Month: January 2020

BROWSING

15.1.20

– Fake celebrities

18.1.20

– Movies:
“Marriage Story”
Why this title?!
Did they ever try marital counseling before going for divorce? Doesn’t look like a couple who’s beyond hope.
Commitment cannot survive, if chemistry & communication are not nurtured. Is adjustment a fourth element or is it also a part of communication?

“Ford vs. Ferrari”
WOW! Action-drama
Passion – I don’t know if I will ever find mine, before it’s too late……
Maybe I am called to transcend purpose itself, but I might not be up to that level of crazy.
My 7,000 rpm ~ stoned (weed)
I’m Ken miles, leading and then accompanying, the other 2 Ford drivers (Chris, Solan, Shanthuru, etc.) – is this just hubris??

19.1.20

– Cinematic texts
Diacritics
Alienation & instrumentalization
Postmodern Marxism
Demystification & undermining
Ethology
Umwelt
Intransigent contingency
ISA – ideological state apparatuses
curmudgeon
truncheon
Althusserian

– “All I know is that I am not a Marxist.” – Karl Marx

21.1.20

– I’m neither a conformist nor an activist.
Maybe that’s why I’m depressed……!
Most people find happiness by losing themselves in certain things (roles, values, activities, achievements, relationships, etc.), but maybe I am called to suffer living with myself forever.
One can only look at oneself naked in the mirror for so long, without going insane……

– barf
git

– Content ~ conscious
&
Form ~ unconscious

– Pornography & the Lacanian image-inary
Developmental psychology
Vs.
The symbolic self (Lacanian arbitrary/slippery/tentative ego)

24.1.20

– TV series:
“Mr. Robot”
Psycho-analysis, cyber-world & multiverse – could all this be overlapping somehow?
An explicit, articulated & evolving theory/theology/spirituality, along with the personal, relational & political aspects of the story, could make it more complete…
Just as psychology can be seen as the basis of philosophy, the opposite is also true!
Sentimentality is meaningful only in the context of ultimate concern(s).

– synaxis

WASSUP

6.12.19
– Zombie apocalypse
ostensibly
Deuteronomistic history
A worthy opponent to God
Minority monotheism
Political theology – God/sovereignty ~ King/government
entourage
sporadic
Plausible deniability
Impersonal instrumentalization
“Necessary part of the divine plan”
Fruitless repentance
– The study of evil – Pornology?
And could this also be graphic in form? 😉
– “How can absence or lack (in oneself) be a generative and creative force (in the world)?” – Peter Rollins
Great question!!! 👏
– Evil as avoidable/unnecessary suffering
– Jazz clapping
– Am I a coward/sissy?! Can I directly (face-to-face/in-person) confront others when necessary & appropriate?
7.12.19
– “The blood of the martyrs is the seed of the church”!
A radical & subversive (but not new) approach to taking down the “powers” 💪🏽
– “Rest in pieces” – Ikon Community
8.12.19
– Movies:
“Party” (Hindi, 1984) – WOW… too close to home! Setting up each character separately in their own homes and then bringing them all together to the party is explosive. Am I part of the bourgeois elite? Compare with “Between Us” (2012) – watched in annual retreat 2014 @ Kolli Hills
“கைதி” – not as good as I expected – it was right to watch “Jallikattu” in the cinema instead of this. Contrived sentimentality.
“அசுரன்” – more action than drama… When government and civil society (NGOs & media) fail – revert to animality! Again, not up to the mark, for me.
– whitepaper
9.12.19
– Movies:
“Parasite”
But what about the middle class?? Ah! Joe, always the typical bourgeoisie…
Horror-comedy
Who are the parasites – the poor or the rich or both or neither or……?!
– 3 highs in 1 day:
Intellectual, erotic & shopping!
– I am (little) excited about shifting to SRM AP! And this surprises me…… 😜
10.12.19
– mnemonics
acrostic
– Re-education/indoctrination/detention camps
internment (double meaning)
reverie
– What can people do when violated by very powerful forces, like the government?
1. Appeal to other agencies like the media, activist NGOs, international organizations (E.g. UN, etc.)
2. Intellectual & ethical counter – public ideological response through own resources. Educate, organize & agitate.
3. Violent defense!
11.12.19
– QIP
AGR
stagflation
Modular living
Bellingcat
– 4th dimension – I await the opening up of an inward/spiritual realm that is far greater (more vast & rich) than the outer/social world……!
Will I ever see that Day?? 😐😶🤨
12.12.19
– clearinghouse
13.12.19
– trippy; psychonaut; flow
Microdosing experiment
Unusual connections
What happens if you combine a conventional anti-depessant (like Escitalopram) with a psychedelic (like Marijuana)?!
“What is it that you have (recently) discovered is easier/simpler than you expected?”
Ayelet Waldeman
Meditation evangelist
16.12.19
– bobbitise
17.12.19
– Movies:
“Baskin” (Turkish)
The dream within the dream, is real!
Watched this while reading “The Prince of this World” by Adam Kotsko!
19.12.19
– priggish
25.12.19
– Born to suffer,
Born to die,
Born to save…
MERRY CHRISTMAS to all the losers!
The babe in the manger – divine + human + animal, all in one scene!
The presence of GOD in the lowliest & filthiest of human conditions – there is no dark corner of existence which the Light has not invaded……
The divine, as the invisible & eternal dimension of human nature!
(…or the human as the visible & temporal manifestation of the divine)
9.1.20
– Curative petition
– My scale for hourly pay:
Unskilled labor ~ Rs. 100
Skilled labor ~ Rs. 250
– 3 types of change to be anticipated in 2020:
1. To be changed by one’s life events & situation
2. To intentionally work on oneself and one’s sphere of influence (includes relationships)
3. To create revolution in the world by organized work with others
1 & 3 are much closer than it might seem!
10.1.20
– Spiritual activism & political contemplation
14.1.20
– Do you know why/how the heart can beat incessantly for an entire lifetime?
Because, it doesn’t!
– New Year sermon:
The angels sang, the Magi adored, and the shepherds exclaimed, but Mary pondered……!
GOD as present Absence
– What do I do with my WhatsApp status when I am numb & dumb??
Are all these ejaculations into the void “my ministry”?!
– Movies:
“Anand” (1971, Hindi)
Embrace grief, fuck depression!
Bliss ~ ecstatic neutrality
– Any way I can share my Facebook story archive on my blog?