

The preconditioning of experience

The truth & goodness of Beauty!

In order to be united with another, you must first be drawn out of yourself.

Christ – the one who reveals the universal, ubiquitous Glory in the world!

Passionate ~ jealous?
Is GOD possessive/envious?

The eros in agape & phileo

No (personal) integrity without union (with the other)!

Being-existing => knowing-desiring (includes believing-loving & feeling-thinking) => willing-acting

Adoration > praise

Are commitment & obligation the same?
Can we have intimacy & longevity in our relationships without these?
What about desire & love?

School Management Committee

Child Protection Unit

Disaster Risk Reduction

Lower class – increased deaths due to hunger (struggling to survive)
Middle class – increased deaths due to stress (climbing the ladder)
Upper class – increased deaths due to suicide (loss of meaning)

Beauty as the way into the good life…

Grace – what is sacrifice without gift?
Resurrection – what is immortality without transformation?

Major trilogy

Aesthetic theology (the love of beauty)
Vs.
Theological aesthetics (the beauty of love)

Training our senses to discern & enjoy Beauty

The violence of chastity & lasciviousness

14.5.14

Stage, cast & plot

Historical thought

17.5.14

Atreyu

Only the prodigal knows the Father. Therefore, he alone is fit to live in His house…

Bliss
Vs.
Joy

Ego-self
Vs.
Soul-atman

Overcoming hunger & tiredness
The pain of cyclicality (pointlessness)!

Law + freedom = love

Wisdom IS salvation!

Brahman, Samana,……
What is the third way?

21.5.14

To do only what you want always is the perfect recipe for misery!
The period of stillness-being must come between the alternating periods of like (getting-holding) & ought (doing-becoming).
3 equal phases!
In fact, the first should be the matrix in which the other two are embedded & interact…
But what about when the like, ought & being are mixed up?!

Open marriage
Swingers
Polyamory

Static moderation is boredom-death.
Tensive balance of extremes is life-joy!

Curious
Excited
Anticipation
Newness

Freeing, conquering, losing one’s own self

Nature, desire & will

Significance & interpretation

Impetuous
Impertinent
Headstrong
Fuck (all) strategy & rhetoric!

“To obey like this, not to an external command, only to the (inner) voice, to be ready like this, this was good, this was necessary, nothing else was necessary.”

The mystic > the ascetic!
What is the opposite of beggar?

Existential reality (bio-psychic) alone is the whole truth!

I had left the key in the Scooty after parking it in the Chennai bus-stand. Three days later, when we returned from Vellore, I realized in shock, what I had done! Then instead of getting furious at myself (as I usually do after a blunder), I (mentally) released my grip (possession/ownership) from the vehicle. I had been reading the novel “Siddhartha” when traveling in the bus.
Later, a man called Murugan came to me, & handed me the Scooty key, saying that it was found lying on the ground beside it, & he had kept it safely until he could hand it over to the owner……

You will never accept or understand me (or even try to), because according to you, I am WRONG!

Opposite
Apposite

“I can think. I can wait. I can fast.”

“Siddhartha is calm. He knows no impatience, or emergency.”

From mere ‘giving-&-taking’, to the majesty of ‘meaning-&-passion’!

NOT all poverty is destitution!

“Writing is good, thinking is better. Being smart is good, being patient is better.”

“Stop scolding, dear friend! Nothing was ever achieved by scolding. If a loss has occurred, let me bear it. So, leave it as it is, my friend, and don’t harm yourself by scolding!
If the day will come, when you will see: this Siddhartha is harming me, then speak a word and Siddhartha will go on his own path. But until then, let’s be satisfied with one another.”

Of course I do everything for my own amusement. What else should/could I do?!

Jesus vs. Buddha
Samuel vs. Siddhartha
Immanuel vs. Joseph
Wither Gautama??

Hurry, worry & anger

Child ~ animal

Brahmin => Samana => Buddha => Siddhartha!!!

“But again and again, more than anything, he came back to learn the art of love, practised the cult of lust, in which more than in anything else, giving and taking becomes one…”

Maybe vocational guidance (Kingdom of GOD, SHAPE Profile, etc.) is the most useless, & even harmful thing I have ever done!

Samsara, Sadhana & Samadhi

The inward voice (spiritual)
Vs.
The conscience (moral)

Beyond good & evil (Nietzsche)
&
Eternity as the fusion of the son & the sea (Rimbaud)

Me & my family – of course we need each other… But who is more dependent?

Body < mind Mind => World!

Maybe Eros & Thanatos converge at their respective ultimates!

The truth is eternal and immutable indeed. But our grasp of it (or it’s grasp of us) is in constant flux!

There are no right and wrong decisions, only true & false choices!

Yesterday & today, there is an amazing correspondence between what I am reading & what is happening in my life!
Sound familiar?!

The goal of all effort & thought is to become totally spontaneous!

Glass closet
It is time for my ‘coming out’…
PDSO – persons of different spiritual orientation!
Now, should I weep or rejoice??

Old, ill, evil, tired, sad, disgusted, desperate,…

Psychologism

Predictable crises

Tautology

“Most of all, he learned from it to listen, to pay close attention with a quiet heart, with a waiting, opened soul, without passion, without a wish, without judgement, without an opinion.”

Atman/man/earth (Nirvana)
Vs.
Brahman/GOD/heaven (Yoga)

Self-annihilation
Vs.
Self-denial

Gaga

Strike-out

Inanity
Vs.
Insanity

27.5.14

To enjoy whatever comes your way, without attachment or pursuing, along with deep sympathy for all, is holiness.

“What you really are is not what you are now.”

The eternal self

Silent, friendly, knowing, patient……

Can anguish & bliss coexist?

28.5.14

Moral psychology

Attribute-generator

Tyson => Rambo => Maan Karate!
Knockout => bounce-back => elude

Simplicity, infinity & perfection

Enjoy doing what you feel/like/want now
Vs.
Doing what you ought now, to get to where you ultimately need to arrive at

Equivocity
Vs.
Univocity

Trinity – “Being is, univocally, difference”!
Origami cosmos!

Substance
Vs.
Process

GOD ~ nature, essence, energy

Post-modern metaphysics

29.5.14

Moving (the emphasis) from the science of real truth to the art of good living!

Physicality, affectivity & sexuality
Vs.
Religiosity, morality & sociality

The maximum number for small group or retreat should be 9 (i.e below 10)

Self-contradiction is inevitable, & therefore acceptable!

The helpful
Vs.
The effective

The healing
Vs.
The curative

Infinity, eternity & universality

Include annual retreat members for SFG retreat

Devotional = mystical + liturgical + theological

People, problems & concepts

Enigma (softcore)
Vs.
Trauma (hardcore)

The cheerfully benevolent face

To find is just (& only) to stop searching!

Purity, calmness & cheerfulness

The smile of simultaneity

Existence as manifestations & transformations!

Matter is not an illusion, time is!

Morality/ethics theology/philosophy mysticism/mythology!

4.6.14

Compare:
David’s refusal to drink the ‘bloody’ water
&
Us drinking the ‘blood’ of Jesus

The leader is always the first to face the enemy!
Leader ~ trail-blazer ~ martyr

The mystical-eschatological-apocalyptic message

And now remain faith, hope & love,
And the greatest of these is hope!
For without hope, there can be neither any faith nor love…