Month: November 2024

24.9.24

To bawl oneself out

Non-relational identity

“The object thinks through the subject” ~ Man is the eye through which the Universe speculates the World

I love (fucking) myself

Rise, Hellions!

Can you hear the crickets?

25.9.24

Sight unseen

The heart breaks before the body ~ relationships die before people do ~ love goes, before life does ~ tragedy/failure precedes the end/death

punctilious gaze

Rigorous fiction ~ fidelity without doctrine

Symptomal material

Non-standard human ~ Heretical bodies

From legendary/mythic Christ to generic/scientific Man

Anthropic principle ~ observation selection effect

Non-philosophers as atheist religious leaders

Why is DLI/unilateralization NOT the same as (the older) divine emanation?

selectionist

buggery

addled

The Real/One is LESS sophisticated than the head/thought

Writing as flow Vs. Writing as code

inane

lumenproletariat

The worst thing that can happen to a radical is to be worshipped! Even being crucified is better than that 🤪

gaylibs

“What am I in the face of my obscure material potencies?”

Autochthonic monster

Charles Sobhraj

Grounding myth ~ founding ordeal

From Philosophy to Schizoanalysis

Thinking about thought

Imbricated multiplicities

Transcendental opacity > > contingently inchoate

They need structures like family, work, religion, etc. because they are weaker than you.
Or, they are actually stronger than you, so they can radicalize these institutions, unlike you who needs to escape them in order to maintain your integrity/authenticity.
Or, maybe it’s just difference, without any hierarchy!

The density of the real

Stochastic dimensions

Intensive naturalism

The redoubling of chance via thought (active risk)

The surly & twilit legacy of outlying realms (of experience)

How or why does a psycho-fucker like Mohaghegh get married and have a daughter to boot…!?

Apprehension & condensation of singularities ~ Ideal composition of events & bodies

Little sunshine (Ghost) ~ Deadhead (Devin Townsend)

Witches’ flight

Ideas as demands!

Why does the author use “we” to refer to himself in his book?
E.g. Ray Brassier in Nihil Unbound

Post-critical faith

Indefinite transformation/infinite mutation

The justification of belief in doubt

Deus sive natura – Spinoza as the “Christ of Philosophy”

Immanence as fire

aver

The Universe as known by man – The World – humanized black

Technical gore metal

What does the Outside have to do with thought?

The bikini-killer

Larval subjects – from developmental to evolutionary psychology

Theist → atheist → anti-theist → non-theist

26.9.24

In childhood, I was closer to my father. In youth, closer to my mother. In adulthood, neither were close. Now, back to (dead) mother!

Proletarian gnosis

dispositif

gauche proleterienne

Survival is the ultimate principle of sufficiency

Facticity > > factuality

The agnostic world ~ the empirecal

Matrix of universal semblance

Sufficient s(p)ecularity ~ SS (Secret Service)

Self-encompassing (looping) power

sékommça – “It’s like that”!

Worldly/agnostic/relative truth

The subject of anti-philosophy is/as rigorous gnosis

Aggressive depression

From
Revolution
To
Rebellion

“If we want things to stay as they are, we have to know how to change everything.”

Psychoanalysis – science of the unsimple fact of exotic force

Delirium as the way of the impossible

Militarization of the common man

Non-philosophical canon ~ Non-religious organon

Melancholy is to man as divinity is to GOD

Haecceity ~ manance

27.9.24

Dream: She is cuddling with him, right in front of me.
(He is the opposite of me). She is stabbing me, but a hole opens up in my abdomen to let the blade go through without harming my body……

Dispersion + pierced = dispierced

Positive negativity ~ the real of Reality ~ void/soul ~ canonization
Negative positivity ~ reality of the Real ~ subject/body ~ militarization

The Real as both agent (determination) & patient (rejection) of the subject

Saint-without-glory

Living-suicide

Neither cynicism nor vitalism

c’est comme ça ~ realist fatalism

manence

hickceity

yokel

Dasein ~ living (in light of) (my own) death

Who is time?

It (the primal something) worlds

Finite transcendence ~ individuated temporality

ekstatikon – in & for itself

Non-identical actuality

Consciousness/subjectivity is as superfluous to effective functioning as dreams are to sleep

Existential analysis

Severe tongue-lashing → uncontrollable moaning → explosive ending

Time is temporal!

Possibility (ecstatic) > > actuality (static)
NOT the other way around

Dasein can never actually die (Heidegger) ~ the body is immortal (UG)

presencing

“The Black Sun never sets, because it never rose”

Male squirting

28.9.24

Pornication + Nofap = Tantra 🤪

Trying to cum twice consecutively (like the female) can kill the male!

Make your own rules, and follow them most of the time… until you change them

affordance 💪🏾

Thinking as learning as reading as writing

What would a story of the philosophical attitude & imagination be like?

Sundar Sarukkai & the Barefoot Philosophers

The Real as the true life of Death

“The Real” is just a first name of the really real

Unimaginable actuality

Still life and the time of death

Difference/matter & repetition/memory

The Real as transcendental feeling

Pure quality/intensity (as opposed to quantity & extensity)

Ontological univocity

In-&-for-itself

perplication

From doubling to unbinding

The individual as spatio-temporal dynamism

Dark precursor as differenciator of difference

The enveloping & enveloped body

Jungian collective unconscious ~ Platonic world of forms ~ social/racial consciousness

29.9.24

The system of the dissolved self

Passive synthesis of pure past & old present

Sub-representational habit

The Future is before the beginning

Time is inner space and space is outer time

Pre-individual singularities

Thinking as tsunami – the shattering of the surface by shockwaves from the deep!

Fractured I

Universal individual ~ thinker of eternal recurrence

Condition for action BEFORE concept of reflection

Mind as repetition of the body with a difference

The empty form & empirical content of time

Intracyclic & intercyclic time

subsumption

What is the difference between concept & Idea (in Deleuze)?

What repeats in difference and what is different in repetition?

What is the importance (if any) of (reading) something (that seems so) irrelevant & useless?

The act of thinking as the caesura in time

The thinker as vehicle of the New

In order to properly understand this philosophical term, you can’t just refer a dictionary, but would have to read ~ hundreds of pages of the thinker who coined it (or at least a ten page article on it/them). Or you will gradually learn it via a long, indirect & arduous journey in reading thousands of pages of such heavy shit……

Inequality-in-itself

Impersonal individuations

The anonymous experience of dying

Who will you be today?

Should we call the doctor or the police or the priest!? 🤣

Their lives are better off than mine. But my theory is more real than theirs!

Sub-representational experience

Intensive (as opposed to extensive) thinking & noumenal (as opposed to empirical) nature

From representation to simulacra

quartermaster

Higher/Right/Foreground
Vs.
Lower/Left/Background

Sitra Ahra & Qliphot

The contemplation of evil

The philosophy of shit

“The shell precedes the fruit”

Ontological husk

30.9.24

Secret Society

soutane

Tel Quel

The victims of the libertine

Klossowski my neighbor

The hypothesis of the stolen artwork

arguably

Death of GOD → Will to power → Eternal return

Fucking → loving ~ Fighting → obeying ~ Thinking → believing

Non-identical repetition of fortuitous instances

The colorless outside

Latinate style

Endless pleasure offered to the initiated reader

Uniqueness ~ marginality

suppôt

paratext

Spiritual pharmacology

Peyote dance

Tableaux ~ plateau

Plan(e) of immanence

geomancy

Feng Shui

per impossible

instauration

ancilla

Transcendence is nothing but as-yet-unrealized immanence

From ancient theurgy to modern aesthetic experimentation

Self-possession

The body as fluid sculpture

Beautiful tragedy

The hero cult

prettify

Unconscious mastery

The abstract moment

The convergence of physical sensation (pain) & consciousness (suffering)

Glorious defeat

The eye that touches

The link between the incommunicable and the written word is the unremembered word

1.10.24

She made us lesbians

Erosophia → Sapphophilia

2.10.24

Non-hereditary (self-made) rulers

In-&-for-themselves

Conquering (adj.) individuality

Spiritual colonizers ~ political creators

The strivers

Kinds of moralities

Compare Zarathustra at 13 (on the mountain) and Christ at 12 (in the temple)

Reactive opposition → Creative affirmation

Nice kindness
Vs.
Cruel kindness
Vs.
Indifferent kindness

War as life-affirming, necessary evil

The will to will ~ affirmative self-overcoming

Epicurean delight Vs. Dionysian joy

Twisting the metaphysical structure of representation & solace

Tragic, cruel knowledge

3.10.24

Self-confrontation

Life that itself cuts into life ~ blood is spirit

Skirmishes of an untimely man

Life as metaphor

Homer’s contest

Philosophy/literature as the infinite conversation

Why “Zarathustra”?

obduracy; ataraxia

riven

The Cross is a mere symbol

4.10.24

demirep

The egoist’s sweetheart

Extravagating vagabonds

I once had a lover…… Now I have a wife!

commonalty

pauperism

How long can you do nothing? To what extent can you be at peace with restless fatigue?

strumpet

Corpse-bride ~ what is it like to live with a dead (spousal) self?

knout

The (humane) critic and the (shameless) egoist

disgruntled; remonstrance; truculent

contumacy

Take by the forelock

Freedom → Ownness

viz.

eleutheromaniac

Unconfessed egoists all

Chartered/donated freedoms

manumission

noodle

5.10.24

univocity

Ordered polysemy

To stay ((married) or not

irrecusable

Denying vitalism/panpsychism

Square root of minus one ❌

Voluptific capacities

“Woe is deeper than heart’s ecstasy.”

Isn’t it nonsensical to say we ought to “love & support the Universe” (Laruelle) when the Universe is also “deaf & blind” (Laruelle)?

insousiance

munificence

Love is a whim, NOT a law!

The self as will & representation ~ the ego & his own

Distinguish:
Reflection
&
Contemplation

6.10.24

Dream:
I meet my longlost (?elder) brother. I am absolutely in awe of him! He is nothing like me – NOT an intellectual type but a ruddy veteran.

Putrefying stone ~ petrifying flesh

Anarchapulco

Reflexive self-positing

Axiological crisis

The insuperable difficulties of irrealism

countermand

8.10.24

I don’t know what to do with myself anymore. I am afraid what will happen to me. I can’t face another day like this. I am suffocating within my skin, but I can’t get out.

Just breathe and be still. Stay rooted in the here & now. There is no self – Immanuel Joseph does NOT exist. So you need not worry about him anymore. Learn to live without knowing how to live. Now, move on to the next thing you (are gonna) do…… You’re only as free as you wanna be.

I don’t want to do what is required of me (by {my own place in} the world). I don’t want to do anything. I can do something or anything. And there is no more ought.

I know I can be “healed”, but I don’t want to be. Let me just be (or more fully become) who/what I am.

Distinguish:
Axiology
&
Axiomatics

Vitiating the horizonal constitution of philosophical questioning

Give up on (your own) survival. Live as if you are the only real human being. Forget about any past or future. Drop dead, even as you take each step……

You could simply destroy your world if & when you choose to. Whatever adjustments you make with “the way things are” is only a tentative, improvised & pragmatic strategy, with no real power over you.

trilobite

asymptopia

Maybe I am most enlightened when I am most miserable

Back to my guru’s guru – Schopenhauer!

Destroying the idea of “a life worth living”

Can you imagine believing that your current life is what you 🫵🏾 really wanted for yourself!?

I am your Qliphot, asshole! 💩

If the Earth is shat out by the Sun, then what does the Earth shit out?

Freud Vs. Zapffe

Palliative medication to cruel surgery

The inalienable, natural right to suffer

to(u)r(na)ments

Defend ~ repress ~ escape

Depressive Realism

Your highest endeavors are NO “better” than your most shameful secrets!

I can neither join the positive bandwagon nor am I able to kill myself

“Bitter fruits of a geniality of thought or feeling at the root of antibiological tendencies”

Reverse thinking

The work of death ~ The body of the void

The untreatable

The living dead walk among the alive living

The endmost truth ~ journey to the end of night

Non-psychoanalysis ~ fully exploiting the transformative potential (destructive power) of a failed religion

9.10.24

Psychic virus

Nightside ~ Deathwish

Jack Parsons ~ solid fuel ~ dark energy ~ material death ~ density of the real

Malabou’s criticism of positive plasticity ~ UG on thought’s obsession with continuity

Inverse Augustine ~ good is a (falsely perceived) defect within Evil

11.10.24

Negative psychoanalysis ~ Non-psychoanalysis ~ Critical psychoanalysis ~ Anti-psychoanalysis ~ Psychoanalysis against psychoanalysis

Should I go outside and sit naked in the rain, or continue reading?

Life as the lack of/in/for death

But isn’t Julia Resche also relapsing back into jouissance, when she dedicates her negative book to her daughter, for “making her death worth living”? Maybe nobody (living) can (fully) coincide with (their own) negativity…?

From seeking the unreachable goal, to completely abandoning all pursuit

ONLY the Real is real. Everything you (can) know is illusion, but what you are in-the-last-instance is real.

Personal conscious; Personal unconscious; Collective conscious; Collective unconscious

From negativity (drive) to indifference (stasis)

You only experience what you are NOT. So, if you feel dead, then you are “really” alive! 🤪

I want to feel better and I do; I want to feel better, but I don’t; I don’t want to feel better, but I do; I don’t want to feel better and I don’t

half-track

What does my luxurious indolence have to do with those fighting for survival in hostile conditions?

dhow

offal

In the beginning was Silence. This silence was with Man. And the silence was Man.

Neapolitan mafia

kaputt

meliorism

12.10.24

mise en abyme

mise en scene

14.10.24

Grotesquerie – back to my point about devilish serial killers on OTT, while beautiful lesbian pornography is censored

Dream:
Joel is writing on a white board while pornography is projected on the entire wall. Salome & I are watching……

Atheist prayers

a(n)archaic

The mathematical logic of Orwell’s inquisitor and Dostoevsky’s gambler

War whoops

Planned error ~ perverse optimism

Magical arithmetic

Lyons, Roth & Zweig

waifs

kulaks

valuta

Predatory survival

Id ~ It ~ Thing ~ This

16.10.24

ethology

Faphouse – the only porn subscription you will ever need – cheap & best

bloodlustmord

bunting

picador

insufflate

bien-pensants

ichthyophils

I am who I am because that is what I (really) want to be

milliard, billiard

17.10.24

Feminine phallus & masculine vagina

Plural, acephalic mother

Falling short of failure

Ordinary madness ~ normal illness

Sublimation is better than distraction.
(Having a child belongs to the former)

The oversaturated & extravasated void

After reproducing (or becoming parent), she has become half dead in my eyes

“There she is, my almost birthday girl!”

While others live as if the void doesn’t exist, I will live as if the world is not real

GG Allin

gloam

bairn

This world is overflowing with one thing – GARBAGE!!!

Too late to repent

Play ~ fuck ~ destroy

baryonic

The pre-gravitational era

Copula of being

khôra

scotomize

Energetic disavowal

It is possible that a non-practising scholar is better than a passionate magician, when it comes to theorizing magick!

Fugue state

Dissociative drug

Schizoid baby

“Remember you are one.”

Seeds of the full void

Atomic being

Emptying oneself into the Other

Collective body

A black babacar

Daddy-person

Excluded/hidden third

Matrix function

Transitional phenomena

Foetus ~ faeces

widdler

piggle

Injunctive jouissance

semences

Protestations of love

The baby likes to put her finger into the father’s navel

Girlie-girl

Primitive negator

Dark energy ~ Black mummy

Womb > > room > > garbage bin or toilet bowl > > tomb

Your inside wants to rupture your outside. It’s just human nature – why be ashamed, guilty or afraid of this??

Rigorist father-figure

Violating the secret

Are all babies naturally psychotic?

In love with my (image of the) mother’s corpse

The perfect pacification of venerable tortures

bagatelle

Acephale – every member was too masochistic (sacrifice) and nobody was sadistic enough to be the executioner – should I then terminate my marriage to break this deadlock?

pince-nez

Rat-man

Maybe I was already “finished” when my mother died, and that’s why I did not mourn……?

Surely, I love my mother more now than when she was alive……!

In fact, the Rat Man arrived at the first 2 sessions with Freud, in a state of acute dissociation
Vs.
In fact, the Rat Man arrived at the first 2 sessions, with Freud in a state of acute dissociation

Morbid therapy & the sick therapist

18.10.24

I am a blunt blade without handle

Sophia Falcone ~ Harley Quinn

fluxion

Why do reading & shitting go so well together?

Antepenultimate chaosmose is

askance

venality

It is NOT that the death-drive is bent on (one’s own or others’) destruction, but that it is completely indifferent to survival or success ☝🏾

espy

It is via abstract thought that I protect my concrete self from being absorbed into the universal culture

speci(es)men

19.10.24

Free State

Unman ~ inhuman

Maybe Laruelle is influenced by Stirner, but has not acknowledged it?

Eternal separation

anthropocracy

The “collective unconscious” is merely a(nother) concept in MY world/mind!

virtus, arete

Quadratic equation & formula

A political economy of philosophical practice

20.10.24

Nothinging the nothingness

sot

sou

Nessus robe

cross-bones

humbug

marten

alcove

21.10.24

bioluminescence

dagdriver

Augusto Boal – theater of the oppressed

Multivalent term

Infamous thesis

Passionate decision & exceptional reasoning

Material anxieties

Troublemaking writer

Doing nothing > > doing everything > > doing something

The many Kierkegaards

Disobedience as activism

The political-theological hyphen

Indirect communication

Anti-social (psychotic) individualist

The fractured dialectic & the refusal of transcendence

Just keep going and see what happens, instead of getting stuck in the seeming (actual!) pointlessness of it all

The intellect is “evil” (not just “bad”, the opposite of “good”)

Idler ~ wanderer ~ loser

Feel better × Feel more × Feel different

When the woman/wife reproduces, the man/husband can return to singleness!

Is sleeping also living?

Distinguish:
Apocalypse
&
Extinction

Thinking (with the help of) the greats

Distinguish:
Intellectual
&
Contemplative

Dissymmetry ~ heterogeneity ~ disjunction

Self-given task

Nomothetic Vs. Idiographic

History as theodicy

Worldly sovereignties

individuum

The normative obligations of secular legitimacy

Unfiguring the world

The absolute event of divine foolishness

“Faith is worklessness”

The individual as the ultimate paradox

Infinitely interested in (one’s own) ex-sistence

Incognito arrival

Messianic abyss

incendiarism

Christianity Vs. Christendom

Scandal ~ danger ~ thorn

The mystery of error

Constitution Vs. Commandment

Unthinkable ~ incalculable ~ impossible

Christ as Shadow Moses

Absurd slogans

monstration

Blazing landscape

Polemical concept

Unconditional sacrifice

The self-cancellation of negativity

Radical distance/separation/discrimination

The speculative equivocation ~ liquidification/neutralization of the singular event

Hegemonic fantasm

vita ante acta

Epochal condition

Now-time ~ atom of eternity

Contemporary (with-the) absolute

Go to hell ~ fuck yourself ~ drop dead

What rises… from below! 🖕🏾

Sovereignty & exception

arcana

Infinite critique

Analogia entis – fuck it!

The yawning chasm between GOD & King

Becoming in dissolution

Broken hegemonies

History as world process ~ self-realizing concept ~ final tribunal

Secular theodicy

I ALWAYS hesitated to cum inside her!

22.10.24

Sitting is the new smoking

gawping

internecine

disconfirmation

gymnosperm

23.10.24

Fantasies of suicide

condottieri

entendido

Elegant capitulation

petulant

truculent

nabob

Passé satraps

Metternichs

mediatization

Post-industrial para-intellectuals

gimcrackery

Arthur Fleck ~ Heath Ledger

Who was (the real) Hannibal?

Use your body to move through space, even as time ravages your mind. Otherwise you’re just gonna rot, by intentionally accelerating the natural decay……

Mother-goddess & human sacrifice go together!

Becoming weird(er)

Ahistorical cultures

Causality Vs. Destiny

World-pictures

Depth & death

The prime symbol

Have I fought the suicidal tendency with all that I’ve got yet?

Scratch the tattoo everyday

The reverse alphabet in serpentine form tattooed along my spine

24.10.24

WOW! Your mix of babysitting, socializing & shopping is a perfectly balanced menu for spiritual growth 🤣

Do not expect too much from the end of the world – a shorter film would’ve made it perfect/great…!?

All these smart fuckers & happy idiots go on living now, as if mankind was still in the prime of its youth 🖕🏾

Ultra-contemporary

Form-blurring fury

The Romanian Charlie Hebdo

scurrility

The myth of the dragon-slayer

Bobiță

Archival forgery & creative plagiarism

cinéma verité

Some films, you’re glad you watched, even though they were not so delicious…
They were nutritious!

Self-pity + self-abuse + self-loathing

Critique of affirmationist theory

Ridiculous continuities

Happy crisis

Network of hybrid objects

Equalitarian ontology

Pixelisation of politics

coquette

Real abstraction

Those who keep adopting conventional family/work roles, and still insist they are critical/radical, are self-deluded

gallimaufry

intenerated

defusion

Why do BBC & CNN not have live streaming on YouTube?

New world-feeling

John David Ebert

25.10.24

The rock that had no name

Gnarlathotep

Spit on your own cock

She knows (what it’s like to be) (in-&-for-)my-body. But I don’t love her mother.

The abyss beneath dreamland

The great ones worship the elder Gods

The high priest not-to-be-described

The almost-human lunar blasphemies

Why do I so often regret, or castigate myself for, what I did before, quite soberly & intentionally?

27.10.24

Sweet unadulterated sacrilege

Global metal dandy

Science Studies

Dream:
Terraforming alien invasion – fleeing to survive, with friends – horror sci-fi

Policing the boundaries

Parliaments of thought

Reformist politics

Aren’t we already post-human?

Formal & structural logic

afterworld

Philosophizing the human → Humanizing philosophy

Distinguish:
Appearance
&
Illusion

Immanent self-description

Non-epistemology

I am NOT an intellectual, thinker or philosopher. I am a contemplative, idler & wanderer. Therefore, I can be a sleeper, gamer, fucker, etc. just as much as a reader, critic, conversationalist, etc.

Wild empiricism

Spiritualist ~ obscurantist

Distinguish:
Being
&
Real

There is no shame in confusion! In fact, the enlightened might be the most mistaken……

Alogical knowledge

The non-dogmatic decision

The equivalence of epistemologies

Exemplary instances of the vision-in-One

Meta-scientific statements

Telos bound Vs. Aleatory finitude

Regional autonomies

Non-thetic identity

Partial confidence & tentative affirmation – break the total hesitation of fallibility

Dyad in the one

The real object & the object of knowledge

The one (posited & positing) Real as a priori to the process (of positing)

“Science promises nothing”

The misunderstandings of ordinary language

Image of thought → Practice of theory (or lived experience)

Criticize his own early stance

Neither weak nor strong, but (just) human(-in-human)

Humane ~ realistic

Do not be intimidated by the great personages, events or the sheer scope/scale of reality – hold your stand – be (in-&-for) your (own) ground!

The technological capture of the essence of science

Transcendental & non-decisional thinking

Militant heresy

Hyperspeculative variations on a theme

deracination

Why do you prefer ideas to relationships, Joe?

28.10.24

Noumachia

Olympian gods Vs. Chthonic titans

Apollo, Dionysus & Sybille

vicinal

vesperal

dotage

Non-philosophy in-person

The cruel mildness of becomings

Why does the philosopher address himself as “we” in his writings?

Conceptual personae

millstone

stratigraphy

inanition

29.10.24

laggardly

sophism

Tlön

Fictive reality

Hulme

The absolute is cinder-like

Grit is the fundamental element

Imagist

Anti-rationalist philosophy

Premonitory afterthought

Gettiered beliefs

Sceptical mysticism ~ Nominalist irony

Lapidary humor

Godless poets

Mauthner

hobby

fovea

Walking heads

bracken

The peregrine

debility

estuary

From speaking to tonguing

30.10.24

lichen

Old World bullfinch

elderflower

spandrel

Stuck in-between – neither here nor there – lost in the gaps

rook

I counter the world’s passive activity with my own active passivity

Staying alive, but refusing Life

aureole

Recreate the elusiveness of experience

ermine

stoat

sable

tincture

Street cred

Chimerical ciphers ~ transcendental occultism

stoup

Have you dreamt of (your own) death?

Morbid delectation

Sweat – the smell of the sun

Negative epiphany

romans durs

demi-monde

Macabre transubstantiations

Jeffers & Inhumanism