MISCELLANEOUS

22.7.17

– Add self-help to critical theory

– Intellectual exploration

Physical moderation

Emotional numbness

Volitional empowerment

Social isolation 

Relational intimacy

Spiritual transformation

World revolution

…the politics of self!

– “Suicided by society”

– Posthumous apology – SORRY to all the Spiritual Formations Meetup members!

RIP (aborted) 🙏

24.7.17

– Gross and net income

Financial & assessment year

Form 16 & 26as

EPFO & UAN

TDS & TAN

– TV series:

“Black Mirror” Season 1 episode 1-2

– From the seminar on Death to death of the Seminar!

25.7.17

– “Examine me, and probe my thoughts! Test me, and know my concerns! See if there is any idolatrous tendency in me, and lead me in the reliable ancient path!”

‭‭(Psalms‬ ‭139:23-24‬ ‭NET)

Beliefs ~ desires ~ values ~ worries ~ preoccupations 

Nature ~ tendency/predisposition 

No reflective/expressive journaling, no self-knowledge >> self-deception >> self-destruction

Painful ~ vain ~ idolatrous ~ destructive ~ alien

– 1Thes. 5:18-24

Useless/waste/distraction/irrelevant ~ evil 

Balanced routine (menu of disciplines & optimal rhythm) help you maintain a good attitude & stay healthy.

Your lifestyle shapes your outlook and vice versa.

Are you ready for the new/eternal world order??

Fighting fit

Be careful that you do not become insensitive to the whisperings & nudgings of the Spirit. Find out how, & do whatever it takes, to keep your ultimate destiny in sight always.

– Where is Doklam?

What does “Hurriyat” mean?

South China Sea

– Is your life,

Busy & boring or

Busy & interesting or

Idle & boring or

Idle & interesting?

– https://www.brainpickings.org/2016/10/23/10-years-of-brain-pickings/?mc_cid=c7f9956a1e&mc_eid=5a1152760f

– “Real time”

walleye

Mobius strip

– Creating demand with a new kind of supply

– https://www.brainpickings.org/2015/10/19/patti-smith-m-train-loss-time/

– YWF – young & wild is fine, but you can’t be free too…!?

– Do you budget for time, energy & space too?

Why not?? 

26.7.17

– Audiobooks

Poetry recitals

Interviews and conversations

Panel discussions

Scintillating podcasts

– A few weeks back, when I was walking back home, I pissed on myself (in the street just in front of my house), because I couldn’t hold it in any longer!

I don’t think anyone else saw…… 😥😛

– “Burned alive by time”

– Ask yourself, in each area of your life & then as a whole, are you healthy, sick or dead?

– Caedmon’s caesura 

Middle-earth

Multiverse 

Concept art

Mead hall

Family feud

Riddles & puzzles

Wars & games

– If Heorot is the contemporary West, & Grendel is Islamic terrorism, then who or what is Beowulf??

– Distinguish:

Busyness

&

Productivity

Idleness

&

Contemplation 

– Can something be both disgusting & inspiring?

– Triduum rhythm/cycle:

Day 1 – crazy/freak (includes Sabbath) – Sunday, Wednesday 

Day 2 – work on yourself (includes fasting/silence/unplug) – Monday, Thursday 

Day 3 – chores (includes ministry)

Minimize external requirements AFAP, so that (almost) all activities can be directed inside-out! – Tuesday, Friday

Saturday – work/chores/freak

– Movies:

“John Wick Chapter 2”

NOT as good as part 1.

– Paganism (so-called) & Christianity are inseparable!

– Boredom, day-dreaming, meditation & sleep

27.7.17

– Free period

– Vocation – distinguish between (your) core/essence & capabilities/strengths, and focus on the former! 

– TV series:

“Preacher” season 1 episodes 1-5

– Met Fr. Antony Kalliath & Anil Thalakottur in Vidyavanam.
And also visited Ram Menon with Sarasvatti G. C. @ School of Ancient Wisdom

Self-drove Maruti Celerio (automatic gear) from Revv Cars

28.7.17

– “Dont embarrass me (before them).”
“Fuck you (& them)!”

– This is the meaning of life.
What is that?
It is whatever!

– The only way to salvation is by overcoming the messiah complex……
To be free of the desire for freedom!
To be cured of the need for health.

– Heavy metal disco dance

– “One is one, and two is three”
(“Baby” – Royal Republic)
Is it any wonder that the girlfriend/wife is called “baby”?!

I would like to add – one is nothing, and one is all. 

HAPPENINGS

9.7.17

– Die Marquise von O… (La Marquise d’O…, The Marquise of O, Éric Rohmer, 1976)

http://sensesofcinema.com/2017/cteq/the-marquise-of-o/#fnref-29842-4

– I must continue to co-mentor Chellam, my life-partner (along with her) even when there is no formal SFG work going on…

Do I let her mentor me too? Do I really believe in mutuality even in this?

Why do I prefer the term “life-partner” to “wife”?

11.7.17

– I know what it feels like to behold a body like that. But what is it like to BE a body like that??

– innerconnectedness

– Spirituality Vs. Culture/morality/psychology

As opposed to,

Spirituality Vs. Materiality/physicality/sexuality

13.7.17

– IObit Driver Booster

Malwarebytes

CCleaner

Avast Antivirus

– Food is God.

Language is God.

Breath is God.

Body is God.

Motion is God.

– Distinguish:

Nihilation

&

Annihilation 

Philosophical suicide

&

Suicidal art

– False emotions

– Freedom, creativity & nothingness

Negation, contradiction & imagination

14.7.17

– http://www.gktoday.in/difference-between-a-crossed-cheque-and-ac-payee-cheque/

– http://www.goodreturns.in/classroom/2015/03/difference-between-salary-account-savings-bank-account-sb-bank-344713.html

17.7.17

– Film:

“வாகை சூட வா”

“பாகுபலி” 1 & 2

“Lost City of Z”

– TV series:

“I Love Dick” Season 1

– Is it possible to resist someone who finds you irresistible??

18.7.17

– Film:

“A Quiet Passion”

If Emily Dickinson was not that good at poetry, would she still be a great woman?

19.7.17

– Recluse >> eccentric ~ maverick ~ contemplative ~ rebel ~ artist ~ prophet ~ autodidact

WOW!

– Let my life be just me & the world, with no others in between……!

And in my relationships, let there be nothing of the world in between.

– The Cross – Christ is mortal, unlike Jesus……! 

I believe that the Cross is a fundamental discontinuity &/or transformation in the Gospel narrative. It should NOT be seen as just an overcoming continuation of what went before, beyond the barrier of death.

On the Cross, the Messiah/spirit dies, and the Man/flesh resurrected!

This inverted spirituality is the greatest legacy of Christianity.

– Hallowed ~ hollowed

(w)hole

– The discourse of silence 

Images, things, ideas & words

The politics of experience 

Automatic writing

Mechanical imaginations

– The sovereignty of spontaneity 

Designing a disruptive/unleveling routine

20.7.17

– cenicle 

lien 

sublation 

parergon

re-spacing 

unreading 

Vivisection of texts

Performative thinking

Formal experimentation

Exorbitant works

Unashamedly contradictory

From philosophical literature to literary philosophy 

– How can you prevent spirituality from becoming accessorized by the prevalent order?

– Alternative histories

– I think the next stage of my (d)evolution has begun!
Medicine >> theology >> spirituality/ministry >> self-education
No more small group meetings, seminars, retreats, online forums, etc. for me! Spontaneous one-on-one conversations are the only interpersonal interaction that will remain.
I am gonna focus on a purely inward work from now onwards, at least for the next 1 year.
This work will have no (obvious/immediate) social dimension.
There will be no formal structure or fixed role except my constantly changing personal/private routine.

– Time to descend into the abyss of my own nothingness/darkness/emptiness.
And see if I can survive this death……
Distinguish:
Pessimism/realism
&

Depression/resignation

21.7.17

– The science of life
&

The art of living

“Silence” (2016) movie review (3/5)

I should never read/watch any review or analyses before I write my own opinions down!

I didn’t like the movie at all!

Why??

Is it because I am no longer a (devout/evangelical/catholic) Christian?

Is Scorsese a “Christian”?

Compare with the plight of the Church in areas occupied by ISIS today.

“Padre” in this film refers NOT to GOD, but to the (all too fallible) priests!

Is the line between martyrs and apostates so definite?

How much of Shusako Endo’s novel was based on history?

Silence + (suffering) –> (grandiose) auditory hallucinations……!?
Compare with “Jeanne d’Arc”

Anthropological theology

Vs.

Theological anthropology

Was the cross in the final scene placed there by the widow?

Isn’t “secret Christian” a contradiction?

If Christ died in order for us to live, then isn’t us dying for him a frustration of the divine intention?

One can see the faithful follower, the fickle believer, the liberal leader, etc. – all varieties of the religious type in this story.

When faithfulness and survival are blurred against each other……!

Compare with the Catholic Inquisition in Europe.

Is the suffering of the Christian missionaries in the context of European imperialism akin to the sadomasochistic sexuality of the modern affluent?

Apostasy & apostatize (not apostasize)

There are 3 ways in which I approach the trial of the Christians:

  1. Refuse to blaspheme (& consequently be martyred), because you believe that is the kind of faithfulness desired by the Lord, like many/most of the lay Japanese Christians.
  2. Make a formal gesture of apostasy, but continue to worship Christ privately, like the 2 priests.
  3. Refuse to apostatize, because I believe that surrendering to brute force would set a precedent of condoning the power of structural violence to subdue the individual conscience. This is the closest option to my conviction. In fact, even to believe, that ultimately, one’s response is a choice is in itself the most radical, audacious and ultimately salvific/transformative/triumphant claim! Human free will (for which Christ suffered & died, believing this to be GOD’s clear intention) remains the supreme value that deserves, even demands, any & every sacrifice……….

Counter-conversion strategies

Compare the last scenes with “Last Temptation”

“ad majorem dei gloriam” – everything! Really?

Trailer

Review

Analysis

“Fight Club” movie review (4/5)

WOW! Definitely one of my favorite films. Could there be any guy (“normal male”) who hates (or even dislikes) this movie??

Could a normal male be negative (or even neutral) toward alcohol or pornography?

What does postmodern masculine sanctity (or even sanity) look like?

How do I find/make my own “fight club”? If I have already done that, am I ready to move into “Project Mayhem”?

Is Nietzsche right about Christianity being an emasculating influence?

One cannot be a purely spiritual/abstract warrior without any physical/concrete component!

Who is Chuck Palahniuk?

Getting tired of my questions?? Well, I can only offer what I have……!

Trailer

Review

Analysis

​TV series – “The people Vs. O. J. Simpson: American Crime Story” review (4/5 – very good, but not great) 

Fifth Amendment

The tension between protecting individual rights and the requirements for justice/conviction. The pitfalls of acquitting the guilty and indicting the innocent.

Americanism ~ Capitalism?

Distinguish:

Democracy

&

Populism

Trial by media

Distinguish:

Justice (cultural ideal & social process)

&

Law (abstract principles & fixed procedure)

Celebrity ~ narcissist

Truth/evidence/reason & narrative/context/emotion

Can morality/ethics survive in this world, without the support of spirituality/religion?

The personal/private/chadacter/essence & the professional/public/image/performance

If, historically, the Whites were the oppressed group, would they have given the same verdict as the Black jurors in this case?

What improvements could be made in the criminal justice system to increase the conviction rate for the guilty?

Where was the American church in all of this?? Why is the Church such a miserable failure when it comes to dealing with such cardinal issues?!

What can individuals do, when even institutions fall victim to the wider cultural forces??

Review

Trailer 1

Trailer 2

The Invisibles

Compare with “Watchmen”, “Matrix”, “Fight Club”, “V for Vendetta”, etc.

Hmmm…… does such reading/watching really produce real change in attitude/behavior, or is this all just intellectual titillation/spiritual masturbation? All idealism necessarily involves a degree of self-deception, that’s okay!

One needs to believe in the power of spirit to incarnate the word, in order to sustain the viability of the will in a nihilistic world…..

Real hope sinks all counterfeit goals, and then uses the remains of the old order as jetsam/flotsam to survive in the open ocean, until a new shore can be found!

You either parasitize the system to survive, as you plot creative destruction, or you allow the system to parasitize you and become one of the “walking dead”.

“What kills you makes you stronger”

Minority rights a good idea

http://www.thehindu.com/opinion/columns/are-minority-rights-a-good-idea/article19141464.ece

– I agree. 

– Distinguish:

Democracy 

&

Meritocracy

Fairness

&

Equality

Equality

&

Equity

Justice

&

Mercy

– What would a Nietzschean say to all this talk about inequality & justice? 

Can one be a Christian & still agree (or at least sympathize) with the maverick, firebrand philosopher? 

– All those who are “weak” must fight for (& win) their (deserved/special) rights! They cannot expect the strong to just give it to them out of mercy/compassion… But isn’t that cruel?