EXPERIENCE

12.11.18
– Artist ~ addict (& vice-versa?)
You wanna play risky, and live long-healthy…… 🤣
Sounds like marrying me and wanting social acceptance!
– “Nature is a whore” (Nirvana)
Vs.
Mother Nature (Gaia)
– “Women in Love” – what’s with Gerald’s weird encounter with the crucifix buried in the snow??
– Play-doe, for adults! 😋
– The body is used to being treated like a dumb beast of burden. So, it needs a lot of time & trust to come into its own (inherent wisdom). Are you willing to take that chance??
Routine/situation – instead of looking at it as a (more or less stable) framework within which I need to fit into, I would rather give the self the power/right to arrange (& rearrange) the pieces of the jigsaw puzzle as it sees fit at any given moment……
– Obituary – H. N. Ananth Kumar
“Scientists May Have Put Bacteria in a State of Quantum Entanglement”
Multi-modal terminal
recalcitrant
Midnight sun
Solstice, equinox
prehension
anchorite
contrasty
– World Science Day for Peace & Development – how can science contribute to world peace??
– “Revenge triumphs over death” – Francis Bacon
Really?! How??
13.11.18
– The conventionally impossible
Post-modern; Anti-modernist
The non-conceptual, pre-existent self
absurdist
Reactionary & revolutionary
Mystification & denigration
“Der Einzige und sein Eigenthum”
Johann Kaspar Schmidt
Why did Stirner not become as famous/influential as Kierkegaard? Aren’t the two quite similar in style and spirit?
Left Hegelians
duzbruder
“Stirner had, instead, completed an unprecedented critique of every possible religious, philosophical and ideological system.”
Mass belief ~ imagined reality ~ invested power
Systematic self-alienation –> willing servitude
Immanent/radical criticism –> conscious self-creation
Ubiquitous and unquestioned phenomena
“If egoism was suitable for God, humanity or the sultan, why not for me? Why is it always only the actually-existing, individual egoist who is disparaged, while the imagined masters of the world are so lauded? Why don’t we learn from these imagined masters and put ourselves in their place as masters of our own lives?”
Religious rationality
Fantastic manifestations of conceptual fetishization
Particular ~ finite ~ unique
From “The Ego & Its Own” to “The Unique and Its Self-creation”
Rationale for romantic reification
Recursive nightmare
“Quis custodiet ipsos custodes?” – “Who will guard the guardians?” Or in this case, implicitly, “Who can know a truth is the Truth, a value is the Value, or a reality is the reality?”
Originality + audacity = importance!
Simple observation
Objective truth as subjective projection
Technicians of the sacred
Actually-existing individuals
Fixed idea/spiritual essence
The permanent solution to self-enslavement
Institutions/ideals/powers/goals
Compulsory presuppositions and prejudices based on consensus
Phenomenal, empirical, intentional, nominal, descriptive, immanent egoism
Self-alienated image of self-interest
Whole person lived experience
Deliberate misinterpretations
Ontologizing social practice
Hazarding guesses
– Distinguish:
Primitive
&
Traditional
– John Carpenter’s “The Thing”
“Who Goes There” by John Campbell
Out of fear of becoming the monster (that everyone knows they are, deep inside), they instead choose to become a cog in the machine……
The virus/cancer of culture/society!
Terrorism of ideas –> biological nightmare
– Narcissism, egoism & anarchism
Uniqueness, artistry & addiction
Stirner & Rand
Decisive ~ divisive
– nimbus
Formal existence
Robert Plomin
Polygenic score
Dead rococo
Person ~ free will ~ individual
Critical self-theory
– Those who want the NEW must be ready to enter into the emptiness left by the death of the old……!
I think the SFG (small group meetings For personal growth) stage of my ministry is over.
So, what now??
Wait,
for……!
14.11.18
– Adjust settings for app background activity & notifications
– Labor force
Industrial armies
Association for free development
Power relations
Labor as commodity
Curious app
tomfoolery
Emirate
World Heritage site
Constitutional crisis
Dissolving parliament
Allies, vassals, rebels & enemies
California wildfires
Acre, hectare, inch, feet, chain, furlong, yard, meter
British imperial & US customary systems of measurement
Sticky situation
Reduplicative paramnesia
Delusional misidentification
Lying-in = parturiency
Braggadocio = rodomontade
estivate
AQI – pollution sub-index
– The dialectic of Spirit Vs. Society is what drives history
– “A man should look for what is, and not what he thinks should be.” – Albert Einstein
But aren’t the two inextricably related, because of the way the human mind/brain works?
This is one of the indicators of why Einstein disapproved of quantum theory…
– How can you have reconciliation when both parties think they are right, and each believes it’s the other who has to apologize?
15.11.18
– The soundtrack in a film like செக்கச் சிவந்த வானம் is like pearls on a monkey!
– NSFW – not safe for (this) world!
– Distinguish:
Water lily
&
Lotus
– “The placebo effect is real!”
– Dartos-Cremaster – the respiring Id
– Understanding understanding
Ideological critique of rationalist metaphysics
I-world relation prior to the subject-object distinction.
LSR – a paraphilosophical project (La Mettrie, Max Stirner, Wilhelm Reich)
Egoism & its property ~ subject & object ~ noesis & noema
God ~ soul ~ spirit ~ self
Dasein – phenomenological ontology
Implicit dualism
A priori reasoning
Unprincipled and presuppositionless empirical investigation
Poetic art Vs. Revealed religion
Modern slavery
Empiricist reification
Non-ideological critique of ideology
Historical spirit
Demythologizing Marxism
Pure thought & practical reason
Appearance & thing-in-itself
Life ~ person ~ being
The doctrinal moment
Critical criticism
Transcendent essence of man ~ divine nature
Actual powers ~ life-activity
Unalienated self-possession ~ completely self-determined activity ~ undetermined self-creation.
Heteronomous powers
Integral moments
Extreme creativity
Unwanted innovations
Unprecedented critical synthesis
Dialectical existence/processual being
Forms ~ essences ~ universals
Arbitrary objects
Contextual assumptions
Unexamined premises
Representationalist epistemology
Mathematicism
Phenomenologies
Dogmatic theories of substance/presence
Unique one ~ empty concept
Conceptual consciousness Vs. Nonconceptual life
Completely insubstantial subjectivity (“creative nothing”) and its object-world (its “property”).
Distinguish: Egoism & Solipsism
Self-awareness, world-appropriation & unique expression
Concepts as aesthetic objectifications/indicators
Always operating within, but also upon and beyond, given systems of communication
Evaluative distinctions
Pragmatic, momentary  dialectics
My power is my property
– “I Saw the Devil”
Instead of the final guillotine before the family, he could’ve just straitjacketed him in permanent solitary confinement with starvation & remote monitoring (until death crept up on him gradually and excruciatingly)……!
Would that have successfully terrified/tortured/broken him??
Distinguish:
Kill
&
Destroy
Perfect revenge
16.11.18
– If the Maoists (in Chattisgarh & other places) are really fighting for the people, then why do they have to threaten them to boycott the state elections, and even then around 70% of people choose to vote…??
The Communists know that the proletarians are also followers of capitalism, like foolish children who don’t know what is good for them. That’s why they have to be led/parented by the enlightened activists…!
– The Arecibo message
SJ ~ Salome Joseph, Society of Jesus, Sexy Joy
17.11.18
– Alexander Tikhomirov
“The doubts that haunt the hopes that haunt our faith”
“I believe I don’t (fully) know what I (really) believe”
Spooky theology
Mad money
splunking
Aaron van Voorhis
“I rightly pass as…?”
“Help people make peace with the truth of their lives”
Religious/moral/cultural/psychological/relational trauma
Brokenness ~ honesty ~ vulnerability
Responsible & healing approach
Meaningful & necessary community
From skepticism to suspicion
The Perhaps – the possibility of the impossible
Weak theology
Distinguish post-theism and atheism
God – from existence to insistence
Media spectacle
Trumpism
Evolutionary basis for fundamentalism and tribalism
Resurgent fascism
Irreconcilable realities
Diversity & fragmentation
Ident(it)arian
Ignorant optimism, naive progressivism
Dangerous & difficult conversations
– Can I realize, & accept, that I will never (fully) get what I want (the most) from this relationship, and still continue in it??
– If transgressing cultural norms is integral to the spiritual life, does it also include pushing biological boundaries?!
– From religious art to artistic religion!
– Deeper ~ darker ~ heavier
– The successful (celebrities) are lauded for “being themselves”, but what about those like me??
18.11.18
– Marquis De Sade
Animal faith (Santayana)
Mysticism as scepticism
19.11.18
– RBI
Vs.
Government
– scenic
elk
20.11.18
– Just go with it!
Donatien Alphonse François de Sade
Libertine lifestyle
Apostle of freedom & martyr of atheism
Corporal punishment and sexual arousal
Dissolute thinking
Lustmuder
Marginal genres
Pornography as a political weapon
Corrupt church, aristocracy & monarchy
Satirical obscenity
Literary sex
Enlightened debauchery
Distinguihed in action
In & out of love
Practically destitute
Renée-Pelagie de Montreuil
Flagellation & buggery
Libertinage, sacrilege & sadism
Punished for licentiousness
Farcical perversions
The female posterior
Scatological thrill
Orgies of humor
The capital offense of sodomy
Execution in absentia
Hungered after novelty in the bedroom
Too extreme for the marital chamber
coprophilia
opprobrium
Cat-&-mouse game with the authorities
lettres de cachet – detention without trial
Houdini-like escapes
Writing in prison
New revolutionary government
Worn down by years of dogged devotion
Good-for-nothing spouse
Constance Quesnet
ancien régime
Counter-revolutionaries
Unfashionable views
Philosophy in the boudoir, Justine, The Story of Juliette
François de Coulmier, Charenton asylum
Confiscated/destroyed manuscripts
Sulphurous reputation
Dispassionate assessment
Voices from the fuselage
Fitness tycoon
In the public eye
“Jane Fonda in Five Acts”
Sedition & treason
Perpetual revolution
uproot-ing
Lee Strasberg
Science fiction about sex
Dissident soldiers
Silent majority
Actress >> activist
Campaign for economic democracy
Ultimate catharsis
Wild brilliance

REFLECTIONS

23.10.18
– Avoiding the 2 pitfalls – the shallow conforming life, and succumbing to the deep-dense dark
I need to move back & forth, so that I am able to balance, on the razor’s edge!
– Return to (modified) system:
1. Monday & Friday – work-chores
2. Wednesday – fasting-disciplines
3. Tuesday & Saturday – basic rhythm (limited freedom)
4. Thursday & Sunday – freak-out.
No serial/movie on Monday, Wednesday & Friday.
Slim dinner on Monday & Friday. Wednesday – full day slim diet.
No exercise & meditation on Thursday & Sunday.
Reading together – Wednesday &/or Friday
– falafel
couscous
Maghreb
Green firecrackers
PUBG
STEAM
Sea cucumber
25.10.18
– lambaste
Dead nuts
Pis aller
Egiosme a deux
Cowardly instincts sanitized as moral habits
– Ontology-ethics is inseparable from the existential-practical. And they are mutually affecting!
– Movies:
“துப்பரிவாளன்”
Not good enough.
First half was better. A movie with a better second half would be a better movie…?
Author + actor + audience = Impact/Art!
Does Sherlock Holmes have ESP?
Anyone close, in reality?
– Distinguish:
WhatsApp
&
What’s up?
– setts
hosiery
stumpy
warren
flagstone
collectibles
Jumble/flea market
Garage sale
Swap meet
Pure happiness from unfolding living thoughts
Down-at-the-heels
frisson
costermonger
nonplussed
– Unproductive creativity & uncreative productivity
26.10.18
– Daily Manna from Biblica (using Scripture for hope & encouragement)
Vs.
Lectionary readings from BCP (Scripture as the Spirit’s instrument to shape the Church)
Ps. 89:11-17 – is it possible for a person (even/especially GOD) to be all-powerful and all-good?
Distinguish:
Theology proper
&
GOD-in-GOD
Is the creator of this world the same as the righteous king of Israel??
Would (a fuller) knowledge of (the awful) GOD make worship (more) problematic?
– “You can’t learn in school what the world is going to do next year.” – Henry Ford
Doesn’t history teach us to face the future?
Un-education
Creating reality
Vs.
Consuming knowledge
Fordism
Taapaca – Andean volcanic chain
Inca citadel
nipper
Lava dome
emplacement
Holy writ
Clutch one’s pearls
Gerrymandering
“It is well known to all experienced minds that our firmest convictions are often dependent on subtle impressions for which words are quite too coarse a medium.” – George Eliot
Accidental murder
Assassination attempts
Military junta
interpolate
countermand ~ rescind
barefacedly
The military-industrial complex
Idealized traits
Covering up the ugly with fancy explanations
Social norms prevent unnecessary competition
Prospective mates as scarce resources
27.10.18
– Wannabe >> ?
Just me! 😎
– Romantic slow rock jams
Heavy ballads
Joey Aslan
Travails of childhood
28.10.18
– Satan’s molten tears
29.10.18
– flitting
30.10.18
– untrammelled
zither
twang
toboggan
magpie
gnome
wastrel
splothering
raillery
1.11.18
– outstrip
Extrajudicial killings
Militarization of the police
Jair Bolsonaro – Brazil’s Trump?
Stochastic models/nondetermined systems
coimplicated
Steady-state quality
Classical & evolving images
Passion to think the Real
Distinguish:
Nature
&
Ecosystem
Environmental philosophy
Theological ecology
4.11.18
– Further afield
Nature as a first name of the Real
Ethics as first philosophy
The economic ecologies of thought
-logy & – sophy
Deep science
Nefarious & pathetic agnosticism
5.11.18
– Is there any (cultural) symbol of India other than the map & flag (political)?
OM/AUM
picture
– Big Science
Life-world
The scientific nature of philosophy & the philosophical nature of science
Anonymous, transcendental subjectivity
The natural attitude
Fact Vs. Value
Accidental escape
epoché – A completely unique, universal & total transformation of attitude!
Phenomenological reduction/bracketing
De-absolutizing of the world
The world as phenomenon
Ray Brassier – “We are already dead”
What could be more pernicious than the quest for objectivity?
Meontic absolute
Bare life
Man as GOD’s self-objectivation
Transcendent radicality
Above pre-givenness
Intersubjective consciousness
Unnatural attitude – a position beyond worldly interest
The permanent crisis of humanity
The actual substratum
Reclaiming & radicalizing naïvety
– Another DNA
Designing software
– Why did Modi/BJP choose Sardar Vallabhai Patel, a secular anti-Hindutva figure, for the humongous unity statue project?
6.11.18
– Post-scarcity
LBRY – blockchain + bittorent
Distributed ledger
escrow
Naifs & knaves
Activator/keygen crack detected as virus
– Distinguish:
Conservative
&
Conservatory
7.11.18
– Treats!
Lascivia
Nuts
8.11.18
– Get the lyrics of the song நான் யார் from the film பரியேரும் பெருமாள்
What is the significance of the color blue?
– Is Meatloaf a great/one of the greatest, songwriters?
– Should I aim to attain a perfect body?
– Should I change my ministry to a purely reactive one, responding to needs expressed by others around, as and when they arise, with no proactive formal structure?
– There are those with no intentional spirituality/overarching philosophy, and then there are the religious fanatics.
We need more of the third variety, which lies in between the two.
People like me…!?
– “வட சென்னை”
Distinguish:
What happens to you
&
What you do
Events & choices
“96”
Why did Baradwaj Rangan say that this is an “unsentimental romance”??
9.11.18
– Lake Superior
briny
Personal dictionary
– What is Ray Brassier’s philosophy?
Thomas Ligotti
Lovecraftian
Hackneyed vocable
coruscate
Rylean
Ordinary Language Movement in Philosophy
Propositional attitudes
Thought-episodes
Nomology
The manifest (philosophical) and the scientific (empirical) image
Normative valence
Relative potency
Combining power
Stereoscopic integration
Human ~ person ~ agent
The irrecusable primacy of the instrumentalist conception
Originary, pre-scientific understanding
Functional role and ontological status
Methodological primacy and substantive superiority
Philosophical reductionism
Pragmatic substratum
Being-in-the-world
Rational purposiveness
Intellectual intuition & subtle theoretical construction
Normative autonomy
ineliminability
Corrigible speculative achievement
Quasi-sacrosanct status
Scrutinizing the spontaneous judgment of introspective certainty
Mechanistic discourse of causation and the rational language of intention
Neurocomputational enhancement
vitiate
Epistemological tension
Eliminative materialism
Common sense psychology Vs. Completed neuroscience
Apocalyptic proclivities
Cognitive catastrophe
Cultural revolution – reconstructing the future of human self-understanding
irrealism
– Distinguish:
Invisible
&
Hidden
– WARNING:
Life is injurious to health, living kills! 💀
10.11.18
– New MFX
– God ~ non-human eternal creative mystery
– marionette
scotch
flout
chary
Dot-com bust
chetif
prepossession
Evil prognostications
Murderous love
Voluptuous & final consummation
Intrinsic insignificance >> limitation of conceit
Eternal unrelief
The slumber of constant repetition
Hetty Sorrel
The illusion of possibility
The dreariness of actuality
The monotony of contingencies
schnapps
alpenstock
exeunt
– Instead of a little entertainment whenever one has had too much work, I’m gonna work whenever I’ve had too much entertainment……! 😁
– Counterclockwise Swastika
Kali/tantra
Vs.
Om/mantra
Now, it is the right half that’s moving against gravity……!
The face of the hours
– ATP Next Gen Playoffs
  • From intellect & intention to instinct & intuition
  • Pure (as opposed to applied) mathematics
  • Is it possible to live independent of, or in opposition to, culture, without succumbing to the darkness within?
  • Mathematics as non-naturalistic science
  • Content (as opposed to form) is affective
  • Apodeicity – universal, necessary and inevitable validity
  • Scientific realism
  • Circular definitions
  • Auto-justifying
  • Beautiful widgets
  • Process – in between, & therefore common to, both being (ontology/rigor) & event (non-ontology/creative novelty)!
  • Beyond subject & object
  • The multiple presents as one, or, the one presents as multiple?
  • Appearance as operation
  • Presence & presentation
  • Being >> situations >> context
  • Count-as-one ~ state of the situation
  • Sub-multiples
  • Metaphorical affinity
  • The one is not
  • From state-inclusion to self-belonging!
  • Truth ~ evental revelation ~ impossible occurence ~ futuristic unbecoming ~ real change ~ complete transformation ~ radical rupture ~ unnatural negation ~ re-presenting inconsistency ~ paradoxical existence
  • The axioms of set theory as foundational for ontology
  • Are you worried about me, or worried for yourself because of me?
11.11.18
– When I suspended the small group meetings, one of the (ex-)members said, “So, what is Joe going to do?”
My reply is, “What are YOU going to do now??” 👊🏾
– “At least pretend like you’re interested.” – a relative to me, during a socializing event.
For almost all people, there is no distinction between their individual personality and their social roles.
I DON’T want to become like that!
– Movies:
“Hold the Dark”
Yes!
The Dog(s) & me
Animal morality
Natural family and social construct
“The Wreck of the Deutschland” BY GERARD MANLEY HOPKINS
– This planet is (or made into – what’s the difference?) a giant ash-tray!