Category: Journal

29.6.17

– Beautiful ruins

– The natural hermeneutical method

Critical & systematic reflection

Proceeding with collaborative curiosity & creativity

– Are women (generally, with not a few exceptions) more silly and stupid than men? If not, then why am I even asking this question?

– Spiritual conversation ~ naughty business! 😈

30.6.17

– www.peopleareawesome.com

But you got it wrong – it’s “extraordinary people doing ordinary things”…!

– Fantasies of sex, violence &……?

Religion/spirituality, of course!

What do all three have in common (along with death!)?

Ask George Bataille!

– I have found my (next) goddess! 😉

– Freak ~ weirdo ~ creep

– http://www.mirandawarning.org/mirandawarning.pdf

Read me my rights!

– Distinguish:

Political correctness

&

Ethical soundness

Cultural absolutism

&

Moral relativism

– “Shallow people” – Fuck it, NOT everyone ought to be “deep”!

Who will do all that other work then??

– Those who fit into the world, experience spiritual emptiness.

And those who refuse to conform, suffer physically.

So, everyone is fucked!

– I wish I could just shoot & kill half the dogs in my neighborhood.

If only…… I would……

– Are people shallow, because they are busy,

Or are people busy, because they are shallow?

Not everyone who is busy is shallow.

And not everyone who is shallow is busy.

– Piddling (about)

coquettish

chortle

Halfwits & heavyweights

– SFG – the real spiritual formation group

&

SCG – the spiritual conversation WhatsApp group

1.7.17

– What do I have to prove (mainly to myself) that I am not just a abstract thinker/flashy talker, but an authentic individual?

1. My counter-cultural (contemplative) lifestyle

2. My bold/open sexual expression

3. My public positioning of (controversial) faith and invitation of challenge/argument

– Theory – exploration

Practice – experimentation

Experience – adventuring

– Love – you said it is respect for, acceptance of, & care toward the other.

But you missed one thing:

DESIRE for (to be with) the other!

– Update my CV. Add moderating spiritual conversation WhatsApp group & blogging, as ministries.

– FII – Foreign Institutional Investor

futon

– http://m.economictimes.com/markets/expert-view/market-gurus-are-sold-on-gst-in-the-long-term-heres-why/articleshow/59398836.cms

2.7.17

– Self-objectification

Vs.

Self-observation

– Burger King is a flop.

– Last time I went home (Chennai), I felt like crying, when I saw a childhood photo of me, smiling widely, standing with my parents…!?

– SFG/SCG is FOR you, if……

SFG/SCG is NOT for you, if……

– Write 3 statements for each:

I am…

I am not…

– Dynamic systems

Chaos & complexity

Action understanding

Imitation & empathy

3.7.17

– Should I have completed the 10 day Vipassana course, in spite of my doubts & other difficulties?

It would have made it easier for me to consistently practice mindfulness after I returned from the retreat.

– Meetup – great app for someone like me!

Referred by Vishal Kevin.

I can join interest groups, meet new like-minded people, and also use it as a platform to promote SFG & SCG……

Bangalore is far ahead of Chennai in many ways!

– vogues

Moving from acceptance/normality to popularity/success to power/influence… Are you moving on this track?

campy

fractal

– ⚠📢

_Dear folks…_

*It is time for Annual Retreat 2017!*

This year, we will be learning to play an experiential learning game called SUBLIMEWE.

It is for people of any religious (or non-religious) background, who want to develop the aptitude & skill to live on LIFE’s terms, by equally loving oneself and others.

Avail this unique opportunity to see how the “gifting culture” moves us toward a “world that works for everyone”!

Saras (Sarasvatti G. C.) will be available to help us get acquainted with the whole process.

Date:

Part 1 (Introduction) – 12-15.8.17

Part 2 (Integration) – 25-27.8.17

Venue:

In/around Bengaluru (will be fixed & informed within next 2 weeks)

Cost:

Rs. 6,000 per head (approximately)

Please reply and confirm your participation in the next 1 week. You can decide about attending Part 2 after you finish Part 1.

If anyone needs financial support, please let me know ASAP.

GRACE 🙏🏽

5.7.17

– To mystic/cosmic, add mythic!

– patreon.com

4.7.17

– Mutual support for self-facilitation
Fractal self-organizing- Christ University offers B. Sc. Psychology. And Asoka University offers B. A. Psychology.
What’s the difference?

– I know why the people in Bangalore look more beautiful than the folks in Chennai (no doubts about that!), or so I think:
1. There is more (genetic) intermingling here, between North, South, West & East India. The cosmopolitan mix produces better results, because of natural selection from a greater variety of options & combinations.
2. The climate is cooler and more amiable, so that might have a more positive effect on skin complexion.
3. The culture here is more image (& health?) conscious and fashionable, so people invest more on staying fit & looking good.

– “Last night, I was upset about you not _____ with me, but _____ with them (in spite of the work you had to do).
I don’t know why I got hurt!
It’s not your fault, I guess…
Maybe I was lonely, angry & sad, because I felt left out (& I didn’t want to join either!), and even despised all of you together as a “happy group”…
The conversations you all were having was really getting on my nerves! I couldn’t help it. I felt disgust, hatred, etc. rising up from within…
I just wanted to get out and find some peace in solitude.
Something very deep/old inside me is in tumult 😓
Sorry ✋🏽
You don’t have to do anything about it. And I don’t think you can help either……
I think this is somehow related to my critical intellect, sexual lust, depression, introversion, etc.
All these seem to be symptoms of some great “wound/lack” inside……! Maybe, I don’t know
I was trying to relax by closing my eyes & breathing. Then I just went to sleep. Escaping the pain/trouble
I am so sick, and this world is so fucked up.
I am numb to this life. I don’t believe in God or love or truth anymore……
Nothing really matters!
There is so much inside me, waiting to explode & destroy everything around me
I am afraid of (what’s hidden/buried in) myself
You are more like them, than like me.
Spiritually, I am alone.
And all I want is to be left alone in peace. That’s all.
I will NEVER be a parent.
You go ahead & have a normal/healthy life. But spare me the bother……
I have nothing against you.
I just want to be true to myself (I couldn’t be otherwise).
And you should do the same”

6.7.17

– “⚠📢 ANNOUNCEMENT & INVITATION:
“Dear folks…
It is time for our *ANNUAL RETREAT 2017*!
This year, I would like to offer the following proposal:
To gather, explore and play with an instrument, designed for
experiential learning called *”sublimewe”.*
It is a coined term which describes a space for us to be in a mode of unlearning and deepening into self, enacting mutuality with others and emboldening all those in the sphere of your influence for sake of unity, authenticity, diversity and widespread well-being.
It is for people of any affiliation (be it religious or non-religious), who want to develop the aptitude & skill to living on LIFE’s terms, by equally caring for and loving self and others.
I welcome you to utilize this unique opportunity to see how “gifting
culture” moves us toward a “world that works for everyone”!
Two or three practicing players of the sublimewe game, including Saras (Sarasvathi G. C.) will be joining along with us as we create the whole retreat experience together.
_____________________
Maximum number of participants ~ 10 only (excluding the 3 facilitators), so please respond promptly to register.

*Dates* :
– Part 1 (Introduction) – 12 – 16.8.17 (5 days & 4 nights)
– Part 2 (Integration) – 17 – 19.8.17 &/or 25 – 27.8.17 (3 days & 2 nights)
(You can decide about attending Part 2 after finishing Part 1)

*Venue* :
In/around Bengaluru – the climate is very pleasant, & with good
options for inexpensive retreat spaces.
(Place will be fixed & informed within next 2 weeks)

*Cost* :
Approximately Rs. 6,000 per person – including travel, food and accomodation – for Part 1 alone
(but financial constraints need not keep anyone from coming.
So please inform me if you need support…
And generosity from those who can afford is encouraged!)
The core practice of sublimewe is based on a principle of shared responsibility (unlike business as usual.)  All aspects of the retreat
is held by each one that will be joining and participating amongst us, particularly financial co-responsibility for all expenses in conducting our event.
Therefore, further details on expenses will emerge as part of the retreat convening & organizing process.
_____________________
Please reply, if you are interested in being a part of such a venture, so I can call you and then we can discuss the details and finalize your plan.

*Contact* :
+919840227977 (Immanuel Joseph)
_____________________________________
_GRACE, PEACE & FREEDOM_ 💢
_____________________________________

– Connect and integrate Spiritual conversation WhatsApp group, local spiritual friendship small group, Immanuel Joseph’s Blog, annual retreat & seminar!
A veritable ecosystem for personal flourishing and world transformation 😇👍👏

– Artifical intelligence
Vs.
Natural wisdom

– How can I nurture a sharp attitude of healthy criticism, without falling into the dark pit of morbid cynicism?
How can I have strong beliefs that produce committment to a clear path, without being blinded by my confident zeal?
There needs to be a balanced tension & dynamic interaction between faithful action and self-doubt to keep one from the twin risks of violent dogmatism and relativistic paralysis……

– Ogle:
Admiring & enjoying, without killing & consuming……
Possible?

– Gifting time
Spiritual donation
Personal sharing
Moral exchange

–  “Advertisement for starting a Spiritual Formation Group (to be forwarded to your students & colleagues in all 3 campuses of CU, via your network, by WhatsApp/email):
My name is Immanuel Joseph. I am a 37 year old Tamil guy, married to Salome Divya (Assistant Professor of Psychology). We live in Hulimavu, close to the Christ University campus on BG Road. We moved here from Chennai last month.
– I come from a Christian, medical background. I have been engaged, as an independent practitioner, in conducting small group meetings, retreats, seminars, & one-on-one mentoring for more than 8 years now. I have had basic formal training in Theology & Counseling. I am a contemplative autodidact.
– The Spiritual Formation Group (SFG) is how I express my passion for holistic growth through radical education, intellectual dialogue and mutual support (which are also, according to me, the most pressing needs, especially among our youth).
This is for any adult (above 18), who is interested in understanding themselves better, relating intimately with others, learning more deeply about their world and experiencing GOD in & through the mystery of this life.
– This is NOT mainly a Christian fellowship, or group psychotherapy, or academic/cultural club, etc. But it includes some of these elements and more (authentic friendship & personal transformation through reflection & conversation)!
If you want to try something new/different that might be edifying, enlightening & inspiring, or you feel that something crucial that is essential for that next stage of your evolution is lacking, or there is a sense of dissatisfaction & frustration with the superficiality, mediocrity & busyness of contemporary society, then the SFG is for you!
– Those who would like to be part of such a community, please contact me, so that we can arrange an initial intro/orientation meeting, where I can give more details and we can discuss how to take this initiative forward, together.
PEACE ✌🏽
+919840227977
jimmanueljoseph@gmail.com”

– “I am available for anyone (student or faculty, male or female, young or old) who wants a trustworthy confidant, or is looking for a spiritual friend/conversation partner.
Let me know if you come across such a need…
PEACE ✌🏽”

– “SPIRITUAL CONVERSATION WHATSAPP GROUP
IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT:
Dear friends…
WELCOME!
This is a forum for free exchange of views (beliefs & values) & open/mature/serious dialogue.
For adults ONLY.
Language – English
– No more forwards (pictures, videos, jokes, Christian messages, etc.) will be allowed in this group. So please avoid sending them.
You can send relevant forwards (Max. 1 per day). Whoever posts a forward must also give a brief description or comment.
– If you find anything that is good (important,  useful, interesting, & relevant to the theme of this group – serious discussion of faith/life), then you can send just the online link (URL). But this also, only a maximum of one per day per person.
– But you can send small excerpts like quotes (max. 2-3 sentences/a small paragraph).
– If anyone violates this rule, they will be given a warning. The next time, they will be evicted from the group.
– I am bringing in this rule so that our conversations will be more authentic & substantial.
Please cooperate.
Any feedback can be sent to me personally, not in the group.
THANK YOU!
Friends, please avoid any communication that is not meant for the entire group, but only for an individual.
– I was part of another WhatsApp group in which the administrators had this rule, & I saw that it really helped to maintain a better quality of conversation!
– But when it comes to expressing your own views & experiences, you have FULL FREEDOM!
– Let the conversation flow! Let us all feel free to express ourselves fully. Let us accept & respect each other. Let us push & shove each other, as we clash, in the pursuit of truth & glory – together! 👣
– Diversity/variety of persons, & therefore theologies is a wonderful & complex fact! 😇✨
Let us just enjoy being exposed to the Great Other, through encounters & communication with all these others.
I would request everyone to just relax & speak their minds without any fear! 🍷
It can be difficult, frightening & painful to interact with radically different persons/views, but that is what helps us grow! We are forced to stretch. Otherwise what’s the point in any conversation?? We are NOT here to just rub each other’s backs……
– Dear folks… Please note that we will be focusing on spiritual conversation (the purpose & title of this group) and NOT personal confrontation. The latter can be done in private chats with individuals on WhatsApp!
– Here, we will be trying to distinguish between WHAT is being said and WHO is saying it, and then concentrate on the former, NOT the latter.
– This will be followed as a strict rule!
– And although Christian theology is an integral part of the exchanges in this open forum, spiritual conversation is not limited to it!
Spiritual > Christian.
Faith > religion.
So get ready to be exposed, & to explore!
There is no obligation to participate in the chats. You can join in whenever you can/want.
– If anyone doesn’t like the experience, please feel free to contact the administrator(s) to give feedback (in private chat), or leave the group.
PEACE ✌🏽”

– Hegre Art
poltroon
stoner
TBD
ASMR

7.7.17

– I love sleeping in the light, and staring into the dark! 😎

6.7.17

– quorum

–  Silent Planet – Understanding Love As Loss

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9HHk2TuK2CE

–  Neck Deep – Where Do We Go When We Go (Official Music Video)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e1kVFuAdRx0

8.7.17

– Today, I saw a school  girl on the road in front of my house. She was so beautiful and sexy – indeed she looked perfect!

My heart fluttered and skipped a beat – I was moved with adoration and hurt with desire……

I have such experiences rarely.

Should I be ashamed or afraid??

T. S. Eliot once said that D. H. Lawrence was a “very sick man indeed”…

The lives and times of joy-hogs

Ha ha ha ha!

I hesitated a lot before I wrote this down (& then published it). Why??

So, instead of censoring it, I recorded my feelings about the recording too, along with the account of the original experience……

NOW, you can judge me, and expose yourself, in the very act!

– “Strangely incurious”

mermen

–  CATHOLICISM: The New Evangelization – Trailer

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwInY93oaLo

– Congratulations on starting a Meetup

https://vimeo.com/115232133

– “Run” – Foo Fighters

Lyrics http://www.azlyrics.com/lyrics/foofighters/run.html

Song https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ifwc5xgI3QM

via Spiritual Formations (Bangalore) | Meetup

Meetup referred to me by Vishal Kevin…

Thank you, bro!🙏🏽 

via ABOUT – Immanuel Joseph’s Blog

21.6.17

– The extraordinary everyday!

– Fluid arts

Video magazine

– Is it possible to integrate the erotic, the intellectual and the political in a spiritual formation group??!!

– Whenever you find something worthwhile, save & share it.

– The courage of hopelessness/tragedy

Vs.

The cowardice of despair/resignation

Comedy is nothing but tragedy without an end……!

– Solitude + idleness + imagination = enlightenment!

– daft 

punk

spunk 

hoodlum 

gnoccatime 

PMV

GIF slideshow 

touchwood 

– Fuck the System:

This present order/evil age

My daily rhythm/rule

Ministry plans

They’re ALL the SAME! 😡

What do you think lies behind/beneath these world structures/flesh drives??

O O O, Satan……….

– 22.6.17

– Asexual cuddling

Psychological nakedness

Spiritual friendship

Aesthetic intimacy

Intellectual partnership

Ethical conversation

Vocational support

– “I am available for anyone (student or faculty, male or female, young or old) who wants a trustworthy confidant, or is looking for a spiritual friend/conversation partner.

Let me know if you come across such a need…

PEACE ✌🏽”

– Nowness 

Flogang 

23.6.17

– My “ministry” is more about me looking for others out there who can give me the kind of company I want, rather than me providing something for a perceived need in the church/society!

– mirandum 

Bourgeois-ized existence 

self-incrimination

Bohemian garb

Doubt, wonder & mystery

– A person who is not reflective, intentional & public, in her experience & practice of life, CANNOT be called “spiritual”!

The emotional-relational dimension can be healthy only when sandwiched between the intense & dynamic engagement with the private & political realms…

– TV series:

“Luther” season 1

So, do they finally have sex or not??

This guy is a bundle of contradictions. She seems to be more consistent. But even her world is being rocked by the sudden invasion of love.

This is not just another story where the main characters never die! Realistic, & therefore powerful. Why does fiction need to be so, in order to be appealing?

The hunter & the beast fall in love. And the death of the beloved beauty makes way for the sexy creature!

Compare the torment of detective Reed with O. J. Simpson’s anguish after (being caught & charged for) the murder.

– Movies:

“The Prophet” (based on the book by Kahlil Gibran)

Hmmm…… I found it too cute & romantic.

Even his view of death is too rosy for me!

No wonder X loves this guy. 

Will “The Alchemist” (Paulo Coelho) be better?

I found “Life of Pi” more arresting.

Are the common people really that innocent?

Maybe it’s just a bad film adaptation of a great book……

24.6.17

– Frivolity (Serious fun)

Vs.

Triviality (Rhetorical sophistry)

– Making peace with rules

&

Making rules for peace

– pasty

innocuous

Ramadan Eid

Moon sighting

– Implicit <–> explicit

Fearlessly and accurately articulating the repressed.

And unfolding the implications of the obvious.

– Future hits

– Sprinkle (generously) the spice of disciplines on the staple diet of spontaneous expression

– How many great historical persons had full-time jobs, were married and had children?

25.6.17

– Distinguish:

Personality (psychosocial)

&

Character (moral-spiritual)

26.6.17

– Maybe I should just become a home-maker (+/- father)……

I am feeling utterly worthless and lost! 😥

Adopt my ageing parents…?!

Mutual adoption??

FUCK 😵

27.6.17

– diremption 

conspectus 

– Spiritual suicide (is a process that) is far more damaging than (the event of) physical suicide.

– Becoming nothing ~ being everything!
Why should everyone be qualified or expert in one or two things?
Why can’t I just be me?
Why should I do something in order to be someone?
Why can’t I just live without any of these labels or roles?
My time has not yet come. I’m afraid it will be too late for me……!
So, should I just try to fit in or continue standing out? How long can I keep up this struggle, against all odds?? I’m weary. But I can’t give up, I don’t think I can ever do that……!
So, no more marketing myself, or trying to make something happen, that will give me validity & legitimacy in this world (in spite of all the pressure from without & torture from within), time to put my foot down and take my stand, forever.

– Psychological health
Vs.
Philosophical attitude

– Not a victim nor a warrior.
Just a solo adventurer.
Off the road. Into the wild. On my own.
Farewell, my dear folks!
The LORD have mercy, on you & me.
PEACE ✌

– Mindful breathing, mild exercise, household chores.
These are what keep me sane/alive!

– Thanks for your advice, but I refuse to follow it.
I am playing a totally different ball game here. You don’t & can’t understand. And that’s okay with me. I am getting used to it.

– Spiritual hippy

Ticking or sweeping?

3.6.17

– Current
&
Currant

– “Go Irish”

– A human being is not born. No one is a human being by nature. A human being is made, just like DNA is transcripted into RNA & then translated into protein. The protein (body) then becomes the base from which the spiritual work is done…

– I live in this 3D world, but I am originally from the 4th dimension!
Therefore, I am nothing here, and this is nothing to me……

– “Again” – Archive (lyrics)
Song
The music, the lyrics and my mood mingle perfectly to create absolute bliss!

– Distinguish:
Melancholic aggression
&
Nihilistic ressentiment

– Rock:
Ballads
Vs.
Anthems

– Self-criticism – what a society needs the most, will never be considered by that culture as “good” or “positive”…
In fact, it will always be seen as negative or worthless!
There is nothing we hate or avoid more than (what is required for) our own salvation.
In short, the true messiah is always a crucified one.

– All heroism is essentially tragic, and all narratives are ultimately comedic.

– Christ University – if you are widely reputed, and rated as a top/premier institution, then you are definitely NOT radical/subversive!

– Sleep/leisure as the most productive/generative of activities!

– Leisure the basis of culture & the philosophical act by Josef Pieper
Blessed are those who fully read my journal entries, for they shall be rewarded with such priceless treasures……! 😇😎
The essential/crucial/vital luxury

– How willing am I to see myself in the light of the other?

– Education ~ philosophy ~ spirituality!

– Nutan

– Why is it that we hear (& are disturbed by) the dog-fights only late at night (when we go to bed)?

– Change the motto of Christ University:

From “Excellence & Service” to “Knowledge & Freedom”! 

4.6.17

– Ultimately, the Liberal Arts might be the most useful (to being human) than all the other fields of knowledge put together!

– Vicious virtues
Vs.
Virtuous vices
E.g. Industry & laziness

– Professor – publicizing the private is the only way to access truth!
From opinion to knowledge, through conflict…

– But what if your life partner is not your soul mate (and your soul mate is not your life partner)?

– Becoming fully yourself IS changing the world!

5.6.17

– The armchair in my living room is the frontline in the spiritual war of our age!

– What is “natural justice”?

– Movies:
” Wonder Woman” (2017)
Mainstream Hollywood films (especially the superhero genre) are no longer solid (theological) substance. I must turn to the arthouse stuff for that.
Gal Godot is super. But Wonder Woman is naïve.
War as truth. Satan as the great peace-monger!
Distinguish:
Armistice
&
Justice
Her romance with one man is what sustains her love for mankind.
What is the significance of the watch that is left in Diana’s hand by the hero?

– Cricket – the India-Pak rivalry is dead. It’s a total mismatch, folks! This is a different kind of sadness for India fans……

– “Hic et ille”
riposte
adumbrate
reframe/reconstitute/reoriginate

– What is the difference between a thing & its reflection?
Nothing, & everything.

– Sleeping with the specs on

– Finding new fuck-buddies
Hidden contacts

– Aesthetic imperfection (double meaning)
Wonder Woman (2017 Hollywood movie) is too nice and The Tempest (BBC production of the Shakespeare play) is too heavy.
I need something in between……

……like Louie (TV series by Louie C. K.)??

6.6.17

– Deconstruction as counter-interpretation
Sincere but wrong
Double whammy

Distinguish:
Politician/bureaucrat
&
Statesman/public servant
Fake/paid news
Hung parliament
Aelia Capitolina
Hidden traditions

– Maybe I should use the power of the Internet better to overcome my isolation & listlessness……?

– Who (among those around me) is seriously interested in the spiritual life anymore?? 

Well, even I have nothing better to do, that’s why……! 

7.6.17

– From good to great ~ from busyness to contemplation – from health to enlightenment ~ from happiness to misery!
There is a joy (spiritual) that lies in the very depths of sorrow (psychological).
Being profound/authentic has a very high price indeed. The question is whether it is worth all that pain……
The most terrifying abyss lies WITHIN!
Do you dare to enter, & stay??

– Do you know that all the garbage from our houses finally ends up in their backyard?
Well, now you do.
But what are you going to do about it?
Should you do anything at all?

– Distinguish:
Ideation
&
Idealism

– “Civilization and its Discontents”
Now, through prolonged repression & neglect, turned into malcontents 😡
– catercorner
Negative capabilites
Proscenium arch

– “Why is there something rather than nothing?”
Get the book! 😉

– It is possible to be confident but wrong. And it is possible to feel dejected while in the centre of “GOD’s will”. 

8.6.17

– nimesis
mythopoieic
symbolic environment
Secular theodicy
Bureaucratic discourse
ineluctable
misprision
Mass suasion
semantic slippage
Symbolic manipulations
Organizational logic & official ideology

– I must live for one year without any clearly defined occupational role. I must see if I can fall in love with myself, or at least learn to live happily with myself, by going through a long period of intense solitude & unlimited freedom……

– Can democracy/citizenship & nationalism/patriotism coexist?

– Isn’t it easier to believe that a personal GOD created this world, with conscious & intelligent beings as ourselves, rather than the evolution, of life from organic matter, & consciousness from biological beings?
Or is there a third alternative……??

– Reading as an escape from self-confrontation

– What do you do? ~ Show me your clothes
Who are you? ~ Get naked in front of me now!

– If I am brutally honest, I would accept that i can’t see a way out of (bio-cultural) determinism, yet! 

9.6.17

– Cricket – what, India can’t defend 321?! And then they (commentators) say it was not quite enough!

– My job is to become nothing by doing nothing, and therefore to expose to this world that all its sound & fury signifies nothing!

– The romanticization of sex

– Distinguish:
Beauty/body/aesthetics/sensuality,
Truth/knowledge/ethics/intellect
&
Goodness/faith/religion/revelation
All together constitute life/spirituality/prosperity/being!
Missing any one by conflating one with another results in death/deficiency/regression/depression.

– Is what is not articulated &/or communicated not understood/known?

– earful

– Is it “appropriate” for someone nearing 40 to be “sexy”?

Huh!? Fuck that shit…… 😈

27.5.17

– Depression – trying a new method of self-care (as essential to the treatment, along with medication).
Pamper the flesh – just relax completely, whenever you feel miserable. Then slowly, coax the body using the will to move & perform the usual routine, but this time with more awareness & finesse.
Mindful breathing + yoga moves = body-mind integration
Somaesthetic approach…
Let’s see how this goes.
The mind thinks all that the body wants is safety, pleasure & rest, but it is wrong! The mind does NOT know the body. We must stop thinking about, & speaking to, the body, & start listening to it more.

– From the wild animality of the jungle (dangerous environment), we have now moved into the impersonal mechanism of the city (enslaving systems).
How shall we regain the garden again?
Can it ever be??
We, as individuals have lost touch with our own bodies, and as a society we have been alienated from the planet.
Why did this happen, & how can we rectify this?

– The Arts need the Sciences just as much as the Sciences need the Arts.

– Moving from culture as nature to nature as culture.

– Melancholia (film) – is it possible to optimally function in this world, & also be ready (even eager!) for its extinction?

28.5.17

– Uniqueness
Vs.
Normalcy

29.5.17

– Distinguish:
Body/self/man/person/life/thinking/feeling
&
Flesh/spirit/GOD/world/existence/being/consciousness

– Jordan Peterson hates postmodernism, but loves Nietzsche. How come?

– Randomize ~ revolutionize ~ radicalize ~ liberate!

– The antidote to depression is not medication (retreat), it is aggression (offense)!
The war of socio-psycho-biology and philosophico-mystical-spirituality

– True life is neither inward nor outward, it is (all that goes on) in-between!

30.5.17

– Can the pure physiology of UGK & the perfect nihilism of Nietzsche be harmonized &/or integrated?
Spirituality is more than (mere) biology, but it is also less than (contemporary) culture!

– nugatory
homonym
iambic
scansion
arch-expletive
schadenfreude
henology
mimesis
urmark
Zero point
tain
self-alienation & self-knowledge
anodyne
lineaments
subsurface structure
artificer
Originatory & originality

– Cardinality & ordinality
Distinguish:
Cipher
&
Zero
I always used to count the day in which we are born (zero age value) as our first (by numerical order) birthday.
I am the Zero without which you are not one.
I do nothing, so that you can be something!

– Ellipse
&
Eclipse

– Zero, infinity & uncertainty
Negating the negative!
E.g. Solitude vs. Depression

– Precept
&
Percept

– Superficiality & compulsion >> stress
What could be the antidote then?

– Curiosity + criticality >> creativity! 

31.5.17

– Zeroing in
&
Zeroing out

– Tinder as a social psychology experiment

– Distinguish:
Post-
&
Ex-
E.g. I am a post-Christian, not ex-Christian

– Bengaluru – the confluence of North & South (India)
Maybe I don’t need to learn Kannada after all. I can manage with Hindi…

– Intellectual > academic

– Radical ~ negative ~ critical ~ subversive ~ liberatory ~ revolutionary

– Hostility
Vs.
Hospitality
>>

?

1.6.17

– Dusk today ~ 7:05 pm

– Spiritual formation = studying the great + self-examination + dialogue

– Thoughts ~ representations
Rationality & morality
Desire & will
What (beliefs & practices) does it take to have (true) knowledge of the (real) self?

– Trying new non-routines
Dis-&-re orienting… ad infinitum!

– If you have accepted that you are outside the world-system, then why do you still struggle to maintain a social identity??
You are not strong enough yet, to be completely free…!
(but you will become, if you keep at it)

– Remembrance (of my own principles) as reactivation (of my spirit)

– The poet as heterodox prophet/marginal expert

– The politics of the individual
The rhetoric of Ethics and the ethics of Rhetoric
Thinking without knowing, & knowing without thinking
Speaking without loving, & loving without speaking
Believing without doing, & doing without believing
Criticizing analysis and analyzing criticism
Distinguish:
Ideas
&
Beliefs
Madness & magic
Development as modification
“situated” (adj.)
Interplay:
Will/individual/thought
&
Body/context/reality
Social theory & human science
The plural self
Revisionist agenda
Disempowering practices
crypto-missionaries

– How did Critical Theory itself become an ideology?!

– Socio-psychic – all persons are influenced by their culture, but not all individuals are able to affect the society in which they live.

– Is any religion as thoroughly historical (in its theology) as Christianity?
Not even (contemporary) Judaism!

2.6.17

– If to live (physically) is to die, then to die (spiritually) is to live!
Things change,
Shit happens,
Life goes on.

– One can “get used to” almost anything……

– Listen to the silence,
Peer into the void,
Feel the numbness,
Taste the blandness,
Smell the breeze,
Commune with yourself,
Contemplate the ineffable
Narcissus, becoming Leviathan……!

– proem

– Converting the naturally passives into active, and the previously actives into passive…
– What does the (external) climate have to do with the (internal) mood?

– Classical science
Vs.
The hermeneutic approach

– “To know who I am is a species of knowing where I stand.” – Charles Taylor
Hmmm… (my) identity is rooted in (my) morality.
Autobiography as introversion.
Even if one is in constant flux, there is still a place for identifying your position in the present.

– Bible Project – reading the entire Bible as a single, unified (meta)narrative is problematic, isn’t it?

– YHWH
I AM
The Eternal
The One
Hyper-immanent personal process!

– dharna
detente
fray

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