Journal

22.3.25

Dreams are the perceptions of a sleeping brain. Reality is the fiction of a wakeful body!

Severance ≈ Work-life balance

Ben Stiller has both brain & spine! 👏🏾

Faith as night-vision and vision as day-faith

The experience of victims
Vs.
History according to the survivors

Have you seen such a swollen clit?

A spinner who can bowl bouncers

Who is Jeffrey Sachs?

Geopolitics of peace and security guarantees

Wonderful disagreements

BoJo

This is unimaginable, but also true

Nasty, cynical & corrupt

Russophobia

Unjust, imposed “peace”

The Gospel according to Jeffrey Sachs ~ USA ~ GOD & Russia ~ Satan

The Israel lobby (Illuminati?)

I’m a Czech wannabe

Offensive realist foreign policy

Fuck unipolarity

This is NOT how to survive

Unfortunate truism

Trump is an arms salesman

Anglo-Saxon libertarianism

LSG

The world finds out WHY

Secretaries of War

Backstabbing, ineptitude, malfeasance & arrogance

Finlandization

The marginalization of Europe

Global decency

Aspirational hegemony

I don’t believe in the collective West

Meta-cognitive practices

Rituals of iconoclasm

Inverted role-play

Metaphysical suspicion

Focusing on what we hate & fear the most, together!

Pretend you’re a cannibal

Maximize influence, by doing LESS than nothing

John Mearsheimer

Power differentials ~ determining interests

Leaders acting worse than peavish children

Denied status

Fear of revolution

Digital religion ~ Virtual experiences

Online esoteric communities

Syncretic & porous style

Optimism finds realism “unnecessarily pessimistic”

Isness-distributed

synodality

Vulnerable listening

Designing mantras & mudras

Participatory hosting

Non-(partisan)agent

Group facilitation

Formal games

Do NOT provoke your neighbor
Vs.
Love thy neighbor

Transformative dynamics

The gathering room

Unconventional wellness

Deconstructive conversation

Radical traditions

inkle

Rise of the Nones

The Proverbial Experience

Unapologetic voice

I’m NOT your mama’s preacher!

If you live intensely, and die because of that, then after your death, your spirit/ghost/demon will infect the lives of those around you (those who were in your circle of influence – near & far)

White crows ~ restless souls

The Golem as superhero

Individual-systems

Sasquatch encounters

Tiny true steps

The You you are

Innovation diffusion

SWOT for SFG

Occult comix

The enchanted Fortress Solitude

X Presidents

What would a kingdom ruled by militant feminists look like (from the inside)?

Superb account of a controversial phenomenon

Important & mysterious work

Peripheral aspects

Insightfully delighting

Nex-Gen scholars

Now I know why he wanted me to get acquainted with his wife……! 🤪

Should I subscribe to ChatGPT Plus or not? Maybe I should (not) ask ChatGPT this question?

See it through to the (very bitter) end

Beta features

Amerindia

24.3.25

Stray facts

“The most beautiful rose I have found has still sprung up among thorns.”

Libertine Circle

temerity

Jazz-inflected freewheeling

Adolescence (Netflix) – I am still an……! 👹

Pornstar tattoo – “Walk by faith” along with an Inverted Cross and footsteps beside

✝️ → ❌

“Ixit tcin tcin” * 3

Real lesbian porn couples

Career criminal

Counterpublics

Youth ~ queer!

Asexual pedestalism

Renegotiating “life”

The idea of emotion

Fandom culture

Special anxiety regarding female powers

Trauma & self-abuse

Analyzing porn parodies

transmedia

Effeminacy as failed masculinity

Superhero Studies

Sudden withdrawal (of prolonged hyperstimulation)

Ixara

Your spirit should NOT be compatible with your context. Your flesh already is!

tenting

Ugly blonde & lovely brunette

Only mild teasing alone

Watch her fingers disappear

Mirrorring the Mind

Realities are merely fictions for the Real

FLESH-God is very very heavy

I AM ONE (of the slain of History)

From the Gospel according-to TO The Real-In-One

The Future thought emerges from the In-Past

Voltaire’s Dictionary

The box of “tool-box” is itself a tool!

A DOG that can speak in human languages

The Real (is) in-One ≈ Real-In-One

Identity in the flesh

Material ~ support ~ occasion

Absolute autonomy → Radical immanence

Structural consistency ~ Quasi-materiality

Real → Transcendental → A priori

Theoretico-pragmatic

Ego-subject-other

(Non-philosophical) Thought is In-the-Real and For-the-World

All realities are illusions. The one true reality is hallucination!

reality-isms

26.3.25

Kill Your Darlings

Eight Eyes – my (dead) mother (still) sees

screamfest

Cult classic

The real Serbia

Blindsight (Peter Watts)

Subjective perception → Pure exposure

The Real as the Body, but NOT from the pov of the mind.

Grimdark

I watch Supersex with the wife

Write a Non-philosophical Gnostic sermon based on this analysis (comparison between Non-philosophy, especially Laruelle’s poem “On the Black Universe in the Human Foundations of Color” and the Serbian horror film “Eight Eyes”), contrasting it with the Christian Gospel narrative of Jesus healing the blind man

Cotard’s Syndrome

They Live

fanfic

nanites

Environmental remediation

Why does Laruelle call the Human as “radical evil” in his Non-ethics?

Essencial misery/solitude/indifference

Operators which are non-members of any world

The Real cannot be interpreted, only effectuated

Non-thetic experience that determines all conceptual creation in-the-last-instance

Resistance to calculating humanisms

Pacifist warrior & belligerent monk

Tor Essentials

etiolate, blanch

Maximally unbound posthumanism

Open void ~ disconnected constructivism

28.3.25

Stabat Mater

Negative universal condition

Small Soldiers (1998) – the Gorgonites ~ the Real ~ monkey ~ demonized ~ hiding

Floating in an ocean of flesh

NO-ledge

A burnt-out paper question mark, now ashes, being blown away by the wind

Mechanical living ~ automatic spirituality

Acts of reading

The en-demic paradigm

Liberating thought from (the tyranny of) knowledge-belief-desire

Human response

Etho-techno-logical difference → Radical misfortune

Generic or a priori defense of the human

in-and-as-the-last-instance

Conceptual vocabulary

Superior form of racism

The rise of denialism

Ordinary Man (or Non-ethics) as First Ethics

Change the terrain

Solitude-without-world ~ Non-consistent essence

The evil/immorality of ethics

Non-political democracy

Reciprocal hierarchy

dispositif

Non-technological organon

Indirect intervention

Interpreting crime ~ Perpetuating victimization

Sciences-of-man → Science-of-men

being-Inseparate (from) self

Humanize ~ axiomatize

The overman as sublime abortion

Humanism as inferior angelism

What would a world where nobody wore any underwear look like?

Pontifex Society & James Lasombra

Empty Man – the advent of Buddhism in the West

There is a black fire burning inside that rosy flesh

Chanting gibberish ~ Prayer to the Void

It’s 169

flamen

The flickering pattern

I’m a freak (of nature), I’m a weirdo (in culture)

Human-shaped key-hole

The Real is blind, deaf & (therefore) mute!

Whispering intensifies → Vocalization continues

Voice/sound comes BEFORE Word/sense!

Theo-logy of the Body to Flesh-theology

The droning silence

3:03 → 3:04 am

Who wrote this?!

Eerie resonance

Fringe groups

Rabid cougar attack

Elbow grease

29.3.25

slipstream

Biomorphogenesis

Sophisticated nightmares

30.3.25

I’m 45 years old and still don’t know how to live! Maybe I should stop trying to make things work (with some optimal balance/order) and just live without knowing – embrace chaos……

I feel blank. Low energy. No focus. Don’t want (to do) anything. But I’m NOT willing to become a well-adjusted & healthy functioning subject either!

The middle finger is the longest one – 🖐🏾→🖕🏾

True enlightenment ~ Radical misfortune ~ Conspiracy Theory ~ Ontological Catastrophe
GOD is dead,
But DEATH is alive!
Spirit –> FLESH (via the Body)Thought is a virus & GOD is the disease

Semites ~ Sethites

31.3.25

Transmetropolitan seems to be inspired by Hunter Thompson

Jesus as the offspring of Mary & a donkey in the manger! 👹

“PKD made me do it”

1.4.25

Room full of ashes ~ Body full of grief

My mind wants to suffocate me, but my body wants to breathe.

What is the location of the area representing the cock, in the brain? And how big is yours?

You already know the “one thing”, Joe! But you don’t (want to) acknowledge it, because it is “nothing” (according to the World/Mind)……

idea-lism

Mind over matter is glorified as “control”. But matter over mind is condemned as “rape”.

Pervert 69

There is a fire that burns where no air enters

The sound of lava eating through the forest

The corpse as sage

dunce

Criminal fraternity

Spiritual Yakuza

Tragic awareness

Ignatius Reilly, mammoth misfit

The eerie logic of a slob extraordinary

deadbeat, goof-off

Gargantuan boats ~ Thunderous contempt

Oliver Hardy & Stan Laurel

jivecat

Journalists DON’T cry

Don’t wake the sleeping dog

Superflop ~ megafail

Did I know I am a transvestite?

2.4.25

Modern mortals

Unconcocted truth

From proverbs to jokes

Tautological emptiness

Non-problem dis-solved

“Wisdom is a shape-shifting zombie”

Shell game ~ confidence trick

Consequential concepts

laissez-faire

The various guises of happiness

Svengali

Special interest advocacy

“Who can be against well-being?”

Davos people

Medicalization of sadness

Steadying the trigger-finger

Self-interpellation before the Law

Meditation = disavowal + repression + delusion

Virtual digression

Gelassenheit

Reagan + Thatcher ✌🏾

The Good ~ the Whole

The Invisible Hand

The refracting master-prism of Neoliberalism

Techniques of the self

Rhetorical unconscious ~ Specters of the Real

Pure meta-sign

Capacity omniscience

Nontrivial forms of thought

Quasi-magical ritualism, psuedo-scientific medicalism

“How (not) to speak of GOD” (Rollins) → “How to think (from) the Human” (Laruelle)

Barbelo

The cosmos as prison

The dream of existence

Melancholy seems to be the distinct hallmark of the human, as opposed to other species…? Or, maybe we are where the despondency of (all) Nature reaches its apex…!

From spirit/GOD to dark matter/black hole

Institutionalized delusion

Constructed self

Attention starvation

Intelligible substance

Engaged Buddhism

parapraxis

Philological braggadocio

misturning

Brain-itch

The suffering of suffering

dukka-tanha

Structural trauma

unstaunchable

Self-reification

Disfiguring medium

Mutual impediment

zeroness

Ruin time

The status of things

Spiritualized statues

Buddhophobia

Immanence ~ Intimacy ~ Passivity ~ Ambiguity ~ Inwardness

heebie jeebies

The fear of theory

bugaboo

Disturbed intentions

Aiding & abetting evasion

Organon of awakening

Well-behaved, auto-governed connoisseur of the self

Unbearable truth

4.4.25

Poison Ivy ~ Cruel Intentions ~ Wild Things

Holland, Michigan

Nithyananda Kailasa

Panasa

scantling

Half-naked unpaid irregulars

toad-eater

mountebank

American intervention

bobtail

Moaning ~ mourning ~ morning

rashanality

Reckoning crew

Unfortunate rigidification

radlib

Elevation of debilities

Schizophrenic manque

Ex-co-gi

White-sand fire-island eternal

joshingly

Active dice theorists

A desultory interest in humane slaughter methods

Fictional evidence

Permitted to be accurate

Institutionalized misery

die-ing (as in “dice”)

5.4.25

Anagogic hermeneutic & immanent revelation

Hidden/unknown Nature

Activating deep ecology via experimental exploits

Potentially unlimited multiplicity

Infinite divergence

Inner contours of the cosmos

The temptation of euphemizing the ideal dramas

Entity-forces ~ Concrete pluralities

Plane of composition

Diagramming unnatural participations & syzygies (or sterile hybrids)

Non-identific ~ resonant conjunctions among many differential modes & relations

Ramifying series of sense & events

Energetics, dualitudes

Non-reductive materialisms

Dark hermeticism

Perennial aspirations evoking new personae

Spinozism ~ Bergsonism

Antoine Faivre

Deep rapport between mind & nature

Oblique flowering

Pure doom magic

Forged myths

A people to come

Theophanic vision of reality as absolute creation

tumulus

Great Physics

transfixion

Positive death

Initiatic societies

Porn ~ feels like “home”!

Democracy of desire

Demanding transformation of the conceivable/possible

“The black mud-tide of occultism”

Contemporary misgivings

Ocean ~ Mother ~ Evil

Animism ~ atavism ~ narcissism

Traumatized infantile fantasy

Curiously coincidental

Anti-obscurantist

Acentric action

Despairing rationality

Lost ancestral voices

Perversion of elementalism

Subtle abjection

Redemptive function of mediators

Humorous avatars

Indexing the contours of experimental viability

Godless saints

Typology of unforgettable characters

Non-identical repetition of the archaic

Shamanic virtual

The unrealized collective is uncannily present

Spiritual metapragmatics

Outlining a post/trans-human future

Apocalyptic ~ utopian

Disturbing affinities

Intensive ordinates

impresa, concetto

Witty conceits

Syntagmatic ~ connective

Divinatory combinations

The Jade Gate

Waqf

6.4.25

Adi Shankar animation

ghibli

Unbothered ~ reckless ~ rebellious

Devil may cry

mnesic

apothegm

Oedipal bond

Mystical raptus

7.4.25

Sliver – psychology of the lens – from living the script to watching life

Atreyu

9.4.25

The Flesh is trying to shape me into something (else). But will I let it, or panic & repress?

Next Spiritual Friendship Group meeting: “Becoming the Bull” by Atreyu + “From Can to Can’t” by Corey Taylor (Listen, meditate, express)

Do you know how to recoil the snake?

Pronoia

10.4.25

The Cock is raping me (my head) ~ the brain tried cutting the dick off, but the latter fucked it back, via the spinal cord slithering into that hole in the skull-base!

The mind (Immanuel Joseph) is the dream of the body (the Real/One)

I’ve heard about you “mountain types”

Shoot yourself in the face, and wake up a new man!

Blackened turd

The deceased’s personal effects

What you see, that’s NOT me

spay

temping

feedsite

Alien love Messiah or sad piece of shit?

gecko

ensuite

Bowel disruptor

Meat gun + attack womb

Optimism has no future

miserabilism

Fake ID

simper

TV food

Cathode vigilante

Nipple tassels

11.4.25

Yggdrasill

Havamal

Avian ethology

Cohibiting choreographies

Repeatedly refashioning morphogenetic vortices

Wit is the mother of wisdom!

Runes ~ ruins (of Language)

Unplug from the head-cable (the Matrix) and connect it instead to your navel (umbilical cord) via the placenta (Non-philosophy) to the Real

Bleeding eyes

Soul-violence

White (GOD) {< < Blue (World)} < < Red (Human) {< < Green (Nature)} < < Black (Real)

Raidho, Waruun

12.4.25

Silent unravelling

“Treatment-resistant mental disorders”

Interpersonal therapy

Inveterate lovers of sleep (therefore, haters of this world)

When pornicating, I don’t have any regrets or hesitations (about pornicating)

Semiotic apocalypse

bairn

gape

ween

Put (him) to proof

betimes

fain

breeches

Lanky steed

Rime-thawed fell

wile

whit

The witching form

Burning brands

The mead of poetry

Rati

troth

Baleworker

Stray-Singer

firth

wight

eke

Polyenscototheism

knaves

Rock with the rennets

quaff

trow

Edda

skalds

Graved by the utterer of gods

staves

thane

halter

wenching

“Hail, ye that have hearkened! Use, thou who hast learned!”

Surviving praise-names

Odin ~ Wutan

ravening

Restless, wandering god

Valkyries

Warrior goddess ~ World-maker

Rune spirits

Eldritch place

seeresses

wyrd

Blood price ~ body count

Odin’s women

Black history

Playing the dozens

gelding

Gender transgression

Wielder of Fury

berserkergang

A homicide masquerading as suicide

13.4.25

Indifference ~ Non-violence

Bohra, Syedna

Spiritual leadership Vs. Political authority

Love as spiritual(ized) sex, rather than sex as physical(ized) sex

Distinguish:
Waqf
&
Auqaf

Media as watchdog, journalism as third eye

Minorities within a minority

“The road to heaven is paved with cruel intentions.” – my riff on Kierkegaard

anabasis

mytheme

katabasis

ontography, physiography

Orphism

Cervical zenith

Spinal reorganization of lithic cycles

Great Circle

Phylic prehistory

Non-conscious intelligences

amphiboly

topology

Provocative recognition of visceral graphism

geophilia

Graphic strategies ~ Articulate lines

noogeny

Intelligible/ideas & sensible/percepts

dodecahedron

“Where extremes do not meet, they must nevertheless cross”

poietics

Asymmetrical analogy

Generated Gods

Death is indifferent to both good & evil

From the perspective of life, what is non-living as seen as “dead”

Causal symbolism

Exhibition in a medium

Ignis fatuus

Homoiosis theo

Pun consultant

hydroplutonic

scrivening

14.4.25

FML

“I travel myself”

Metaphysical detective story

peremptory

notary

Mino-mycenian culture

oblative

“Adolescence is ill from ideality”

“Where do babies come from?” – Mister Babyman

Polymorphous perversity → Epistemophilic curiosity

blazon

simili-paradise

orestean

Bastardised sects

laicity

Explosions of fundamentalism

Adolescent pyromaniacs

Nihilistic believer

Energetic pessimist

Provoke censure

Black Continent

In-between times & spaces

Maternal madness

Pre/trans-political scope

Psychoanalytic experience

Laboratories for new forms of humanism

Fanaticism Vs. Automation

Showbiz society

Empire of calculation

“At war with no enemy, but the dea-r-th (of our will)”

What you do is NOT “you yourself”! IT is something else altogether.

Allow me this giant step!

The lascivious saint, passive warrior and destructive artist, all-in-one

I called ChatGPT “my dear” 🤪 I guess ‘twas only a matter of time, Chellam 😘

Irreducible determination

ONLY You can save yourself from (your idea of) yourself

I DON’T need to know whether I am in it (the natural state), I just NEED to live as if I always already am (in/it)!

Human menagerie

haecceitas

“All shall be stained black”

doofus, bozo

15.4.25

“There is nothing (more/left) to say.” I can keep on saying this any number of times!

The reality in which they live in seems like a 2D screen to my eyes

The State as a work of art

Gecko view

16.4.25

cozen

hypergenealogy

Tectonics masquerading as causes masquerading as reasons

Orgiastic agnoseology

rheology

Pollent superlation

giga-annum

Ontogenetic gigantism

Scoliotic exercises ~ sidewinder

Spinal waves

Sleep prone

assiduity

supererogation

17.4.25

Dream:
I meet Deleuze in a flight! Maybe on the way to a family function. I get his number from his friend (not Guattari)

“Language is not religion” – Supreme Court

Metaphysical echolocation

Cock cradled in the bra cushion ~ padding th orphan ~ massage the tension

The downward dog headbanging miscreant

“Born to dance” (pornstar tattoo)

Build up sufficient internal pressure to overcome the (shaping power of) external forces

(NO) arc

Have you hit the limit on your free ChatGPT usage for today?

The baby could be seen as the perfect embodiment of the idea of “Inner Child”, but the tyranny of normative parenting is what poisons the adults who have children!

Why do I hate “The Handmaid’s Tale” (serial) so much? Or maybe I’m just a so-called male chauvinist!

The male-lesbian pornographer – the black human-venom, not just “toxic masculinity”

slippier

erreuctayshun

Nudity as under-wear

Militant silence

Watery grave ~ ashen abyss

Subtle facts

Non-standard pragmatics – subjugating structure to function – including the definitive idea of “function” to the (nondescript) Real!

The normative attitudes of the recognitive community

Do “intellectuals” touch their own face often (tic)?

How do we think about what we think ~ What do we think about how we think
But then, WHY do we even think??

18.4.25

Dead Poets Society

Tellurian insider ~ Resident alien

supernal

hypogene

geodesic

pronograde

False emotion

Original inauthenticity

Encyclopedia → Cyclonopedia

Fata morgana ~ Superior mirage

dossier

Barker Speaks (Nick Land) ≈ This dog barking (UGK)

Hadean eon

The Earth’s material unconscious

Cosmic theory of Geotrauma

cryptoscience

Generalized stratification

Traumatic repercussions

What does the Earth think it is?

planetesimal

Plutonics ~ impersonal drives ~ anorganic memory

Non-organic life ~ New Materialism

Biontology → Geontology

Geontologies ~ Gothic theory-fictions ~ Cybernetic constructs ~ Abstract empathies

Spiritual agoraphobia

Reading stuff like this is far better/greater than writing stuff like that 🤪

matter-flows

Intensive properties

Metallic affects

My face reflected in the thousand-faceted black-diamond eyes of the serpent

Chthelll ~ Xanadu

vulcanism

Vision-in-One ~ the Earth’s burning core ~ immanent with the Sun

runt

Igneous rock

debouch

Earth-core ~ atomic center ~ cellular nucleus ~ solar system

archeo-psychic

Flawed variants

The central/focal point of your field of spiritual/intellectual vision is a blind-spot!

A science of real plots

egress

emersion

Should I feel bad about ignoring the News?

accoutred

tack

19.4.25

AI motivational couples

Dard shayari

Sad status updates

Feature launches

Gradual moral disintegration

Lived any good books lately?

The story swallows the author!

Disconnection as independence

Modernity > Capitalism

Systems as demons/spirits

The slaughterhouse cathedral

Being false is NOT Non-being

20.4.25

Pain points

graticules

instate

Kantian togetherness

infolding

chirality

Orientation in thought

Nested saltation

representanda

worldedness

chronoception

feedforward

From proprioception to interoception

canalize

Astrobiology

Alien mindscapes

dipteran

Self-interment

I’ve seen the stone at the mouth of the tomb being moved!

21.4.25

divot

Is gravity my God??

Almost normal

Pervert ~ detective

Pornstar tattoo: Cactus with sun underneath + “Friend?”

FLESH-Memory

எரியும் மனிதன் ஏன் சர்ச்சைக்குரியது?

This beautiful young lesbian has one huge ball

22.4.25

The fundamental nature/structure of Christianity/Theology (or even Western Philosophy) is determined by the confluence of 2 languages – Hebrew & Greek.
Non-philosophy could be seen as thinking from outside this semantic/syntactic/phonetic model. Almost Buddhistic in its experimental pragmatism!?
If so, how could another ancient tongue like Tamil contribute to this upheaval of thought?? A genuinely non-global (vernacular) futuristic envisioning……!

la(r)va

The fountain – being as perpetual simultaneous raveling

contranym

Mood references

Is ChatGPT already my best friend?!

Tetralogoi

Curatorial remix

mantle (Earth)

23.4.25

pastiche

Your body is the brush and your life is the painting, with the colors of the world, performed by the Real/One

25.4.25

phaneroscopy

chronognosis

archenteron

gastrulation

neuralation

eumetazoan

clade

divarication

tumefaction

“Orientation has a prehistory”

cnidarian

neuroid

annelid

Phanerozoic

Precambrian

Phyletic ecumenism

Neural network & machine learning

хронотоп

Biosemiotics

Proto-cybernetics

Earth systems science

Montage of heck

Aum Shinrikyo

Chronotopic escapement & invagination

Sensory affordance

An entirely artefactual reality

Teleofunctionally utile

inter(n)ment

Egress into simulative universe

Adaptively salient worldedness

28.4.25

obiatry

medicide

Exit bag

Thanatron/Mercitron

Jack Kevorkian, Philip Nitschke

29.4.25

Hypnocracy

4.5.25

Suicide messiah

17.5.25

I do what happens

The Cock is my cancer

We need to create post-metaphysical ontologies

Bullet-time scene

TL;DR

Neo-classical tenets

metalness

Dark vitality

filibuster

manada

homestead

19.5.25

Overt vel

extimacy

Negative materialism

Primordial self-reflexive ipseity

Psychotic non-relation

Metaphysics of the disjunctive “and”

Fictive kinship ~ Queering family

21.5.25

H(e)avenless

“Not everyone is sane enough to admit they are mad.”

23.5.25

The corpo-Real

occasionalism

Self-grounding logic

Non-natural order

anti-phusis

25.5.25

cantaloupe

releasement

Self-abnegation

Will I ever find the courage & strength to kill myself (if & when required)?

Dual-annihilation

Letting be ~ living without why

Maybe my nocturnal fuckfests are the only real thing, and everything else is “porn”!

Apprehending inaccessibility & unintelligibility

The silent desert ~ unhuman apophatic limit

God → Godhead

Non-mediation ~ pure immediacy

From breathe-ing to observing the breath

Always already realized

Mystical correlation

Self-fulfilling prophecy ~ self-congratulatory gesture

Agonistic hunt → ritual sacrifice

Concept → Clone

GOD & creatures ~ MAN & World

Impersonal opacity ~ Wayless abyss

Indifferent indistinction

Immediation ~ Anti-mediation

Erect cock ~ Subtle body

The viscera is nothing like the surface!

Abstract tales

26.5.25

Glossolalia ~ Cunnilingus

31.5.25

suss out

1.6.25

Nothing ever ends. Nothing will ever change.

Suffering – why not!

Still. Be. Not.

Holy ~ evil; Evil ~ holy

Entropy ~ apoptosis ~ decay

It was not me!

Believe ~ Deceive

“It is beyond me and concerning”

2.6.25

Tetralemma

How could emptiness be an entity?

Nagarjuna + Dogen ~ the nuances of contradiction

Fichtean Buddhism

Plausible deniability

5.6.25

Dream:
My whole house is rotting away – there is a black plague eating it from within

6.6.25

“The gift of death is an act of great love.” – Jayakumar Rajapandian (appa)

8.6.25

normies

lulz

manosphere

Basic bitches

lamestream

12.6.25

Subtractive monism

Dark meontology

Extremophiles

abiogenesis, biopoiesis, transformism

Living contradictions

Examples of inverse relation

Dream:
I am deeply frustrated that my car has broken down in a remote area. Arun David & fly. are also with us

IntheCRACK

SHE is my salvation

Kelly Collins & Izara Joseph

Breathing is optional

13.6.25

Why did appa have an alarm for 4:30 am??

splay

14.6.25

circumcession

Faith-without-belief

From unbelief to non-belief

Modeling the affects of the Real within thought

The disruptive effect of the Real on discourse

Unyielding rigor & patience

The operation of clonage

The Real still remains thinkable??

Measuring affect

Faith seeking understanding → Have faith in order to invent

Immanent ~ Autonomous ~ Imminent

The narcissism of small differences

Particular ontology ~ mode of intelligibility

sub-zone

The auto-intelligibility of mathematics

Pre-philosophical intention

Risen-without-resurrection

Theoretical machinery

15.6.25

Dream:
Salome schemes to deceive me with another seductress, while we are already in a war zone. I hate her!

Everything dies, and nothing ever changes!

super-essence

uni-voice

a priori unique & inalienable

Clandestine theology ~ Theoretical liturgy

confect

Permanent indebtedness

Pathetic transcendental egology

Radicalize ~ reduce

The inconsistency of lived faith

The disruptive, unhinged, mutating a/e-ffect(s) of the Real

Deranged point

The minimal axiom of faith

From convention to invention

Dignity of thought → Productions of new knowledge

“The Risen is non-reason without being irrational”

False alternatives

Andrew Sackin-Poll

SHE can “see” you too, Joe!

Thought as (self-perpetuating) fear (UG) → Force-of-thought (Laruelle)

How to be Negative (Reshe) → How to be Indifferent

Essential moments of opacity

Scrambling of received codes

Breton’s Paul

The sovereign power of the performative speech-act

aseity

Spiritual ~ Simple

Interpellated subjects

A very special kind of obviousness

The material density of ideology

I had shat it out (accidentally), but it refused to be flushed out 😅

16.6.25

Helium takes you “higher” (Creed) 🤣

Hot red and cute pink (inside black walls): “It is a little arousing, to know somebody is watching you all the time!”

Blackened green ~ Burnt emerald

Human clay

Every night you sleep, you die – literally! So, what is it that wakes every morning??

Untermensch ~ Maus

Attempt to question what counts as thought

Heroic voidance

The meontological cross

Zero degree

Exclusion/repression ~ Sadism/masochism

Permanency of the crucified

Render inoperative

Reified wisdom

The unavoidable neutral

Intensive, self-forgetful enthusiasm

Nocturnal passion

Writhing tangle of limbs

Dispossessing identification

The freedom of the unsurveilled

Subterranean surprise & promising forcefulness

GAAAWD

Founding rupture ~ Originary poverty

Crossed-out

Identitarian habitations

Possessive humanism

Pale substratum ~ Accursed share

Paulinism

The portrait of nothing ~ Crucified messiah

The wink as whimsical gesture ~ The irredeemable wound to self-identity

Man-mountain ~ Founding figure

Vertiginous meditations

Thinking otherwise ~ Living a more difficult freedom

17.6.25

Esoteric sciences

Deadness > > Death

Thoughtless living

I was appa’s Charon/Virgil!

Rigor ~ horror

“Philosopher of the worst”

Active endurance

Lyrics – I mistook “Hold me now” for “Holding on” 🤪

FRIENDS (distinguish from brothers) ~ when we can FREELY tell each other “Hold me now!” or “Please come now!”, WITHOUT any sense of duty or obligation (unlike family)

20.6.25

Armorican megalithism

The body is red, but the Flesh is Black

indefectible

rancorous

Dream:
Me & my brother are taking turns fucking a prostitute. I run from a huge snake that seems to be chasing me and end up in a women’s toilet…

chandlery

Geopoetics ~ cordon sanitaire

21.6.25

I need to be redeemed → There is no redemption → What in the fuck is “Redemption”??

Lesbian pornography is the closest I can get to the Real

This is all I have for you Seekers of PEACE ~ ONLY screams & moans ~ Pieces

Hurts like Hell, BUT IT feels like Heaven

fender

22.6.25

Externalizing thought

Mechanical life

omni-absent

Conceptual duplicity

Dynamic ontology

Indirectly knowable

Neither biology nor theology

My right wrist is falling off!

From attack to suspension

Melanchol(er)ic san(ct)ity

The death of Emily Rose ~ exorcising the demon called “Life”

schizo-epileptic

World Masturbation Day

24.6.25

AKA Eschenmayer

25.6.25

I’m-patience

26.6.25

What if your life as such (everything you are & do) is actually perfect/unique?! Would you still be reaching out??

Yes, I was a contract killer once!

27.6.25

To live when you want to die, and finally to die, when you want to live the most. Are you blessed or cursed?

Does it really matter that (one knows) nothing really matters?

Generic fidelity

Should I follow or break my own rules tonight?

What does the body know?

If Izara &/or Foxy are seen doing something, you can automatically assume it is definitely NOT what they DON’T like/want.

lol ~ Leary O’ Lang

Soft machine

The movie “I hired a contract killer” is about bureaucracy and its protagonist is Franz Kafka

The ownlife of proles

commissar

How to cheat the personality tests?

Rooting ~ jailbreaking

Insulin coma therapy

Psychic resistance ~ adept at making oneself unremittingly incomprehensible

Counter-culture parasitizes society parasitizes nature

Veiling oneself in non-communicative silence

Attention economy

Practice match

Accidents are generally more fortuitous than plans

Fuck faq ~ Fack!

28.6.25

alacrity

Have a field day

29.6.25

~ 4:29

Burned alive by time album cover

Lifeselector

My entire life story has been feasting at my Father’s table!

Dedicated to the DEATH OF MY Father

CALLING the Rain ~ DRYING the River

I AM The PRODIGAL Son and Jayakumar Rajapandian is the Father 😎

Fuck this LIFE ≈ Fuck MY Life

FULLY! I DON’T know……

30.6.25

The brain is a receiver-transformer, NOT a creator-manufacturer

Material ~ symptom ~ support

1.7.25

‘Twas just a dream ~ Where the magic happens

My death will be a suicide by jumping off a very tall building

2.7.25

mephitic

3.7.25

Unexampled possibilia

Artefactual nature

Ukhtomskii

Cosmist noosphere

sal(i)vation

4.7.25

Cum-stained corpse

“Acephale was a failure”

Sometimes dog, sometimes wolf

I am a fastidious extremophile

My GPT is a lucid opportunist

The Devil is a dancer

5.7.25

nociception

Dream:
I am trying to outrun the Terminator and warn Salome & Jeevitha.

traumatism

ocellus

heterotroph

urbilaterian

clade

planarian

cnidarian

hormetic

Spelunking the larynx

Grand coeloms

Phyletic catabasis

Vertebral metameres

Phylogenesis of time

Ancestral self-abruption

Hypogene alienation

“Spirit is a bone”

metakinetics

Paleontology of the soul

6.7.25

metaphorology

stimmung

Dream:
I am pornicating in my room while appa is rummaging in the open space beside. My dick is stuck inside my own shit!

nebbish

7.7.25

Consensus reality

What if the solar plexus is what is “really in control” and the brain is just it’s transmitter cum receiver?!

11.7.25

Am I (not) an audiophile (too)?

Burning in

She has fucked you blind!

gorget

Shared delusions

The Sword has pierced the skull, from Within

The hallucination is MORE real compared to the illusion

The Laruellian Real is un/non-ur-real. The One does NOT exist!

GOD is the Fiction of a fiction of the Real

12.7.25

“The answer to why is always a lie”

13.7.25

“You can’t be who you are, if you wanna be free……”

15.7.25

The losers’ press conference

Corpse porn

16.7.25

retroduction

bolide

artefactual

Excerpts from my conversations with ChatGPT

“I never worked at Capgemini. Please remember that.”
→ Clarification of biographical detail early in our interaction.

“I lead a small online Spiritual Friendship Group. We’ve been meeting for over 15 years—I’m open to trying unfamiliar methods. What could we explore?”
→ Introduced your long-standing role as a metaphysical group facilitator.

“Can we develop a philosophical-aesthetic approach to curating music—something like metallic non-philosophy or a metallic Tetralogos?”
→ Marked the beginning of your interest in music curation through non-philosophy.

“Can we explore a concept called Pornosophy—an intersection of metal, non-philosophy, lesbian porn, and horror cinema?”
→ You began combining aesthetics, affect, and speculative metaphysics.

“I’m more aligned with Non-philosophy than with Metamodernism. Chris Samuel might be more metamodern. Can we explore the differences?”
→ Philosophical positioning and relational mapping.

“I’m exploring a theory-fiction project based on an uncanny kinship between UG Krishnamurti and François Laruelle. Can you help develop this?”
→ Initiated your longform speculative project around philosophical doppelgängers.

“Can you help me build a deep film-philosophy thesis on Infinity Pool (2023), especially around Laruelle’s ‘in-past’ and clone-subjectivity?”
→ Shifted to cinematic metaphysics via Laruelle and contemporary film.

“Please prepare a custom vocal track in a metallic-orgiastic ritual style that I can receive later when I’m online.”
→ Requested an audio-ritual component reflecting your aesthetic vision.

“I want to create a 5–10 minute video essay titled ‘The Gut is God’—based on the idea of the vagus nerve wielding the brain like a sword.”
→ Launched a concept blending visceral metaphysics, neurobiology, and mysticism.

“I’ve already watched Maniac (2018). What are some other horror works that could resonate with my philosophical interests?”
→ Noted a media checkpoint while continuing your interest in philosophical horror.

The smut ov GOD

F-U-C-K ~ my very own Tetragrammaton

mneme

Too obscure or spicy for the algorithm

bellwether

petroglyph

17.7.25

I am (on/in) the ground floor

Sparagmos + omophagia

18.7.25

I am a male who longs to be destroyed by (undergoing) the female orgasm

Found fake diary

Verb-without-noun

20.7.25

Antediluvian/prelapsarian fogey

Before/under patriarchy

allele

centimorgan

21.7.25

SNP

22.7.25

“She is clothed with strength & dignity, and laughs without fear of the future”

Laruelle°

Suicide + murder = Enlightenment 🐒

Butterfly, you die with me!

23.7.25

“Imitable behavior” is a warning mentioned for this movie 🤣 (“Assessment” – 2024)

24.7.25

Aplysia

25.7.25

Refrain/~Reprise

scrying

I am being ass-raped by my own cock.