Bible verse of the day 

“But I say to you who are listening: Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.”

Luke 6:27-28 NET

http://bible.com/107/luk.6.27.NET

How does a critical/radical theorist love, do good, bless and pray? 

Respond to the intimidation & manipulation of the powers that be, with the quiet courage that comes from knowledge. 

You will know the people of the truth, by their contrast to the powerful, who are characterized by pride, insecurity and violence. 

Dare to be an underdog in this brutal world! 

Bible verse of the day 

“Before I formed you in your mother’s womb I chose you. Before you were born I set you apart. I appointed you to be a prophet to the nations.”
Jeremiah 1:5 NET

http://bible.com/107/jer.1.5.NET

“Before” is the key word! Your true vocation predates your actual birth…… 

So, it has never been up to you to choose who you are. It is only yours to know it & act accordingly. 

Mother ~ womb – before there was nothing, there was something! 

Be human. Prophesy! 

NOTES

2.5.17

– Ideologue’s guide to perversion

Reverse brain-washing

– I am more contemplative/introverted than most people. But how come I bailed out of the Vipassana course on the 4th day, and the others were able to continue and finish it??

3.5.17

– Is it possible to live (i.e not destroy oneself), once you have fully embraced the truth/fact, that there is no meaning/purpose of life (except life itself)?

– If the negation of life is not death, then what is it?

Distinguish:

Enemy

&

Adversary 

– Nitzschean charity

Divert all funds, from supporting the survival/uplift of the “weak/struggling”, to preserve those (individuals & groups) who are living/fighting “at the edge of time”……!

The death of certain folks/movements is more precious than others…?

E.g

World Vision >> Wikileaks 

Save the Children >> LibGen

William >> Abel

Pownya >> Shanthuru

Etc.

2.5.17

– Meditation – breather >> breathing >> breath!

– God >> GOD >> G-d >> gOd!

– Used Audacity for noise reduction of my positive affirmation recordings… 👍

– Distinguish:

The barking dog

&

This dog barking

3.5.17

– It seems that UGK has somehow defaulted to the Edenic state.

But (according to Christian theology), the way back is barred, and we can only move forward (toward the New Jerusalem) now.

Add Nietzsche’s idea of the “eternal return of the future in the event”, and you get an awesome solution that takes the journey beyond the deadlock……

ENJOY! 😇😎

5.5.17

– Your thoughts & feelings don’t matter.

Even your beliefs & desires don’t matter.

Only your will & actions matter.

Frustration/despair/sorrow is the result of not realizing the above truths.

But happiness/peace/positivity is NOT the result of realizing them!

– Yes, depression is only for sissies.

But there is a sissy in everybody, right?

– It doesn’t matter who you are, or where you are… You are ALONE!

Only very few people have realized this fact, & even fewer have embraced it fully.

First you see the truth, then it kills you, because it destroys the foundational illusions that sustain your current existence……

And after this, if you’re still breathing, it liberates you, totally!

– If there is a lone wolf among a thousand sheep, who is under threat??

6.5.17

– From

Interpretation/evaluation/comparison

To

Deconstruction/transvaluation/invention


– Mind as culture within.
Most of your thoughts & feelings are just experienced (passively) by you. They are NOT yours!
Only what you do (by actively moving against your own beliefs & desires) is upto you (freedom of choice). The will is your ONLY way out!

7.5.16

– I wish I was cool.
Or I wish I was not bothered about whether I was cool.
Now I wish that I didn’t wish…… 😇

– I had another dream of being “reconciled” with Rowan & Vanya.

Does this “mean” anything??

– I must look into the philosophy, theology & spirituality of sleep, insanity & the unknown……

How about mind, language & biology?

– Thinking about thinking 

Praying for my prayers

Believing in belief

Living out (of) life

– Romanticism >> scepticism >> mysticism

8.5.17

Oblivious ~ cowardly 

Feminist (critical member)

Vs.

Feminism (her movement)

15.5.17

– Thinking out loud:
Based on our experience of the world today, what great/lasting impact did the so-called great ones make??
Maybe we will have to see the world as it might have been if these special persons had not lived……
Then the difference might show itself more obviously!?

16.5.17

– Meditation
Vs.
Sleep

17.5.17

– UGK
Vs.
Christianity
So, both the way back (to Eden) and the way forward (to the New Jerusalem) are blocked to us.
The Garden is closed by the flaming swords. And the City is closed because the human mind is not capable of overcoming itself.
If there is any possibility of divine revelation (& therefore our salvation), our last resort is to probe the wounds for the flow (of blood & water)……….

18.5.17

– “Nannagae Kannada gotthilla”

– Free man from humanity!
Fuck moralism, spiritualism & capitalism

21.5.17

– All successes are also failures.
And all failures are also successes.

– Instinctual discipline
Wild wisdom
The plural/fragmented/conflicted self – the broken body – Eucharist!

– To live, without meaning, is strength.

22.5.17

– I am tempted to try & regain my lost faith.
I am tempted to return to the old disciplinarian regime.
I am tempted to adopt more conventional roles to survive in this culture.

– Teleology/eschatology/theology
Vs.
Apocalypse/meditation/mysticism

– Noise cancellation headphones

– Hygiene
&
Excretion

– Life is not these things.
Life is more than these things.
Life is less than these things.
Life is other than these things.

– Why should you agree to cease?

23.5.17

– Indulgence is a sign of depression.

– Should I alternate periods of mind over body with periods of body over mind, or just equalize/moderate both at all times?
How do I distinguish whether a desire/motivation is arising from the body or the mind??
The bloody romance of flesh & spirit – c’mon, be sportive now!

– Morning ritual – sitting in the dark, looking out through the open window into the daylit outdoors……

– Feeling one’s thoughts,
And thinking one’s feelings.
Is there any way out of this??

24.5.17

– Write an original line everyday.
Stop any & all “reblogging”

– Can doing nothing be a hobby?
What will happen if I continue living like this?
Nothing?
Why not?
Moving from passive activity to active passivity.

– Fascinated by life, but not passionate about living!

– vertiginous

– So Joe, finished your Tinder swiping for today?

– Following moods >> nowhere/anywhere/everywhere
Ready, steady, stop!

– Existence > experience

– The way to cure depression & the way to live fully are diametrical opposites!

– Doing >> being >> be(com)-ing

26.5.17

– UGK – and the Flesh became word, & dwelt among us……!
The grizzly man (Timothy Treadwell)
&
This dog barking (UGK)
&
Diogenes the Cynic

– Depression – the realization that I am NOT the centre of existence is both excruciating & exhilarating!
Existence > life

– All true revolutions are bound to fail.

– litotes

A theory of imperialism – capital campaign

http://www.thehindu.com/books/capital-campaign/article18401580.ece

My/our response to the (evil) global trends must be both bold & thoughtful, not timid or naïve.

A community of resistance is (to be) formed by the networking of non-participants (in the current hegemony), and therefore alternative-life-seekers…

I think we need to pause and rethink certain recent choices by examining their trajectory compared with (vicious) market forces.

“Do we care?” – the healing touch

http://www.thehindu.com/books/books-reviews/the-healing-touch/article18401659.ece

I was a medico.
Just forwarded this vital link to some of my friends who are in the health care field.

GOD have mercy on me, & this nation!

Looking at the big picture is a good tonic for (fighting) narcissism & depression!

To live is to survive AGAINST the odds. Time to perfect nihilism……

“Roots of the periphery” – notes from the margins

http://www.thehindu.com/books/books-reviews/notes-from-the-margins/article18401568.ece

I/we need to move against the dominant, prevalent current of progress/development, both in the social & spiritual realms in my/our context.

Let’s start with “I prefer not to”!

Postmodern ~ subaltern ~ anti-orthodox theology

Hmmm… so, how does the move to Christ University measure up in this alternative scale??

Bible verse of the day

http://bible.com/107/jhn.1.14.net
Distinguish:

Weakness (Johannine “flesh”)

&

Sinfulness (Pauline “flesh”)
Kenosis/Incarnation/self-emptying

&

Fall/corruption/regression
Spirit ~ infinite, omnipotent & perfect ~ biological process

Flesh ~ finite, fragile, fallible ~ body
– Temple ~ building 

Temple ~ body

The Pharisees & Jesus were using the word in very different ways, when they were arguing! Why was this not clarified by Jesus??
– Humiliation of the ego and communal solidarity

Individual uniqueness and social welfare

Flesh as Breath-temple – heaven-earth interface!

Glory ~ authenticity ~ fullness

EXPERIENCE

25.4.17

– Dream:

To Vijyakumar – “Uncle has friends everywhere to help him!”

He has just got a loan without any hassle.

– This guy, after listening to the 3 interviews with people who have been influenced by U. G. Krishnamurti, says that the main thing he got out of it was UG’s advice to (a depressed) Mahesh Bhatt about going back into the world of showbiz and pursuing his ambitions by competing and achieving…!

– Ejaculatory prayer

Financial inflation ~ spiritual _____?

– Distinguish:

Ambitions

&

Aspirations

– “Dear Z,

I was thinking of you, and I wanted to say this:

1. What will be your core role as you take up leadership in ABCD?

2. What is your chief calling as an individual?

3. What is your vision & mission as a Christian?

3 >> 2 >> 1”

“I think you are essentially a student & preacher of the Bible/Gospel.

And this must continue to be your focus even as you take up this new task.

That will never change no matter where you are & what position you hold!

GOD BLESS”

“Therefore, you are NOT (primarily) a counselor, or organizer or strategist or thinker or motivator, etc., etc…”

“Evangelist-pastor might be a good job description!”

– Suicide ~ homicide ~ deicide

– Christ/Kingdom/Gospel <– Spirit/Church/Word

– Act. 8:34-35 (NET)

“Then the eunuch said to Philip, “Please tell me, who is the prophet saying this about — himself or someone else?”

So Philip started speaking, and beginning with this scripture proclaimed the good news about Jesus to him.”

– Maybe the first Christians (the Apostles) did not get the true & full meaning of the Cross of Christ, just like the Jews did not get the Crux of the OT, which Jesus later came to reveal……!

So, who/what is going to reveal the NT to us??

– Karl Barth said we need to hold the Bible in one hand, and the newspapes in the other. But what are the elements (of true spirituality) missing here?

 26.4.17

– Old/Middle English

– AAp’s defeat in MCD election, another black day for Indian politics!

Suicides and homicides broadcast over social media! Why??

Why was Ivanka Trump appointed as the POTUS’s assistant??

France, divided into 2, just as the USA in the last presidential election – Macron ~ Hillary & Le Pen ~ Trump

NITI Aayog

– Ignorance –> illusion –> misery

– “There is no mind/self. Once that is knocked off, then there is no way of you knowing now, what you are left with!” – UGK

“There no way of experiencing resurrection from this side of death.” – RFC

– UGK & “the natural state” – has he ejected the fruit of knowledge, and eaten from the tree of life instead?!

– Being entertained by the suffering of others!

– Biology

Vs.

Sensuality + culture + spirituality

28.4.17

– It is human to be inhuman,

And it is inhuman to be human.

– Pure being

&

“Just do it!”

– The courage to give up.

Do you want it?

– I know how I can (more than) compensate for not going through the full Vipassana course!

Peering into the VOID

Suicide is the only way to (lose) salvation.

– “All argument is circular”

Distinguish:

Demonstration

&

Persuasion

Where/how did this new paradigm come about??

– The only unforgivable sin is unforgiveness.

– Abandoning spirituality

Observing existence instead of passionate living

The perfect circle

aestheticize

– Signal – the writing on the wall

– The freedom of material necessity

Vs.

The law of spiritual reason

– Achieving perfect resignation

– Plurality ~ fullness

All in, & from, nothing!

“The centre cannot hold.” – Yeats

– symbology

figure (v.)

– ellipsis ~ ellipse29.4.17

– Priority – physiological instinct & situational urgency over abstract thought & cultivated conscience

30.4.17

– The only way to get rid of egocentrism & ethnocentrism, is to attack & destroy their father – anthropocentrism!

– 3 levels of reality:
1. Metaphysical VOID
2. Biological process
3. Cultural consciousness
This is the right side up.
So start inverting the upside down order.
The body is caught between 1 & 3. For too long it has been dominated by the 3. It’s time to liberate it, by connecting it with the 1.
2.5 is psychology.
1.5 is where you wanna be!
Are 1 & 3 connected by a loop?!

– I cannot just accept UG’s saying that “there’s no way out”.
At least I want to know how I can live best, in light of this fact.
How can I make the most of what is given, in spite of the obvious limitations?

– The Fall ~ self-consciousness
Undeceive – we need to be disenchanted from our sense of self-importance & entitlement, as an entire race.

– Meditation as a purely physical exercise

29.4.17

– “Be content with your misery” – UGK

– Theology as meta-paradigm

– zeroing

Ordinal & cardinal

Self-contained

irruption

– Anamnesis & “aana paana”

– Creating > creation

– “Are all circularities vicious?”

“Nothing is (at) my center”

Metaphorics of the O

– Can my body be liberated from my mind, without killing itself?

Can the mind be killed by using the body?

No ego, no body!

– Redefining life as biological process, as opposed to the conscious self……

– Formative thinkers who challenge not only our beliefs, but actually reshape our mode of being in the world

– Perfect nihilism & coming full circle – the negation of negation, and the birth of the NEW

– Even the “One” begins with O! 😎

30.4.17

– ALT Balaji

Ekta Kapoor – now there’s a woman worth ogling!

1.5.17

– Examine ~ inspect ~ speculate

“A balance sheet of choices”

Irrational reality & rational truths

Sovereignty/calmness ~ steadiness/stability ~ confidence/strength

– Empire

Vs.

Umpire

– Learning to move from a pre-planned rule to a more organic system

If you don’t know what to do, just take a 10-15 minute break of silence, stillness & breathing.

Then you will be able to get back in touch with the wisdom of the body!

– Distinguish:

Intuition

&

Instinct

27.4.17

– Nothing (else) matters
Vs.
Nothing (really) matters
Queen > Metallica!

– I don’t understand >> I want to understand >> I try to understand >> I don’t need to understand >> there is no understanding >> there is nothing to understand!
Understand?? 😈

– nothingness.org

– Rebirth
Vs.
Born again

– If UGK is living in the natural state, then why is there no sexual bonding with the wife & genetic bonding with the kids & parents?

– Do as little as possible.
Become as great as possible!

– When you’re living, use 90% of income for yourself (& family) and give 10% for charity.
When you die, leave 50% of wealth as inheritance, & 50% for charity!

– Focus 80% of your time & energy on the interface between your inner & or world chiefly through your body

– The carnal man
Vs.
The cultural man
The physical consciousness
Vs.

The social psyche