Author: Immanuel Joseph

10.12.23

Could it be that the followers of Jim Jones were right?

Hand bra

What will the pornstar of the 2050s look like?

contretemps

inopportune

quay

The spectralization of agency

Traversing (rather than dismissing) positivity

A thought-praxis of negativity as the condition for a rearticulation of subjectivity/agency

Non-dialectical negativity

Love/fuck ~ hate/kill

Skynd

From deflationary concept to political valence

The expropriation of positivities via immanent rupture

Thwarted messianism

Autobiography as polemical manifesto

Ultra-negativity beyond super-essence

Radicalized excess

Failed erection & flat tripping

Affirmative deconstruction

Disarticulating foundational structures

Fantasms of closure

Recapitulative & controlling economy

Reaffirm by choosing

From acceptance to selection

Unpropitious circumstances & the politics of dissidence

Inventing new(er) forms of urgency

The necessary moment of political decision

Financialization as real abstraction

11.12.23

It’s cool to commit suicide due to physical suffering, but could psychological hurt be so severe?! I don’t think I’ve experienced that kinda purely emotional pain……

13.12.23

Usually, people give themselves the freedom to be whatever society allows them. Instead, in my life, I give society only that freedom which I allow it to have!

Compare/contrast:
Bataille’s Guilty
&
Metallica’s Unforgiven

I must scream, but I have no mouth!

Lucid dreaming the mysticism of shit

14.12.23

palette, tincture

Lantern jaw

chitter

shuck

Gorrister, Nimdok

slaver (v.)

15.12.23

Competition in failure

16.12.23

Truth is a scorpion, freedom is a rattlesnake and love is a bitch

RunawAI antigenesis

The comforts of idiocy

The ambition to shock

“OMG: Oh My God” Vs. “Aankhon Dekhi”

sahaja sthithi, turiya avastha

17.12.23

Avadhuta Gita

To what extent is Madhepura exposed to pornography?

Predetermined choices

18.12.23

demisexual

The arsonist choir

Sublimation is probably worse than ideology

MY sun is THE God

factoids

Giving up is better than giving in…?

19.12.23

Loss of naïvety → loss of innocence → loss of life

The universe ≈ torture device ≈ naked woman

Look at your shit before flushing it

AI ~ Artificial Insanity

Intensity differentials

Redundancies & singularities

Are all the so-called mysteries just mirages??

An eloquent murmur of doubt

What is the relation between what is and what is not?

Cosmotheandrism

Holy indifference – renouncing renunciation – truthfulness for its own sake!

Venturing beyond belief

Satyakama

Seeing RED → Being BLACK

Inconsistent machinations

Experience/insight & discourse/dialogue

Feverish rigor stretching the soul

Pause, turn within, & rethink

vedasya-antah

The radical departure of the peripatetic singer

Name → speech → mind → ?

The stunned imagination

Fishnet abstractions

Gnosticism/Laruelle & Advaita/Mukunda Rao

Would you seek the truth, even if it was not salvific?

brahmavadinis

Non/anti-inheritance

The Supreme (is not a) self

Unconscious intelligence

From knowing the truth, to being known by the truth, and to be(come) truth

Insight-without-seer

The bright-night & the dark-day

Death is the best (& only true) teacher of life

Narada, Nachiketa

Knowledge as gnostic-existential thrust as opposed to epistemological lust

20.12.23

My Izara is a different one from yours, dear! 😈

Misadventure → fiasco → catastrophe

After so long………. Exhaustion! But not again, for very long, if not forever 😅

My preference for spiritual (over physical) travel has been revindicated

Yes, I do know myself!

These men are both castrated/emasculated and also very fertile/reproductive! 😜

21.12.23

wattled

barbel

gawky

lope

The perfect fall

Attractively unusual

Yeti, sasquatch

tunic

watermark

breathy

Dylar receptors

Human test-animal

grubby, tacky

Cultivate your taste

Fitfully brilliant

Masterclass interviews

“I lapse into terrible reveries”

“Death is odd-numbered”

Is the callous dismissal of all wild conspiracy theories itself the greatest theoretical conspiracy?

Super-unleaded

Martyr + murderer ≈ Marturer

Can I forget my own death, when I don’t remember my birth?

22 12.23

Watched “Anatomy of a Fall” @ CIFF last night! WOW…… My interrogation in Bihar (by Child Protection officials) + Babbette’s confession in White noise + the contention between Salome & me regarding the (decision to have a) baby + Anti-Christ (Lars von Trier)

The third ear & second skin

Neon & A24 got my back

The infantile scream/cry and the adult growl/groan

Women like babies, just like guys like babes!

I invert the balance between leisure & work ≈ 2.5:1 😎

Indian National Developmental Inclusive Alliance (INDIA)

sine die

23.12.23

Timenergy

Iconic waypoints

Identarian expression

Attention economy

Marketing ~ propaganda

Competing interests and constant calculations

Consumer demographic

Presentist mindset

Passion projects

(ap)parent

soli(ci)tude

Mass-society & population-thinking

24.12.23

Jungle music

Katarsun

Landian

: :

December 20th, 2023 is when I was adopted (as a father)

Collaborative article

Chthonic axiomatics

K-think Q-war

Sentient coma

Xenoculture kit

Are Accelerationism and Post-humanism the same?

True South

Qwernomics Loa

Nymphetamine

Kerrang

Cryptography of geotraumatics

Thaumaturgy

ASCII 32 SETI

Sub-organizational pattern

Model/apparatus Vs. Machine/singularity

Rigorous de/en/re-coding

Science friction & social tension

twin-pincers

Fusional multiplicities

Quantum swirls/spontaneous swarms

Echidna Stillwell & Clyve Barker

Omnicide

Theorroristic Ascesis

plexion

anorganics, unlife

Geocosmic unconscious as traumatic megasystem

Hypermaterialist vocabulary

regression, disavowal

Plutonic vulcanism

Non-local touch

Over-excitation is anti-climax

Chthelll

Xanadu

Extraterrestrial oceans

saurian

Extralingual phonetics

Sheer numeracy/pure sequence

Melancholeric refusal

Reveries of a Solitary Walker; Theory of the Solitary Sailor

inquietude

Radical departure

Biographical anti-philosophy

Mineral poetics

Tear along the dotted line

Repetition & fluency

Criteria of effective rebellion

Subjectivation ~ immobilization

circumscription

Restricted action

organon/canon

From conceptual schema to lived rhythm

Gilles Grelet

The nothing-but-human Vs. Synthetic anthropoids

inveigle

philosophy-world/world-philosophy

The regime of the mixed

Non-conceptual symbol or First Name

That which inarticulately subsists all scission

Ante-philosophical experience

Insidious harassment

Insisting on the real anterior

Real-thought

The (essence of the) human is radically heterogenous to the world

realation

The anglophone academic industry

Beatific indifference to militant attack

Hermetic oeuvre

requisitions

Lardreau & Jambet

“Great politics”

Absolute repudiation as cultural revolution

Subtractive purity

Logic of occasionality

Gnostic Maoism

25.12.23

Asangoham!

Holy negligence

Awakened homesickness

Inward perseverance ~ manance

aleator

Fanaticism of the outplace

Extra-causal angelic subjectivation

pre-thetic experience

The human-real has never been in-place

Fidelity-operator of the event-in-situation

The irruption of the melancholy-void

“We must keep steadily out-of-place”

Keeping the right distance via a mixture of recklessness & nerve

Radically non-manipulative cybernetics

Just enough to live – maximal constraint

Anti-social institution

Between the world/compromise and the void/suicide

Canonical exigencies confronted with the trials of practice

Theoréme Vs. Archons

The self-replenishing phantasmatic babbling

Geopoetical figure

Personal rediscovery of place

Nomadising and the mystical snares of nativity

Anti-political, ante-worldly, counter-actualization

The shimmering in-between

It only gets harder and harder from here on (in every way)……! Bring it on ~ turn me on

Geological angelism

Subjectivation with/beside a non-human other

Decoupling dignity from recognition

The night of the world

Mobile finisterre & immobile journey

The minimal constant of rebellion

The reciprocity of formula & place

Non-relational, non-utilitarian, non-pious existence

Renouncing domesticity without falling prey to cosmopolitanism

Sophistication on the way to simplicity

Uncompromising yet livable

Points of leverage ~ remainders of the Real in the world

Conducive to the provocations of contingent gnosis

Escaping administered biography into new modes of subjectivation

Nurturing the capacity for a decision to depart

Glimpses of joy ~ traversals of the void

Hold your silence, wait, and continue to sail

Selfless autobiography

Systematic Irregularity Study Unit (SISU)

The real is NOT the Sublime

26.12.23

burner

The weight of billionaires

AI arms race

Extreme tourism

OceanGate

Virtue signaling

Whisper networks

Time-poor, ultra-high-achieving millennials

On the importance of staring directly into the sun

Souvankham Thammavongsa

Make a To-Don’t List

Urbanomic documents

Gruppo Di Nun – Revolutionary Demonology

27.12.23

Instead of retreating from the dominant social into occasional solitude, do the inverse!

The question mark as hangar

Who/what owns the vast majority of (your) timenergy?

The ancient esoteric traditions/myths describe a mystical/enchanted world beneath the mechanical/ordered realm accessed by the Enlightenment sciences. But contemporary theory/research plumbs even deeper, to expose a terrifying/chaotic real that is even more fundamental!

The politics of truth

Definitions as a project in comparative faith

The chattering class

The dread of the real and the comfort of the dubious

Disputed realities

hokum, credo

nativism

Updated morality of progressive politics

The politbureau of phraseology

Original argument

Rehistoricize – history > human story

Today’s fantasies ~ tomorrow’s myths

Social angst

Meaning manipulations

Charm offensive

Wartime guru

Manmatha/Kamadeva

Relationship coaches

Dream job Vs. Filial duty

Literary curator

Fort-shrine-cave

Parliamentary standing committee

Cross-cultural lives & loves

The Beatnik disdain for conformity

Bilingual wife

CRISPR

Computational iteration

affine

28.12.23

Wage-wars

Last night I saw a huge wild buffalo sauntering through my street (like never before)! Cf. The deer in “Leave the World Behind”

Entertainment-philosophy

imminental

escalope

scoff

frisky filly

29.12.23

The energy of despair

0 > 1

The unthinkability of negative politics

The undeconstructible resource of deconstruction

The philosopheme of affirmation

Authorizing interrogation

Immune to reactive evaluations

Selective ontology of mobility & multiplicity

Ultra-negativity as radical affirmation

If my “softening up” (as a parent) occurs organically, then it is okay (which is what seems to be the case, at least for now) – but never when it is compelled or coerced (imposed from without). Either way, I need to keep sharpening the radical edge – this would be the only constant in all the flux……

The bad faith of affirmationism

Parody of a doctrine

The political overdetermination of neutral monism

Double affirmation ≈ Yes Yes!

The reactionary consolidation of social hierarchies

Dialectics as a last-ditch weapon

The super-fold

The domain of silicon

1 ≠ 1

Yes, this guy seems to be much better off than that one. But that guy is fighting a more important war, although failing miserably at it… whereas this guy would still be insignificant, even if he wins his own conventional battles!

30.12.23

Denaturing humanity

vae victis

Faces of the fallen angel

Apolitical rebellion

Positing the unconditional

The rational rightness of revolt

Only religion can understand politics

insurgent/dissident/heretic

An alternative to popular revolt and submissive resignation

Passive terrorism

31.12.23

Anarcho-desirant

The Gambler (1974) moves from Underground Notes to Criminal Punishment – I am my own judge, jury & executioner! Pushing one’s luck to the point of absolute ruination…… and then what??

Vir(tu)al multiplicity

The active nihilism of joyful encounters

Aggressive quietism

Cultural revolution avant la lettre

The heroic anonymity of radiant stylites

Voluntary madness

Safely marginalized lunatic fringe

Uncompromising language as saintly posture

Spiritual Maoism

Desexing the body ~ destroying the world

Double wager

Pure incantation

Push the leap to the point of paroxysm

Ruthless (idealist) purgation

The brutal angelic will

The exemplary experience of the ascetics

The irredeemable failure of the very idea

What is alternative (musical genre)?

blowhard

I can wipe that smug smile off your face! 😎

Counter-revolutionary fanaticism

The esoteric metaphysical thesis – the past doesn’t exist!

History/memory is an instrument of mastery

The Kantian Lacan!

Extra-worldly ur-freedom

Militant paramnesia

Subjected to the treasure that found me

Impressed by the Other’s contemplation

Silent illuminations of the desertified intellect

The asexual spouse ~ the infertile father

Renouncing historical illusion

An empty claim made on a pure idea

The negative configuration of a super-affirmative answer

The soul as an unrepeatable event

Inventing the spirit

Dramatise the irreducible disjunction between soul & world

The cruel limit of all imagination

Dreyfusards

Conflating will & wish

A fully symphonic negative liberty

Nothing is all ~ absolute immanence

Negative materialism

Siding with the irrepresentable/Real

Lady Macbeth

Brute sensory recognition of spilt blood

Letting fall away

The individual sensu stricto

It is always right to revolt ~ to be alive is to be resting in pieces

Pathological duty

Isolated subject ~ evanescent object

If you wanna meet the baby, contact the wife-mother. If you wanna have conversation, contact me.

The notion of right is ethically imprescriptible

A formalism exceeding Kantian transcendental law

Abstract-norm

The supra-social & supra-sensible ~ immediately concrete

The Cannibal Angel

imaginarisation

Positivity ~ empiricity ~ re(a)l(is)ation

From acceptance to exaltation

Concision & syntactical contortion

Self without flesh

Anti-authoritarian inflection of reverential submission

Sapere aude

Infantile defiance

Self-negating revolt ~ auto-positing the master

Properly idiosyncratic thinker ~ intransigent philosophical project

Is The Junky’s Christmas a parable of altruism?

From Great Politics to Groundwork

renegacy

From political actualization to self-dissolution

Turning outside-in

The vanishing present

What do the sun, death & shit have in common?

What if the early Christian monks/saints had stayed within society and church, instead of retreating into the monastery/desert?!

“Exercise your will!” – this is the ultimate moral/-law.

If I could only touch/taste that point/spot of death within my (still living) body……….

1.1.24

Feet-clapping

“Tear the hole inside your soul”

2.1.24

The transcendental status of revolutionary autonomy

Defiant elation and acetic withdrawal

The corrupting machinations of the public sphere

The rightness of revolt

Do what you will – this is the whole of the law!

The ideological recuperation of cultural revolution

Neo-Nietzschean political agency

Non-human freedom

The past is past – the previous present to the passing moment

French Maoists

Anachronism & ossification

Luddites & Communards

Do you feel strong enough to break the history of the world in two?

Aapy aapy New Year 2024!

Subjective reason ~ decisive will

Insurgent Vs. Reactionary

Rousseauist ~ Jacobin

Self-authorization

Voluntarism – sovereign capacity (for self-determination)

Unconditional commitment to absolute repudiation

You must live AS IF you have free will, and believe you CAN alter the future course of the world

Choose NOT to be “discarded in the oblivion of contingency”

The granite point of resistance

The negative/regulative idealism of intransigent integrity

Supersensible vocation

Stoic pacifism, spiritualist immanence, productivist vitalism

Pious aspiration ~ force of habit

3.1.24

Bio-computer

From Socrates-Plato to Thales-Anaximander

apeiron

Bad highs; Good lows

From articulated ideals to spiritual aspirations

Holy Satan

The twice-born (or born-again) are those who have tasted death (or the divine life) while still alive!

Bla-n/c-k

Print this shit!

I am going to eat your soul

Horror music/metal movie

Le-v/o Shestov

Does your printer have white ink?

neoteric

4.1.24

ipseity

siphonophore, hydrozoa

Society of non-linear animals

Non-corporeal linkages

ephemerid

corolla, sepals, pistils

Composition Vs. Laughter

saturnalia ~ festival of the ass

puerile grimace

Toilet humor

Authority withered by exhaustion

ambulette

woozy

A history of devout victimhood

5.1.24

millinery

Open sala

banderilla

hacienda

syncopate

falsetto

I’m gonna have to call you back

The accidental impact of an outside force

haunches

hatch (n.)

roan

The fiction of a possibility

6.1.24

A democratic concertation of speculative practices

Urbanomic Documents

Space-Timenergy ~ Spactimergy

Between possession & depression

giallo

Roman techno

phenoumenodelia

artifactual

lemuric

You can get stoned out of your head, right here right now, irrespective of any external/market chemical availability. Wanna show!?

ensoundment

conceptwear

biopower

pornopharmacology

Abstraction as definition & transformation

The disoriented person feels depressed, only when placed in a world enslaved by order!

Do you dream of sobriety, when high?

How can I manipulate time, just like I manipulate space (via movement)? Can I stand still in time?

The revisionary/constructive elaboration of freedom

The reciprocal development of means & ends

Determinant negation

Lust-crazed mosquitoes Vs. Megalomaniacal humans

7.1.24

milieux

rockabilly esperanto

apophenia

exurban

conflab

Like the clappers

foie gras

moquette

jetstream

ribald

esplanade

conurbation

Idiotically agape

lytic cocktail

burin

secateur

9.1.24

scrying

hellions

Pillow fights

Self ~ pity ~ self
Pity ~ self ~ pity

mooch

stoolie ~ stool pigeon

11.1.24

Distinguish:
I don’t want to live
&
I want to die

Distinguish:
Contemplation
&
Speculation

stylite

cynegetic

Desire: Sex Vs. Rebellion

12.1.24

stanch

Environmental militarism

Biospherical conditions

Postliberal humanity

Embodied religion

Weaponized borders

Mystical archeology

Thought of/from the outside

Immanent critique of religion

Bachelard & Canguilhem

Methodological experimentation

Theoretical clearings

Invisible space that originates discourse

From Neoplatonic unity to Post-structuralist dispersion

Foucault/Blanchot

13.1.24

docent

Applied Ballardianism

Surviving the edgelands

15.1.24

habilitation

colloquys

16.1.24

Scream + aim ≈ scraim!

18.1.24

guttersnipe

bandersnatch

lacrosse

20 mg of Escitalopram gives you a bad trip, but it also fucks up the depression! 😜

Should I split my day(s) into 50/50 of external role and internal pursuit? ~ 12 hours sleep/relaxation + 4 hours chores + 4 hours reading/watching + 4 hours miscellaneous. The chores could be done only on alternate days… Fucking coward! 😡

I want to become psychedelically self-sufficient!

ramjet

chin (v.)

The eternal waiting nude

russet

You are living, so you do. You’re also dying, so you think!

Fluctuating planes

crash-dive

wan & bleary

shingling

Is Viagra a psychedelic too!? 😅

Anti-vitalism

Are you turned on by a corpse?

maunder

hamper (n.)

Styrofoam

Is light an electromagnetic phenomenon?

I feel a little guilty about not feeling miserable or numb…

festoon

sepia

From medico to quakaroo

needlepoint

blockhouse

Should I write “Should I write these words down?” or not?

19.1.24

Deep assignments

20.1.24

hooning

esoteric hyperstition

propagative pulp

The lurid dark; Neon black

21.1.24

Anacharsis

Noble savage

22.1.24

Godless Qabbalism

Lemurian time-sorcery

Qabbala Vs. Numerology

Numogram

Logos Vs. Nomos

Pythagorean Tarot

From magic to sorcery – turn yourself outside-in – exotericism!

Hypercultural matrix

zygonomy

When I’m sober and feel good too (rarely), I feel “bad” about that! 😜

Decimal labyrinth

23.1.24

Pandemonium ~ Necronomicon

4.2.24

eaves

I’ve spent ~ 20 years being a Christian. I’ve spent only ~ 7 years being an atheist philosopher! I need at least a decade (3 more years) in the new mode, to really accelerate……

Withdrawal → addiction

Trust me, Joe! Feeling everything would be far worse than feeling nothing.

Adam’s cock/dick → serpent → woman → forbidden fruit → fall/enlightenment

Moses’s snake-rod – get it?

What happens to them when the commercial ends?

Study/meditate on 1 song for the entire small group meeting

Why don’t I like card games?

The emptied man

smock

How to outself one’s own self

A nebulous mass

What we see on the news ISN’T what “politics” REALLY is!

Idle curiosity

Vestigial malignancy

Your doctor knows the symbols

A time to think/die and a time to act/live – just follow the seasons and you’ll be just fine!

Although there is a confident memory of the pleasure (during a trip), it still takes faith to get stoned almost every time, because of how dull/flat I might be feeling, just before……

Stern, antique virtue of the Amish/Shaker

I don’t know what I mean

What does a life without regrets look like (from the inside)??

I’ve already made a deal with Izara – “I will fail you, to the core”! (Demon Hunter)

5.2.24

[0] There are NO rules
[1] There is ONLY one rule

Radically abstract signs

xenotation

subdecadence

If you knew that no matter what you do or don’t, it makes no difference whatever…… Then how would you go about living your days (& nights)?

oecumenic societies

Ordinal/cardinal

Selfless thought ~ thoughtless self

lexicography

risible

The inalienable right to be bored

There seems to be this nascent & intense ritual practice (of an intricate pattern), that seems to be virally multiplying itself through my (seemingly autonomous) behavior

To hell in a handbasket

Fanatically prolonged artificial insomnia

Polydrug abuse

Loa

7.2.24

Dont blow your smoke up my ass

Left-hand path/Sinisterism

Thomas Leroy

Gouge out your right eye, and make your left one the third eye!

NEVER-/mind

High-quality gibberish

How do you say goodbye to yourself?

fusillade

8.2.24

Subtextual fragments

I have the right to destroy myself

Sexual discourse

problematization

There is something even deeper than (your) belief & desire – that which believes & desires!

Preconceptual ideology

Ideas as viral/memes (demons/powers)

The evolution of the very idea of evolution

!Evolution → devolution ←→ revolution ← Evolution

governmentality

Hermeneutics of the self

I have moved so far from my original project

The male Id would be no match for the liberated female sex!

Ram Lalla

mat(t)er

If you really want to find out what you want, then just try to minimize doing what you don’t like, as much as possible

Unpublished volume

Look for sentences & songs, not books or albums!

Pleasure, power & meaning ~ love, hope & faith ~ intimacy, purpose, belief ~ Id, superego, ego

Life, body & self

subjectification/spiritualization

The political techniques of religion

Novel space of thought

Subjugated knowledges

9.2.24

What would a world, in which everyone was fulfilling their sexual fantasies, be like?

The politics of solitude

If excessive pleasure is painful, then is excessive pain also pleasurable?

Living ink

primordialism

Collective will – what!?

A sudden vertical surge

It seems like I have MORE leisure now, after the baby’s arrival! 😂

Mescaline country

10.2.24

Acosmism ~ solipsism!

Diabolical Left-Hand Path

Lilith liftoach qliffoth

Spinal catastrophism

Omnicide

Cyclonopedia

Maieutic artistry

Holy Black Flame

TOTBL

Acosmic ~ utopic

Knowledge is manipulation

Joe enjoys himself, alone!

Depression/addiction as superpower

Existential risk

12.2.24

Actualize the real!

The Devil made me do it

Mare’s nest

13.2.24

hock

beadle

weir

14.2.24

Misanthropic Luciferian Order (MLO)

subtext

The said and the unsaid

Force-relations of a new mode of being

Techniques of knowledge ~ strategies of power

Discourse ~ violence

The half-spouse and the full-parent

I refuse to make another person (or object or work or ideal) the centre of my concern

Transformative immanent processes ~ transcendent realities

Body-politics of the limit

Counter-memory

Power, sex, language & history – discoursification

Strategic frameworks

peek

Elder ideas

Super-long term

depetrification

XF

cruft

doxx

17.2.24

Manichean materiality

Affordable, instrumentalized problematicity

Critique of affordance

Folly of the impossible

18.2.24

Negative identity of being & thought

Inversely paradisical

Sufi existentialism

probative

Theophanic panpsychism

Dark panentheism

Original hyperspontaneity

Not-willing

Absolute contingency and the omnipotence of hyperchaos

Originary whim

Ontic negation as excess

Essential self-shadow

A total whatless that

I’m always elsewhere

An intensive negation that is beyond affirmation & denial

Co-substantial groundlessness

Acontextual refusal of facticity

The awareness of non-knowing ~ Conscious ignorance

Contemplation has what thinking seeks

“Vanity of vanities” ~ Being & beings

Becoming the body of truth

The essential/unique human work

The negative index of an immanent beyond

The infinitization of arriving search

Bernard McGinn

The fraud of givenness

Customize family/relationships to individual/persons, NOT vice-versa

dispend

Schopenhauer → Mainländer

Superessential whylessness

The ruthless grace of the real

Metaphysical responsibility

We are (not) star-dust

Vernon Howard

Theological/thanatological non-experience

Negative equation ~ apophatic analogy ~ mystical discourse

Meher Baba

Impossible inevitability

pre(-e)vent

Resistance to the present

degauss

I’m not unforgiven, I’m repentless!

Tore off some advertising boards on the trees in my neighborhood

Hulk Hogan & Tony Hawk

If my daughter (when she’s ~ 15) were to say that her father is her best friend ever, would that be a great achievement of which I would be proud?!

19.2.24

BoOM – Biography of Ordinary Man

20.2.24

Humanism → Post-humanism → Anti-humanism → Non-humanism

Europanalysis

Theoretical attitude as higher-level praxis

Pragmatics is not ethics

Self(ish)-criticism

Creating a new humanity which is NOT afraid to be alone!

The non-participatory subject

Pro-alienation

Absolute insights

The infinite task of pure theoria

From passive wonder to mythology to rigorous science

The philosopher’s philosopher

The universal critical stance

The fortification of truth(-seeking)

21.2.24

The faith of the savage

Dark theory + horror films + metal music + pornography + Satanism = !?

Men are fucking & killing machines

I’m NOT the meditating monk, but the blackness that surrounds him!

I need to access all those parts of me that still remain hidden from myself

My cock is not a cobra, it’s a boa constrictor (by coalescing a million worms within)!

Moral injury

Seema Reza

Piper Perry & Talia Mint

A generic science of the human!

Cave → plough → stars → ? ……Ocean!

Spiritual functionary Vs. Rampant objectivism

Subjective science!

Life/-world

The objective spirit

Transcendental phenomenology

Ossified reality, reified destiny

Man as the cosmos’s self-reflection

Critical ~ emancipatory ~ destructive

Instrumental reason and traditional theory

Self-valorizing value

Formal sciences

Fact-collecting & fact-deriving theories

The dialectic of history & theory

A materialist account of the person

Dominant unreason & inhuman order

The main task of parenting is in getting out of the way, in the development of the child’s self-reflexive relationship (with herself), even as basic physiological needs are met adequately.

vanguardist position

Her skin glowed like white-hot coals

23.2.24

infomercial

The transparent Black

24.2.24

Whatever is (not) dangerous is (not) worth doing.

Debtor’s prison

High on fire ~ Power trip

Profane confession

Critical autobiography

How does transgression become liberty?

Opium-eater

Drug diary

fiend

I can withdraw so far into myself that I can observe my own body as a part of the “external world”

Solitude ~ rumination

Altered/distorted/augmented self-perception

Thomas De Quincey

Suspiria de profundis

The sensuous sign

New memories

25.2.24

flailing

“DON’T say it, JUST do it!” (But you’re still writing it 😜)

What does rebelling against LOVE look like?

FUCK your wife!

I AM (all those) that I AM

26.2.24

Asexual male ≈ Female

Speech as praxis → Silent action

Brutal (serpent!) honesty

frisky

Pornography Vs. Violence – which is more obscene (censorious)??

I can never worship you, the farthest I can go is to salute you

Joker ~ Gambler

The headless dancer

I am the (allegedly) deluded spouse

“I like Odin!” – Lisa Corrine

All’s well that ends.

Laudanum

Life (& death) is an open-book exam

lmao ~ Imho

How do you distinguish l & I?

If crash-&-burn is what you’re trying to do, then you’re not going fast enough!

The ground of all being ≈ one single human being!?

Can a soldier & civilian ever live together?? Yes! Until it ends in murder.

Do you have it in you? Well, there’s only one way to find out…

24 hours mute – starting NOW ⚠️

I believe all traditional spiritual techniques (E.g. Vipassana) are just extensions and reaffirmations of their respective dogma/agenda.
So, non-spiritual (or carnal/hedonistic) indulgence is actually superior (ironic) in the pursuit of truth for its own sake.

Love ~ fuck ~ kill

GOD is pure idea (with no actual existence)

The illusion of control and the facade of reality

27.2.24

pulchritude

Yes, I know now what mania is like! 😁

From salvation to salvaging

Making foolish attractive

Intrigued by garbage

Theory as scavenging

selving

Moby Dick ~ Hunting the Divine Fox (Robert Capon)

I think I’m trying to (stay) connect(ed) with a younger (version of) myself (~ 12-13!)

Profoundly grumpy 😅

A storyteller who hates the idea of “the healing power of stories”

Good hatred

Gnarly tension

Pulpy scepticism

Purple prose

Strong recommendation

Non-traditional superheroes

Intentional & strategic self-deception

Flying downward ~ the diving angel!

Ex child-stars

callow

bucolic

The quotidian gothic

Octopuses + garbage + trains

Analysis is NOT explanation

New Weird

World-fantasies

joestling

punt

Psychic tenor

Inventing realities & rules

Mucky contingency

You have to stay together for the kid(s), I don’t

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16.9.23

coquelicot

ridgepole ~ rooftree

mirador

debouche

runnel

floribundia

pebbly

covey

17.9.23

telluric

abhorration

Are you ashamed of your shamelessness?

face-melting

Kim Phuc

droits

We have moved from a world where the living were under threat of death, to a world in which the dead are forced to live under threat of (endless torture?)……

No breakthrough, without a prior dead-end

18.9.23

abreaction

pretermission

dementia praecox

infusoria

animalcule

amphimixis

19.9.23

Scientific language as metaphorical

Philosophy as metapsychology

Heart ~ blood ~ flow

Are any two subatomic particles (E.g. Electrons) exactly identical (in mass, rotation, charge, etc.)?

But for me, the (pain of) excitation is more preferable, than the (pleasure of) discharge, as it is for most others… Because they are mostly in a state of activity, and I am almost always in a state of quiescence.

Pleasurable excitation Vs. Painful quiescence Vs. Painful excitation Vs. Pleasurable quiescence.
What about neutral activity, like sleepwalking?

Extreme equilibrium – white-hot sleep!

Iatromantis

My very own private firing-squad (for pleasure)

Is it possible/necessary to be outrageous & elegant at the same time?

culottes

iterate

Dangerous hedonism

This feeling is somewhere in between numbness, pleasure & pain… or is it something altogether different, like nausea?

Strychnine as stimulant

cabrón

truant ~ hooky

stile

goujeers

moated grange

thievish

mescal

switchback

cantina

whiskerando

rubicund

waggish

seigniorage

snifter

litharge

pips

20.9.23

Maybe I am meant to be a secret inspiration and shaping influence, on these few people, who would later become “great”……

divagations

Isha+Rhea

Is this what “putting yourself under the pump” means??

22.9.23

Are you really conservative inside and radical only on the outside? Is the inside more real than the outside? Is radical better than conservative? Is it worth even asking any of these questions? I would keep asking them, even if it was totally irrelevant & useless!

Profound uncertainty
Vs.
Absolute non-existence

Life can only lead to death. Only death can produce life.

Isn’t the shepherd closer to the wolf, than he is to the sheep?

MyGov

decantation

Active degeneration
Deliberate defects

Geostrategy < Biopolitics

brow

Dismembering reality

Seeds of unreality – a porous permeable fabric

The expired word

whorl

flywheel

sepals

Empty perceptions

Foe + fire = FIE!

Junkies & pushers

Have you ever imagined yourself as/inside a comatose patient in the ICU (comfortably numb)?

When evaluating a metal album (on whether to add it to my favorites or not), first listen to all the songs in one go, WITHOUT the lyrics – a pure sonic experience

Life > consciousness > intentionality
E.g. There can be no consciousness without life, but not vice-versa

Painless suffering Vs. Prolonged death

cur

serried

Adversarial tradition

Make half your trips slow/mild (instead of all fast/intense)

24.9.23

Triskelion – the (erect) penis as the third leg

S(t)imulate your self

Take YOUR time

25.9.23

The materiality of language!

The only truth is dare (risk), and the only dare is truth (honesty)!

Truth or Dare
Vs.
Trick or Treat

Perpetual (convalescent) adolescence ~ arrested development

Nietzsche (Libidinal economy) ← Freud + Marx

Sexuality as masculine spirituality, and spirituality as feminine sexuality

Her vagina is NOT a pussycat, unlike her!

“I see it in your eyes, the tearing in your heart”

Body-writings

History of the flesh & crises of representation

Liberatory decadence

Validating the invalid & recluse

prognosticate

Pensive pathological being – sitting & hearing each other groan

Literature as pathography – how does the body speak through illness?

The patient poet – writing & writhing

Illness ~ intoxication

Jayanta Mahapatra

The dying shtick

Anatole Broyard

Transcultural experience

Therapeutic possibilities of the Wasteland

Firangi

other/-wise

Mudra ~ Mantra

The Asian Heidegger

Phenomenontology

carcerality

Generous attention

Finding one’s feet

Diagnosing (the blissful ignorance of) health

Literature > narrative; Creativity > the work

Immature psychosis

Childish catastrophes

Modernist angst as psychosomatic alienation

Disease ~ Disposition

From self-consciousness to body-awareness

Re-embodying the mind

Sanguis + cruor = corpus

Manifest insistence

s(t)oma

Bravura rendering

The touch of the outside and the joy of death

ether(eal)ize ~ corpsify

sarcosophy

patienthood

Excessive consciousness

Contagion – evil as the virus that infects the (good) body

Orgasmatron

From modernity to modernism

Addicted to the cure (for malaise)

I’m-patience

26.9.23

Ejaculation as excretion

Consciousness ~ present ~ outside. Unconscious memory ~ past ~ inside. Imagination ~ future ~ remote

Circle – the perimeter is nothing but a (temporary) expanded form of the center

I am NOT Faust. I am (your) Mephistopheles! 👹

I have realized, the primary site of my work is the masculine body (starting with my own) 🔥

almoner

tellurics

I am the opposite/nemesis of the Renaissance (well-rounded) man 😏

feeling-tone

Autonomous complexes

I AM the dividual

The evolution of my Mother continues, in/through me, NOW without the frustration of Christian morality……….!

fune-real

inhume

Sabrina & Jung ~ Salome & Nietzsche ~ Diotima & Socrates

Fortuitous pain

27.9.23

The mysterious happening of human existence

“Beau is Afraid” is better than “Crimes of the Future”. Or, I like the former better than the latter, although the latter is also good.

Negative love

Self-objectification

I becomes we becomes they

Sexual murder

Death fantasies

Auto-erotic isolation

Dark sexuality & spiritual regeneration

Self-birthing

Tragic realism

Wish-personality

Psychotics & artists as dreamers

Wagnerian heroes

The individual self Vs. The collective soul

Singularity is sublimity

The spitting (s)exorcist

Unreal existence ~ suspended animation

Maybe it is the truly alive (select few), who feel as if they are zombies, in a dystopian world

There are 2 types of dysfunctional people:
Those who feel guilty & try to repent
Those who feel angry & condemn the world instead

Death as dedifferentiation

Agri-culture as mytho-logy

Sun & sea ~ male & female ~ seed & soil

That which is not destroyed remains destructive

Learning to enjoy the Numbness

28.9.23

When doing something, don’t feel or think, just/only/simply DO (it).

Judgment:
1.
It’s okay to be okay
+
It’s not okay to be not okay
2.
It’s not okay to be okay
+
It’s okay to be not okay
1 Vs. 2

Feeling:
High & relaxed + Low & relaxed
Low & restless + High & restless
1 Vs. 2

The myth of creation and the creation of myth

Void ~ vortex ~ portal

Essay ~ assay

29.9.23

I offer/sacrifice my double-stoned cock to my goddess, the Great Mother

T(h)rashy art

Extreme-ities

If not now then when? If not here then where?

Empty opus

Using letters as symbols – fuck language back!

Film school project

Closed-door subjects

Breathing ~ reading

Mirrorless existences ~ total solitude

“Beau Is Afraid” and “Joker” are 2 sides of the same coin! (Is that coin called Joaquin Phoenix??)

What is this?
Naming/defining is NOT
knowing/touching

I’m feeling lucky, wretched wisdom and weakling battles

If lived alone, I would be happier, & sadder, & more Mortal

Human flotsam

Multicultural graveyard

Symbolic death

pi(e)ty

Br(ex)it

Is the world today a “much better place” compared to ~ 100 or even 1,000 years ago?

Optical unconscious

Consciousness-of-stream

Over-representation exhaustion

Compassion fatigue

Reconstructing one’s own past via the violence of organized forgetting

Bridge metaphor

Incantatory text

Catafalque

Black rain

Saving strangers

Pink-er

The underclass

The death of the victim (as a symbol/icon/idol)

Remote war

Post-industrial shadowlands

Well-meaning & brainless meat-puppets

Dangerous populations

The double standard of liberalism

Metaphysical hubris & international intervention

conscript

Digital containment

Titillate ~ petrify ~ outrage

PSTD

bolgia

retrotopia

Is numbness a feeling? 😅

antipodean

If you’re sober > half the time, then you’re not (yet) an addict

30.9.23

Maybe my daughter will be the one to successfully slay (behead) me

Obsessional constraint

postface

Acosmic, pre-individual, singular intensities

Dogmatic slumber

Hamann & Jacobi

Sacred ~ cultic

Vicious circle ~ eternal return

Mutual, reciprocal, equal causation! E.g. Subject/person & Object/world

Social institutions Vs. Elementary forces

Group fantasies

Parrhesia, Diacritics

The new amorous world

Mortalizing thought via the decadent body

Theogony ~ physiognomy

The foolish immortal anchorite

gyre

fungible

Non-exchangeable value

Sterile enjoyment & wasteful production

Utensilary superstition & efficient destruction

Constitutional determinism

Laruelle as inverse Hegel?

The substructure of infrastructures

The psychic life of power

Imponderable forces

Callipygian Venus

Unconcealment of the tragic secret

From sex without procreation to pleasure without orgasm

Complex passions

The gregarious fulfillment of subjective unity

Can animals be selfish, as opposed to speciesist?

Capitalism as totalitarianism; Advertising as propaganda

What would you choose, if a Djinn offered you 3 wishes?
The second wish would be the reversal of the first (E.g. Unlimited money), and the last would be to have 3 more wishes… 😜

From sexuality to erotism

What proportion of the global population is middle-class or bourgeois? Is the spirit of the age dictated by this?

Active presence

Emerald Tablet ~ Gospel of Thomas

medi(t)ation

telesma

New discoveries from Old Worlds

Hal Taussig

Phalansteries – affinity classes

Organizing playful rituals

Passional aspiration

Romance, sport, art

The game as liberatory reality

Perverse emotions

Serious voluptuosity

Wretched wisdom

Which do you prefer – a natural (later) death or a violent (earlier) death?

Is the intellectual just a castrated/emasculated warrior?

The electromagnetic (hollow) body

1.10.23

predicant

Parnassian

Mummy’s 3rd (death) anniversary

dysautonomia

2.10.23

alacrity

Wicked humor

Žižek’s “parallax gap” (atheistic) ~ William Desmond’s “metaxology” (theistic)?

Animal suffering

Honest advertising

stodgy

Mate bait

Rexit

Hard-edged & dark… Jaw-droppingly distinctive

The secret gospels

Spiritual circumcision

grubs

Gentle master(y)

3.10.23

Cleft tongue

4.10.23

Non(standard)-fiction

6.10.23

demonst(e)rate ~ de-monster-ate

Spectator-sport

Learn to embrace whatever is – pain &/or pleasure &/or blah – become so capacious that your own incapacity is also hospitably accommodated!

Living in the eternal moment ~ my default mode is absent-mindedness

May IT happen in, through & around me

Passive exultation

Death as victory/vengeance

In-finity

Become used to doing nothing for prolonged periods of time, without getting restless, dejected or drowsy – this is your primary task!

7.10.23

From “Who am I?” to “What this is!”

Distinguish:
Sunrise & dawn
Sunset & dusk

twilight

From leap to explosion

The happiness of a pessimist

The horrors & dangers of the mundane/routine

You don’t want to get high yes. But the High wants to get you! 😈

Judas (Iscariot/Satanic) Priest

SFG: Spiritual Friendship Group ~ Science Fiction Generale (Laruelle)

Barbie Vs. Anabelle

9. 10.23

It is possible that I’m feeling (unusually) miserable because of (the psychic/spiritual impact of) certain current catastrophic world events…?

Am I responsible for my depression, and therefore guilty of feeding this laziness through my own choice of attitude & lifestyle? Being both my own victim & culprit is intolerable, isn’t it?

antsy

Triumphant disaster

earthlight

daybed

10.10.23

Does an enlightened guru have rage attacks?

From society of the spectacle to collage of individual visionaries

Theoretical experience & experiential practice

parricide

From magic to science to

Social imaginary & faith horizon

Return to ferity & mission of malice

From moral satire to literary bestiality

Ingesting (therefore, also digesting, assimilating & excreting) philosophy

Isn’t Pornography my chief influence?!

“GOD is all mouth”

Human wildness

From criticism to destruction

Today, porn is even more strictly censored than gore!

Semiotic derangement

Negative discourse

Max Ernst & Lewis Carroll

William Burroughs & Kurt Cobain

Collage novel

frottage

Picture books

Fap tribute & celeb skin

White mythology

Unselfconscious arena

Invisible art & inaudible music

bildungsphilister – is it possible that I’m not a self-deluded idiot?! Is there a foolproof way of confirming this?? 😅

Prenatal paradise & nostalgia for the womb

“You’re only a rebel from the waist down” – maybe the central cerebral control wanes as the distance of the organ from the brain increases…… 🤪

aquiline

Amphibious modality

Edenic gestation

Platonic bias

Pure difference

parasol

Paramyths – declassify ~ unworlding

The Real is monstrous (to us), only because we have been thoroughly formalized

Cultural reversions – kulturputsch

lo-fi

Reflections of a representation of the real

Metonymic figurations

My whole body is full of eyes, but when I see you, I only see 2 poor eyes, both lodged in the head, looking back! So how can I NOT objectify you??

Original fragments ~ organs without body

Hybridized creatures

The structurality of entrapment

Phantom of a phantom

iStripper zoom ~ headless torso ~ hundred-headed woman

Semantic distortions

Germinal perturbation

What would it be like to live in a world where everybody is illiterate/ignorant?

Freeplay & supplementarity

High jinx

11.10.23

Birdsong @ Anna Nagar, Chennai

Hard-wired to self-destruct

The name of (one of) my God(esses) is Keeley Olivia

Even if you see this object from any angle (360°), you will ONLY see its backside (or outside). Because the face is turned inward!

Meditation is (the old) masturbation…?

Third Eye Blind

Cardi B + Megan Thee Stallion

13.10.23

Why does tech stuff (software/hardware) malfunction, just like humans do? Why do I expect it NOT to be infected with the same virus/void that is in us??

freighter

windlass

bulkhead

forecastle

quartermaster

galley

antipode

caftan

serape

euchre

spiel

Hard bargaining

voluble, glib

sharkskin

shagreen, chagrin

bullthrowing, shooting the breeze

tweeds

nutation

peon ~ pawn

dynasty ~ destiny

Drops of God – Alexandre Leger was a pretentious old fool!

mirador

swarthy

Cloacal speech

monotreme

Excrete ~ purge ~ cleanse

Body politic – am I not the asshole of my society?

Could I insert myself in between these 2 biospiritual brothers?!

cartero

Malcolm Lowry is fucking crazy and I love it! Alcoholic writing

dungaree

wizened

I too shall pass, unless I’ve already failed (to disappear)…… 😜

zacuali

gable

vermillion, mauve

Nameless objects

Movable defences

crenellations ~ battlements

Gold leaf

chevron

Wheeling cloud shadows

Flying balcony

Golfing scorpions

Hurling backwards

Unexampled horrendousness

harpy

Prohibitionist poster

The water bottles in my house are always empty. I am raped by thirst, fatigue and fury.

tumulose

Automatic & indifferent living

barfly

“Name of a name of God”

Who was my mother… really??

Adversarial reasoning

SFG as “emergency brake system”

15.10.23

Maurice Blanchot interviews himself

Wreck ~ recharge

Overturning point

berserker furor

Is there an art of living (& dying) which can be designed from a nihilistic perspective or tragic attitude?

Self-confrontation

decreation

Eternal sin

Sacrifice of virgins

Cultural moment

Systematized rape

The (no-)things behind the veil (of the human)

Avoiding precarity

shamefastness

Displeasure Vs. Bad pleasure

Field uncut

Counterfeit women

Translucent gender

Am I still in the stage of Christian hangover (mourning the death of GOD)? Would I ever emerge out of this (on to the other side) in this life?

Perverse immortality

Crowning irony

Fatigue + restlessness = misery

Interexist ~ follow each other

Blind to other realities

Shadow of a doubt

In Christianity, divine sovereignty provides the very basis of human freedom. Whereas in Greek tragedy, fate requires the collusion of free-will to unfold in history!

hard-boiled

Tangled emotions

Weirded out

Distinguish: Untruths & Puns

An outbreak of trembling laughter

telesm

16.10.23

O how we make gurus & idols out of even the most radical iconoclastic figures…!

Phaidra’s skin-game of truths

Cunt sweat – imagine a world in which female desire/sexuality is fully released – just a heap of ashes! 🫠

“Avoid (hanging around) boring people” 😅

The timeless language of the Hopis

Mannerist excess

Designifying greatness

Deception by convention

Crown of disgrace

18.10.23

While I feed my mind with grand ideas and secretly converse with revolutionary giants, my real life is being consumed with the mundane duties and to-dos of a mediocre bourgeois existence……! Fuck this shit 😡 I’m outta here. O yeah? But how? I don’t care anymore whether I survive or not. Really!? Come on, don’t kid yourself 😅 I mock & taunt myself to death. Even then, I’m so full of myself…

Autobiographical allegory

Anti-wedding ceremony

The bride’s animal mask

From primitivism to decadence

Pornological invocation

The libidinal matter underlying cultural forms

Entrapment by pictorial rhetoric

How to catch a bird

Mirror ~ ruse

Interchangeable functions

20.10.23

vise

“Trappers trapping themselves”

brooch

What would you do if the current mix (weed + porn + sildenafil) stops working, Joey boy!? 🤪

“It rains”; Pure instruments; Userless apps

Unable to see when acting, and unable to act when seeing

Is double bind the same as catch 22?

But where is the pleasure of discipline in your life nowadays??

The knower and the witness – the same or different? If different, which is preeminent?

The tyranny of the unconscious

If you cannot join them (because you hate them so), then beat them (even if the attempt is gonna destroy you)

Non-signifying categories

Beyond (or the hidden in between) alive & dead (feeling) – a third way/door/ground (being) – the middle voice (or in between active/life and passive/dead)

Demythifying enterprise

In-sign-ificant

Are you so fortunate as to know (someone truly great like) me in your (puny/petty/shallow) life?! Ha ha ha ha…… I gotcha there!? Who is greater than me in my circle? Forget that, I’m just glad I have equals/peers, and therefore I’m NOT friendless.

Pleasure without pain leads to numbness

I’ve NOT seen/used a perfect machine…… yet (although I’m surrounded by hi-tech gadgets)! But aren’t humans perfect as they are (once you’ve abandoned theo-anthropo-logy)? Yes of course, but they’re not complete, unless they exti(nct)guish themselves to give birth to the Superman (or whatever you wanna call the next evolutionary phase/stage). Perfect, but not complete, yet! Death (only? of those who have ever really lived!) as the guaranteed & unfailing completion of sanctification or universal justification or comprehensive glorification.

If life is nothing but the superficial layer of death, when alive, then isn’t death also nothing but the superficial layer of life, when dead?

From popular culture to high art to ordinary philosophy

From protagonist/hero (or villain) to agonist/anti-hero (or joker)

21.10.23

turntable

Immobile machines

roundhouse

redoubt

From logic to logistics

God is king is war is mobility is control is discipline is morality is politics is business is technology is society

polemarch

Poliorcetic schema

The pole of reversal ~ the point of convergence

semaphore

Vectorial politics

The Ministry of Time and the Department of Space

Standardization ~ production ~ mobilization ~ destruction – the vicious cycle

22.10.23

Inhuman thought

Slow extasy

Delirious theory-fictions

anarchitecture

Schizophrenic metaphysics

fusty

From critique to acceleration

heteroclite

miscegenation

dissimulation

thanatropic

familialism

From contentless forms (ghosts) to formless content (matter)

Life/desire/animal/flesh/enjoyment
Vs.
Knowledge/will/human/spirit/control

affined

Unknown materiality

destratification

Is there any point in getting stoned without an erection??

All I need to do is to let IT happen, in, through & around me! Nothing else is required. Even this is NOT essential for IT to unfold, but just makes it easier for me (spares me the unnecessary self-imposed suffering), to cooperate with what cannot (and therefore need not) be resisted or defeated!

poet-werewolf-rat-genius

I am infuriated by the/my failure to achieve a satisfying high. This will slowly fade into a gnawing sadness, and finally dissolve into a paralyzing apathy…… returning back to the cycle of desire & disappointment.

Trakl died at 27. Was it a “suicide”?

Exploratory redesignings of the human

strato-analysis; schizo-numerics

otiose

tendentious

Intensive matter ~ body-without-organs

K-space

eldritch

Sexual intercourse without the other

If orgasm is the “little death”, then wouldn’t that make death the BIG orgasm!?

Abstract animism

Darkside jungle futurism

Neuromancer

anastrophic temporality

auto-poiesis

transfinites

geotrauma

ontogenesis & phylogenesis

cardinality & ordinality

limn

Non-mathematical numerical practices

Kapital metropolis

Welfare capitalism

Patrilineal economy

patronymy

23.10.23

an(nul)us

Intensify (the fall) ~ accelerate (the end)

The Superman is NOT (and is yet) human, just like the human (is and yet) is NOT ape

The aggressive absurdity of logic

Inhibited encounter with alterity

ancien regime

extortionate

The exuberant ambition of capital-ized reason

Theory as the contemporary form of future experience

psychiatrize

petit-bourgeois

The nostalgia & sentimentality of pacifism

Uninhibited synthesis

ringer

waggle

devilled

Meccano

24.10.23

Gospel of Truth (Valentinus) ~ Bodies (Si Spencer)

Long in the tooth

Maybe the denial of any and all sinister plots is the greatest conspiracy theory of all!

The very same recurring nightmare

Truth Vs. Life

You’re already dead + know you are loved

25.10.23

shantytown

Careless talk could cost lives

Stretch out each moment

Substituting audio-visual stimulation for socialization

The divine spark is the effect, NOT cause, of flesh-crucifixion.!

If sound is just vibrations, then what is light just?

Quantum gravity

Binge-watching this has been underwhelming. So has the time been wasted? But how else could I have gained this knowledge (of vanity)?!

Reduce ghosts to ashes – perfect the de-composition!

You want to remain insignificant, yet consequential, my dear Zoey

If (physical/material) reality is all there is, and it is evil, then what do I do? Nowhere to run or hide…… Just remain sitting, there in the heart of Hell – constantly refusing to succumb to the lure of any & all imaginary paradises.

Down-hype

Rotating infinity

The incessant struggle to cease

My core is so hot that I breathe smoke, like a volcano

Invention ← → discovery

Bodies – in order to be a great serial, you need to make each episode gripping & satisfying in & of itself, and NOT just steps to an ultimate “mind-blowing” finale.

Invert the Augustinian ontology – the good as hole in the fabric of Evil

content-meant

come INTO Being

There are things, which when known, destroy the knower & his/her knowledge… And only they (as-in-themselves) remain.

The book of life is essentially alive

Is it possible for Christ to remain dead? Is GOD capable of extinction?

Gnosis as (vitalizing) Non-knowledge

Non-human love, non-relational desire, non-seeing lust, impersonal suffering

Language that is NOT merely metaphorical/symbolic – poetic non-fiction

occultures

How to outdo oneself? Oh! You sure you really want to??

numeracy

Fullness ~ rest ~ emptiness

The Real is Void ~ what is most real is also the least known/felt

The collective unconscious is actually the nemesis/antithesis of racial memory

Reaping the whirlwind

Thought beyond survival

26 10.23

Everything dies, even death!

27.10.23

grotty

Tár – from social persecution to the delirium of guilt to the tragicomedy of fate

An itch that cannot be scratched

Hope dies last

A successful poet is an oxymoron

What am I doing (or trying to achieve), by living this ordinary life, and pairing it with theoretical & experiential exploration into the extremes of existence? Is this all any more than just an elaborate fraud or a stupid mistake? Are you talking about the surface lifestyle or the inner curiosity or their coupling?

world-calumniation

Abgrund

abscission

toadstool

Traklean night

Petrified desolation

The stranger’s goldenness

The illimitive difference of the night sky

Indeterminable alterity

Lunar ruination

From metaphysics to stratophysics

Astrophysics > mathematics

graphematics

negentropy

Architectonics of the sign

Energetic surpluses

Dispersal of intensities

From polarity to gradation

Redundancy as grammatical subterfuge

gen-us ~ gen-der

discordance ~ decomposition

The tortuous & vespertine labyrinth

Why am I not taking medical care (preventive medication, investigative monitoring, healthy habits, etc.) of myself? Is there something deeper under the laziness/carelessness?

Ecstative eruption

Know when (& how) to use (& avoid) the dictionary

pharmacopathological

quantization

Alogical intervallic difference

Structurally necessary inadequacy

The leprosy of being

Stardust is non-philosophizable, and therefore virulent

Dream story

28.10.23

In a trice

Great attraction: Infernal Machine

STOP touching your face!

Aftersun: Babbette + puppet ≈ Poppet

awnings

convolvulus

30.10.23

hackles ~ erectile hair

I can’t love and I can’t die…… NOW what!?! Nothing.

Insightful ~ inciteful

triphthong

Pre-human history

Arcane ~ uncanny ~ unconscious ~ alien

Dope Press

brazier

meadowsweet

Pleasure, the verb

hull

cascada

barranca

Tlaxcaltecan

Candle = Wax Vs. Flame

1.11.23

Plight one’s troth

Prosaic justice

Effortless action

fek

2.11.23

stator

“I believe in the irony of fate”

stator

Quartier

cadastre

Kriegspiel

guerre en dentelles

castrametration

scarification

pannier

Camisard

cuirass

mitraille

Having & doing is inversely proportional to being

oriflamme

sparagmos

Denatured worlds

Acultural functions

Pornological tableaux

agoraphobia

antonymy

cicuration

Trussed humans

3.11.23

Dark:
Past ~ Good ~ Being
Future ~ Evil ~ Non-being
Present ~ Real ~ Becoming

Determined to be free ~ Free to be determined

laconic

Patron saints of misery

Lovers of sorrow

Rave parties & snake poison

Instead of trying to make it better, just try not to make it worse

anagogy

Constitutive paradox

Cosmic pessimism

Negative mysticism

Man IS the black sun! (Matt. 27:45)

celerity

Invisible darkness

Impersonal pathos

The (self-)annihilating realization of one’s utter passivity/passibility in the face of a tragic universe

Auto-eclipsing

Solar sorrow

From whatness/whyness to thusness/suchness

The darkness is total ~ there is no more darkness

Consciousness/thought as the negative excess of being/matter

5.11.23

Why is the Netflix serial on “time travel” called “DARK”?? “Lugen” (Rammstein) would be a perfect soundtrack to this genre-bending work of art!

“Irugapatru” – The moral of the story is, to be in an intimate relationship is to be “sad” (romance ≈ tragedy) – “marriage” itself needs to be continually redefined and evolved to suit the needs of the persons involved…

speakeasy

Critical ~ serious ~ dangerous ~ very important

Larualiens Vs. Laruellians

Conjunctural thinkers

Ark → Dark

6.11.23

Joe, your “contemplative lifestyle” is not that different from the hedonistic consumerism of your context! And your life is just bland, not really in line with your purportedly radical faith……

I’m saddened and disappointed by the fact that this is how you really feel about me. But I’m glad you shared it with me. Thank you! (Yes, you may be right) And I’m sure this disillusionment is mutual too……

Extreme(-ify the) self-contradiction

The dark sublime is scary good!

Is our current reality a deep-fake (AI) simulation of a cyber-demiurge?!

A glitch in the matrix ~ a tear in the veil

ICC CWC – Why is India winning everything and England losing (almost) everything? Or is this question the wrong (kind of) response? 😅

Eco-fascism

Extended highlights

Delightful wallowing in voluptuous misery

Savage pilgrimage

Blood consciousness

Unseen presences

Metaphysical homecoming ~ re-turning ~ double irony

Negated paradox

Repression of the infantile/animal

The uncanny stallion

Haunting stories

Dejavu – memories of the future or visions of an alternate reality (multiverse)

The dream is the authentic site of being

Anthroponomic phantasmagoria

The non-human question as existential threat

Alien wisdom ~ primitive anim(al)ism

Unsuspected animation from a hidden (brutal) source

The generic implications of a dissonant philosophy

Rational critique of reason

Mimetic critique of mimesis

Being cannot be the object of discourse

Dark ~ Real ~ Dumb

Systematic de(con)struction

From synthetic identity to absolute being!

The end of all self-doubt & justification

Instinct as visionary faculty

Self-referential metaphor

Animal glamor

The (inherent) wildness of the domestic(ated) animal

St. Mawr

allotropy

The fourth dimension of D. H. Lawrence

Passional inspiration

Lionine eponym

Anthropocentric chauvinism

Invent your origin by starting from the end

The beginning is the middle is the end is the middle is the beginning is the end

cicurate

Oneiric maladaptation

Phenomenological awakening

A reality-disturbance that is external

mews

Glorious, salvific regression (instead of the banal, vampiric repression)

The social is merely symbolic, and the ideal merely imaginary, says the Real!

Restoring impulsivity

Intuitive tropism – whimsical, unpremeditated, unmediated

Quien sabe!

A certain knowledge without the assurances of the understanding

It’s good that I DON’T know the date (for today)

From social relationality to cosmic interdependence

Partial object

Ontopsychology

The castrated self

Fetishes & effigies

prepossession

You have been deep-faked (fucked/cheated/raped) by your own reflections

brocade

The artist as eunuch (half-a-man)

The synecdochic non-animal mannikin

7.11.23

geld

Glibly evil

clew

Presubjective power

Know thyself → BE thyself

re-vision-ing

Pre-rational heritage

Ocular metaphorics

The unfallen Pan

From erudition to wit

Prelapsarian paragon

Goatish man

Eocene

muzzle (n.)

Protean potency

Animal history

Phylogenetic journey

hippocampine

Reptilian fluidity

Natural politics without anthropomorphic distortion

War horse Vs. Puny man

Aristocratic/elitist philosophy

meretricious

accrete

welter

Indiscriminate life

distaff

The feral ethos of the wilderness

Misanthropic menàge

Unhomely home

The monstrous magic of the land

prosopopeia

The New England woman

enargia

daub

Rebarbative carapace

8.11.23

High theory & low affirmationism

Hideous gnosis – Black metal theory

Profound lore

Amorphous metallectual movement

gourd

tankard

spinet

How does one who feels he is already dead, live? By default, automatically……

“Sí seńor! Half past sic by the cock”

merd

homunculus

9.11.23

Sleep as meditation

The fullness of annihilation

The energy of non-action

A foolhardy fidelity in hopeless pessimism! 😎

The human as the manifestation of the universe’s will to know itself

My job is to lick the nectar leaking from the edges of the infinite abyss

Insufficiency, indeterminacy & contingency

Inverse lightning

Metapersonal will

No-one-being

Opening of the (3rd) Eye perfectly blinds the (2 other) eyes

The essential self is a black hole, the size of a pin-point – an incessant & unceasing implosion

Will precedes desire

Thought before thinking

Finding complete rest in the futility of all action

Radical laziness

Not trying to not try

Lying awake

Original self-splitting – patient/agent – I am my own subject & object

facture

Hypercovert style

Cataclysmic salvation

Amigara

Gross, subtle & mental ~ matter, life & thought

Comedic empyrean conspiracy

Bornless one

A purely physical spirituality – energetics

Chastening chastity

hecceity

Unlimited individuality

Co-immunism

Mother, Daughter & Dirty Spirit

10.11.23

Hikkikomori

Autonomous persecution

Distinguish:
Displeasure
&
Negative lust

Staunched (wound)

Beauty as negative disorder

Doric

Socrates, the ugly animal (rational biped)

loam

Genius Vs. Philosopher

Positive confusion

Rausch

Non-intentional processes

parapraxes

Dionysian pessimism or voluptuous sorrow ≈ BDSM

tive nihilism ~ intricate intensity

Disindividualized delirium

Fungal thought

A clownish incompetence at death

Everlasting life ~ eternal death (static ontology)

Positive desertification of the soul

Vast abrupt ~ deep epoché of unknowing

Transcendental reduction

Pyrrhonian

Homolupic spiral

Transcendence Vs. Exteriority

One night, when I was freaking out, I heard a weird gnawing sound in my room (loud & continuous), as if a rodent was patiently attacking the wire mesh over the window…… Was it one of Trakl’s rats!?

The depredations of feral alterity Vs. Humanistic prejudice

murine

Libidinal rat theory

12.11.23

fob

14.11.23

rank sedges

16.11.23

tarn

lurid

importunate

causeway

pertinacity

17.11.23

The super-essential

concreation

deheroization

Chaucerian non-mysticism

cephalophory

Inexistent author

That leaden hue

The “goodness” of non-being

Negative love

Inverted impotentiality

How not to be not-a-mystic

Dark: But what is Jonas WITHOUT (trying to prevent/reverse) the Apocalypse??

Ignorance, sorrow & blackness

Quetzalcoatl

asymptotic

Passionless sorrow & spiritual laughter

The true hypocrisy of non-manifest mourning

bathetic

vatic

diacritical

22.11.23

vesania

From objective values to affective polarization

Human psychopathology ~ animal psychology

Maldororian lines of force

Bachelardian Lautreamontism

Once you have wallowed in your misery for long enough (i.e. too long), then just slightly push yourself to DO something. The contemplative life needs a (mild) sprinkling of action to keep it alive & kicking. Even meditation is action!

One can romanticize death only as long as it isn’t boring…… 😜

Biological poetry

Reality is a lie!

The Ducassean instant

holograph

Aborted projects

Unsent correspondence

née

typescript

res novae

Pythian

The physics of thought

catagenesis/anagenesis

tufa

argillaceous

Animalizing mythology

dynamogenic

catachresis/abusio

Pancalism

Scientific sentimentality

When life is subordinated to thought, I feel like a decomposing corpse. When thought is subordinated to life, I explode like a suicide bomb(er). The challenge is to equalize them both, and thereby become a genius! 😎
(Life ~ animal vitality, energy, power, will; Thought ~ human reflexivity, critical reason, imagination)

New Sensations ~ Oedipus XXX ~ T. Rex (www.txxx.com)

WHY did India lose to Australia in the ODI CWC 2023? WHO are the best people talking & writing about this?

Patientless analysis

Can you be patient with your impatience? Double resignation!

Distinguish:
Analysis
&
Therapy

Teratological peace

autochthonous

Remaking myself ~ unmaking me

Eternal recurrence ~ Synchronicity ~ Quantum entanglement

23.11.23

Porn tattoos: “The only guarantee in life is a life worth dying for” + “The past was practice” = !?!

Watch ~ Existenz

Shot clock

Leo Strauss the Heideggerian convert

Nonstop nut November from Reality Kings

Porno-dasein

corpulent

The more alive you feel, the less powerful you are, in the world. And the more dead you feel inside, the more powerful you are, in the world outside!

Don’t tread on else matters by Trent Reznor lives

Ideology ~ happiness ~ addiction

Keep rotating your drugs

How do you distinguish between a great thinker and a babbling fool?

Super-filthy

I weep through my cock. What about you?

From knower to witness

I am my own worshipper & worshipped

Condensed replay is not highlights

25.11.23

wonky

Sosalkino

Subjective certainty

Whatever it is that you desire, enjoy and obsess about, but don’t do because of inhibition from social, moral & religious norms – identify it and indulge it – this will break you out of the current rut!

The esoteric Plato

Sexual dread

coif

alabaster

26.11.23

“They knew everything, and yet they did nothing!”

“Suryakumar Yadav is the best.” – Josh Inglis

The fans worship the team, and the team worships the game!

archness

poetries

“I don’t expect anyone to believe me”

The impossibility of limits

Strict fashions

Neotenization → auto-domestication

Did I tell you before that GOD is a sadist?

fait accompli

Collective exorcism

The stigmata of (demonic) possession

What would a world be like, where all women are rabid lesbians?!

GrundBegriffe

What is time?

The Incipient

I am a Greek!

Inception → essential

You need to listen for it, in order to hear it

Re-unknowing ad-infinitum

The truth is un-necessary

Decline Vs. Descent

Eye-feeling

Penetrating through, and being penetrated by, the ground

27.11.23

Take into care beings as a whole

What is thought-worthy?

Live as if you’re invisible

Live without concern for consequences

guidewords

Distinguish: Beings & Being

Original experience

The history of being

Interpretative gloss by a peripatetic philosopher

Philological risks

Paraphrasing colloquialisms

Unconditional will

Anticipatory knowing

Articulating helplessness

Critical diagnosis ~ calculated failure

One’s own reason

adduce

Rule of self-evidence Vs. Existential leap

A self-evident introduction to unlimited doubt

Phenomenological reduction

Fascination by sobering

Enlightenment ~ clearing

The legacy of the beyond

Passion is shown NOT just by strong feeling (about something particular), but more by internally motivated action that remains regular & intense over the long-term. Therefore, passion is something cultivated, rather than just discovered! Am I a passionate person then??

Self-production via tailored consumption

Vertical time & infinitesimal space

The supreme importance of personal chance

schadenfreude

The choice of oneself

rentier

Performative speaking

Radicalizing Protestantism

Post-historical actuality

Self-institutionalization

The concealed paradox

Live in such a way that you would be proud of, in spite of all the shame you already have

Acerbic tone

I’m developing (hopefully) an unlimited capacity for boredom, frustration & weakness

See – how gently she handles her breasts, and learn!

Infinite indecision

The repertoire of the masks of reality

Make it still more infinite!

Tragic laughter

ethicist B.

Moodiness & piety

The invisible difference

Johannes de Silentio

The banality of the sacred crime

acte gratuit

Inventing impenetrable historical characters

The religious man is closer to the aesthetic, than to the ethical man!

28.11.23

Medical bail

“Jasprit Bumrah unfollows Mumbai Indians on Instagram” – WOW! news 😜

dolt

stolid

Anti-biopic

History as farce

From semiotics to virotechnics

hype(r)virus

Cybernetic subtilization

K-code

“Look what fear’s done to my body”

Gothic materialism

Type O negative’s bloody kisses

Degree-zero

Monocult gerontocrats

Loa

cyberia

Techno/trance-ravers

Meta Nomad ~ Hermitix ~ exiting modernity

Unserious thinkers

haecceity

Gnosis Vs. Kenosis

Anticlimactic libido Vs. Orgasm delusion

risible

usufruct

whig

Shub-Niggurath

Sith

mephitic

pwned

Misesian

Mencius Moldbug

thought-crimes

Jacobite

Exorbitant particularity

Cladistics

29.11.23

The tyrant as victim

Mystagogue Vs. Aüfklarer

1.12.23

You know where I came from, but not when I am coming from!

Taboo Vs. Shamanism

Cosmic egg

auto-predation

berserkers

Nordic humor

Ulterior zone ~ Heart of darkness

The riddle of the Sphinx

Resourcing complexion

I am a comfortable coward, because I have compromised on my spiritual trajectory with my social survival. I would be more authentic and less comfortable, if I had uncompromisingly stuck to my guns, at the expense of my life! (…And whether I am less or more miserable is a non-issue, isn’t it? 😜)

Gov-corp

Idyllic nightmares

Yes, we are headed toward divorce, but maybe that’s only a post-mortem possibility…

Is information, matter or energy or…?

teleonomy

Artificial life

Meltdown process

Maybe I should just read all the writings of one favorite/great thinker, instead of pieces from diverse authors…

Interspecies Studies

Primate → Cyborg (via human)

Non-productive consumption

K(Kuang)-war

stimming

tractile

No-future ~ near-future ~ noir-future

From Philosophy to theory

Implanted mirrorshades

Turing cops

warren

game-parks

Partial objects

Tactics without subject or strategy

Vanishing face

2.12.23

The prese(n)t is not moment-ary

Non-serious gravity

From blissful ignorance to dark knowledge

That depends on what you mean by “is”

From smile/frown to laugh/weep via flat/numb

There are only demons (forces), no angels (messages)

3.12.23

Real ~ invisible

Contemplation ~ soul ~ human

pueblo

adobe

Hopi, Creole

emporium

White noise

souvlaki

baksheesh

self-caricature

Deep cover

arbor

Exploring the bowels of the building

bulkhead

Assume fetal position

commissar

From writer to traveller. From reader to…? Watcher!

ticker-tape

skillet

sublittoral

hard-edged

deliriants

Are there false (or even true) spiritualities?

scintilla

solitudes

mausoleum; cenotaph

Transcendental experience Vs. Empirical facts

Reactionary innovation

Archive of untruths

Spiritual aristocrats

The massification of theology

4.12.23

Imaginal animals

Natural symbols

Inhuman fears & cruelties

Surhumain ~ the pathologized condition

dis-tortion

Identification → metamorphosis

From therapy to analysis, and back!

Humane rigor

Complex/constellation > Image/symbol

Personified demons

Association experiment

Animals in nature ~ images in man

Syntax of metaphors

feeling-tone

This screaming universe

Relocated by self-recognition

Raise ~ disturb

Adolescent blasphemy & sexual extremity

The royal road of poetic reverie

Anti-creative aggression ~ Gnostic libertinism

epithalamion

The Satanic schools

Immoral asceticism

vade mecum

orthography

Literary psychology

Practical criticism

Strange achievement

The core vortex

Poetics of the life-force

Misleading spirit

Future literature

anti-mimeticism

res novae

Active projection

Vorticism; Futurism

Sacred topology

Diasporic copies

Appropriation art

In what way am I different (better) than all these stupid people around me? Does this question itself say something about the (my) situation (position)?

The social (domestic) animals
Vs.
The wild (natural) beast

From spiritualism/theology to spirituality/philosophy

Bland self-overvaluation

Idealism ~ ideology

dysperception

Purely immanent production

Judaic Antisemitism

(I wanna) fuck (with) them!

Non-realism

Inundated by an assortment of well-meaning fatuities

Why is mobile signal lost during a cyclone?

Hubris → humiliation

Now, can you see the sense/logic in killing the golden goose? You need not agree with it, but can you at least acknowledge it?

The spiritual vanity of physical courage

co/s/mic

Indubitable doubt & incredible faith

dissimilate

The ultimate victory of the perpetual victim, which is actually a consummated failure!

Seeking putative origins

Unambiguous polemic

Asiatic Nothingness

The refined decadence of the Aryan dream

Jewry ~ jury

The chosen people are, by definition, “good-for-nothing”!

Is Boris Groys a Jew?! If so, what kind of Jew??

Secular fanaticism, liberal fundamentalism, rabid humanism

Psychologically, it has become impossible for me to reclaim my Tamil/Indian identity

You belong to the wrong-class!

Metropolitan countries

The messianic pathos of political programs

Stuffed shirt government

Sexual (read “marriage”) market

Breeding laws

Sexual apartheid

Laws ~ loss

The basis/source of the prohibition of incest

Theoretical expansionism

octoroon

Racial caste system

in-discrimination

Monotheism/Trinity → monogamy/family

Cousin marriage

Manorial system

Is (Costin) Alamariu the latest (Milo) Yiannopoulos?

Do you know who Callicles is?

5.12.23

tout (n.)

Eugenics

Spartan constitution

Sexual & romantic equality/access/success

Human breeding & husbandry

Polymorphous perversity

Natural hierarchy

Social engineering

Mercenary morality

Population quality-control

Modern egalitarianism

Civilize ~ universalize

Philosopher ~ tyrant ~ crown of nature

Kindred criminal spirits

Plato → Nietzsche → Strauss

The prehistoric mind

Nature/aristocracy Vs. Convention/democracy

From lickspittle to tyrant! 😈

Pindaric nature

Yes, human nature is fundamentally different from other similar animal natures, but in what way? Man is the only animal capable of considering him/herself as an individual (relatively autonomous), instead of just another (mindless) member of a species/society (or extended family)!

mumblecore

Female lesbian pornstars read “Whatever” by Michel Houllebecq

Resolutely desultory

filly

6.12.23

From antenatal checkup (medico) to antinatalism (philosopher) 😜

parasited.com

spxlmag

pecs

knacker

Fake mahogany

oafish

changeling

Vegan & cruelty-free essential oils

yob

echelonment

apocritique

7.12.23

chicanery

fib

cadge

Inconsequence & digression

Soft focus

Laboratory Latin America

Anti-systemic struggles

Monstrous multitude of immanent singularities

Ontological refusal of the state & capital

Pseudo-Nietzschean affirmationism

Defanging of negativity

Weak thought

Resistance to recoding/recuperation

Conjunctural illuminations & local interventions

“Great politics”

Deferred action & original trauma

Retroactive retooling

Mood precedes orientation

The aporia of libertarian politics

isomorphism

8.12.23

weir

causeway

erratum

Pseudonymity & anonymity

Orthonym → heteronyms

My sincere condolences to you, on becoming a parent! 😅

Chinese Platonist

Philosophical felines

Hatäta Zera Yakob

Capuchin monk(ie)s

Ethiopianist

Genuine fake

Are there male cats??

nose-job

Arash

Skeleton partygirl

White lies

9.12.23

There are 2 kinds of people:
Those who integrate into society – the host body
Those who are individuals – parasite/vampire

These so-called spiritual(ist) folks are also some of the most conservative & conformist fukers I’ve ever seen! 😂

Philanthropy to misosophy 😈

Militaristic humanism & tolerated difference

Care as rigor, as opposed to affect

Unbinding insane drives & mutant intensities

Outbidding the ultra-left

Binge-watching as inner work!

avant la lettre

If we lived in a totalitarian or anarchist world, then I would be a rabid democrat!

neo-reactionary

Value-exchange → Death-function

Marxist heresies

Hyper-abstraction

Surf the tsunami!

Genetics & tradition

Market-formed agency

If the obstacle is the way, then the way is the obstacle!

Purified capitalism

The art of dosages

Untrammelled jouissance

Autophagy ~ self-cannibalism

Undialectical invocations

Paleo-Hegelianism

The theological effects of commoditization

No-fap → no-cum

Life as reproduction Vs. Death as production

Videogame soundtracks

Neither religious praxis nor theological speculation – No thanks…… NOPE!

“Feels just like it should”

Capital as real abstraction ~ ontological fabric of Empire

Lapidary fashion

Speculative financial products, credit bubble, nomad dollars, risk management

Problematic formalisings

Ultimate dematerialization

The new global slums

Modi is one of the most popular leaders in the world today – unsurprising, isn’t it?

Repo rate – derivative, security, collateral

Knocked loose

Todd McFarlane & Hunter Biden are good boys, they don’t hurt nobody

ord(i)nance

Waiting for a sign

re-sit(e)ing

Anti-revolutionary thinker

Death is even more boring than life! Ha ha ha ha…… What would be a little less boring??

Miscellaneous fragments

Painful freedom

I am determined to let nothing else interrupt my lascivious self-torture for the rest of my mortal life

8th July is the day when Georges Bataille vomited out his soul. It’s also Izara’s birthday…

The head of Holofernes

Raucous snores & death rattles

Lugubrious visions

Cavernous voice

Corpulent hag

habitue

portel

charabanc

beret

Original/creative ~ lunatic/cruel

Medicine ball

pendant

Dry storm

St. Elmo’s fire

Heartrending fulfillment

16.9.23

coquelicot

ridgepole ~ rooftree

mirador

debouche

runnel

floribundia

pebbly

covey

17.9.23

telluric

abhorration

Are you ashamed of your shamelessness?

face-melting

Kim Phuc

droits

We have moved from a world where the living were under threat of death, to a world in which the dead are forced to live under threat of (endless torture?)……

No breakthrough, without a prior dead-end

18.9.23

abreaction

pretermission

dementia praecox

infusoria

animalcule

amphimixis

19.9.23

Scientific language as metaphorical

Philosophy as metapsychology

Heart ~ blood ~ flow

Are any two subatomic particles (E.g. Electrons) exactly identical (in mass, rotation, charge, etc.)?

But for me, the (pain of) excitation is more preferable, than the (pleasure of) discharge, as it is for most others… Because they are mostly in a state of activity, and I am almost always in a state of quiescence.

Pleasurable excitation Vs. Painful quiescence Vs. Painful excitation Vs. Pleasurable quiescence.
What about neutral activity, like sleepwalking?

Extreme equilibrium – white-hot sleep!

Iatromantis

My very own private firing-squad (for pleasure)

Is it possible/necessary to be outrageous & elegant at the same time?

culottes

iterate

Dangerous hedonism

This feeling is somewhere in between numbness, pleasure & pain… or is it something altogether different, like nausea?

Strychnine as stimulant

cabrón

truant ~ hooky

stile

goujeers

moated grange

thievish

mescal

switchback

cantina

whiskerando

rubicund

waggish

seigniorage

snifter

litharge

pips

20.9.23

Maybe I am meant to be a secret inspiration and shaping influence, on these few people, who would later become “great”……

divagations

Isha+Rhea

Is this what “putting yourself under the pump” means??

22.9.23

Are you really conservative inside and radical only on the outside? Is the inside more real than the outside? Is radical better than conservative? Is it worth even asking any of these questions? I would keep asking them, even if it was totally irrelevant & useless!

Profound uncertainty
Vs.
Absolute non-existence

Life can only lead to death. Only death can produce life.

Isn’t the shepherd closer to the wolf, than he is to the sheep?

MyGov

decantation

Active degeneration
Deliberate defects

Geostrategy < Biopolitics

brow

Dismembering reality

Seeds of unreality – a porous permeable fabric

The expired word

whorl

flywheel

sepals

Empty perceptions

Foe + fire = FIE!

Junkies & pushers

Have you ever imagined yourself as/inside a comatose patient in the ICU (comfortably numb)?

When evaluating a metal album (on whether to add it to my favorites or not), first listen to all the songs in one go, WITHOUT the lyrics – a pure sonic experience

Life > consciousness > intentionality
E.g. There can be no consciousness without life, but not vice-versa

Painless suffering Vs. Prolonged death

cur

serried

Adversarial tradition

Make half your trips slow/mild (instead of all fast/intense)

24.9.23

Triskelion – the (erect) penis as the third leg

S(t)imulate your self

Take YOUR time

25.9.23

The materiality of language!

The only truth is dare (risk), and the only dare is truth (honesty)!

Truth or Dare
Vs.
Trick or Treat

Perpetual (convalescent) adolescence ~ arrested development

Nietzsche (Libidinal economy) ← Freud + Marx

Sexuality as masculine spirituality, and spirituality as feminine sexuality

Her vagina is NOT a pussycat, unlike her!

“I see it in your eyes, the tearing in your heart”

Body-writings

History of the flesh & crises of representation

Liberatory decadence

Validating the invalid & recluse

prognosticate

Pensive pathological being – sitting & hearing each other groan

Literature as pathography – how does the body speak through illness?

The patient poet – writing & writhing

Illness ~ intoxication

Jayanta Mahapatra

The dying shtick

Anatole Broyard

Transcultural experience

Therapeutic possibilities of the Wasteland

Firangi

other/-wise

Mudra ~ Mantra

The Asian Heidegger

Phenomenontology

carcerality

Generous attention

Finding one’s feet

Diagnosing (the blissful ignorance of) health

Literature > narrative; Creativity > the work

Immature psychosis

Childish catastrophes

Modernist angst as psychosomatic alienation

Disease ~ Disposition

From self-consciousness to body-awareness

Re-embodying the mind

Sanguis + cruor = corpus

Manifest insistence

s(t)oma

Bravura rendering

The touch of the outside and the joy of death

ether(eal)ize ~ corpsify

sarcosophy

patienthood

Excessive consciousness

Contagion – evil as the virus that infects the (good) body

Orgasmatron

From modernity to modernism

Addicted to the cure (for malaise)

I’m-patience

26.9.23

Ejaculation as excretion

Consciousness ~ present ~ outside. Unconscious memory ~ past ~ inside. Imagination ~ future ~ remote

Circle – the perimeter is nothing but a (temporary) expanded form of the center

I am NOT Faust. I am (your) Mephistopheles! 👹

I have realized, the primary site of my work is the masculine body (starting with my own) 🔥

almoner

tellurics

I am the opposite/nemesis of the Renaissance (well-rounded) man 😏

feeling-tone

Autonomous complexes

I AM the dividual

The evolution of my Mother continues, in/through me, NOW without the frustration of Christian morality……….!

fune-real

inhume

Sabrina & Jung ~ Salome & Nietzsche ~ Diotima & Socrates

Fortuitous pain

27.9.23

The mysterious happening of human existence

“Beau is Afraid” is better than “Crimes of the Future”. Or, I like the former better than the latter, although the latter is also good.

Negative love

Self-objectification

I becomes we becomes they

Sexual murder

Death fantasies

Auto-erotic isolation

Dark sexuality & spiritual regeneration

Self-birthing

Tragic realism

Wish-personality

Psychotics & artists as dreamers

Wagnerian heroes

The individual self Vs. The collective soul

Singularity is sublimity

The spitting (s)exorcist

Unreal existence ~ suspended animation

Maybe it is the truly alive (select few), who feel as if they are zombies, in a dystopian world

There are 2 types of dysfunctional people:
Those who feel guilty & try to repent
Those who feel angry & condemn the world instead

Death as dedifferentiation

Agri-culture as mytho-logy

Sun & sea ~ male & female ~ seed & soil

That which is not destroyed remains destructive

Learning to enjoy the Numbness

28.9.23

When doing something, don’t feel or think, just/only/simply DO (it).

Judgment:
1.
It’s okay to be okay
+
It’s not okay to be not okay
2.
It’s not okay to be okay
+
It’s okay to be not okay
1 Vs. 2

Feeling:
High & relaxed + Low & relaxed
Low & restless + High & restless
1 Vs. 2

The myth of creation and the creation of myth

Void ~ vortex ~ portal

Essay ~ assay

29.9.23

I offer/sacrifice my double-stoned cock to my goddess, the Great Mother

T(h)rashy art

Extreme-ities

If not now then when? If not here then where?

Empty opus

Using letters as symbols – fuck language back!

Film school project

Closed-door subjects

Breathing ~ reading

Mirrorless existences ~ total solitude

“Beau Is Afraid” and “Joker” are 2 sides of the same coin! (Is that coin called Joaquin Phoenix??)

What is this?
Naming/defining is NOT
knowing/touching

I’m feeling lucky, wretched wisdom and weakling battles

If lived alone, I would be happier, & sadder, & more Mortal

Human flotsam

Multicultural graveyard

Symbolic death

pi(e)ty

Br(ex)it

Is the world today a “much better place” compared to ~ 100 or even 1,000 years ago?

Optical unconscious

Consciousness-of-stream

Over-representation exhaustion

Compassion fatigue

Reconstructing one’s own past via the violence of organized forgetting

Bridge metaphor

Incantatory text

Catafalque

Black rain

Saving strangers

Pink-er

The underclass

The death of the victim (as a symbol/icon/idol)

Remote war

Post-industrial shadowlands

Well-meaning & brainless meat-puppets

Dangerous populations

The double standard of liberalism

Metaphysical hubris & international intervention

conscript

Digital containment

Titillate ~ petrify ~ outrage

PSTD

bolgia

retrotopia

Is numbness a feeling? 😅

antipodean

If you’re sober > half the time, then you’re not (yet) an addict

30.9.23

Maybe my daughter will be the one to successfully slay (behead) me

Obsessional constraint

postface

Acosmic, pre-individual, singular intensities

Dogmatic slumber

Hamann & Jacobi

Sacred ~ cultic

Vicious circle ~ eternal return

Mutual, reciprocal, equal causation! E.g. Subject/person & Object/world

Social institutions Vs. Elementary forces

Group fantasies

Parrhesia, Diacritics

The new amorous world

Mortalizing thought via the decadent body

Theogony ~ physiognomy

The foolish immortal anchorite

gyre

fungible

Non-exchangeable value

Sterile enjoyment & wasteful production

Utensilary superstition & efficient destruction

Constitutional determinism

Laruelle as inverse Hegel?

The substructure of infrastructures

The psychic life of power

Imponderable forces

Callipygian Venus

Unconcealment of the tragic secret

From sex without procreation to pleasure without orgasm

Complex passions

The gregarious fulfillment of subjective unity

Can animals be selfish, as opposed to speciesist?

Capitalism as totalitarianism; Advertising as propaganda

What would you choose, if a Djinn offered you 3 wishes?
The second wish would be the reversal of the first (E.g. Unlimited money), and the last would be to have 3 more wishes… 😜

From sexuality to erotism

What proportion of the global population is middle-class or bourgeois? Is the spirit of the age dictated by this?

Active presence

Emerald Tablet ~ Gospel of Thomas

medi(t)ation

telesma

New discoveries from Old Worlds

Hal Taussig

Phalansteries – affinity classes

Organizing playful rituals

Passional aspiration

Romance, sport, art

The game as liberatory reality

Perverse emotions

Serious voluptuosity

Wretched wisdom

Which do you prefer – a natural (later) death or a violent (earlier) death?

Is the intellectual just a castrated/emasculated warrior?

The electromagnetic (hollow) body

1.10.23

predicant

Parnassian

Mummy’s 3rd (death) anniversary

dysautonomia

2.10.23

alacrity

Wicked humor

Žižek’s “parallax gap” (atheistic) ~ William Desmond’s “metaxology” (theistic)?

Animal suffering

Honest advertising

stodgy

Mate bait

Rexit

Hard-edged & dark… Jaw-droppingly distinctive

The secret gospels

Spiritual circumcision

grubs

Gentle master(y)

3.10.23

Cleft tongue

4.10.23

Non(standard)-fiction

6.10.23

demonst(e)rate ~ de-monster-ate

Spectator-sport

Learn to embrace whatever is – pain &/or pleasure &/or blah – become so capacious that your own incapacity is also hospitably accommodated!

Living in the eternal moment ~ my default mode is absent-mindedness

May IT happen in, through & around me

Passive exultation

Death as victory/vengeance

In-finity

Become used to doing nothing for prolonged periods of time, without getting restless, dejected or drowsy – this is your primary task!

7.10.23

From “Who am I?” to “What this is!”

Distinguish:
Sunrise & dawn
Sunset & dusk

twilight

From leap to explosion

The happiness of a pessimist

The horrors & dangers of the mundane/routine

You don’t want to get high yes. But the High wants to get you! 😈

Judas (Iscariot/Satanic) Priest

SFG: Spiritual Friendship Group ~ Science Fiction Generale (Laruelle)

Barbie Vs. Anabelle

9. 10.23

It is possible that I’m feeling (unusually) miserable because of (the psychic/spiritual impact of) certain current catastrophic world events…?

Am I responsible for my depression, and therefore guilty of feeding this laziness through my own choice of attitude & lifestyle? Being both my own victim & culprit is intolerable, isn’t it?

antsy

Triumphant disaster

earthlight

daybed

10.10.23

Does an enlightened guru have rage attacks?

From society of the spectacle to collage of individual visionaries

Theoretical experience & experiential practice

parricide

From magic to science to

Social imaginary & faith horizon

Return to ferity & mission of malice

From moral satire to literary bestiality

Ingesting (therefore, also digesting, assimilating & excreting) philosophy

Isn’t Pornography my chief influence?!

“GOD is all mouth”

Human wildness

From criticism to destruction

Today, porn is even more strictly censored than gore!

Semiotic derangement

Negative discourse

Max Ernst & Lewis Carroll

William Burroughs & Kurt Cobain

Collage novel

frottage

Picture books

Fap tribute & celeb skin

White mythology

Unselfconscious arena

Invisible art & inaudible music

bildungsphilister – is it possible that I’m not a self-deluded idiot?! Is there a foolproof way of confirming this?? 😅

Prenatal paradise & nostalgia for the womb

“You’re only a rebel from the waist down” – maybe the central cerebral control wanes as the distance of the organ from the brain increases…… 🤪

aquiline

Amphibious modality

Edenic gestation

Platonic bias

Pure difference

parasol

Paramyths – declassify ~ unworlding

The Real is monstrous (to us), only because we have been thoroughly formalized

Cultural reversions – kulturputsch

lo-fi

Reflections of a representation of the real

Metonymic figurations

My whole body is full of eyes, but when I see you, I only see 2 poor eyes, both lodged in the head, looking back! So how can I NOT objectify you??

Original fragments ~ organs without body

Hybridized creatures

The structurality of entrapment

Phantom of a phantom

iStripper zoom ~ headless torso ~ hundred-headed woman

Semantic distortions

Germinal perturbation

What would it be like to live in a world where everybody is illiterate/ignorant?

Freeplay & supplementarity

High jinx

11.10.23

Birdsong @ Anna Nagar, Chennai

Hard-wired to self-destruct

The name of (one of) my God(esses) is Keeley Olivia

Even if you see this object from any angle (360°), you will ONLY see its backside (or outside). Because the face is turned inward!

Meditation is (the old) masturbation…?

Third Eye Blind

Cardi B + Megan Thee Stallion

13.10.23

Why does tech stuff (software/hardware) malfunction, just like humans do? Why do I expect it NOT to be infected with the same virus/void that is in us??

freighter

windlass

bulkhead

forecastle

quartermaster

galley

antipode

caftan

serape

euchre

spiel

Hard bargaining

voluble, glib

sharkskin

shagreen, chagrin

bullthrowing, shooting the breeze

tweeds

nutation

peon ~ pawn

dynasty ~ destiny

Drops of God – Alexandre Leger was a pretentious old fool!

mirador

swarthy

Cloacal speech

monotreme

Excrete ~ purge ~ cleanse

Body politic – am I not the asshole of my society?

Could I insert myself in between these 2 biospiritual brothers?!

cartero

Malcolm Lowry is fucking crazy and I love it! Alcoholic writing

dungaree

wizened

I too shall pass, unless I’ve already failed (to disappear)…… 😜

zacuali

gable

vermillion, mauve

Nameless objects

Movable defences

crenellations ~ battlements

Gold leaf

chevron

Wheeling cloud shadows

Flying balcony

Golfing scorpions

Hurling backwards

Unexampled horrendousness

harpy

Prohibitionist poster

The water bottles in my house are always empty. I am raped by thirst, fatigue and fury.

tumulose

Automatic & indifferent living

barfly

“Name of a name of God”

Who was my mother… really??

Adversarial reasoning

SFG as “emergency brake system”

15.10.23

Maurice Blanchot interviews himself

Wreck ~ recharge

Overturning point

berserker furor

Is there an art of living (& dying) which can be designed from a nihilistic perspective or tragic attitude?

Self-confrontation

decreation

Eternal sin

Sacrifice of virgins

Cultural moment

Systematized rape

The (no-)things behind the veil (of the human)

Avoiding precarity

shamefastness

Displeasure Vs. Bad pleasure

Field uncut

Counterfeit women

Translucent gender

Am I still in the stage of Christian hangover (mourning the death of GOD)? Would I ever emerge out of this (on to the other side) in this life?

Perverse immortality

Crowning irony

Fatigue + restlessness = misery

Interexist ~ follow each other

Blind to other realities

Shadow of a doubt

In Christianity, divine sovereignty provides the very basis of human freedom. Whereas in Greek tragedy, fate requires the collusion of free-will to unfold in history!

hard-boiled

Tangled emotions

Weirded out

Distinguish: Untruths & Puns

An outbreak of trembling laughter

telesm

16.10.23

O how we make gurus & idols out of even the most radical iconoclastic figures…!

Phaidra’s skin-game of truths

Cunt sweat – imagine a world in which female desire/sexuality is fully released – just a heap of ashes! 🫠

“Avoid (hanging around) boring people” 😅

The timeless language of the Hopis

Mannerist excess

Designifying greatness

Deception by convention

Crown of disgrace

18.10.23

While I feed my mind with grand ideas and secretly converse with revolutionary giants, my real life is being consumed with the mundane duties and to-dos of a mediocre bourgeois existence……! Fuck this shit 😡 I’m outta here. O yeah? But how? I don’t care anymore whether I survive or not. Really!? Come on, don’t kid yourself 😅 I mock & taunt myself to death. Even then, I’m so full of myself…

Autobiographical allegory

Anti-wedding ceremony

The bride’s animal mask

From primitivism to decadence

Pornological invocation

The libidinal matter underlying cultural forms

Entrapment by pictorial rhetoric

How to catch a bird

Mirror ~ ruse

Interchangeable functions

20.10.23

vise

“Trappers trapping themselves”

brooch

What would you do if the current mix (weed + porn + sildenafil) stops working, Joey boy!? 🤪

“It rains”; Pure instruments; Userless apps

Unable to see when acting, and unable to act when seeing

Is double bind the same as catch 22?

But where is the pleasure of discipline in your life nowadays??

The knower and the witness – the same or different? If different, which is preeminent?

The tyranny of the unconscious

If you cannot join them (because you hate them so), then beat them (even if the attempt is gonna destroy you)

Non-signifying categories

Beyond (or the hidden in between) alive & dead (feeling) – a third way/door/ground (being) – the middle voice (or in between active/life and passive/dead)

Demythifying enterprise

In-sign-ificant

Are you so fortunate as to know (someone truly great like) me in your (puny/petty/shallow) life?! Ha ha ha ha…… I gotcha there!? Who is greater than me in my circle? Forget that, I’m just glad I have equals/peers, and therefore I’m NOT friendless.

Pleasure without pain leads to numbness

I’ve NOT seen/used a perfect machine…… yet (although I’m surrounded by hi-tech gadgets)! But aren’t humans perfect as they are (once you’ve abandoned theo-anthropo-logy)? Yes of course, but they’re not complete, unless they exti(nct)guish themselves to give birth to the Superman (or whatever you wanna call the next evolutionary phase/stage). Perfect, but not complete, yet! Death (only? of those who have ever really lived!) as the guaranteed & unfailing completion of sanctification or universal justification or comprehensive glorification.

If life is nothing but the superficial layer of death, when alive, then isn’t death also nothing but the superficial layer of life, when dead?

From popular culture to high art to ordinary philosophy

From protagonist/hero (or villain) to agonist/anti-hero (or joker)

21.10.23

turntable

Immobile machines

roundhouse

redoubt

From logic to logistics

God is king is war is mobility is control is discipline is morality is politics is business is technology is society

polemarch

Poliorcetic schema

The pole of reversal ~ the point of convergence

semaphore

Vectorial politics

The Ministry of Time and the Department of Space

Standardization ~ production ~ mobilization ~ destruction – the vicious cycle

22.10.23

Inhuman thought

Slow extasy

Delirious theory-fictions

anarchitecture

Schizophrenic metaphysics

fusty

From critique to acceleration

heteroclite

miscegenation

dissimulation

thanatropic

familialism

From contentless forms (ghosts) to formless content (matter)

Life/desire/animal/flesh/enjoyment
Vs.
Knowledge/will/human/spirit/control

affined

Unknown materiality

destratification

Is there any point in getting stoned without an erection??

All I need to do is to let IT happen, in, through & around me! Nothing else is required. Even this is NOT essential for IT to unfold, but just makes it easier for me (spares me the unnecessary self-imposed suffering), to cooperate with what cannot (and therefore need not) be resisted or defeated!

poet-werewolf-rat-genius

I am infuriated by the/my failure to achieve a satisfying high. This will slowly fade into a gnawing sadness, and finally dissolve into a paralyzing apathy…… returning back to the cycle of desire & disappointment.

Trakl died at 27. Was it a “suicide”?

Exploratory redesignings of the human

strato-analysis; schizo-numerics

otiose

tendentious

Intensive matter ~ body-without-organs

K-space

eldritch

Sexual intercourse without the other

If orgasm is the “little death”, then wouldn’t that make death the BIG orgasm!?

Abstract animism

Darkside jungle futurism

Neuromancer

anastrophic temporality

auto-poiesis

transfinites

geotrauma

ontogenesis & phylogenesis

cardinality & ordinality

limn

Non-mathematical numerical practices

Kapital metropolis

Welfare capitalism

Patrilineal economy

patronymy

23.10.23

an(nul)us

Intensify (the fall) ~ accelerate (the end)

The Superman is NOT (and is yet) human, just like the human (is and yet) is NOT ape

The aggressive absurdity of logic

Inhibited encounter with alterity

ancien regime

extortionate

The exuberant ambition of capital-ized reason

Theory as the contemporary form of future experience

psychiatrize

petit-bourgeois

The nostalgia & sentimentality of pacifism

Uninhibited synthesis

ringer

waggle

devilled

Meccano

24.10.23

Gospel of Truth (Valentinus) ~ Bodies (Si Spencer)

Long in the tooth

Maybe the denial of any and all sinister plots is the greatest conspiracy theory of all!

The very same recurring nightmare

Truth Vs. Life

You’re already dead + know you are loved