Month: May 2019

22.5.19

– In a perfect/ideal/utopian world, everybody’s basic needs (food, shelter, clothing, etc.) would be provided by default.

No one would have to work/toil/struggle to survive.

Then, the only/main/core purpose of life would be to realize/grow/transform!

– I’m looking for the innocence on the other side of mindlessness……

– Believer mag

“Comedy advice column”

Jamming sessions

Egyptology

– Distinguish:

Being happy

&

Enjoying life

– Occultism + science fiction + performance art-theory

– Arkestra

unpeggable

Afro-futurist

Space love

Supersonic Jazz

Healing vibrations

A&M

Alien abduction

Mythocracies

Super-sanity

Bitches Brew

Atonal experimentation

Noise fusion

Harmonic blast

Furnace gymnasium club

Nation of Islam & Black Power

EVM & VVPAT

– Distinguish:

Call girls

&

Sex slaves

?

23.5.19

– Movies:

“Burning” (Korean)

Compare my theological interpretation with the existential review of The Atlantic’s critic

By killing GOD, man is born again……! The climax, and Peter Rollins’s “Idolatry of God” – the rejection of success, romance and religion as salvation (from dissatisfaction & uncertainty)

Escape the domination of the symbolic, and access the real, via the imaginary

Can envy ever be(come) a positive force? If not, then how can one move from being a reactive to an active person??

Do you know what demons simmer under the surface of ordinary everyday life?!

Self-negating void ~ perpetual creation!

Compare with “The Favourite”

Compare “The Favourite” with “Mary Queen of Scotts”

What is it like to be a narcissist’s friend!?

In the beginning, opposites attract, but in the end, birds of a feather flock together!

Psychoanalysis – the wounds of the past may be identified, but they can never be healed – the rabbits rule!

24.5.19

– The ideology that has the more powerful representative, irrespective of its own merits/faults, wins!

– Enjoy life >> << self-improvement >> << unique contribution

– Guided meditation, nature sounds, white noise, spiritual music, mantra, chanting

Beer marinade

25.5.19

– warbler

– How do you feel now?

I’m not depressed! But I feel blank and neutral…

No physical problems.

24 hours recollection

What’s going on in your mind?

I feel the urge to work in a more rigorous, smart and focused way, on myself. If I’m ready to stretch myself and make my routine more balanced, I might just be able to crawl out of this hole. I must somehow learn to do what I don’t feel like doing, in order to get what I want! This way, maybe I can also recover my own health, and restart my work of facilitating personal growth in the context of a small spiritual community…

– Recollection & Repetition (Kierkegaard),

Will to Power & Eternal Return (Nietzsche) &

Difference & Repetition (Deleuze)

26.5.19

– “Why am I not working??

I appreciate your question, X! I love curiosity.

You can ask me freely, but you can also ask Y if not comfortable… ✋🏽

My response:

1. Why not?! Why should everyone have a job??

2. I believe my work is inward/spiritual, unlike what most people do in our world. In other words, NOT working like everyone else is my job! I need to be different, in order to make my unique contribution…

3. I am introvert, eccentric & maverick. I have adopted a contemplative lifestyle (life with much more time, space & energy compared to general society) in order to facilitate the work of experiential reflection, theoretical insight & experimental self-education.

Having said that, I am able to do this because of the economic & moral support of few people (formerly my parents, now my wife)! 🙏🏽”

– TV series:

Malgudi Days (Season 1 – Swami & Friends)

Nostalgic/sentimental indulgence!

What was the childhood of Jesus like??

“The child is the father of man”

Friends as siblings

Growing pangs – the travails of birth continue throughout life, into death……!

The poignancy of early grief and the development of tenacity

Psychogeography – Malgudi, in & through Swami

– frisson

27.5.19

– Freeze frame

Hair perming

No-names

Opportunity cost

Next best alternative

DFTBA

Crash Course

The Green (vlog) Brothers

Perverse incentives

– Distinguish:

Compulsory/mandatory

&

Essential/necessary

Economics

&

Finance

Theory

&

Policy

– Most people are busy making a living – is this good, in one sense, because it keeps certain (evil) drives within them at bay?

No!

Why not??

– To understand any experience/idea/practice properly, you need to look at:

1. Its history & development

2. The psychology of the person holding them

3. The wider cultural context of the people/group (believers/followers)

– Constantine & Helena

Edict of Milan

Christian pilgrimage

Define ~ defend

Hadassa

Bede & Cuthbert

Futuristic present

Ancient aliens; Astro-biologist

Sunday of the Samaritan Woman

– What an irony it is, that someone like me (melancholic recluse) should be the guardian of personal growth, & sustainer of spiritual community, in my context……!?

– Distinguish:

Darkness/chaos/emptiness/death/surreal

&

Evil

Light/order/fullness/life/actual

&

Good

28.5.19

– Solid & liquid modernity

From community to connectivity

Thoroughly standardized prefigured relations

Vs.

Multi-faceted meaning-negotiating intiatives

Quantitative equality and qualitative singularity

The systematic dependency of social networks

Division based on mobility

The new classification

Reworking space

Absentee landlords

Personal troubles Vs. Common cause

The public sphere & private interests

The invincible – because decentralized and ambiguous – nature of globalized/contemporary power!

musi.sh

Hypertely – non-Darwinian concept – imitative ornamentation

Modernization ~ liquifaction

“Until further notice” clause

Ultra-flexibility

Sign value Vs. Utility

Simulation & consumption

Random & illusory reality

Self-referencing symbolic system

Hyper-real matrix

The sub-normality of the actual

Market-driven (capricious & unpredictable) interpersonal relationships

Universal deregulation

New global polarization

Love & reason – value vs. use

The privatization of morality

The endemic aporia of responsibility

Uncertainty & impotence – self-preoccupation & non-committal posture

Postmodern ethics; Non-universalizable morality

Immortality as life-strategy

Extra-territorial capital

Fluid sociality and obligatory self-determination

The agora and the ecclesia

Collective action as the basis of individual liberty

Life-politics

Individualization –> totalitarianism!

“Every act of interpretation always contains a legislative moment”

– Distinguish:

Power

&

Authority

– Roots & wings:

Floating

Vs.

Entrapment

– Unbridled powers and false freedoms

– Napflix

Lowlife Magazine

“Find what you love & let it kill you.” – Charles Bukowski

BIMSTEC

Gaming mouse

Contrarian angle

– Open elective ~ radical hospitality ~ SFG meetings ~ liturgical space

– Humans need BOTH roots and wings – both the social/public AND the personal/private – the crucial place of spiritual community is its mediation between these two spheres, which seem to be at odds with each other.

This is why such a group is absolutely essential & indispensable in today’s world!

We need to negotiate the tension between the old settling mentality and the new mobility ethic.

Those who want to comfortably settle in one extreme or another will be left bankrupt, compared to those who try to stay in the middle and fight it out.

(Inspired by Zygmunt Bauman’s “Liquid Modernity”)

If you score 50 out of 100 with the whole 50 coming from materialistic standard of living, and another scores 50 which is made up of 2 or 3 elements (including social, vocational, etc.).

Who is the “richer” of the two??

29.5.19

– hotbox (v.)

– Gaspar Noe

Aleister Crowley

Nicolas Roeg

Nature, magic and nihilism

Non-conformist Christians

– Distinguish:

Libertarianism

&

Hedonism

– Movies:

“The Lion Sleeps Tonight” (French)

I am exactly midway between the child and the hag…?

I agree with the hero – 70-80 is the best/most important period of life…!

The lion stands for what – Death? Courage? – what do you get from the combination of both?

“Mug” (Polish)

The face as allegory – I am no longer the man whom Salome married!

The Christ figure turns the head of the Church – with or without their approval/knowledge!

What does a metallic Christianity look like – ask Immanuel Joseph…… 😎🤘

“Enter The Void”

The scene where Oscar’s affair with the married woman (his friend’s mother), was juxtaposed with him being breastfed as a baby, had a very powerful impact on me!

The inner child ~ the destiny of the adult ~ the afterlife

Life > self > role

An aesthetic morality looks nihilistic only from this side……!

(Gabriel had recommended Noe)

– Fiction:

Arkham Asylum: Serious House on Serious Earth

Read the complete commentary & script by Morrisson

Distinguish the insane and the evil

Batman wins in the end, yes. But only because he was let off by his enemy! So, did he actually win him over, in the fight??

I don’t wanna live and die as an extra, in my own life……!

– Distinguish:

Rational

&

Ethical

– Despite the upsets for the BJP in the mid-term local assembly elections in many states, how did they sweep the 2019 Lok Sabha elections??

– To say that the id (basic drives) is the “true self”, and the superego (conscientiousness) is pure cultural conditioning, would be a gross & grave error!

– Distinguish:

Autodidact

&

Dilettante

4.5.19

– Tattoo stories

Mini diva

– kantor

Distinguish Pascha (Orthodox) & Pesach (Judaism)

Bright Week

Passiontide

– Distinguish Christian martyrdom and Islamic jihad

5.5.19

– Porn:

Desire/sex/energy > the human!

8.5.19

– Who is Wes Cecil?

Rehabilitating Nietzsche

Distinguish:

Tragedy

&

Pessimism

Passionate ~ noble ~ great

soliloquy

obscurantism

humbition

– Judeo-Christiano-……!?

8.5.19

– Barely legal

sub-paragraphs

overleaf

Critiquing values from a reclamation of sense

Meta-valuation

pleb

Game/play/gamble

– Distinguish:

The mindless liver,

The sensual thinker &

The theoretical man

fate-al

– Jordan Peterson is NO Nietzschean!

10.5.19

– Namasthe/Jeevitha:

Tarot cards

Chakra Balancing (using crystals)

Counseling

Why am I depressed?

How can I be healed?

1. Balance – correct the over-dominance of the intellectual. From brain to heart.

2. Strengthen the root & heart chakras

3. Yoga, guided meditation, water, salt, essential oils (rosemary & thyme)

4. Positivity – gratitude, visualization, confession, etc.

5. Forgiveness – parents? In-laws? Siblings?

11.5.19

– Alto’s Odyssey Zen mode

– yaesizp

– Movies:

Super Deluxe

15.5.19

– Genealogical criticism

Interpretation & evaluation

Noble/active/affirmative & base/reactive/negative

Sense & value

Eternal return, will to power & force(s)

Quantity & quality

18.5.19

– Prime Reading

– Movies:

Blackkklansman

– On the lam

19.5.19

– “What PM Modi said after meditating in the cave?”

– Ferocious women!

– Give more attention to the critics who give negative reviews

– Movies:

“The Favourite”

– Becoming better than my current best…!

– Distinguish egotism (Ryan Holiday) & egoism (Max Stirner)

– Confessions of a manipulator

Risk Engineering

Anti-fragile

20.5.19

– Scribd Snapshots

Vs.

Blinkist

– Frederick the Wise, Christian ruler

Believer ~ disciple ~ witness

Metrology

SI – International System of Units

The Big K

21.5.19

– laterite

Coffin flower

Off-white

estivation

sepals

Sun Ra

– Comics:

Venom (2018 – 19) #1-12

– rind

mangosteen

haunches

purloin

“fierce lack of ambition”

“indifference to passionate critiques”

Vernacular architecture

temerity

seersucker

gnome

gargoyle

anthurium

spadix, frond, spathe

17.4.19

– Chaos within overarching order

Vs.

Minimal structure within spontaneity

– Secret arms deals

Weaponized anti-matter

lectern

MAD – mutually assured destruction

Occult detective subgenre

ratiocination

Gothic haunting

Outer monstrosities

steampunk vacuum tubes

Ab-human shadows

Bleeding-edge

Frontier territory

Weird fiction

Modern sorcery

Objectively cute

Bigspoon

noological

Mineral life; inorganic consciousness

– Damaging myths

18.4.19

– Help me, heal me, save me……

Please!

20.4.19

– Dysthymia (Chronic persistent depression)

Distinguish from Major Depression

Pessimism/nihilism/scepticism (Philosophy)

Intellectual/introvert/eccentric/contemplative

Melancholia

21.4.19

– Do you (still) love the church, Joe?

– Tone-policing

Soft porn ~ hard tease

“Might as well……”

22.4.19

– Movies (Mubi):

Halfway There (French short film)

“Thou Wast Mild & Lovely”

– Unwed bride ~ virgin mother

Penitence & exorcism

Akathist hymn to the (Most Holy) Theotokos

Holy Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday

Great Friday

Passover seder

Pesach I – VIII

World Heritage Day

Unacceptably awkward

Merciful remembrance

Erev Pesach

Illness & pain ~ transgression & grief

PASCHA

Lazarus Saturday

Johannes Bugenhagen

Low German

National Civil Services Day

Easter Monday

Strength ~ song ~ salvation

Sanction waivers

marina

row (n.)

– Transubstantiation (bread & wine to body & blood) ~ Resurrection (dead Jesus to risen Christ)

Double sacrifice – GOD on the Cross – both the one who suffers & the one who inflicts……!

– The mentally ill as vicarious (& therefore redemptive) sacrifices – Christ figures!

The Messiah(s) is by definition, rejected……

The salvific is always misconstrued as penal.

– Distinguish (Roman) Catholic & (Eastern) Orthodox liturgy/calendar

– Pastor ~ confessor

Distinguish from mentor & counselor

23.4.19

– My body is my only weapon~asset~home

It’s not time to marry~worry yet!

Joy ~ Joe ~ Jon ~ Jen…?

(Pornstar tattoos)

– Nud(e)-ist saint

“…my reason for reason”

State of exception

Secret society

infosphere

Distinguish the non-human & misanthropy

dialetheism

Redefining enmity

The weaponization of Life

Death-dealing life and life-giving death

Miasmatic life

Profound lability

Pathological life

Living numbers

The affective fantasy of total chaos