Author: Immanuel Joseph

Immanuel Joseph (Male; Born - 11.08.1979, Madurai) What am I doing?? Actually, nothing much! But I am a self-employed, part-time, freelance spiritual worker. What that means exactly, I myself don't know...... I don't have a job. But I have vocation...... Christian, medical background. Lay, maverick, eccentric thinker & spiritual friend (Insightful Facilitator) - passionately seeking to better experience, understand & enjoy life! Reclusive & contemplative autodidact. Controversial conversationalist. Life-partner - Salome Divya. Living in Hulimavu, (Bengaluru, India). Email jimmanueljoseph@gmail.com Cell Phone/WhatsApp +919840227977

Bible verse of the day 

“And let us hold unwaveringly to the hope that we confess, for the one who made the promise is trustworthy.”

Hebrews 10:23 NET

http://bible.com/107/heb.10.23.net

Hmmm… the manifestation of the desire for permanence in a world of flux!

Holding on to the rock of ages, in the midst of the torrent, even if it’s only fictional……

Battling against doubt with all your energy, because you have already succumbed to fear.

“45 Years” movie review (4/5)

Watched it with Salome.
It’s not just about jealousy/possessiveness/insecurity.
It’s about how one sees/knows/understands the relationship and the other being shattered by a discovery.
And this comes so late in life, that you are now stuck in a situation where the past has been dismantled, and there is not much of a future either!
Identity = memories (experiential continuity)
Secrets ~ ghosts ~ fault-lines
– I went to the travel agent. Are you going to Switzerland?
– No. I’m not.
– Why not?
– Well, I can’t walk to the village without… without sitting down. How am I going to climb a fucking mountain?
– And that’s the reason?
– No, Kate, that’s not the reason.
– Because if you do go, and if I…
– Oh, Christ, Kate. This isn’t about Katya.
– Please, stop saying her name. I can’t bear it.
– It isn’t… It isn’t about Katya.
– It is. Of course it is. Like me discovering what this smell is around the house.
– Oh, please.
– And it’s her perfume, OK? It’s like she’s been standing in the corner of the room all this time, behind my back.
– Oh, come on.
– And it’s tainted everything. All our decisions, where we go on holiday, what books we read, what dog you want to choose, what music we want to listen to. And the big things, too. Especially the big things.
– She’s had nothing to do with any of that.
– I’d like to be able to tell you everything I’m… thinking, and everything I know, but I can’t.
– Do you understand that?
– Yeah. Yes, I do.
– All I want now is for you to just come to the party tomorrow.
– Of course I’m going to come.
– I really need you to want to be there.
– Yes, I do want to be there.
– Because it’s one thing me knowing I haven’t been enough for you. It’s something… ..altogether different that everyone else feels it, too.
– You really believe you haven’t been enough for me?
– No. I think I was enough for you. I’m just not sure you do.
– Ah, Kate. That’s terrible.
– Have you taken your pills today?
– No.
– Then I’m going to get them. And then we’re going to have dinner, and then we’re going to go to bed. And then we’re going to get up. And we’ll try and start again.
– OK, Kate, I can do that. We can do that. I promise.

Bible verse of the day 

“Let no one say when he is tempted, “I am tempted by God,” for God cannot be tempted by evil, and he himself tempts no one. But each one is tempted when he is lured and enticed by his own desires.”

James 1:13-14 NET

http://bible.com/107/jas.1.13-14.net

Hmmm…… don’t test GOD by saying that he is tempting you. 

Cf. Mt. 4:6-7 – the universe is neither against you nor for you. Stop deceiving yourself & buck up!

Irrespective of consequences, never stop working on yourself. 

And don’t fall into the trap of classifying all things (especially people & events) into good & bad (simplistic dualism)

Take full responsibility for your own choices/actions.

Never blame life/the world, for giving you a bad hand.

Now, try Vipassana!

“O Father, O Satan, O Sun” – Behemoth

YouTube

Lyrics:

“Akephalos
Shine thru me
Come forth in war
Come forth in peace

Bring down the sun
Extinguish all the stars
Let me remain
In splendor ov thy light

Bornless One
As darkness bright
Found not in tongues
Found not in light

Bring down the rain
Drain waters ov Styx
Faustian luminary
Redeem
Blaspheme

Like a day without the dawn
Like a ray void ov the sun
Like a storm that brings no calm
I’m most complete yet so undone

Agathos Daimon
Ov plague and fever
Thy name is nowhere
Thy name is never

Liberate me
Ignite the seeds
Bind not to guilt
Ignis Gehennalis

O Father
O Satan
O Sun
Let the children come to thee
Behold the morning star

Akephalos
Shine thru me
Come forth in war
Come forth in peace

Like a day without the dawn
Like a ray void ov the sun
Like a storm that brings no calm
I’m most complete yet so undone

O Lion-Serpent Sun, The beast that whirlest forth,
a thunder-bolt, begetter of life!
Thou that flowest! Thou that goest!
Thou Satan-Sun, Hadith, that goest without will!
Thou Air! Breath! Spirit! Thou without bound or bond!
Thou essence, air swift-streaming, elasticity!
Thou wanderer, father of all!
Thou wanderer, spirit of all!

Hear me, and make all spirits subjects unto me;
so that every spirit of the firmament and of the ether,
upon the earth and under the earth,
on dry land and in the water
of whirling air, and of rushing fire,
and every spell and scourge of god
may be obedient unto me.

Thou spiritual sun! Satan, thou eye, thou lust!
Cry aloud! Cry aloud!
Whirl the wheel, O my Father, O Satan, O Sun!”

Satanist = anti-Christ?

Blasphemy, pornography and crucifixion

“Satan as the alter ego of God” – RFC (Lars von Trier too?)

Hmmm…… I’m gonna get crucified for this, by those who (claim to) worship the crucified One!?

“The Red & the Black” – Iron Maiden

YouTube

Lyrics:

“The morals of life and the perils of death
Take the wrong way out running out of breath
Meet my match in the afterlife
Suppress the demons that plague the night
A tortured mind is a safe place to go
But the truth lurks down in the dark below
Step inside my inquisitive mind
Are you scared at what you just might find

See myself in the hall of mirrors
A different shape every step I take
A different mind every step of the line
But in the end they are all mine
Laughing sorrow inside your head
Can’t get out just a feeling of dread
I know this burden’s a heavy load
A dark mistake never ending road

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

The black jack king and the red queen clash
The artful dodger he counts his stash
The joker’s wild like an impish child
While madame fortune she waits inside
The good luck charm is overkill
The tired old soldier says fire at will
Planes overhead go search destroy
The ones below human decoy

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I need somebody to save me

Meanwhile we play the waiting game
The clock is struck the horse is lame
And when we think that this is done
Chance your luck a four leafed one
You hedge your bets the battle lost
To wait in vain and count the cost
The thin edged line
Between good and bad
And cast the luck be happy sad

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I need somebody to save me

The red and the black
People don’t want the truth
Look in their eyes and you send them away
The red and the black
Fate and hypocrisy
Burden’s a heavy load there is no doubt
The red and the black
All out of luck again
How many chances can anyone have
The red and the black
Treachery out to win
There in the wrong place and at the wrong time

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I need somebody to save me”

 

The real battle is not between black and white, but between gray and red!

Truth, pain and fear – no torture, no salvation!

Bible verse of the Day

“Instead of being motivated by selfish ambition or vanity, each of you should, in humility, be moved to treat one another as more important than yourself. Each of you should be concerned not only about your own interests, but about the interests of others as well.”

‭‭Philippians‬ ‭2:3-4‬ ‭NET‬‬

http://bible.com/107/php.2.3-4.net

Being ~ motivation

Selfishness as vanity

No humility, no unity.

We need more than just a good  description of the goal, we need detailed instructions on the way to attain it.

Note: “Only” & “as well”

I don’t agree with “more important”. “Equally important” is better.