15.12.18
– Magnificat @ Christ University:
Enjoyed! Few outstanding performances – Prologue to Gospel of John, etc.
Ushering in the festive season in the right spirit…? (I usually make it a point to attend a choral service during Advent)
The first Christmas was a stark contrast to such gaudy spectacles!
“Shall I play for you, on my drum?” – ONLY (for/before/to) you!
The real epiphanies occur in secret/silence and they are spontaneous/mysterious
– Baudelaire – if you wanna touch the sky, then keep digging the earth, until you hit rock bottom. Then, when the bottom gives way, you will reach the point where the sky and earth meet!
Sade – aesthetics as ethics! Compare with the friendship/fellowship/brotherhood of the sadists in “I Saw the Devil”. The unnaturalness, and therefore, the unimportance, of coherence/rationality/integrity in the Sadean ethic. Power/control – the ultimate pleasure?? Distinguish victim and novice. Distinguish pleasure and happiness.
– rakes
Jawan turned terrorist
– Great works of architecture always bedazzle me, because of the sheer human effort, expertise, coordination, ambition and ingenuity involved.
These monuments are the exact opposite of the self-creating individual……!
– Is self-esteem essential or antithetical to the truly abundant life?
I was a somebody who has now intentionally become a nobody.
But why??
To see if there is anything other/more to one’s life than what I see around me……
False truths
Vs.
True lies
– You are in the system, because you believe that you gain more than you lose by that choice.
I am outside the system, because I believe that I gain more than I lose by this choice.
But the majority will agree with you, not me.
So what? That doesn’t say anything about who is really better off……!
– For me, not to suffer is happiness
How can I break the false dichotomy of pleasure and pain??
17.12.18
– Movies:
“Daughters of the Dust”
Black, female, poor filmmaker……
Past ~ roots; future ~ wings
Past Vs. Future
Vs.
Past as present
What is (my) identity??
Who you are, who you wanna be and who you ought to be
Who are your people? What is your place? Where and when do you come from?
“Spiderman: Into the Spider-verse”
IMAX 3D!!! 🙂
It’s a kids movie, but can be enjoyed by adults too
Compare with Jordan Peterson on the Christ
You don’t have a choice ~ leap of faith ~ save the world
Tie your shoe-laces!
Superpowers – blessing or curse??
The terror(s) of growing up/old – perpetual adolescence
Multiverse ~ after/before-life ~ eternity
Salvation via difference/repetition/death
You’re not alone in being alone……!
18.12.18
– Movies:
“Zorros Bar Mizwa”
Schooling/education/parenting/socialization as indoctrination
Bat mitzva
Just give (your) children the tools to their own independence, along with all the other cultural shapings
Am I ready to be a parent? Do I want to be a parent? There are those who are ready but do not want it, and those that are not ready but want it. Which of these would be better at it?
Contemporary faith = ancient revelation/scripture + historical tradition/ancestral events + current contextual forces/personal factors
Film as document and document as film
Docu-fiction
Jews with Spanish roots living in Germany
The pseudo-spirituality of social religion and the pseudo-religion of isolated spirituality
What we need is deliberate innovation for the future as opposed to a simplistic accommodation of the past to the present
– Jordan Peterson’s idea of law/reality/God may be too static/rigid…?
What if the relation between individual desire and the nature of life/world is more dialogical than hierarchical?
19.12.18
– The more integrated I am with my own shadow self, the better I will be able to relate to others…?
– Christian theology as ideology
Vs.
Christian theology as critical theory
– On the lam
The relation of form, & spirit, to truth
Culminating work
Subtle interanimation
Reclaim & revive
Critical history
non-interventionist
Encounter & decision
Modernizing the Reformation and reforming modernity
The dialectic of differentiation and unification
Mutual scrutiny
Complex critical and constructive position
Crisis and creativity
Academic habits
Inter-religious ecumenism
Pure promise
DjVu
– Distinguish:
Renewal
&
Innovation
Ressourcement
Aggiornamento
– Theoretical knowledge
Vs.
Practical morality
– “Behold your GOD!”
WOW
The tabernacle, Adam & Eve, the Law, Nature, Christ, Church, you & me……….
20.12.18
– CFNM
nettle
Secret society ~ theater stage
Distinguish cruelty & injustice
Justine Vs. Juliette
Worthless intuitions
The deceptive heart
Moral convictions ~ social manners
Justice as artifact
From pseudo-civilization to super-civilization
Tacit consent to the pre-(or post-)contract position
Institution & acquisition
Blinded by the iron logic of civility
The commonwealth as the artificial state of nature
The Sodality & Silling
Virtuous fool
Public control & private enjoyment
– Is reaching very high levels of pleasure a genuine achievement?
Does it have any value in this socio-economic world?
– Movies:
First Man
Karen Armstrong & JFK
Spiritual astronaut
Was he depressed?? In love with his dead daughter AND bored/disgusted with domestic life……
Outer space ~ inner abyss ~ multiverse ~ eternity
21.12.18
– Compare:
Nietzsche’s nihilism
&
Hitler’s Nazism
– I am/create/imagine/become my own context!
– Restriction & transgression ~ work & pleasure
Excrement ~ excitement
Boredom, erection & exhaustion
Crime, cruelty, debauchery and pain
Anal rape
phallocracy
Happy struggle Vs. abject surrender
turd
Scatman (“I’m the…..!”)
Self-negating arrangement
Totally unexpected moves
Ecstatic style
Education ~ liberation ~ subversion
The professional whore as untouchable mother goddess
Dream, interpretation, performance & discharge
– Become your own narrator!
– Let order/word and chaos/drives be equals (or mutual slaves/masters, alternately), in the duel/dialogue/dance/play of life!
– Jesus, Santa & Grinch
– Can one be(come) a full adult without sex &/or reproduction?
– Distinguish:
Inter-subjectivity (pluralism)
&
Objectivity (dogmatism)
I’m a qualified/weak relativist
– Rank according to your centre(s) of gravity:
Emotion/feeling; Intellect/analyzing; Will/doing
2-1-3 – contemplative thinker
Or maybe I’m 3-1-2 – (emotionally) repressed (sexual) fucker; relationally retarded headman
– Levels:
Quantum/universe – chaos (over order)
Our galaxy/earth – order (over chaos)
Society/culture – order (over chaos)
Person/subconscious – chaos (over order)
Chiasma/sandwich pattern!
– Christmas – what is the meaning/significance/myth/moral of the virgin birth?
– Reality/Nature/Life:
Chaotic & destructive
Vs.
Survival of the fittest
Vs.
Blessed are the poor in spirit
Sade, Darwin & Jesus……
– The logic of capitalism – spend more, earn more!
– Opposition grand alliance
Boxing Day
Yule
noel
Society – spectacle & surveillance
– The Nativity – maybe I should repent of my view of the/my baby as a rampant parasite/unnecessary burden…?
The child as the promise of new life – absolute vulnerability & awesome potential compactly bundled together!
But I still DON’T want to be a father……
– WHY do I feel angry/upset when /he/she/they……?? 😡😳😞
How do I deal with these difficult emotions?! 🤪
Mostly, whenever I have opened my wounds to others, they have only made it even worse.
So I should learn to help myself and deal with my own issues.
Can I never love and be loved??
Try not to get upset about being/becoming upset! Relax & empathize. Reflect, understand & respond.
I am not an economically productive adult male, and I am also not a proper home-maker.
And I don’t want to reproduce.
I also despise (almost all) the glories and norms of this world.
The hatred is mutual ⚔️
Perfect recipe for misery and tragedy……
Buck up, Joe! 😶😐
– Do you like the person(s) you’re living with?
Do you even like yourself?
Do you like this world?
No love without like.
Or is it the other way around (Christian)?
– The easy/simple/nice folks
The greatest wickedness is not passionate murder, it is mindless conformity/abject resignation – the “banality of evil”!
22.12.18
– “Christian Christmas”
Carnatic Christmas
“Sarige” (Kannada)
D-girl
Made guy
Neapolitan
Omerta
– Clarifications:
– Distinguish “I am upset with you” & “You have wronged me/You are offensive”
It’s more about me than you.
– I don’t blame or accuse you… But that doesn’t change how I feel about certain things. So I need to learn to deal with it.
– The reasons for my anger/hurt may be that I am jealous/possessive/insecure/lonely/needy; I don’t like people who overwork, or who I see as not having a rich/deep personal/inner life; I generally do not respect/value the workplace (especially large organizations); I am severely critical of the education system; I am bitter/resentful against this society, etc.
I don’t really know…
– There are certain unique problems when the woman goes out to work/earn and the guy stays at home.
This is because this arrangement is going against the grain of usual nature & culture.
– It’s very easy to scold the other person whenever one is upset with him/her. I hate that!
I don’t want to be what I despise.
– I don’t think I’ve had a high quality intimate relationship with a woman (mother, sister, friend, etc.) before……
And generally, I NEVER share my pain with others (male or female) to get comfort and support.
PEACE ✌🏽
– I’d rather be sad than shallow
– Integration:
Experience ~ past
Practice ~ present
Theory ~ future
Experience informing practice
+
Practice informing experience
+
Experience informing theory
+
Practice informing theory
+
Theory informing practice
+
Theory informing experience
– “Free speech carries with it some freedom to listen.” – Bob Marley
Having equal respect & care for oneself & the other is ideal.
Is one who is incapable of any sacrifice & adjustment truly free?
– “Many much-learned men have no intelligence.” – Democritus
Distinguish education & maturity
Distinguish training & experience
Distinguish knowledge & wisdom
From many/much to rare/precious!
– sortie
pageant
tabluex
Worker’s Music Association
Balangiga Bells; war trophies
repatriate; extradite
Yellow Vests Movement
minibar, sideboard, cellaret
“Be the business”
Aureus, denarius, solidus
Chico Mendes Vs. Darly Alves da Silva
Council >> canon
southpaw
lashings, oodles
conscript, inductee
coinage, neologism
abaxial
compendious
Theory of value
Biohacking
– “One’s past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged.” – Oscar Wilde
Sounds like psychoanalytic theory…?
But what about individual freedom & responsibility?
I’m more interested in your future trajectory!
25.12.18
– What could be more barren than a virgin’s womb?!
– My greatest enemy is ennui/depression/despair/frustration/resentment/resignation/callousness/indifference/apathy
– The link between faith-hope-love (root) and love-joy-peace (fruit) is LOVE!
– MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Merry, merry, merry, merry Christmas!
VERY merry Christmas! 😎🎁✨
What is Xmas?
– Movies:
KGF (Chapter 1)
WOW!!! What dialogue and what action…
Detailed & profound Christology – truly a Christmas film!
John Dominic Crossan – “The Power of Parable: How Fiction by Jesus Became Fiction about Jesus” – so the whole film is actually a fable/legend/myth narrated by the story-teller, one among the slaves in KGF!
Conversion ~ slave >> rebel
RC theology – Mary, mother of GOD
Real salvation/messianic without an actual savior/Messiah (Derrida) – the power of inspiration/faith/hope!
Divine ~ fictional/imaginative/aspirational
The Cross – the lamb led to the slaughter becomes the surprise victor……
26.12.18
– The cigarette as incense stick! 🤪
31.12.18
– Praise & Worship music – for the New Year!
– Believe in beginnings,
And be a beginning!
– Virgin mother ~ the pregnant void
Chastity ~ barrenness
Our emptiness + Grace = fecundity!
Mary, the perfect disciple and therefore our mother/mentor too
Hail Mary >> Magnificat
– “See the face of GOD watching you.” – Anthony de Mello
– Pub theology
1.1.19
– Critical heritage
2.1.18
– BTS
THC Vs. CBD
– New Year 2019 dinner – Chianti @ Vega City mall – fettuccine Lamb bolognese + virgin piña colada! 😇
– Azar, LivU
3.1.19
– mistletoe
rapporteur
– 27-30.12.18 – Valparai trip with Chellam, Chris, Solan, Francis-Jenitha & Abel-Lydia
– Movies:
“Mandy”
Masculinity & negative emotions – converting weak (sadness & fear) into strong (anger-violence & lust-greed)
Trippy!
Some things are meant to be just experienced, not understood……
Midnight movie
B-movie
“Pulp Tarkovsky”
Declaring war on GOD & fate, in the name of love!
“Venom”
Guilty pleasures
Compare with the comics I read
The underdog always wins!?
Who/what is your best friend??
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