22.5.19
– In a perfect/ideal/utopian world, everybody’s basic needs (food, shelter, clothing, etc.) would be provided by default.
No one would have to work/toil/struggle to survive.
Then, the only/main/core purpose of life would be to realize/grow/transform!
– I’m looking for the innocence on the other side of mindlessness……
– Believer mag
“Comedy advice column”
Jamming sessions
Egyptology
– Distinguish:
Being happy
&
Enjoying life
– Occultism + science fiction + performance art-theory
– Arkestra
unpeggable
Afro-futurist
Space love
Supersonic Jazz
Healing vibrations
A&M
Alien abduction
Mythocracies
Super-sanity
Bitches Brew
Atonal experimentation
Noise fusion
Harmonic blast
Furnace gymnasium club
Nation of Islam & Black Power
EVM & VVPAT
– Distinguish:
Call girls
&
Sex slaves
?
23.5.19
– Movies:
“Burning” (Korean)
Compare my theological interpretation with the existential review of The Atlantic’s critic
By killing GOD, man is born again……! The climax, and Peter Rollins’s “Idolatry of God” – the rejection of success, romance and religion as salvation (from dissatisfaction & uncertainty)
Escape the domination of the symbolic, and access the real, via the imaginary
Can envy ever be(come) a positive force? If not, then how can one move from being a reactive to an active person??
Do you know what demons simmer under the surface of ordinary everyday life?!
Self-negating void ~ perpetual creation!
Compare with “The Favourite”
Compare “The Favourite” with “Mary Queen of Scotts”
What is it like to be a narcissist’s friend!?
In the beginning, opposites attract, but in the end, birds of a feather flock together!
Psychoanalysis – the wounds of the past may be identified, but they can never be healed – the rabbits rule!
24.5.19
– The ideology that has the more powerful representative, irrespective of its own merits/faults, wins!
– Enjoy life >> << self-improvement >> << unique contribution
– Guided meditation, nature sounds, white noise, spiritual music, mantra, chanting
Beer marinade
25.5.19
– warbler
– How do you feel now?
I’m not depressed! But I feel blank and neutral…
No physical problems.
24 hours recollection
What’s going on in your mind?
I feel the urge to work in a more rigorous, smart and focused way, on myself. If I’m ready to stretch myself and make my routine more balanced, I might just be able to crawl out of this hole. I must somehow learn to do what I don’t feel like doing, in order to get what I want! This way, maybe I can also recover my own health, and restart my work of facilitating personal growth in the context of a small spiritual community…
– Recollection & Repetition (Kierkegaard),
Will to Power & Eternal Return (Nietzsche) &
Difference & Repetition (Deleuze)
26.5.19
– “Why am I not working??
I appreciate your question, X! I love curiosity.
You can ask me freely, but you can also ask Y if not comfortable… ✋🏽
My response:
1. Why not?! Why should everyone have a job??
2. I believe my work is inward/spiritual, unlike what most people do in our world. In other words, NOT working like everyone else is my job! I need to be different, in order to make my unique contribution…
3. I am introvert, eccentric & maverick. I have adopted a contemplative lifestyle (life with much more time, space & energy compared to general society) in order to facilitate the work of experiential reflection, theoretical insight & experimental self-education.
Having said that, I am able to do this because of the economic & moral support of few people (formerly my parents, now my wife)! 🙏🏽”
– TV series:
Malgudi Days (Season 1 – Swami & Friends)
Nostalgic/sentimental indulgence!
What was the childhood of Jesus like??
“The child is the father of man”
Friends as siblings
Growing pangs – the travails of birth continue throughout life, into death……!
The poignancy of early grief and the development of tenacity
Psychogeography – Malgudi, in & through Swami
– frisson
27.5.19
– Freeze frame
Hair perming
No-names
Opportunity cost
Next best alternative
DFTBA
Crash Course
The Green (vlog) Brothers
Perverse incentives
– Distinguish:
Compulsory/mandatory
&
Essential/necessary
Economics
&
Finance
Theory
&
Policy
– Most people are busy making a living – is this good, in one sense, because it keeps certain (evil) drives within them at bay?
No!
Why not??
– To understand any experience/idea/practice properly, you need to look at:
1. Its history & development
2. The psychology of the person holding them
3. The wider cultural context of the people/group (believers/followers)
– Constantine & Helena
Edict of Milan
Christian pilgrimage
Define ~ defend
Hadassa
Bede & Cuthbert
Futuristic present
Ancient aliens; Astro-biologist
Sunday of the Samaritan Woman
– What an irony it is, that someone like me (melancholic recluse) should be the guardian of personal growth, & sustainer of spiritual community, in my context……!?
– Distinguish:
Darkness/chaos/emptiness/death/surreal
&
Evil
Light/order/fullness/life/actual
&
Good
28.5.19
– Solid & liquid modernity
From community to connectivity
Thoroughly standardized prefigured relations
Vs.
Multi-faceted meaning-negotiating intiatives
Quantitative equality and qualitative singularity
The systematic dependency of social networks
Division based on mobility
The new classification
Reworking space
Absentee landlords
Personal troubles Vs. Common cause
The public sphere & private interests
The invincible – because decentralized and ambiguous – nature of globalized/contemporary power!
musi.sh
Hypertely – non-Darwinian concept – imitative ornamentation
Modernization ~ liquifaction
“Until further notice” clause
Ultra-flexibility
Sign value Vs. Utility
Simulation & consumption
Random & illusory reality
Self-referencing symbolic system
Hyper-real matrix
The sub-normality of the actual
Market-driven (capricious & unpredictable) interpersonal relationships
Universal deregulation
New global polarization
Love & reason – value vs. use
The privatization of morality
The endemic aporia of responsibility
Uncertainty & impotence – self-preoccupation & non-committal posture
Postmodern ethics; Non-universalizable morality
Immortality as life-strategy
Extra-territorial capital
Fluid sociality and obligatory self-determination
The agora and the ecclesia
Collective action as the basis of individual liberty
Life-politics
Individualization –> totalitarianism!
“Every act of interpretation always contains a legislative moment”
– Distinguish:
Power
&
Authority
– Roots & wings:
Floating
Vs.
Entrapment
– Unbridled powers and false freedoms
– Napflix
Lowlife Magazine
“Find what you love & let it kill you.” – Charles Bukowski
BIMSTEC
Gaming mouse
Contrarian angle
– Open elective ~ radical hospitality ~ SFG meetings ~ liturgical space
– Humans need BOTH roots and wings – both the social/public AND the personal/private – the crucial place of spiritual community is its mediation between these two spheres, which seem to be at odds with each other.
This is why such a group is absolutely essential & indispensable in today’s world!
We need to negotiate the tension between the old settling mentality and the new mobility ethic.
Those who want to comfortably settle in one extreme or another will be left bankrupt, compared to those who try to stay in the middle and fight it out.
(Inspired by Zygmunt Bauman’s “Liquid Modernity”)
If you score 50 out of 100 with the whole 50 coming from materialistic standard of living, and another scores 50 which is made up of 2 or 3 elements (including social, vocational, etc.).
Who is the “richer” of the two??
29.5.19
– hotbox (v.)
– Gaspar Noe
Aleister Crowley
Nicolas Roeg
Nature, magic and nihilism
Non-conformist Christians
– Distinguish:
Libertarianism
&
Hedonism
– Movies:
“The Lion Sleeps Tonight” (French)
I am exactly midway between the child and the hag…?
I agree with the hero – 70-80 is the best/most important period of life…!
The lion stands for what – Death? Courage? – what do you get from the combination of both?
“Mug” (Polish)
The face as allegory – I am no longer the man whom Salome married!
The Christ figure turns the head of the Church – with or without their approval/knowledge!
What does a metallic Christianity look like – ask Immanuel Joseph…… 😎🤘
“Enter The Void”
The scene where Oscar’s affair with the married woman (his friend’s mother), was juxtaposed with him being breastfed as a baby, had a very powerful impact on me!
The inner child ~ the destiny of the adult ~ the afterlife
Life > self > role
An aesthetic morality looks nihilistic only from this side……!
(Gabriel had recommended Noe)
– Fiction:
Arkham Asylum: Serious House on Serious Earth
Read the complete commentary & script by Morrisson
Distinguish the insane and the evil
Batman wins in the end, yes. But only because he was let off by his enemy! So, did he actually win him over, in the fight??
I don’t wanna live and die as an extra, in my own life……!
– Distinguish:
Rational
&
Ethical
– Despite the upsets for the BJP in the mid-term local assembly elections in many states, how did they sweep the 2019 Lok Sabha elections??
– To say that the id (basic drives) is the “true self”, and the superego (conscientiousness) is pure cultural conditioning, would be a gross & grave error!
– Distinguish:
Autodidact
&
Dilettante
