SCRIBBLES

29.6.19
– Celebrity & privacy
– When you don’t feel like doing anything, what can you do to get out of the rut?
– Security – mobile (data backup & anti-theft) + personal (emergency SOS & location tracking for immediate family)
Property insurance
Blacklisting & whitelisting
Spare mobile
1.7.19
– Tastebreakers
– Movies:
Starfish
Personal loss & the post-apocalyptic genre
One of the worst movies I’ve ever seen?! It should’ve just been a short film.
Why couldn’t you just make a (melo)drama instead of a contrived, messed up Sci-fi??
The monsters of despair & rage that lurk around periods of grief, regret & anxiety…
Hanging on to sanity via slivers of memory – nostalgia & hope
The signal & the portal – “Do this in remembrance of me”!
“White’s wild formal experimentation and narrative cul-de-sacs result in a strange identity crisis for the film — a sense that he wasn’t entirely sure which movie he wanted to make” – NY Times
The compulsive (& futile) search for a “pattern”……
Virginia Gardner is amazing, but A. T. White sucks.
– Augsburg Confession
confessor
Synaxis of the Twelve Apostles
kontakion
2.7.19
– Facebook Events, pages
Meetup groups
MEP – Members in the European Parliament
– canoeists
ethology
Legitimacy of the state
Equality & liberty
Instincts, rationality & spirit
The well-ordered soul
Nobel lecture
Content & method
Punishment & taboo
Rotated image – up-&-down and side-by-side
knickers
lam
ghoulish
Untamed & wicked
wail (n.)
sufferance
– Nutrition:
EFA = PUFA?
4.7.19
– Resignation – well done, Rahul Gandhi! This might just be your best move yet……
– Who do you work for?
And what exactly are you doing?
Do you really know why??
– Off-the-books assignment
Phoebe Waller-Bridge
diaphanous
tutu
MI5 & MI6
Precariously curated lifestyle
Alone, bleeding out & hunted
– Psychopath = criminal (& vice versa)?
– Hold the space, Joe! (For self & others)
– Spiritual Formation Groups – flirting allowed! 😜
– Weed – grow it yourself! 🌿
– Fluorescent bikini
GCHQ
Spies, investigators & whistle-blowers
– No Copa America 2019 on Indian TV!
– Today is Wednesday (Work day) on my calendar (compensating)
– Which are the best places to live & work in India?
– Distinguish:
Inconvenience (Develop tolerance)
&
Hardship (Create solutions)
5.7.19
– Desert splendor
Black light trance
Sudden plans
– Imaginary facts
My wife’s girlfriend(s)
– From in-between to beyond…!
From neologisms to drawings
– Figure-ground image
Absolute privatives
Loading the dice
ostensible ~ ostensive
Finite ~ indefinite ~ fallible ~ material ~ immanent metaphysic
From representation to participation
Concept, non-concept & pseudo-concept
The experience of impossibility and the impossibility of experience
Realized contradiction
Vertiginous picture
RSVPed
sibilant
affricate, fricative
Anglophile Indians
wispy
cheroot
Washed-up
invidious
scree
– ICC CWC:
Bangladesh – truly lion-hearted!
India Vs. England – in the middle order, only Hardik Pandya really chased after the target!
– Wimbledon – did Kyrgios throw his tantrums as a strategy to put Nadal off balance?
– Navigate the tension:
Accepting things as they are
&
Continuous improvement
How does Christian theology deal with the relation between justification & sanctification?
Is the former just a stepping stone to the latter??
What would Robert Farrar Capon say to the question, “Why sanctification?”?
Justification – GOD’s Yes to man
Sanctification – GOD’s No to evil
Glorification – the essential unity & ultimate union of GOD & man!
– Love is the most elaborate lie of all.
True or false or……?
– Is suicide a brave or cowardly act?
– Contact & gather known people and others (Meetup, etc.)
Start with a nucleus of relevant & interested persons. Spread out from this.
Once in 4 weeks SFG meetings (local & online separately) + annual retreat/seminar
Members & invitees
1 month annual vacation
Hold the space… even if no one else does, NEVER give up, Joe!
Be hyper-flexible, future-oriented & stubbornly positive.
But also discern the signs of the times and adapt, without compromising.
You learn how to do this, only by committing to a determined engagement with the process, in spite of all the temptations of withdrawal……

WORDS

– Living up to one’s own name
Moral authority
Royal standard
Naïve falsification
Conceptual perceptions & autonomous dynamics
– Logic > method
Logic >> method
– Is my GOD-image (just/only) an amalgam of the impression I have of my parents?
18.6.19
– North American French
Sioux
Manga
Social grieving
Individuation in learning groups
Edible snails
Psychic dilemma
Group leader & focal member
Archetypal paradox
Expansion of consciousness
Episodic themes
Symbolic patterns
Group transitions
Laboratory of group dynamics/analysis/process
Positive & negative modalities
Matrix model
Elementary characters
Procedure for categorization
Adult education
Teachers College
“The herd of independent minds”
The party line
Critical cartoonist
Humanitarian bombing
Charlemagne tha God
Woman’s University
Extravagantly callow
Aggressively maladroit
Radically inspired pedantry
– Studying development and facilitating transformation
19.6.19
– banshee
– Fuck mediocrity…
Fuck excellence,
Fuck greatness!
Then what??
20.6.19
– The Iron Bank (GoT) ~ The High Table (John Wick)
21.6.19
– Derrida-Laruelle – interview or debate?
– Brat Perversions
– What are the pros & cons of the pros-&-cons approach?
– Active consumption & passive creation
– Avishka Fernando Vs. Joffra Archer
WOW! 💥
– Daryl Davis & Klan-destine relationships!
(Sophie & Co. on Russia Today)
22.6.19
– I love BOTH Christopher Hitchens AND David Bentley Hart!
I enjoy them as persons and their positions and their style and their conflict……
– Staretz Siluan
Insisting on questioning
Perfect, but not complete. Eg. The acorn
peeps (n.)
Remote access
– Faith seeking understanding
+
Understanding seeking faith
+
Faith Vs. Understanding!
What am I missing?
Where am I going wrong?
How do I move forward from here?
I don’t know myself completely,
I don’t know you completely,
I don’t understand life completely……
But if I must grow in knowledge, then I must first love/trust!
Wonderful ~ puzzling
– Distinguish:
Atheism
&
Scepticism
&
Deus absconditus
23.6.19
– Rex Carroll
Glamtan
Jaqen (GoT)
marquee
lade
– Trauma/conflict/lack in one’s core
– Is our present/real world any less cruel & arbitrary than the world of GoT?
– Movies:
Ghostbox Cowboy
Is this a parable on Trump and the US-China trade war?
A journey through the nightmare of capitalist expansion?
A psychoanalytic plunge into the heart of human greed & hubris?
Relate with the pilgrimage of starry-eyed Indian immigrants in North America, UK, Australia, etc. – my brother’s family et al
An oriental Western!
Where would I be without the economic support of my family??
The slave ~ the beggar – are even the so-called masters free?
An inversion of the traditional East-West trope
For every success story/celebrity/over-achiever, how many failed wannabes are there?!
Blank regions & Ghost cities
Bighorn Global is one of the producers of this film……! 😜🤷🏾
“Running Stumbled”
Formal elasticity
Playing oneself
Gonzo; Pynchonian
Is this (life/movie) meant to make me laugh or cry??
24.6.19
– Do you know how the Ku Klux Klan got its name and what it means?
– FATF
politicising
– Real life is more like an arthouse film than a mainstream blockbuster…… 🤷🏾♂️
Are you okay with that, yet?
– Shakib Al Hasan – what is it like to be one of the best all-rounders in international cricket, and play for Bangladesh?
Mujeeb Ur Rahman
26.6.19
– Tease Selector
butterybubblebut
Andreina Deluxe
Kings of Fetish
Eva Elfie
– Movies:
பேரன்பு (Peranbu – Great Love) – Tamil
Nature is neither cruel nor merciful – it’s unhuman!
Nature ~ God ~ Life ~ Fate
How would the film have been without the chapter headings and reflective narration?
Compare with “Amour” (French film, 2012) – was the ending too sweet?
The visuals were gorgeous!
Who is the actress (foreigner character) in the initial scenes?
Anjali was hot too!
Man cannot face & survive Nature without woman……! And vice versa?
There is a trans-gender, spastic and struggling parent, in each of us!
– escrow
28.6.19
– Volume, section, chapter, part
Creation/nature & Covenant/human history-responsibility, integrated in divine providence
Strikingly original
Command & freedom
Creaturely action
Church Dogmatics
Kenotic divinity & ascended humanity
Prayer as sacramental discipline
Dialectical self-distancing
Miserable self-enclosure
Critical reconstruction
Refusing to settle for milder alternatives
Christ as both electing GOD & elected human
Immanent complexity and transcendent clarification
Disseminated influence
Refound & consolidate
Revealer, revelation & revealedness
Sovereign decision, eternal act & apocalyptic event
Scripture & dogma ~ Christ & church ~ GOD & Israel
– No judgment, no justification
Distinguish psychopath & sociopath
Personality & morality
– Salvation in Christ:
The culpability of GOD & justification of man
+
The innocence of GOD & sinfulness of man
– Distinguish:
The cheap thrill of plot twists (action, suspence & surprise)
&
Grand thematic metanarrative (cosmic, political, moral & personal-relational)
GoT has both!
– Sexual awakening & maturation:
  1. Early adolescence – open experimentation, education and self-discipline with supportive guidance
  2. Middle adolescence – dating – trial with  (serial) romantic-sexual relationships and understanding opposite sex via multiple friendships
  3. Late adolescence – going steady – committed relationship leading into (or preparation for) marriage
– Astral travel & inter-stellar space

LINES

10.6.19
– wog
warg
Lord of the Rings ~ Harry Potter ~ Game of Thrones
– Pornosophy – what does Alan Watts, Pornhub, Super Deluxe (Tamil film) & Gabriel Mangalraj (my friend) have to do with each other??
– streaking
Internet banking commission
Boniface
Shavuot ~ Pentecost ~ Sunday of the Fathers of the First Council
– There’s more to being human than just human being!
– What’s said in anger as the most open expression of one’s true beliefs (take it very seriously, even more so than what is said when he/she is calm)
Vs.
What’s said in anger as the impulsive blabbering of a person in the grip of wild emotion (ignore it as mindless nonsense)
Proportion is everything……!
11.6.19
– Thankless job
Morals/commandments as laws/principles of life
Stackexchange, Rediff, Quora
Porn baron
Ressourcement & aggiornamento
– What would it be like to be that toddler who fell into the borewell and died?!
– What aspects of culture are “natural” and which elements are “artificial”?
Is more natural better?
Grace is what underlies and sustains both nature and culture!
The Trinity is an anthropomorphic divinity, not the deity “in itself”……
– “The way to defeat the cliché is through detail.” – Hauerwas
– Where is the intellect/theology in Richard Foster’s Renovaré components (of Christian spirituality)?!
12.6.19
– I feel more disturbed when she moves closely with her own family and male friends.
But I don’t feel that way about her being close to XYZ, because he is close to me as well (“like a brother”)!
(I think I might not even be that upset if she has a sexual affair…!? 🙃)
– I see how ABC does not get into any serious intellectual/spiritual/ethical discussions when with friends in a casual setting.
He only engages in weightless humor and harmless fun, although in a professional setting he is quite the perfectionist!
How do we understand this kind of behavior?
He has given up on true passion and has substituted that vacuum with diligent performance!
So pathetic and tragic……!
I wish and hope he will get out of this (deadly and convenient) rut, and I want to help if I could.
– I’m much more sentimental than I would like to believe! 😐
– I don’t mind if women are frivolous, but I despise silly men!
(Does “men” include me??)
– “Road Trip Time Lapse Across The Loneliest Road in America” on YouTube
– “Find that long spine”
RSPB Dearne Valley Old Moor – wetland reserve
Kivu Ebola
Glacial lake
Common roach
prestidigitator
Pole of inaccessibility
E. M. Forster
“Failed bid to retain power”
preponderant
Whirlybird ~ eggbeater
caducous
Cyclone Vayu
Heat index
Due point
Medical thriller
UV index
Headway
– Movies:
“Colette”
Compare with “A Quiet Passion” & “Professor Marston and his Wonder Women”
Distinguish Claudine & Colette?
Self-publishing and writing as collaboration
Love as support without exploitation
Woman as child and man as father
Missy – the cross-dresser as liberator (instead of victim)!
– Levels of election:
Panchayat, Assembly & Lok Sabha
– Peak temperature ~ 2 pm
Trough temperature ~ 5 am
– Commonsense wisdom
Vs.
The weird truth!
13.6.19
– Movies:
“In Praise of Nothing”
I enjoyed it thoroughly! Why?? 😎😶
Philography/Photosophy!
Nihilism ISN’T, evil. Even evil isn’t……!?
Lalalala-lulululu-jah!
Metapsychicality
– TV series:
“The Sopranos”
Drama ~ drag
This is a character-focused (1), as opposed to plot-focused (2) or stream-of-consciousness (3), genre
Dr. Melfi seems to be the ONLY person engaged in any meaningful and intentional self-work with social contribution
What are the qualities in Tony that I find most unlike me?
What keeps me from criminal/violent behavior?
Could I kill, if deemed necessary, by my own conscience?
What an abrupt and puzzling finish! Why?? It’s a masterstroke indeed!
14.6.19
– forgo
– My blog:
Distinguish explicit and pornographic
Distinguish titillating & trivial
Distinguish offensive & evil
Vulgar, obscene, provocative, etc. are NOT bad words in my dictionary!
– .asx (radio stream)
Dead to Self
Fuel
– “Climate weirding”
Chennai – never again! 👎🏽
Goodbye forever. 👋🏽
Deep aquifers
– Less(er) evil:
Redemptive suffering, necessary busyness, tolerable nuisance
– Sky-gazing, tree-hugging, full body stretch
15.6.19
– Can social roles be used to aid self-realization instead of being seen as only detrimental to true growth?
Yes!
Self > social roles + personal definitions + feelings/intuitions
“>” could mean both “more” and “other”!
– What do you do when you don’t feel like doing what you love?
You feel like shit, but you also are not able/willing/ready to do what it takes to get out of the rut…… It seems like the medicine is worse than the disease.
Learn how to “fight for joy”!
E.g. Overcoming my resistance to conducting the next retreat
– gyre
Gaytheism
Purity ball
corral, pen
risible, zany
Hegemonic regimes of identity
Non-normative desires
Queer eroticism
Ideological fetishizing
Christian abstinence culture
Barely veiled subtext
prom
Abstinence education funding
subtend
“(Sexual) purity is the enemy of (all) adventure.”
“Daddy-daughter” coupling
propinquity
retrenchment
Insulting by excluding
Protogay youth
carceral
defilade
– Unrequited lust 🤣
The only reality is the negation of the unreal
17.6.19
– Common sundew

ANNUAL RETREAT 2019 INVITATION

Dear folks…
It’s time for our annual spiritual retreat, again!

*Date*: September 7th morning – 9th evening (3 days & 2 nights)
*Place*: In/around Bengaluru.

*Theme* – DEEP CONNECTIONS

*Format* – Mini-presentation (by all participants), reflection, discussion & conversation… surrounded by silence & solitude.
We will be learning from each other, and even become friends, as a result…!?
I will facilitate this process of collective intelligence & mutual education (unlearning & relearning) through dynamic interaction.
The participants will be required to compose their talk, before the retreat.
Instructions to aid preparation will be given.

*Medium* – English

*Cost* ~ Rs. 4,000 per head (all-inclusive, at actuals).
*Registration* – Rs. 500 (non-refundable)
The details (location, cost, etc.) will be finalized and announced in the next 1 month.

Participants (including me):
Minimum – 4
Maximum – 12
(Adults only)

Whoever will be attending, please reply ASAP so that the necessary arrangements can be made.

*PEACE* ✌🏽
(Please add my contact info, and share the invite with your friends.
Thank you! ✋🏽
Immanuel Joseph +919840227977)