Hosanna, Emilia Perez!

1.11.24

turf

bum-rush

Ruin time

Dream:
My own suicide – shooting myself (or was I watching someone else), in the mouth, through the head, then fall off an open window onto the street
+
Mad Max like desert adventure (or torture) with an older woman……

Buddhist real

Achans, roshis, rinpoches

Catalyzing loss

Double entendre

Fierce sadness, furious lethargy

Baptised in the river of firewater

Dark elixir

Controverting chaos

Repressed sleeper cells

Went through some old WhatsApp chats with my mother

Staring into the open helmet

Surplus value

Human ~ vampire ~ capitalist

Critical unconscious

Logic of the present

So many of the thinkers I admire are family folks! What do I do with this?? Are they just hypocrites who merely mouth radical shit, or am I mistaken in how I see the incompatibility of it all?

I could imagine myself as Deleuze’s “harsh critic”

Unbinding (from) fugitive desire

Spiritualized dolchstob

lineaments

intern(ation)alization

The world-denying vehicle

Keep it easy, simple, quick! 🤪

Pollyanna(ish)

Mind is (a special kind of) matter
Vs.
Matter is (a special kind of) mind

Intractable conundrums

Ad rem wisdom

Where there is a stink of shit, there is a smell of the real

Keep your mind in Hell, and do not despair

From rejects to ejects

maenad, thyrsoi

Extreme/athletic contemplation

Crucial recoveries of the cruel Real

doxography

serried

Pornstar tattoo – head with radiating legs

So ironic that I being a promised child have become anti-natalist 🙃

There are people fated to be the assholes of mankind – imagine a body without one or a house without a toilet flush 🤪
Folks like David Hart may be the healthy head, and Artaud & co. may be the anus or tumor – the dalits of the spirit – crushed beyond recognition – how things look from these polar opposites is blindingly obvious indeed…

Pornstar tattoo:
“Love without depending
Live without pretending
Speak without offending
Listen without defending”

“Satan is real” (Kreator)
Vs.
“There is no Joker” (Arthur Fleck)

The Positive (GOD) is nothing but the denial/negation of the negative Real (Man)

I am as realer than you as you are happier than me

Incels → Inspouse → Inparent

abyssonauts

TINA (There is no alternative) – Capitalist orthodoxy ~ GOD/Theology ~ Philosophical sufficiency
Oh yeah? Fuck you! 🖕🏾

Best friend becomes worst enemy ☠️

Why do nihilists write books??

There is this unseeded (tennis) player who never loses when playing against the greatest of all time…! 🤣

Changeling ~ shapeshifter

Immanuel Joseph was my former avatar.
What would I name this one?
Immanent Zosima 😉

Midwinter fires

Agalloch

I reject (whatever denies) my autonomy

Post-(modern)(meta)-Phusis

Don’t be scared. The pain is fertile 👹

Blockbuster flop 🤡 ~ the greatest failed comedian ever or the worstest fun of all time

Why walk into (or onto!) the sea, when you can’t swim?

Wait! But if I try to recover Arthur Fleck, then wouldn’t I fail or be fake as Joker? Can one fail to be (a) glorious (failure) that way, by trying to survive?

Broken open, cracked free

I don’t need no virgin, but I don’t fuck no mother

Folie a deux ~ Gorkham ~ fooling mass expectations ~ the reversal moment in the Christian gospel ~ Jesus/Lucifer Vs. Christ/Satan ~ Ted Bundy ~ musical thriller??

Some movies are important to watch, even though you may not like them. You might still get something valuable!

Whatever happened to “building the mountain”?! 🤣

Parenthood and the happiness penalty

familism

3.11.24

Who was the last visitor who Fleck doesn’t meet?

fleck

baraita

inamorata

Mesmerize ~ magnetize ~ hypnotize

Dream organ

Norma Evangelium Diaboli

bawd

colonnade, portico

alembic, scarab

Murdered without martyrdom

marionette

4.11.24

Joel’s Pentecostalism ~ Zizek’s Communist theology
Vs.
Artaud’s Anti-Christ ~ Deathspell Omega’s third hypostasis or Paracletus

Father ~ GOD
🔽
Son ~ Man
🔽
Holy Spirit ~ Satan (Rotting Christ)

Paraclete ~ coming alongside the Real (NP)

Elusive acquired taste

harpies

Extreme/experimental/esoteric/avant-garde/technical/abstract Black Metal

Aluk Todolo

Metaphysical Satanism ~ Anti-metaphysics

Rejected knowledges

synarchy

“Between shit & piss we are born”

consumptumation
(Consumption + consummation)

coruscate

epiklesis, anaphora

abscission

Salvation through perdition

Dea(r)th of san(ct)ity

ordure

whisk

amalgamate

paladin

5.11.24

DsO

Show your teeth!

Diremptive logic of the death-of-GOD

Seeking truth and seeking health are incompatible, just like Christ & Mammon……!?

From religion (the divine) to unbinding (the sacred)

Atheize ~ immanentize

Evil is what Man can do, which GOD cannot

Sovereignty & waste

Actualizing rebellion

unground

Hypostatic division ~ the split absolute

A nexion between all things

Fas

Universal self-contradiction

(of) yore

Imhotep

Cult never dies

Post-suicidal awakening

Summa Diabolica

The eternal suppuration

Pre-ontological delirium

Base logos of disturbance & anxiety

The certainty & madness of internal opposition

Cutting the Gordian knot

The nonsense of being

The remnants of Eden

The truth itself is the horrible

Satan is the hero (& author!?) of Paradise Lost

The self-undoing of reason

misprision

Considerational cognition as that which ought not to be

Oceanic ignorance ~ bliss

Scototropic radiance

Cacophonous silence

The trace of aboriginal death

biotope

Deus ignotus ~ Diabolus absconditus

louche

Judaism → Christianity → Satanism

Satanism as “total art”

Summoning abjection

Lying down paralyzed and stoned pornication as equally valid alongside intellectual exercises

imposture

The otherworldly moment of critical spasm triggered by implacable cruelty

Savage laughter

Outrage addiction & victim culture

Sinister energy

Demonic snigger

Collective exorcism

palingenesis

Pure abstract emotion

Impending malaise

fanzines

MAGMA

scoria

egregore

Ad Arma

The accelerating fantasy of furious impotence

Terrorizer Magazine

Radical critique ~ revolutionary violence

Pessoa Vs. Nietzsche

Meta-rules ~ Ur-habits

Futile intellectual sharpening

Real abstraction

Ideological enjoyment/conformity

Anti-mediation

Refusal of delayed gratification

Staying with the trouble & affirmative negation

Traversing Situationism

Hateful odes

afflatus

AMSG

obombration

6.11.24

Satanism – the worship of wickedness, suffering & death (as opposed to virtue, health & life)

Faith/religion + hope/work + love/relationship (Engagement/reconciliation)
→
Critical theory + Contemplative leisure + Solitary sailor (Withdrawal/alienation)

Social (GOD/World/Self)
→
Nature (Devil/Chaosmos/Id)

may-pole

“In girum imus nocte et consumimur igni”

Do I stay in, or break out of, this marriage/family? The spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak! 😮‍💨
The in-between time is the most difficult – confusion, indecision & hesitation – if I am not ruthless yet, shouldn’t I try to become (the villain) sooner rather than later – before I also live long enough to see myself become the butt of the joke……!?

Quasi-mystical reading of a political text

Heroic futility – Fire (passion) Vs. Water (time)

Deep negativity ~ Thought from the outside

Harley falling in love with Fleck is exactly what kills the Joker she worshipped!

Do I have one last dance (after exiting medicine & Christianity) in me, or am I already finished?

The autological form of Nothingness ~ acentric/polycentric universe

Plural agency

7.11.24

John Zerzan

Identifying the Fall

Inter-anarchist battles

primitivism

Caesarism

“The last man lives the longest”

The war on poverty, drugs & terror

Funny as Hell

entrainment

Absence & excess

Subtle tyranny

Cyclical disintegration

Atonal fluency

Outer sound

8.11.24

Why do we (metalheads) like dissonance?

Stylistic pragmatism

Non-humanist disposition

Patterns of terror

Worldly commitment and paroxysms of destruction

quants

mullet

borscht

bodega

Riding shotgun

News cycle

Jesus Christ ~ Rotting Corpse

nigredo

Carvaka ~ Ajivika

Hostile counterpart

lo-fi

Exponentially accelerated deterioration

Wold

Physiological bewilderment ~ a possibility zone of great threat

Anti-natalist family man 🤪

Monomaniacal insistence on holy trinkets

apse, nave, ciborium

Xasthur

Disharmonic variations in dark ambient (music!?)

Liminal flooding of void-worlds

Etruscan corpse bride

Latitude of forms

cineastes

miscegenation

Philosophy ~ world-making ~ globalization

From politics to ethics

Superposition ~ indistinction ~ indeterminacy

Militant quietism

Radical deracination

Afro-pessimism

Worldless Jewry & natal alienation

From logodicy to victimology

contretemps

Slave ~ foreigner ~ proletariat

9.11.24

Victim-without-persecutor

Metaphysical ethics
Vs.
Democracy-in-thought

10.11.24

DSBM (not to be confused with BDSM)

catena

Melancology

The objectivity of sorrow

Apokatastasis panton

11.11.24

Gothic Kyoto

dialetheia

kensho

Ideological interpellations & infrastructural realities

Thinking to the second power

The threshold of seriousness

Politics of non-alignment

The Great Contradiction

Atheistic/materialistic/sceptical Hinduism

Oukontic & meontic nothingness

Interdependent actants

agoraphobia

Books in the drug store

From the com(ed)ic to the laughable

12.11.24

Reality of the lowest order – Tadeusz Kantor

Implacably hostile unstable amalgam of anti-humanist individualism

Abyssal draining of ideologemes

Radicalised spooks

Occult elitism

apanage ~ perquisite

Cultural racism

The centrist is the farthest from both the (left & right) extremes!

Telluric quasi-fascism

Bloodthirsty ancestral counter-tradition

Inverse spiritual hierarchy

synecdochy

parataxis

Vlad the Impaler

sobriquet

Boyscout Satanism

Ubermensch sodomy

The romantic relationship decays into a practical arrangement ~ spiritual divergence → emotional estrangement

Sieg Heil

Autochthonous relation

Carnivalesque political aesthetic

Anachronistic meta-fascism

Self-definition based on fundamental indifference

Sharpening the contradictions of desperation

Impure apocalypse of buried antagonisms

The divided One

Acephalic auto-consumption

Stalled dialectic/stuck record

Dreaming the impossible ‘concrete moment’

World-historical necromancy

Crypto-fascist national organicism

Group militancy

Auto-constitution via self-dissolution

Thugs for life Vs. Fake gangsters

Sovereign heterogeneity

Distinguish:
Horror
&
Terror

habitués

Fetishisation of war

Sinister runic humbug

bathos, treacly, risible

Functional incoherence

Nativist reterritorializations

Form-giving power

Abstractive figural desire

Passion for the Real

Children of Bo(re)dom

I is an/-other

The forgotten victims of history

The without-remainder ~ the immanence of fire

Gnostic ~ heretic ~ victim ~ stranger ~ undocumented/unidentified/unrecognized/clandestine ~ generic ~ Man-in-man (immane-ing)

Transcendent ~ harassing

EVERYTHING’S GOTTA GO!

Forgotten ~ insurrection ~ invisible ~ resurrection

The determined (as opposed to dominant) intellectual

Crushing the holy trinity

One-in-One, (non- )One & non( -One)

Unifacial ~ advance incognito or traverse the image

The paperless one(s)

Fugitive-being ~ strang(er)existence

Flesh-&-blood identities

The end-of-the-world as the ultimate good news

Living in the pre-history of post-human intelligence

Non-philosophy is nothing but non-standard thought

Decolonizing theory

Moving toward the One → Determined by the One

Singularity as identity rather than exceptionality

The (Black) slave

Producing killable populations

Subjective dispossession

Hallucinatory/thought/capital World ~ structured by the same self-sufficient faith

“All this whiteness burns me to a cinder”

Curation as art!

The Real (negation of the philosophical) human

Blackness ~ worldlessness

No slave, no world!

From thinking the victim to victim-thinking ~ thinking under the condition of the victim

Universal objectification of decisional globalization

13.11.24

inchoate

Repression ~ amnesia

The breeders (Ligotti)

Black Narcissus

The irreducible remainder

Nemesis ~ death-drive

Transcendental empiricism

Deterritorialize ~ accelerate

The ultimate monstrosity of truth

14.11.24

Neo-reactionary traditionalist

Incognegro ~ kinless

The concept of the “unthought”

Qui Parle

Raw Life

Natal alienation

Couching an internal other

Do you still remember the Rotting Christ encounter in Tezpur?! (Originary trauma)

From pity to compassion

The holocaust industry

Quantum queer

Comparative contempt

The denuded character of a singular life as the essence of pure immanence

Not-(quite-)human

Qawwali

Sufi metal

Dying convulsions

Aborted monsters

maladaptation

Inner unnaturalness

Glitch effect

The human exemption ~ constitutive rupture ~ inherent deviation

Animalistic wholeness

necrogenesis

From laws to necessities

Renaturalize humanity

Harmonizing with ghieh (chaos)

Entropic brain hypothesis

Psilocybin regression

The gap ~ the traumatic core

Non-co-incidence

Cruel knowledge ~ cutting edge

Configurations of collapse ~ Variations of failure

Creative death-dealing

Fortune & extinction

Anxious apes

The groaning of Nature ~ the cosmos as a mistake

Variation > > selection

Success is (the refusal to see oneself as) just another (very different) kind of failure

No non-monsters

Sublime disproportion

Defined by teratogenicity

Chimerical mosaics

Anti-Western esotericism

The Kid (Blood Meridian) – hey, my birth was prophesied too!

bankerage

Try using weed without porn too! And shorten the erection period before it kills you of exhaustion 🤪

Should I try to find critics/reviewers who share my taste/sensibility?

Why do I feel “fine” today!? 🙄

15.11.24

“By GOD’s grace, I have finally obtained my Canadian citizenship.”
Awsum 😁

Hontology

“Spirit is a bone”

Asymptotic parousia

Satanism as Uber-Christianity

The gift of death

The discourse of authenticity

Philo-fiction as counter-creation

Relativize ~ disempower

Visionary poet

Performation of the subject ~ crafting an unworldly form of life

From the discursive to the abstract

Practice is MORE abstract than the idea

Matrix as formal model

hetoimasia

Survival Vs. Passion

Human undercoming ~ we (don’t know that we) know (what) we are

Humaneity ~ messianity

Gnosis > > science > > philosophy

Quantically conjugating contemporary art-thoughts

Refusal of decision/position

The (non-philosophical) self-sufficiency of photography

Breaking (out of) self-referentiality

From astonishment to indignation

The human identity of science & art in-the-last-instance

Liturgy’s Aesthethics ~ Laruelle’s Non-philosophy

Real insurrection as weak resurrection

The constitutive exclusions of fabulation

Racializing assemblages

Philosophy as (tool of social) death

The political discourse of an anti-black world

Ontological resistance

wan

Ariel

Pitch-black amniotic fluid

mongrel/mutt

ghoul

Christ as the euphemism of Satan ~ cannibalism & the eucharist ~ real flesh & metaphorical word

The lactiferous beast (DsO) ~ Mothers are monsters (UGK)

baldachin

Seed vessel of the water lilly

Non-Satanism ~ UGianity

Nïce ~ neice ~ noise

Ra’s Al Ghul

White/world/philosophy
Vs.
Black/Man/Universe

Para-ontological analysis of opacity/invisibility

Refuse subject-ion to ontological expectation & sanction

Double injunction

Wilderson, Moten & Sexton

The meaning of the question-of-being

Non-relationality ~ non-communicability ~ non-recognizability

Black ~ death ~ essence ~ matter

Outside of the grammatical parameters

Justice > social

Is Laruelle Black (&/)or White?

Universal subject → Lived identity

Color-blind racism

Replacing relationships with entertainment

16.11.24

will o’ the wisp

Ludger Lutkehaus ~ nihilism & masturbation

GOD → World → Nothing

The aesthetics of death

17.11.24

patina

derringers

Salome/Shalom becomes s(h)allow-me 🤪

mucking

Extreme entertainment

Fat chance

Spit tone

But am I not the one being consumed by all this content?

turpitude

Onania

The man without qualities ~ this true inner Africa

rakish

scopophilia

Bureaucratic horseshit

essayism

scion

middlebrow

bon vivant

bete noir

phosphene

Joyful pessimism ~ active nihilism

From “Celebration of Discipline” to the “Spirituality of Casual(i)ty”

At each moment, be grounded in the 3 levels (1. The Body ~ breathe > > 2. Nihilistic intellect ~ think > > 3. Activities ~ do).
Otherwise, be swallowed by the yawning gnawing psycho-vacuum of feel(noth)ing!

They need to tell you to repent, in order to shore up their own (flagging) faith. So, have pity and let them, although you hate it……!

The amateur as radical

I am (not even an) art(ist)!

Laruellian Non-philosophy as critical race theory or the blackening of ethics ~ Atlanta (2016 serial) ~ Liturgy’s Aesthethica

Book cover for Jorge Luis Borges’s “In Praise of Darkness” ~ Tourniquet’s lyrics for “Enveloped in Python”

Just because you feel like shit doesn’t mean your life is not gold!

I missed watching the final of the Nitto ATP Finals, because a friend called. I squirmed when she said I was a loving person! 😜

A visual field made up entirely of blind spots

YOU(R faith) > > (your) Faith
(NOT vice-versa)

weltschmerz

Keep on journaling, Joey boy……

How often have you “used” that hourglass?

20.11.24

My chief source for images is book covers, music album covers & movie/series posters

Dream:
The Japanese religion of the singing fat woman. I fly into a Satanic? cult building

Is Jung a Christian?

Occult democracy

Proto-refutation of harmonian utopia

Universality of voluptuous sensation

Differential law of affinities

Oneiric powers

Mentalization ~ materialized abstraction

inutility

Sensible automatism

Subject → object → thing

Animate matter

Emotion ← act ← aspect/image/product ← object

The reproductive instinct as the sterile prolongation of the voluptuous sensation

You are of as much value to the system as much as you are repressed or organized or disciplined

The species solidarity of other unities

A desire to do nothing

Original unintelligibility (of creation/design/production)

Obsessional irritation

Elaborate affective propensities

The debit balance of individual unity

Notations/traces of fabrication

Compensatory signification

Pure truism

Passionate abilities taking hold of the economic subject’s decomposition

Determining the value of suffered losses

Impulsive dissipation
Vs.
Pure subsistence

utensilarity

Manufacturing efficiency

use-object

art-product

fait accompli

The simulacrum of deferral & the simulation of urgencyomanist




21.11.24

Fourier’s (external) utopia Vs. Sade’s (internal) perversion

UG is the original motherfucker 🤘🏾🖕🏾😉

Industrial ~ monstrous

“No man is an island.” Yes! Each is an ocean!

The body as forcefield

Obsidianal instincts

valetudinary

Nietzsche’s Sils-Maria ~ UG’s Saanen

Climbing Parnassus, or sleeping at the foothills

Let GOD die like a dog

Who the fuck is Mayakovsky?

Russian futurism

Institutional norms of sublimation

Obsessional constraints ~ meta-patterns

The master is integral monstrosity

22.11.24

orthography

Use meditation as a strategy to help you breathe, when feeling suffocated. No need to make it into a ritual/discipline.

The greatest goal of life is to muster the courage & the wisdom to kill oneself correctly!

Survival → Insurrection 🤘🏾

The worldly attitude or sinful gesture of pitying the victim

Economies of affect

Vitrification × Crystallization

23.11.24

accidentology

Living archive

survivance

autopoiesis

Quantum gnostics

Critiques of the secular

rausch

provincialize

Formal suspension via alternative postulation

joui-sans-jouissance

I suspect the YouTube algorithm automatically adding video previews (NOT those I’ve opened) to my watch history is NOT an innocent glitch

24.11.24

The deification of Nothingness

The bad infinite

Gnostic Satanism

Reverse transcendence

25.11.24

Since I was born left-handed, choosing the left-hand path is (a) return to (my) original nature!

I must take more seriously the fact that my birth was prophesied.

esprit

peccary

nightbird

deadbeat

26.11.24

condign

stolid

commensal

devoration

The Great Depression & cultural despair

Distinguish:
Ancient tragedy
&
Modern pessimism

The evil of existence

The problem of the value of life

The grand questions

epigones

Rehabilitating metaphysics

Kaspar Hauser

Bachelor hermit

The identity crisis of philosophy

The old scrooge of Frankfurt

Pessimistic materialism

The logic of the sciences
Vs.
The puzzle of existence

Brahmahatya ~ kapalika

eremitic/cenobitic

27.11.24

intransitive

28.11.24

Satan ~ Saturn

Vamacara ~ the way of non-union

The Black Lodge

Magical names

The schoolmaster in self-deification

clearinghouse

Weimar Germany

The voluptuous panic

Photo-fiction

biodicy

undercommons

Blackness ~ Nothingness

Cosmic uchronia

Refined gravitas

Secular Christologies

supersessionism

The unique/first self-engendering

Imamology

29.11.24

layaway

witter

Non-natural approach ~ Spiritual involution

Animal sexuality

Insurrectionary abasement ~ radical autonomy ~ unilateral identity

“Onto-biological death is already defeated by Man-in-Man.”

Constitutive repression

Victimological reading

Jerusalem Syndrome

Common name of victims & oppressors

Subtractive method

Essential non-consistency

Thinking the unsplit object

Theoretical suturing

Mandaean gnosis

Irreductive thinking

Glossary raisonne

Co-determination → Fore-closure

Spirit → body → FLESH

30.11.24

“What is more hopeless than a Principle of Sufficient Rebellion?”

“God engenders himself as myself.”

Indifference as rebellion

Action-without-reaction

Undermining the overdetermination

Russian hesychasm

Epikeniaphoric jaculation

Paradoxically speculative

Banal harassment

Pious Golems

Messianism/mystique → messianity/mystical

“Messianity is the real/human cause of science”

Superposition → proliferation of unified theories

human(imal)

Idempotence ~ 1 + 1 = 1

1.12.24

Philosophical animals ~ Plato’s bestiary

NO now

Multimodal performance

Astro-biology

2.12.24

intagliate

Un même Animal

The Real is outside space & time. Space & time are transcendental illusions

Extreme generality

Sub specie aeternitatis

Infinite substance ~ misplaced concreteness

Matter, energy & intelligence

Teratomatic, hamartomatous thought

Aberrant gravity

Metaphysics Vs. Naturalism

more geometrico

Natural languages as habits of perception

From ordinary intuitions to common notions via intense-ive thought

urdoxa

Dark precursors of immanent disinterring

Spiritual excavators

coincipient

Minor traditions

Theurgy ~ magia naturalis

concept-ion

The body is the unconscious (unknowable real) and the conscious is all illusion

Participation → expression

Standard emanationism ~ essential forms

Hieratic & mantic

Uniqueness (comparative) → singularity (inwardness)

The absolute maximum as limit-idea

3.12.24

Learn how to learn from the body, instead of shaping/teaching it

The Real is that within you & me that is betrayed & persecuted by the world, even by you & me!

You ain’t seen nothing yet

Theology → Ethology

Deep state actors

Cengiz Erdem ~ Hermetico-Promethean Post-nihilistic thought-worlds

Noumenology

The non-mortal-subject

torpidity, slogger

Subsense logic

Constitutive illusion

We the hu/man ~ animal-plants

Capitalist axiomatics

transcension

Militaristic Neo-liberalism

4.12.24

Elijah Mohammed

6.12.24

Theodicy to victim-thinking

Best possible to worst necessary

Fruitless futural fugitivity

Interstitial existence

Positive nihilism

Gonzo journalism

The raspy start of the (obscene purity of the) end

Impure fucking apocalypse

The sound of silence ~ natural state ~ incessant rumbling volcano

From dialectical negation to integral enmity

Acephale → Cephalophore

Militant anti-contemporary partisan

Melancholic dejection → Furious rejection

fascis

DSBM

Raging-in-place

Bellicose dysphoric repetition

The neck as negative space (between body & head)

Dark vitalism

Fune-real

Averse Sefira & Umul

Dumpster diving

orphanization

Fire-bombing rehab centers

One-man bands

Deteriorating reality ~ natural ruin ~ sexual fetish ~ mental illness

Oversaturated dissonant distortions

The Calvary (founding myth) of Black Metal

Tuned by unequal temperament

And the Wolf became man and dwelt among us, and we were torn by him, gory!

Murderous wolfsong

Contagious proliferations

Lycanthropic entities

Ulver, Varg, Nazgul, Fenriz

Be-cumm-ing into piss-filled condom-sack 

bestialization

Wolfing ~ unnatural participations

Nosferatu ~ the insufferable/offensive one

Abjecting control

Astarte, goddess of fertility & war

Vulpine howls Vs. Shrieking sirens

Violent mourning

Melencolia Estatica

Metallic desiring machines

7.12.24

bivouac

stokehole

Futurist manifesto

I don’t know if I’m hungry or not!

8.12.24

Self-destructive pride

feuilleton

smithy

Morgenbladet

hack-driver

dray

bagatelle

snag

…with might & main

pate

provender

Good fucking Lord… how everything seems to take a delight in thwarting me today!

trundling perambulators

GOD! When I look at the people, I don’t feel my life is empty/bland anymore 😅

mayhap

Only life can feel death. Therefore, all these lively people are actually dead!

parasol

10.12.24

limerence

Philophysics

Paleolithic metaphysics

nescience

numismatics

I know what Bataille meant by “the tears of Eros” ~ eyes burnt by lust & squeezed in agony

12.12.24

Out of Africa ~ Black is the real (essence of the) human

The lower (more real ~ source/basis) penetrates the higher, and the higher (less real ~ product/extension) collapses into the lower – Being ←→ GOD ←→ World ←→ Soul ←→ Body ←→ Matter ←→ Forces ←→ Void

The cock that swallows the dildo

Dune: Prophecy –
Benne Geserit (Sisterhood above all ~ Harkonen ~ AI ~ pure consciousness)
Vs.
Desmond Hart (Shai Hulud ~ Arakis ~ Oil ~ body without organs)

fetid

“Seeing the ruin as complete in its fragmentation”

Disinterested delight

Conceptual insecurity

13.12.24

Urban flaneur ~ lounging pace

Siegfried Kracauer

The ontological value of aesthetics

Simultaneous repulsion & sublimity

Post-industrial ruins

The ruin tacitly embodies (the absence of reason)

At home in the Fall (into indeterminacy)

arcade

15.12.24

adiaphoria

Verb/forces > > nouns/things

sub-stance

16.12.24

By-the-numbers

gurney

oarlock

spool

Intifada

detail

Assata Shakur

knoll

sequin

Instrumentalized abjection

Sentient implement

Ethiopian Jews

negrophobogenesis

Black(s) as meta-aporia

Raising the stakes via (elevating the level of) abstraction

Afropessimism as meta-theory

Rigorous consideration of assumptive logic

Non-Black (not just White) fantasies

Cartographic deracination

The loss of loss

Why must Black flesh be parasitized in order to maintain the coherence of human sociality?

17.12.24

cabernet

muss

Climb the walls

flounce

cowlick

nosed

copacetic

dust-up

demerit

licks

honky-ass

vamp

nightstick

mulatto

malarkey

20.12.24

cleat

pixie

leotard

mousy

slummer

Marat-Sade

dish mop

howitzer

pinwheel

smock

chortle

harrumph

22.12.24

The Real/One is the difference between you and your genetic clone

Pussy-veneration

Black Light – illuminating, rather than eliminating, the Dark

Kulthaus

ab alio

inhesion

23.12.24

Acausal thinking

The ambiguous authority, and therefore perfect incursion, of metallic affects

Loric perversity

Obscure discourses

necromanticism

24.12.24

Suicidal lifestyles

The mindless encounter with death – the body affected/touched by matter ~ matter affecting/touching the body – ecstatic, lethal, final.

The wraith of ascesis

appurtenant

RFW

nigredo

asinine

dweeb

Falsers all!

paleography

solecism

26.12.24

Dream:
Lost inside a huge hotel building, trying in vain to find the way back to my room.
(Very bad feeling)
After waking up, had suicidal thoughts.

Misery + indifference; Misery + aggression; Misery + exhaustion

Total mobilization – the factory-farming of huma(nima)ls

Bourgeois ideology ~ the golden mean ~ the middle path

Survivalism – mimicry of the war-machine ~ technology of immortality

Becoming-machine

Russian Constructivists