Month: July 2018
THOUGHTS
13.7.18
– Erotoscope
Judicial murder
– Repressed sex (id) >> increased violence (superego)!
– Are Wilhelm Reich & Osho connected somehow?
– Why Rajneesh >> Osho??
– Movies:
“Baby Bump” (Polish)
What a waste of my precious time! I can’t rely on critical acclaim or artiness (as much as I used to) anymore, to guide me to the good stuff……
WHY was this featured (out of the 30) on Mubi??
“Ex Libris: The New York Public Library”
Would’ve been a good film, if it was exactly 1 & half hours long (instead of the 3 & 1/2)!
– The harmony of the wild
Transcend ~ debase!
Using cyber-technology for radical reincarnation
From cultural animal to brute spirituality
Natural violence
Vs.
Artificial peace
– Would art & sports be that entertaining, if their creators & performers were not dead serious about their craft?
– [7/14, 1:59 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): World cup colourless this time.
[7/14, 2:00 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Oh no! It’s full of surprises 👏🏽
[7/14, 2:10 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Yeah! Full of surprises but off colour and thrill.
[7/14, 2:16 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Few matches really good.
[7/14, 9:33 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Well done Nadal. You gave your very best and all. The result doesnt reflect the tenacity and determination.
Lets see how things go in the remaining play.
Maybe the break is good for Nadal.
[7/14, 9:35 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Ah!
Tennis > Nadal (or Federer, or any other great player) 👣
[7/14, 9:51 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): But Tennis will lose its charm, colour and beauty without a man called Nadal.
He is such a joy to watch like Brazil playing artistic football in all its beauty and splendour.
[7/14, 9:55 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): True Joe.
But I am telling how much he has contributed to the game of Tennis.
[7/14, 9:59 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): I will not sit throughout night to watch a player other than Nadal.
When Nadal plays with Federer or Djoko they give their very best and also bring the very best from him
[7/14, 10:15 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Hmmm… I too thought this World Cup would be boring because of Brazil’s & Germany’s (my favorite teams) exit. But then, I have surprisingly realized that I was wrong!
[7/14, 10:16 AM] Immanuel Joseph: I want to become a connoisseur of the Game rather than just a partisan fan
– Use the intellect, to subdue the mind under the body, rather than society.
– Integrating the shadow self (Jung) ~ curing the soul with the flesh (Wilde)
– Bojpuri item numbers
Indian soft porn
– Thus Spake Zarathustra – UGK is the Superman and I am on of the bridges that join the common man to this ultimate ideal……
14.7.18
– Bio-logical
Vs.
Psycho-social
Does the denial of the so-called “higher powers” condemn us to mediocrity & conformity, or is it the only basis upon which genuine transcendence & greatness can be pursued……?
– Continual self-overcoming
No sacrifice of self, no growth in life
– Can the fruit of knowledge be redeemed, for the sake of life?!
Can language ever become an instrument of true creation rather than just perpetual reordering?
– What if our greatest truths are just the most persistent lies?!
– Zarathustra > Zoroastrianism
NOT the other way around!
– Distinguish:
Self-denial
&
Self-overcoming
– Individual
Vs.
Humanity
Contrast:
Superman
&
Selfish man
– Jordan Peterson – a distorter and domesticator of Nietzsche?
– Medicalization as maladaptation
– Kazimierz Dabrowski
“Positive disintegration”
The mentally ill as “differently abled”
– Government of USA
Vs.
Rajneeshpuram
When they use the law of the land for their own survival, you say, “You’re (legal, but) immoral!”
When they flout the law for their ideals, you say, “This is illegal (although moral)!”
– “Defacing the currency”
The Diogenes Syndrome
Sisyphean achievements
Artificial desires
Indulging in the simple pleasures
Untraining and retraining
The misery of laziness
The joy of/in freedom
15.7.18
– Erotic liturgy
Porn mass
Rethrone the (crucified and resurrected) Body!
– Recruiting technology, language, intellect and the arts, to subvert culture!
– Proxy tunnel
Dynavap VapCap, X-Max V2Pro
What are the most efficient ways to get really high?
– Have you learnt to embrace pain yet?
Sissy! (or is it kiddo?)
– The herculean task (humanly impossible) of giving up (spiritual suicide)!
Life
Vs.
Self
16.7.18
– Fuck the (prescribed) anti-depressants. Make your own (natural ones)!
All hail (what’s the antonym for fuck?) weed!
(Stopped Escitalopram a few days back)
– Documentaries:
“WR: Mysteries of the Organism”
“Pervert’s Guide to Cinema”
– Movies:
“Calibre”
Legality
Vs.
Morality
Vs.
Vitality
1 < 2 < 3!
– Suck it up, and bite the bullet!
Cloning realities
One of the great weirdnesses
It’s time to get beyond “knowing what’s really going on”!
It’s better that we are all barking up many trees…
E = mc2 – what does this equation have to do with time (& space)? I thought it only had to do with energy & matter… how foolish!
How to type superscript and subscript
Insights Vs. Results
The quantum mechanic
Schrodinger’s religion
What is life?
Ordinary uncertainty and extraordinary absurdity
Experimenter/researcher ~ biblical scholar/analytical philosophy. Thinker/theorist ~ theologian/continental philosophy
We are not in the business of ruling out any questions
Please start to stop doing that!
Probabilistic determination
– Alexandra Daddario
Sophia Knight
– Ma Anand Sheela – what a lady!
Kindle Unlimited!
– “Why would anyone want what UG gave us?”
Great question!
17.7.18
– Vandalism & revolution
Kindle app for PC
Enforced fun
Unforgivable obedience
Live tiles
Normative abstractions as pipe dreams
The antidote to medical poisons
frenemies
Ikigai
potlatch
Nuremberg Virgin/Iron Maiden
Torture museum
sarcophagus
Squandering methods
Self-abolition
Tragic parables
crapulousness
Disrespectful (shameful, or rather shameless!) opportunists
Punk ethics
declination
Magnetic north pole
Celestial equator
Respect ~ wealth/character/achievement – social status ~ economic/moral/professional/religious capital – legitimated (& glorified) resources!
neoprimitivist
Prefigurations of autonomy
Till money
Carnal reasoning
Perfect criminals ~ silent parasites
Clown army – non-violent (jubilant) warfare
Neo-anarchism
“Infinitely demanding” – Simon Critchley
Interstitial distance
Unperceived non-freedoms
Conversing with ethnic cleansers
Instrumental reason and pseudo-individuality
Orgonomic functionalism
From damage limitation to positive ethics
Sex-pol – psychoanalysis, sexuality and Communism
Humanitarian interventions
Extinction marathon
Individuals in relation – voluntary (anarchic/autonomous) associations
The practical skepticism of lucid dreamers
Language as a tool of immortality, the dream of civilization!
The actual translation of potential narratives – the structure of sense provided by normative abstractions
Political populism – umbrella concept or empty signifier
Mortal, fragile lifes – individual biospheres
Existential fiction
Love, without the fall
Bullshit jobs
– Distinguish:
Unbeliever
&
Disbeliever
– Negative frontal opposition
Vs.
Mild moderation/regulation
– “What can be done, when nothing can be done?”
“How are we to understand the perspective of squandering in relation to ourselves?
Us – canon fodder, working flesh, trapped between global capitalism and the nation state?”
“What can our slavery to money teach us about Work?”
“How are squanderers to enter the world of Work?”
“What, in the end, do contemporary squanderers have to squander?”
“Yet, what options do we have, if we don’t want to submit?”
“Is it ever really possible to defeat our immaterial masters?”
The project of social autonomy always comes up (short) against the immortality of normative abstractions…!?
“Are we really sure that for the desire of a radically atheist freedom, we are available to renounce all the advantages brought to us by civilization? And paradoxically, wouldn’t that become a religious position in itself?”
– From
Disciplining the body
To
Being disciplined by the body!
– Is this sky bluish white or whitish blue?
– Kindle page flip
walkabout
– Ripples:
You go around spreading your death which feels like life,
And I will keep dispersing my life which smells like death……!
18.7.18
– Calibre e-book management – convert all my ebooks to pdf and then use Adobe Reader (with document cloud)
Read out loud
commensalism
Remote sensing
– The strangulating regimes of dominant abstractions
Friends as comrades
Personal dictionary
centroid
Intimacy as reciprocal trespassing
The union of egoists
“Everything must be, and I want it to be so.”
Repeat your new mantra
– Ludwig Feuerbach
Vs.
The New Atheists
– “Metamorphoses of Rebellion: A Fable” – from “The Last Night”, a book by Federico Campagna – should I read this and upload to YouTube (but I’m lazy!)?
Compare with Peter Rollins’s “The Orthodox Heretic”
– “Everything I know about morality and the obligations of men, I owe it to football” – Albert Camus
– The void-excess of inconsistent multiplicity
The count-for-one; dominant ideology; the order/state of the situation
The excluded part; unbelonging; non-foundational; anomalous phenomenon; alien intrusion
Foreclosure strategies of repression & recuperation
Identity-less
Generic humanity/bare life
New representations beyond conceptualization
The practice of scission
Traumatic transformations
Supernumerary – counts-as-nothing
Evental site
Reflexive identification
Radical contingency
Maximal intensity of appearance
Subverting existence via the creation of connections
Ruptural relations and possible worlds
Revolting against prevalent discourses & habitual prejudices/assumptions
Puncturing the organization of reality
Changing the (formal) structure, rather than the (material) elements
Revolutionary history
The Maoist Event
Permanent revolution
Future reality
Invisible subjects
Redefining the situation through insurrection
Political revolts & social transformations
Quasi-revolutionary eruptions
Truth-procedure
Inter-group conflict
Colonial exclusion & capitalist exploitation
The decision to name the impossible –> crisis of calculation
Non-ontological entities
Ungrounded choice ~ leap of faith or gamble
Random/nomadic movement
Axiomatic decision
Conservative critic
Classical decisionism
Suspension of chronological time
The futur anterieur
Anti-immigrant apparatuses
Autonomist
World-systems view
– Stop treating the body (your real self) like a dumb mule!
Mind, FOR the sake of (NOT over), body……
– Enjoy ~ flourish
Flourish ~ enjoy
– When you feel hungry, eat.
When you feel tired, rest.
When you feel horny, fuck.
When you feel bowel movements, shit.
When you feel bladder fullness, piss.
When you feel stiff, move.
When you feel energetic, work.
When you feel threatened, fight or flee.
When you feel comfortable, relax.
When you feel disturbed, get shelter.
– Distinguish:
Radical atheism
&
Other atheisms
– Cannabis culinary expert
Cannabutter
– What do I do??
Part-time husband + part-time home-maker + part-time self-educator + part-time spiritual growth facilitator
19.7.18
– Alternative arrangements:
Monogamish
Swinging
Polyamory
– “Are you upset with me?”
Come on, I’m asking you to give it to me……!
– “If this don’t make your booty move, your booty must be dead!”
Crazy English stoned rap sound
– Adblock Plus – block element on webpage
Sign into Metacritic & Rotten Tomatoes with Facebook
Critiquing the critics – who are your favs?
– I am tempted to listen again to my own voice in the SFG meeting recordings!
So, am I a narcissist?
When I was telling Chellam, that the next time depression strikes, I need to be more kind and gentle with my own body, I felt a deep discomfort inside myself!
Why??
Am I a (sado-)masochist?!
– Joints & spliffs
Headrush
Headshop
mereological
Theoretical computing
Manifestation without virtualization
Changing the world through perfect passivity!
Edificatory integration
Feeling, as thinking without words (&, numbers or images)
Foundational affectivity
Divine pathos
Abstract experience
Life’s self-dissimulation
Tireless reflexivity
Figurative art
Non-referential picturality
Hyper-subjectivities
20.7.18
– kawaii
Dark public places
– Melodrama:
Plot
Vs.
Character
– Think global/awesome/eternal
And
Act local/efficient/temporal
– News:
Rahul Gandhi the buffoon!
– When you don’t like a movie, you should try to think about it a little more – Why you don’t like it? What do you like about it?, How could it be made better?, etc.
21.7.18
– Has your partner/spouse viewed your WhatsApp status?
– Dream:
Something very bad is happening to Chellam (being attacked by disfigured guys – zombies?), and I am in agony……
and then, I (almost) awoke, shouting aloud!
– Today, I met a transgender ⚧ who was begging. I gave her Rs. 10, but then she asked me to take out all the bills in my wallet. So I did, then she took & bit them, touched her groin area with them, and gave them back to me! Then she took the Rs. 20 note and blessed me.
It was a weird & interesting experience!
Should I now expect some kind of bonanza? 😛
– Attended my first story-telling session today @ The Narrative, Chennai (Indu Divya & co.)
22.7.18
– We both must somehow learn to support each other’s trophy processes, otherwise we’re not gonna make it as a couple!
Or, at least get some outside (third-party) resources to help navigate the mire (within), and diffuse the tensions (in-between)……
– Hot damn!
Holy shit!
Jesus Christ!
– “Following the body” DOESN’T mean JUST doing whatever you feel like, and not doing whatever you don’t want. I must dissect and discern all the signals in my head in each situation, before I decide on the action……
I know, the “natural state” is totally free of the “interference of thought”, but I’m not there yet, and might never attain it.
But that’s okay! 😌
– Movies:
“The Endless”
I didn’t like it, but it was a good film nevertheless…!?
NB: the 2 unknowns in the opening quote
Nothing breaks the barriers between us, like facing (& surviving) death together!
Compare the 2 time loops (within and without the camp). Is there a third alternative?? There better be!
Bringing closure to our desire for closure……
Abrasive affection
– Dream:
I am so depressed & angry, that I want to rip my own limbs out! 😣
23.7.18
– Dream:
I am lost, along with Salome, when trying to get to our house in Bengaluru! We then enter what seems like a gents hostel where our room has been shifted without any notice. Then two of her (male) students arrive and one is flirting with her and the other starts flirting with me. I react angrily.
After this, she suddenly throws my (new/favorite) mobile into the drain. I’m shocked and react violently.
Once I recover my mobile, I find out the way home using GPS. On the way, I get into a share cab cramped with women. 3 of them get into my house along with me. I react aggressively.
The entire dream has a very bad feeling/mood/ambience! I have had 3 consecutive nightmares now. This is very unusual. Is something happening to me (maybe like UG’s “calamity”)?!
– Nietzschean gauntlet – are you strong enough to destroy what you love (now), for the sake of the Future (the life/self that is yet-to-come)?!
Self-contradiction as the necessary condition of self-evolution……
Distinguish:
Death
&
Extinction
– From Body to body.
From Spirit to flesh.
From God to soul.
– Deep Time
Dog years
braggart
Pro rata
Live show
One-track mind
– I wanna fuck (or am I in love with?) Miriam “Midge” Maisel!
Or is it Rachel Brosnahan,
or is it Amy Sherman-Palladino……?
Ha ha ha ha ha ha!
But don’t I want to fuck almost anyone & everyone I see?
Hmmm…… Do I??
I don’t think so…
– TV series:
“The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel” (S01 E01)
WOW! WOW! WOW! 😃 👏🏽
Glory hallelujah 🙌🏽
C’mon Joe, let’s go!
The marvelous Mr. Joey
Salome Joe(l) Maisel? 😉😛
“Fleabag” ~ Midge-bitten – OMG! I love those crazy bitches……
“Sharp Objects” (S01 E01)
Compare with “Patrick Melrose”
The beauty of sadness and the eroticity of death!
24.7.18
– Life Selector
myfreecams
XBiz
AVN Awards
Fancentro; Snapchat
Images
Images
PICS
NEWS
30.6.18
– “I’m feeling lucky” (on Google Search)
– Watched “The Passenger” (Westworld) again!
WOW 😎👏
Retask yourself to question the nature of your reality.
The Man in Black – how are identity, freedom and death related?? He still remains a puzzle!
De-address (CAM – Content-Addressable Memory)
– “Safe sex”
Ha ha ha ha ha!
– In what situations is euthanasia/suicide ethical?
1. Chronic, intense, intractable (physical) pain.
2. Severe permanent disability.
3. To save the life of another.
– Meditation, journaling & study
+
Exercise, socializing & schedule review
1.7.18
– TV series:
“The Staircase”
“Don’t lose your freedoms in the effort to protect them!”
Character witness Vs. Circumstantial evidence
So, what was the final verdict, and what can we learn about the criminal justice system from this?
– Nymphetamine
– “The Affair” S03E09
WOW! Explosive……
So, in the end, it’s all about guilt and deception, or lies & secrets.
2.7.18
– Meteor shower
Knappy – 5W1H
– Mirror front camera – disable it.
– Capitalism as economic Pharisaism!
– Visit Bannerghatta reserve and Arekere Mini Forest
– FIFA WC
(OG) – own goal
(P) – penalty
GD – goal difference
– Igor Akinfeev
Danijel Subasic
Kasper Schmeichel
– The 3 best teams from the group stage are NOT the giants!
– Is Belgium Vs. Japan one of the greatest WC (World Cup, not western closet) matches?!
3.7.18
– Differentiate:
Codex
&
Coda
– longhand
trippy
Baseline test
Cornerstone memory & Core drive
Who the fuck are Jonathan Nolan & Lisa Joy?!
Bad-ass
Who is Karl Strand?
Virtual Eden
“That which is real is irreplaceable.”
“Ford buried so much of bad code inside you, so how……”
Reddit theories
And then, the camera pans, as it always does……!
Post-credits scene – Genesis 1!
Where (or more importantly, what) is Arnold’s house?
A host in a high-up position
Scrambled timelines
Clipdiary
“This dark odyssey follows the dawn of artificial consciousness and the evolution of sin.”
The final smirk
Watch later
Emergency Awesome
BTS – behind the scenes
Stop-motion films
Roof sex
Melancholic bliss
Radiohead lyrics
Holistic songwriting
Season overview
Squad goals
Haley Reinhart 😋
McGuffin
– I am a nerd/geek…?
– “Just because you’re conscious doesn’t necessarily mean that you have free will!”
Can you critique and change your own basic motivations??
Hmmm…… maybe a (very rare) few can!!!
– The human soul-code (mental genome) project!
– How would Westworld (the TV series) be like for a host watching it??
– “You already secretly feel you’re the only one alive.” – Alan Watts
– Westworld:
GOD & humans
Humans & robots/animals
Employers & employees
– Have you given any video a thumbs down on YouTube?
– I need to find me some black beauties! 😉
– Check out Westworld on HBO
About the series
Season 1 – overview, first & last episodes
Season 2 – overview, first & last episodes
– In this workaholic culture, the Sabbath has become a (needless) burden!
4.7.18
– Mist ~ sprinkle
Gormandize ~ eat
– The main reason why I don’t like him is because (I believe that) he dislikes me.
– The main & subordinate clauses of a conditional sentence
– Bible (verses of the day):
Jesus Christ is GOD’s guarantee, that He will perfect His love in and among us, by the Spirit of power!
– Can you laugh about (your) depression?
5.7.18
– obverse
Hellish places
The peeping tom – all vision is also projection!
bespoke
6.7.18
– Hippie nudist commune
– Hippies
Vs.
Yuppies
– Primo (virtual phone number) + WhatsApp dual app (or Parallel Space)
Anonymity ~ autonomy!
– If women can wear torn jeans, then why can’t I wear a torn t-shirt??
– What does porn have to do with sex?
7.7.18
– Short Films:
“Creature Companion”
“The Hymns of Muscovy”
International Short Film Festival Oberhausen
– Movies:
“I Don’t Feel at Home in this World Anymore”
Compare with “Ingrid Goes West”, “God Bless America” & “3 Billboards Outside Ebbing”
Is that guy still alive at the end?! Maybe their unlikely/weird friendship was what the movie was really all about!? Maybe he is dead, and the painful memory of that loss is what is responsible for the “anymore” in the title…
Risk/thrive/die Vs. Safe/exist/survive
Sometimes, one should bite more than one can chew (better when shared with another psycho)……!
Ordinary people, clashing with the dark forces that underlie our civilized society, is exciting, but also perilous.
Neo-noir B movie
Goofy fury
Bloody creativity
Nightmarish turn, descent into chaos
Shambolic thriller & violent comedy
Collective apathy
– TV series”
“Dexter” (S01 E01)
– Connecting, balancing & integrating:
1. Inside (body, thoughts & emotions) & outside
2. Self, & other(s)
3. Me, we & us
Intra-, inter- & extra-personal
And the in-betweens!
– To live is to:
Desire & suffer,
Enjoy & struggle,
Believe & change.
– Music – light metal & heavy carnatic
– FT – full time
Third place play-off
Tactical foul
Midfield play-maker
– “It’s just a game, your ass!
It’s not just a game.
It’s Brazil, playing for a better world.”
– Death drive
– UVI – ultraviolet (radiation) index
AQI – air quality index
– Meditative:
Movement
Breathing
Sensing
8.7.18
– Active viewing
The city of Rajneeshpuram
Lawn carpet
– Google Ads Settings
Frozen music
Performance artist
mise en scène
Adventurous invitation
Controversial figures
Radical therapist
Volatile sexual/life energy
Troubled visionary
Expert power-play
Framing modes
Wilhelm Reich & Orgone Energy
“Scientific theory is a contrived foothold in the chaos of living phenomena.”
The mystery of the organism
Wasteland utopias
Political youth revolution
Documentary fiction
Woozy summer soundscape
gonzo
– Dreams:
A hologram of a sexy black stripper becomes REAL when I attempt to touch her!
A group of guys break into the house and beat up Masilamani chitthappa, while leaving Salome & me unharmed in the terrace.
My father-in-law has removed his mustache, and says that he sometimes weeps uncontrollably, when we are waiting to consult a doctor for a minor illness of his.
9.7.18
– Movies:
“4 Hearts” (Portuguese)
– Geek subculture
Liberal shibboleths
Edgy packaging
Brilliant exposé
Middle-class self-flagellation
Bio-energetics & the autonomous nervous system
Sidereal time
Heretic’s notebook
Censored sciences
Unbanning
Retro style
Eros > sex > genitalia
The sexed cosmos – creative tension
Natural love ~ life energy ~ blue atmosphere
“Listen, Little Man!”
GOAT – greatest of all time
– Am I a sexual predator, misogynist and pedophile?
Is every male one?
– I am more interested in Wilhelm Reich than I am in orgone energy!
How would Reich respond to this?
Are the reactions of the people of Antelope to the Rajneeshis, and that of his fellow scientists to Reich’s work, of the same spirit?
– H. Hsieh
Europa – Jupiter’s moon
Jet Propulsion Laboratory (JPL)
Global cues
Inspirational quote
Spreading the goodness
Sanju & Kamli
Recriminalisation of homosexual activity
Formalin
– Is it a loving thing to command love?
Distinguish:
Moral authority
&
Brute force
– 69 ~ yin-yang
– “Practice makes perfect. But nobody’s perfect, so why practice?” – Kurt Cobain
A humorous & profound quote!
Provokes questioning the very purpose of all practice…
10.7.18
– Embrace pain!
(This DOESN’T mean you’re a masochist or sadist)
Suffering is the greatest resource for your spiritual development – just like biological death/extinction promotes life/evolution!
Saved by evil!
– “Organs without bodies”
Pre-narrative density
Ontological confusion
“The little man is free to be anybody’s slave”
Freedom laws
The Little great man
– “Slutty behavior”
Distinguish:
Culturally unacceptable
&
Morally reprehensible
– Moving from forgiving (act) to acceptance (attitude).
What do you do when (you believe that) someone has wronged you, but they refuse to apologize?
Should non-acceptance be accepted too?
– Is nature “more reasonable” than culture?
Is culture “less human” than nature?
Is civilization “more violent” than brutality?
Distinguish:
Anarchy
&
Lawlessness
Distinguish:
Cruelty/hatred
&
Violence/aggression
– Negative emotions, E.g. Anger
Neither blowing up on the other or cutting oneself off is optimal.
Trying to communicate (better) is the (only) way forward.
Before you can talk about what I did, I need to get in touch with what is going on inside me, and then express it in such a way that you can also understand it.
And before I can talk about what you did, you need to get in touch with what is going on inside you, and then express it in such a way that I can also understand it.
We can adequately address what happened between us, only when we have plumbed & clarified (to a certain extent) what happened within each.
But why is it so difficult to talk, than it is to shout or shut up?!
……the ego is maintained by pride & fear!
Trophy process – entering into another’s psyche is absolutely terrifying & repulsive!
So is descending into your own mindspace when you’re upset……
12.7.18
– Teenage nightmare
Benson & Moorhead
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