16.9.23
coquelicot
ridgepole ~ rooftree
mirador
debouche
runnel
floribundia
pebbly
covey
17.9.23
telluric
abhorration
Are you ashamed of your shamelessness?
face-melting
Kim Phuc
droits
We have moved from a world where the living were under threat of death, to a world in which the dead are forced to live under threat of (endless torture?)……
No breakthrough, without a prior dead-end
18.9.23
abreaction
pretermission
dementia praecox
infusoria
animalcule
amphimixis
19.9.23
Scientific language as metaphorical
Philosophy as metapsychology
Heart ~ blood ~ flow
Are any two subatomic particles (E.g. Electrons) exactly identical (in mass, rotation, charge, etc.)?
But for me, the (pain of) excitation is more preferable, than the (pleasure of) discharge, as it is for most others… Because they are mostly in a state of activity, and I am almost always in a state of quiescence.
Pleasurable excitation Vs. Painful quiescence Vs. Painful excitation Vs. Pleasurable quiescence.
What about neutral activity, like sleepwalking?
Extreme equilibrium – white-hot sleep!
Iatromantis
My very own private firing-squad (for pleasure)
Is it possible/necessary to be outrageous & elegant at the same time?
culottes
iterate
Dangerous hedonism
This feeling is somewhere in between numbness, pleasure & pain… or is it something altogether different, like nausea?
Strychnine as stimulant
cabrón
truant ~ hooky
stile
goujeers
moated grange
thievish
mescal
switchback
cantina
whiskerando
rubicund
waggish
seigniorage
snifter
litharge
pips
20.9.23
Maybe I am meant to be a secret inspiration and shaping influence, on these few people, who would later become “great”……
divagations
Isha+Rhea
Is this what “putting yourself under the pump” means??
22.9.23
Are you really conservative inside and radical only on the outside? Is the inside more real than the outside? Is radical better than conservative? Is it worth even asking any of these questions? I would keep asking them, even if it was totally irrelevant & useless!
Profound uncertainty
Vs.
Absolute non-existence
Life can only lead to death. Only death can produce life.
Isn’t the shepherd closer to the wolf, than he is to the sheep?
MyGov
decantation
Active degeneration
Deliberate defects
Geostrategy < Biopolitics
brow
Dismembering reality
Seeds of unreality – a porous permeable fabric
The expired word
whorl
flywheel
sepals
Empty perceptions
Foe + fire = FIE!
Junkies & pushers
Have you ever imagined yourself as/inside a comatose patient in the ICU (comfortably numb)?
When evaluating a metal album (on whether to add it to my favorites or not), first listen to all the songs in one go, WITHOUT the lyrics – a pure sonic experience
Life > consciousness > intentionality
E.g. There can be no consciousness without life, but not vice-versa
Painless suffering Vs. Prolonged death
cur
serried
Adversarial tradition
Make half your trips slow/mild (instead of all fast/intense)
24.9.23
Triskelion – the (erect) penis as the third leg
S(t)imulate your self
Take YOUR time
25.9.23
The materiality of language!
The only truth is dare (risk), and the only dare is truth (honesty)!
Truth or Dare
Vs.
Trick or Treat
Perpetual (convalescent) adolescence ~ arrested development
Nietzsche (Libidinal economy) ← Freud + Marx
Sexuality as masculine spirituality, and spirituality as feminine sexuality
Her vagina is NOT a pussycat, unlike her!
“I see it in your eyes, the tearing in your heart”
Body-writings
History of the flesh & crises of representation
Liberatory decadence
Validating the invalid & recluse
prognosticate
Pensive pathological being – sitting & hearing each other groan
Literature as pathography – how does the body speak through illness?
The patient poet – writing & writhing
Illness ~ intoxication
Jayanta Mahapatra
The dying shtick
Anatole Broyard
Transcultural experience
Therapeutic possibilities of the Wasteland
Firangi
other/-wise
Mudra ~ Mantra
The Asian Heidegger
Phenomenontology
carcerality
Generous attention
Finding one’s feet
Diagnosing (the blissful ignorance of) health
Literature > narrative; Creativity > the work
Immature psychosis
Childish catastrophes
Modernist angst as psychosomatic alienation
Disease ~ Disposition
From self-consciousness to body-awareness
Re-embodying the mind
Sanguis + cruor = corpus
Manifest insistence
s(t)oma
Bravura rendering
The touch of the outside and the joy of death
ether(eal)ize ~ corpsify
sarcosophy
patienthood
Excessive consciousness
Contagion – evil as the virus that infects the (good) body
Orgasmatron
From modernity to modernism
Addicted to the cure (for malaise)
I’m-patience
26.9.23
Ejaculation as excretion
Consciousness ~ present ~ outside. Unconscious memory ~ past ~ inside. Imagination ~ future ~ remote
Circle – the perimeter is nothing but a (temporary) expanded form of the center
I am NOT Faust. I am (your) Mephistopheles! 👹
I have realized, the primary site of my work is the masculine body (starting with my own) 🔥
almoner
tellurics
I am the opposite/nemesis of the Renaissance (well-rounded) man 😏
feeling-tone
Autonomous complexes
I AM the dividual
The evolution of my Mother continues, in/through me, NOW without the frustration of Christian morality……….!
fune-real
inhume
Sabrina & Jung ~ Salome & Nietzsche ~ Diotima & Socrates
Fortuitous pain
27.9.23
The mysterious happening of human existence
“Beau is Afraid” is better than “Crimes of the Future”. Or, I like the former better than the latter, although the latter is also good.
Negative love
Self-objectification
I becomes we becomes they
Sexual murder
Death fantasies
Auto-erotic isolation
Dark sexuality & spiritual regeneration
Self-birthing
Tragic realism
Wish-personality
Psychotics & artists as dreamers
Wagnerian heroes
The individual self Vs. The collective soul
Singularity is sublimity
The spitting (s)exorcist
Unreal existence ~ suspended animation
Maybe it is the truly alive (select few), who feel as if they are zombies, in a dystopian world
There are 2 types of dysfunctional people:
Those who feel guilty & try to repent
Those who feel angry & condemn the world instead
Death as dedifferentiation
Agri-culture as mytho-logy
Sun & sea ~ male & female ~ seed & soil
That which is not destroyed remains destructive
Learning to enjoy the Numbness
28.9.23
When doing something, don’t feel or think, just/only/simply DO (it).
Judgment:
1.
It’s okay to be okay
+
It’s not okay to be not okay
2.
It’s not okay to be okay
+
It’s okay to be not okay
1 Vs. 2
Feeling:
High & relaxed + Low & relaxed
Low & restless + High & restless
1 Vs. 2
The myth of creation and the creation of myth
Void ~ vortex ~ portal
Essay ~ assay
29.9.23
I offer/sacrifice my double-stoned cock to my goddess, the Great Mother
T(h)rashy art
Extreme-ities
If not now then when? If not here then where?
Empty opus
Using letters as symbols – fuck language back!
Film school project
Closed-door subjects
Breathing ~ reading
Mirrorless existences ~ total solitude
“Beau Is Afraid” and “Joker” are 2 sides of the same coin! (Is that coin called Joaquin Phoenix??)
What is this?
Naming/defining is NOT
knowing/touching
I’m feeling lucky, wretched wisdom and weakling battles
If lived alone, I would be happier, & sadder, & more Mortal
Human flotsam
Multicultural graveyard
Symbolic death
pi(e)ty
Br(ex)it
Is the world today a “much better place” compared to ~ 100 or even 1,000 years ago?
Optical unconscious
Consciousness-of-stream
Over-representation exhaustion
Compassion fatigue
Reconstructing one’s own past via the violence of organized forgetting
Bridge metaphor
Incantatory text
Catafalque
Black rain
Saving strangers
Pink-er
The underclass
The death of the victim (as a symbol/icon/idol)
Remote war
Post-industrial shadowlands
Well-meaning & brainless meat-puppets
Dangerous populations
The double standard of liberalism
Metaphysical hubris & international intervention
conscript
Digital containment
Titillate ~ petrify ~ outrage
PSTD
bolgia
retrotopia
Is numbness a feeling? 😅
antipodean
If you’re sober > half the time, then you’re not (yet) an addict
30.9.23
Maybe my daughter will be the one to successfully slay (behead) me
Obsessional constraint
postface
Acosmic, pre-individual, singular intensities
Dogmatic slumber
Hamann & Jacobi
Sacred ~ cultic
Vicious circle ~ eternal return
Mutual, reciprocal, equal causation! E.g. Subject/person & Object/world
Social institutions Vs. Elementary forces
Group fantasies
Parrhesia, Diacritics
The new amorous world
Mortalizing thought via the decadent body
Theogony ~ physiognomy
The foolish immortal anchorite
gyre
fungible
Non-exchangeable value
Sterile enjoyment & wasteful production
Utensilary superstition & efficient destruction
Constitutional determinism
Laruelle as inverse Hegel?
The substructure of infrastructures
The psychic life of power
Imponderable forces
Callipygian Venus
Unconcealment of the tragic secret
From sex without procreation to pleasure without orgasm
Complex passions
The gregarious fulfillment of subjective unity
Can animals be selfish, as opposed to speciesist?
Capitalism as totalitarianism; Advertising as propaganda
What would you choose, if a Djinn offered you 3 wishes?
The second wish would be the reversal of the first (E.g. Unlimited money), and the last would be to have 3 more wishes… 😜
From sexuality to erotism
What proportion of the global population is middle-class or bourgeois? Is the spirit of the age dictated by this?
Active presence
Emerald Tablet ~ Gospel of Thomas
medi(t)ation
telesma
New discoveries from Old Worlds
Hal Taussig
Phalansteries – affinity classes
Organizing playful rituals
Passional aspiration
Romance, sport, art
The game as liberatory reality
Perverse emotions
Serious voluptuosity
Wretched wisdom
Which do you prefer – a natural (later) death or a violent (earlier) death?
Is the intellectual just a castrated/emasculated warrior?
The electromagnetic (hollow) body
1.10.23
predicant
Parnassian
Mummy’s 3rd (death) anniversary
dysautonomia
2.10.23
alacrity
Wicked humor
Žižek’s “parallax gap” (atheistic) ~ William Desmond’s “metaxology” (theistic)?
Animal suffering
Honest advertising
stodgy
Mate bait
Rexit
Hard-edged & dark… Jaw-droppingly distinctive
The secret gospels
Spiritual circumcision
grubs
Gentle master(y)
3.10.23
Cleft tongue
4.10.23
Non(standard)-fiction
6.10.23
demonst(e)rate ~ de-monster-ate
Spectator-sport
Learn to embrace whatever is – pain &/or pleasure &/or blah – become so capacious that your own incapacity is also hospitably accommodated!
Living in the eternal moment ~ my default mode is absent-mindedness
May IT happen in, through & around me
Passive exultation
Death as victory/vengeance
In-finity
Become used to doing nothing for prolonged periods of time, without getting restless, dejected or drowsy – this is your primary task!
7.10.23
From “Who am I?” to “What this is!”
Distinguish:
Sunrise & dawn
Sunset & dusk
twilight
From leap to explosion
The happiness of a pessimist
The horrors & dangers of the mundane/routine
You don’t want to get high yes. But the High wants to get you! 😈
Judas (Iscariot/Satanic) Priest
SFG: Spiritual Friendship Group ~ Science Fiction Generale (Laruelle)
Barbie Vs. Anabelle
- 10.23
It is possible that I’m feeling (unusually) miserable because of (the psychic/spiritual impact of) certain current catastrophic world events…?
Am I responsible for my depression, and therefore guilty of feeding this laziness through my own choice of attitude & lifestyle? Being both my own victim & culprit is intolerable, isn’t it?
antsy
Triumphant disaster
earthlight
daybed
10.10.23
Does an enlightened guru have rage attacks?
From society of the spectacle to collage of individual visionaries
Theoretical experience & experiential practice
parricide
From magic to science to
Social imaginary & faith horizon
Return to ferity & mission of malice
From moral satire to literary bestiality
Ingesting (therefore, also digesting, assimilating & excreting) philosophy
Isn’t Pornography my chief influence?!
“GOD is all mouth”
Human wildness
From criticism to destruction
Today, porn is even more strictly censored than gore!
Semiotic derangement
Negative discourse
Max Ernst & Lewis Carroll
William Burroughs & Kurt Cobain
Collage novel
frottage
Picture books
Fap tribute & celeb skin
White mythology
Unselfconscious arena
Invisible art & inaudible music
bildungsphilister – is it possible that I’m not a self-deluded idiot?! Is there a foolproof way of confirming this?? 😅
Prenatal paradise & nostalgia for the womb
“You’re only a rebel from the waist down” – maybe the central cerebral control wanes as the distance of the organ from the brain increases…… 🤪
aquiline
Amphibious modality
Edenic gestation
Platonic bias
Pure difference
parasol
Paramyths – declassify ~ unworlding
The Real is monstrous (to us), only because we have been thoroughly formalized
Cultural reversions – kulturputsch
lo-fi
Reflections of a representation of the real
Metonymic figurations
My whole body is full of eyes, but when I see you, I only see 2 poor eyes, both lodged in the head, looking back! So how can I NOT objectify you??
Original fragments ~ organs without body
Hybridized creatures
The structurality of entrapment
Phantom of a phantom
iStripper zoom ~ headless torso ~ hundred-headed woman
Semantic distortions
Germinal perturbation
What would it be like to live in a world where everybody is illiterate/ignorant?
Freeplay & supplementarity
High jinx
11.10.23
Birdsong @ Anna Nagar, Chennai
Hard-wired to self-destruct
The name of (one of) my God(esses) is Keeley Olivia
Even if you see this object from any angle (360°), you will ONLY see its backside (or outside). Because the face is turned inward!
Meditation is (the old) masturbation…?
Third Eye Blind
Cardi B + Megan Thee Stallion
13.10.23
Why does tech stuff (software/hardware) malfunction, just like humans do? Why do I expect it NOT to be infected with the same virus/void that is in us??
freighter
windlass
bulkhead
forecastle
quartermaster
galley
antipode
caftan
serape
euchre
spiel
Hard bargaining
voluble, glib
sharkskin
shagreen, chagrin
bullthrowing, shooting the breeze
tweeds
nutation
peon ~ pawn
dynasty ~ destiny
Drops of God – Alexandre Leger was a pretentious old fool!
mirador
swarthy
Cloacal speech
monotreme
Excrete ~ purge ~ cleanse
Body politic – am I not the asshole of my society?
Could I insert myself in between these 2 biospiritual brothers?!
cartero
Malcolm Lowry is fucking crazy and I love it! Alcoholic writing
dungaree
wizened
I too shall pass, unless I’ve already failed (to disappear)…… 😜
zacuali
gable
vermillion, mauve
Nameless objects
Movable defences
crenellations ~ battlements
Gold leaf
chevron
Wheeling cloud shadows
Flying balcony
Golfing scorpions
Hurling backwards
Unexampled horrendousness
harpy
Prohibitionist poster
The water bottles in my house are always empty. I am raped by thirst, fatigue and fury.
tumulose
Automatic & indifferent living
barfly
“Name of a name of God”
Who was my mother… really??
Adversarial reasoning
SFG as “emergency brake system”
15.10.23
Maurice Blanchot interviews himself
Wreck ~ recharge
Overturning point
berserker furor
Is there an art of living (& dying) which can be designed from a nihilistic perspective or tragic attitude?
Self-confrontation
decreation
Eternal sin
Sacrifice of virgins
Cultural moment
Systematized rape
The (no-)things behind the veil (of the human)
Avoiding precarity
shamefastness
Displeasure Vs. Bad pleasure
Field uncut
Counterfeit women
Translucent gender
Am I still in the stage of Christian hangover (mourning the death of GOD)? Would I ever emerge out of this (on to the other side) in this life?
Perverse immortality
Crowning irony
Fatigue + restlessness = misery
Interexist ~ follow each other
Blind to other realities
Shadow of a doubt
In Christianity, divine sovereignty provides the very basis of human freedom. Whereas in Greek tragedy, fate requires the collusion of free-will to unfold in history!
hard-boiled
Tangled emotions
Weirded out
Distinguish: Untruths & Puns
An outbreak of trembling laughter
telesm
16.10.23
O how we make gurus & idols out of even the most radical iconoclastic figures…!
Phaidra’s skin-game of truths
Cunt sweat – imagine a world in which female desire/sexuality is fully released – just a heap of ashes! 🫠
“Avoid (hanging around) boring people” 😅
The timeless language of the Hopis
Mannerist excess
Designifying greatness
Deception by convention
Crown of disgrace
18.10.23
While I feed my mind with grand ideas and secretly converse with revolutionary giants, my real life is being consumed with the mundane duties and to-dos of a mediocre bourgeois existence……! Fuck this shit 😡 I’m outta here. O yeah? But how? I don’t care anymore whether I survive or not. Really!? Come on, don’t kid yourself 😅 I mock & taunt myself to death. Even then, I’m so full of myself…
Autobiographical allegory
Anti-wedding ceremony
The bride’s animal mask
From primitivism to decadence
Pornological invocation
The libidinal matter underlying cultural forms
Entrapment by pictorial rhetoric
How to catch a bird
Mirror ~ ruse
Interchangeable functions
20.10.23
vise
“Trappers trapping themselves”
brooch
What would you do if the current mix (weed + porn + sildenafil) stops working, Joey boy!? 🤪
“It rains”; Pure instruments; Userless apps
Unable to see when acting, and unable to act when seeing
Is double bind the same as catch 22?
But where is the pleasure of discipline in your life nowadays??
The knower and the witness – the same or different? If different, which is preeminent?
The tyranny of the unconscious
If you cannot join them (because you hate them so), then beat them (even if the attempt is gonna destroy you)
Non-signifying categories
Beyond (or the hidden in between) alive & dead (feeling) – a third way/door/ground (being) – the middle voice (or in between active/life and passive/dead)
Demythifying enterprise
In-sign-ificant
Are you so fortunate as to know (someone truly great like) me in your (puny/petty/shallow) life?! Ha ha ha ha…… I gotcha there!? Who is greater than me in my circle? Forget that, I’m just glad I have equals/peers, and therefore I’m NOT friendless.
Pleasure without pain leads to numbness
I’ve NOT seen/used a perfect machine…… yet (although I’m surrounded by hi-tech gadgets)! But aren’t humans perfect as they are (once you’ve abandoned theo-anthropo-logy)? Yes of course, but they’re not complete, unless they exti(nct)guish themselves to give birth to the Superman (or whatever you wanna call the next evolutionary phase/stage). Perfect, but not complete, yet! Death (only? of those who have ever really lived!) as the guaranteed & unfailing completion of sanctification or universal justification or comprehensive glorification.
If life is nothing but the superficial layer of death, when alive, then isn’t death also nothing but the superficial layer of life, when dead?
From popular culture to high art to ordinary philosophy
From protagonist/hero (or villain) to agonist/anti-hero (or joker)
21.10.23
turntable
Immobile machines
roundhouse
redoubt
From logic to logistics
God is king is war is mobility is control is discipline is morality is politics is business is technology is society
polemarch
Poliorcetic schema
The pole of reversal ~ the point of convergence
semaphore
Vectorial politics
The Ministry of Time and the Department of Space
Standardization ~ production ~ mobilization ~ destruction – the vicious cycle
22.10.23
Inhuman thought
Slow extasy
Delirious theory-fictions
anarchitecture
Schizophrenic metaphysics
fusty
From critique to acceleration
heteroclite
miscegenation
dissimulation
thanatropic
familialism
From contentless forms (ghosts) to formless content (matter)
Life/desire/animal/flesh/enjoyment
Vs.
Knowledge/will/human/spirit/control
affined
Unknown materiality
destratification
Is there any point in getting stoned without an erection??
All I need to do is to let IT happen, in, through & around me! Nothing else is required. Even this is NOT essential for IT to unfold, but just makes it easier for me (spares me the unnecessary self-imposed suffering), to cooperate with what cannot (and therefore need not) be resisted or defeated!
poet-werewolf-rat-genius
I am infuriated by the/my failure to achieve a satisfying high. This will slowly fade into a gnawing sadness, and finally dissolve into a paralyzing apathy…… returning back to the cycle of desire & disappointment.
Trakl died at 27. Was it a “suicide”?
Exploratory redesignings of the human
strato-analysis; schizo-numerics
otiose
tendentious
Intensive matter ~ body-without-organs
K-space
eldritch
Sexual intercourse without the other
If orgasm is the “little death”, then wouldn’t that make death the BIG orgasm!?
Abstract animism
Darkside jungle futurism
Neuromancer
anastrophic temporality
auto-poiesis
transfinites
geotrauma
ontogenesis & phylogenesis
cardinality & ordinality
limn
Non-mathematical numerical practices
Kapital metropolis
Welfare capitalism
Patrilineal economy
patronymy
23.10.23
an(nul)us
Intensify (the fall) ~ accelerate (the end)
The Superman is NOT (and is yet) human, just like the human (is and yet) is NOT ape
The aggressive absurdity of logic
Inhibited encounter with alterity
ancien regime
extortionate
The exuberant ambition of capital-ized reason
Theory as the contemporary form of future experience
psychiatrize
petit-bourgeois
The nostalgia & sentimentality of pacifism
Uninhibited synthesis
ringer
waggle
devilled
Meccano
24.10.23
Gospel of Truth (Valentinus) ~ Bodies (Si Spencer)
Long in the tooth
Maybe the denial of any and all sinister plots is the greatest conspiracy theory of all!
The very same recurring nightmare
Truth Vs. Life
You’re already dead + know you are loved
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