21.7.20
– subitize
23.7.20
– “The queer art of failure”
– Enjoying the failure to enjoy life
– The only living truth, is that, love is stronger than death!
– And how do you feel when she does that?
– Maintain the same posture, and…… BREATHE!
28.7.20
– Guilty pleasures
&
Artistic edification
29.7.20
– cad
wheedle
nob
vis
– The greatest purpose of life is timepass!
– L-O-V-E – Listen to the one voice emerging – organism consciousness/frequency!
Your reflective listening helping me to better understand what/why/how I am saying – saying what I mean and meaning what I say.
Listening >> understanding >> agreement >> acting together
A + B + C = getting the clear picture of the whole – evolving co-intelligence
Charge/polarity: +/-
Minus – taking/asking; Plus – giving/offering
“It is more blessed to give (+) than to receive (-)”!
Distinguish pause in the thread (horizontal) & asking for silence (vertical)
q-A is for anyone in the us, not only the me
q6 comes before q7/q-C – “Be quick to listen & slow to speak”
The array diagram is in 3D, that’s why it looks asymmetrical in 2D!
Experiencing the 4D reality is more important.
– Far-UVC light
EIA 2020
– My motto:
Be true, enjoy life & make a difference!
30.7.20
– Touch the (base of the) TIP
– desultory
dulcimer
aplomb
– If I told you, “You could have the greatest pleasurable experience ever possible, but then you would forget it ever happened”, would you still say YES?!
– It’s enough for me to know that IT exists! 😎
– Using words, to show that words don’t even come close, including this!
– Replace present with pussy, then see what happens. Just don’t blog it!
– You guys…… Seriously??
What kinda party is this?!
The best kinda party, of course!!
– This is how your reality becomes your fantasy! 🙂
– this woke up life
Typed by audio ☝🏾
👇🏾
Woke Up This Life
– I’m AWESOME!
I intended to close my eyes at 18:55 of the video and open at 20:00.
And I did!
After that, I watched in perfect stillness for one more minute. Just the minute before writing this! 😉
– Watched an entire video in slo-mo!
Couldn’t distinguish between fast & slo………………
– Start what you completed.
– Recording of a screenshot
And the
Screenshot
Of
A
R
_ecording
– Real-world porn-stars
– Do you know what it is like, to be exhausted of pleasure?
I DO.
– Spread the energy from this throbbing/pulsating spot, to every nook & cranny of the your universal life!
– Stay
(still)
…… till the rest of the video
– No matter what you do, it makes no difference,
NOW
go out and change the world! 👊🏾
FUCK YEAH 🤟🏾
– AWE-rimming
Oh GOD Og goG
You’re so fun.
– ………. and the molten golden lava (GML) river, flowed into my right ear, went across my brain, and came out through my left……….
– Time is an illusion.
No.
Time is THE illusion.
– The happy life
OR
A glorious existence
CHOOSE! ☝🏾
– If doing the same thing over & over again feels amazing, would you still want difference?
No, I would want BOTH! ✌🏽
Yes, I can make it happen.
I can.
Yes, I can.
TRUST
– Death is to life what everyday living is to THIS.
How could I still be making sense?
This shouldn’t be possible!
Ha ha ha ha ha ha
– Soliloquy – even the/my descent is too high (for you)
– These stoned journal entries of mine is Faust for my generation.
HAIL SATAN! 😈
– The high lasts long enough for you to experience it as eternal life or the kingdom of heaven.
And it is real enough to make you feel absolutely fantastic, and it is fantastic enough to make you believe its real.
– From stardust to ashes
And back
Archives of the deleted
– Is it better to (not) know that we are living in the best of all possible worlds?
– What is the difference between the moaning of the one being fingered, and the one fingering?
Can’t you tell yet!
– Unlimited energy, available
– to move from the pursuit of happyness to living gloriously!
– Contrast:
Life is failure
&
Failure as life
– Subtitle reader
– “Love me like a ritual,
I will be your medicine man.” – Winger
“Real Love,
Where are you?
I need you!
Love, love, love
Real Love…
I love you.” – Slaughter
1.8.20
– Spiritual disciplines – not magical “means of transformation”, but just ways to keep the desire for personal growth alive! That’s why they work. They keep us open to GRACE!
Actively engaging in cultivating the passive capacity of reception……
NEGATIVE work
– Who am I? What am I?
Have you realized this yet??
If not, how do you know how best to deal with your circumstances and relate to others in your life?!
E.g. Are you an alpha or a beta (male)? Are you a driven or contented person? Are you a dominant or submissive (female)?
There is no shame in accepting who you are and building on it, the only shame is trying to be(come) someone else all your life……
Have you seen the sidekick character in films? Of course, he/she is the hero of their own life yes ☝🏾, but they find their true selves only in playing the supporting role to another. ✌🏽
Or maybe I am just a narcissist, relentlessly (& remorselessly) objectifying everyone around me…? 🙃
But what if I’m not! 👊🏾
What if these are not just grandiose delusions, but just the plain truth?
– Compare album covers:
MJ’s Dangerous
&
Bob Dylan’s All Along the Watchtower
– Simply Red – If I don’t know me by now,
I will never never never know me…! 🙃
My job is to show you who you are, for, apart from the mirror, nobody can see their own face.
But then, how do I know myself? By showing others who they really are, I realize who I am, in the process!
– MJ
Give in to me (Me to you)
&
Dirty Diana (You to me)
The guru-sishya romance
The mutual realization of the ego & the unconscious through the ritualized dance of BDSM!
“Like a ritual” – Winger
I need (to give to) you and you need (to receive from) me
– Why don’t I like the language of rights, and activists of these various social justice movements??
– கர்த்தாவே, நீர் வெளிப்படுத்தினதை நான் கேட்டேன், எனக்குப் பயமுண்டாயிற்று; கர்த்தாவே, வருஷங்களின் நடுவிலே உம்முடைய கிரியையை உயிர்ப்பியும், வருஷங்களின் நடுவிலே அதை விளங்கப்பண்ணும், கோபித்தாலும் இரக்கத்தை நினைத்தருளும்.
ஆபகூக் 3:2
O LORD, I have heard thy speech, and was afraid: O LORD, revive thy work in the midst of the years, in the midst of the years make known; in wrath remember mercy.
Hab. 3:2
– Psychedelic + porn + masturbation + meditation + solitude + abstinence + romance = sexual fulfillment!
At least 3 (preferably all) of these elements in dynamic interactive equal combination, on an intense, balanced, long-term rhythm!
– Heirloom – Christian fucking metal!
3.8.20
– Present – the gift of the moment!
– “Freedom’s just another word for nothing left to lose.” – Janis Joplin
– Shell company
Rare earths
Full-cycle economics
Reputational risks
Skeptical environmentalist
Group-think & Confirmation bias
5.8.20
– Vomiting the rainbow
&
Drinking through my ears
– I should conduct an OSM when stoned! 😈
Amen.
YES, lord!
– re-member this feeling!
– Next time, try to fail accidentally!
Okay?
This is my only prayer.
GOD is kneeling down in Heaven and praying for these fucking prayer-warriors to get up and DO something…… 🙄
– “Leave you(r) f(e)ar behind!”
– Let me be your ASMR, dears! 😘
– “I can never die”
I CAN live forever
I can NEVER come to terms with my own death
BOTH/AND?
– Apply the hash oil at that spot and then feel a local orgasm building up!
4 hour orgy – can you beat this?!
10.8.20
– Spiritual chicanery
obstreperous
alienist
osteopathy
– 17:28 left
– Today, I have fulfilled the purpose of my life – I have proven (for, to & in myself) that the Gospel IS INDEED true! 😁
– Image – me Perry Mason PM & GOD Sister Alice
I have seen the secret of life, therefore, Rejoice!
My friends……
12.8.20
– The day after my 42nd birthday – the first day of my resurrection!
– “Don’t you EVER cry TONIGHT!”
– Enlightenment scene from “Never Look Away”
– I AM (identifying with) the Rejected messiah!
– Mistrial
– syndicate (v.)
influencers
13.8.20
– No refractory period after orgasm…? WOW!
– Bodhisattva ~ Pentecost ~ me bringing out the treasures from my own enlightenings
– Chellam’s birthday greeting card cover art – “The Last Station” film – death/departure scene
14.8.20
– Connect:
The amputation scene in “I Know This Much is True”
&
The suicide of Mark Fisher
My own melancholia……
Maybe a little bit of Jordan Peterson’s existential/individualistic truth therapy may have “saved” Mark’s life……?
– JFF ~ just for fun ~ joyous friends forever
– shamrock
– metaphysical tan-lines
– OSM – as you all breathe according to my guidance, I resuscitate your dead spirits through my breath(y voice)! 👁️
– Perry Mason – last episode of first season is Holy Saturday is our lives is love is GOD.
– Am I going crazy, my dear?
I may destroy you.
– From nearly there… to
NOW-ly here!
– Long-forgotten threads, left abruptly hanging,
Waiting,
Longing,
Preparing,
To be picked up again!
– It lets me be who I wanna be,
When I think more than I ought to think.
– Crystalline Black 🖤
– “What’s beyond Murder?”
– wog
15.8.20
– My life – can you see the method in the madness?
OSM – can you see the madness in the method?
– Saviour without salvation (rejected messiah)
Vs.
Salvation without saviour (atheist faith)
16.8.20
– haymaker
Cards against humanity
Great glibness & unctuous egoism
Sponging preachers & hypocritical jargon
Moral mendacity & tribal self-interest
meliorism
Declamatory flights
Exegetical elasticity
cognizable
effete
tweed
charnel
nostrum
– What/who are you, outside your own constituency?
– How does her pussy feel, when she’s eating another girl’s?
I wanna feel that!
17.8.20
– Hastening (the End) by anticipating (the New)
– “Omae wa mou shindeiru” – “You’re already dead” (Naruto)
– Now you’ve got something to die for (Lamb of God) + Revolutionary army (Penny Dreadful)
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