RANDOM

12.1.19
– Why should I apologize for not being hospitable when no one is apologizing for not being contemplative??
– amicus
eponymous
Kosher; Halal
– Is “Gully Boy” just a rip-off from “8 Mile”?
13.1.19
– Movies:
“Ugly” (Hindi)
Adult preoccupation & negligence –> death of the child (“We could’ve saved her……!”)
Worldly concerns/desires –> loss of spiritual potential/vitality
Can we be both lustful and loving??
Awareness film – the pandemic of missing/abducted/trafficked children in India!
Why??
14.1.19
– Get sermon/liturgy/mass (video/audio) for every special day in the Christian calendar (for Year A, B & C)
– Ancient Christians as eye-witnesses of the Word, servants of the Kingdom and friends/lovers of GOD
Disruptions, detours and delays in the process of discernment
– marquee
– The Transfiguration account in Mark’s Gospel makes up for the absence of the virgin birth account as an evidence of Jesus’s divinity…
15.1.19
– Makara Sankranti – Hinduism & agriculture
– Haven’t you died before?
– Distinguish:
Having a child
&
Becoming a father
– The Sunday in between Christmas & New Year/Epiphany
17.1.19
– Income tax – financial year (FY) and assessment year (AY)
– TV series:
“Sharp Objects”
Very slow burn
Somewhere in between “Patrick Melrose” & “True Detective”, but not as good as either, because it tries to be a little of both.
The gorgeous women (& girls) make it watchable
Is it possible to non-judgmentally portray something pathological, and yet avoid condoning or glorifying it??
Feminine seriosity
Prestige programs
– What is that one thing you love to do, which motivates you to get out of bed every morning?
– superannuation
sadhvi
Amicus curiae
Angel tax exemption
Vinesh Phogat
19.1.19
– State of nature >> social contract >> artistic freedom!
Science as pseudo-religion and philosophy as pseudo-art
Liberation through torture
The transgressive imagination and criminal scheming
mastiff
atavism
Moral crimes and natural evils
The reader as victim
Perverse reason; anti-logic
Normalization ~ disambiguation
Official violence < personal cruelty
Subversive ~ ungrammatical
buggery
bestiality
– Books:
“Persepolis” – Marjane Satrapi
Classic graphic novel
1: The Story of a Childhood
2: The Story of a Return
WOW! Got into the mind-heart of a girl
East meets West coming-of-age
Europe is not paradise, neither is Iran hell
A depressed, stoned, mediocre nihilist……….
Suggested it to Chellam as reading assignment for her Developmental Psychology course
Unless you intentionally & deeply link your personal life to the larger context, you will be stunted!
– Horse-trading in the legislature – fucking buffoons!
– Seasonal festivals & national holidays
20.1.19
– Books:
“Open Marriage”
Read with Chellam
The infinitely expanding circle
Vs.
The fixed fence
I would recommend it to all couples (married/dating)
Still remains relevant, irrespective of your cultural background
Not a Bible/manual, but an essential stimulation/perspective
Movies:
“Room With a View”
Compare with “Room in Rome” 😉
Who is E. M. Forster?
Seeing love through the lens of sex, and vice versa
Ego – heroine; Superego – mother/aunt; Id – hero
Did Chellam’s parents ask, “What is this new voice/force we are seeing in you?!”?
“Martyrs”
OMG!!!
Compare with early Christian witnesses
Compare with the film “Jean d’Arc”
There are 2 kinds of horror films – the cheap jump scares and the deeply disturbing – this belongs to the latter!
Child abuse, homosexuality in friendship, and organized/religious/dogmatic groups
The philosophy of the Marquis de Sade – would the cult qualify as Sadean heroes? Why not?
Distinguish:
Victims
&
Martytrs
Can extreme pleasure also be revelatory??
Now I know why this is knows by some as one of the greatest horror films of the 21st century……
revanchism
“Glass”
Great idea and message, but the execution could have been much better
Not one of Night Shyamalan’s best
He’s better with thriller-drama than action
Supernatural is just a euphemism for very abnormal!
3 different classifications of humans:
Good & evil (Dunn); Broken & spoilt (Crumb); Gifted & ordinary (Glass)
The little people, who need to be at the top of a corporate ladder in order to feel big, hate the true giants among us.
I guess I am more like Glass – watched it with an injured foot 😉
I must become more & more discerning, assertive and expressive of who I uniquely am! More extreme, more unique, more powerful!
The disclaimer at the beginning/end of movies, about it being fictional, and any resemblance to real life persons/events being unintentional/coincidental, may not be appropriate for such works, which take comics this seriously (a la Jordan Peterson)……
– mantelpiece
asinine
zoetrope
amenity
“The Paris Review” interviews
21.1.19
– Introit, antiphon & gradual
Virgin ~ martyr
Suggested/recommended content
Emotional bullying
Attention bias
Social threat cues
Intrusive thoughts
Loneliness & addiction
Naturopathy
Oishii – Delicious Moment
Cultural competence
Diversity initiatives
Alternative & complementary approaches
Medicine, psychology & spirituality
Hermetic tradition
Modern magic
Imaginal techniques
Phenomenology of the sacred
Self-regulation
Promotive & preventive measures

BROWSING

5.1.19
– Comics:
300
– I got blissed-out – no weed – lucid dreaming? – yesterday……!
6.1.19
– Poke (Fb)
😉
– Movies:
“Disobedience”
I disagree with the critics who found the ending lame.
Death of God theology – entire film bookended by the demise of the father-figure
Deontological to existential ethics
Does the lover know the beloved better than she knows herself?!
Awesome threesome hug!
Esti had to become a fully independent & responsible adult (by becoming a single parent), before she could join Ronit as an equal partner……
The evolution of the (male) Rabbi because of his confrontation of the feminine (women) in his life
Esti ~ Salome; Ronit ~ I
7.1.19
– What a pleasure & delight to watch the analysis & commentary, during an Indian victory in a cricket Test series down under!
😇
How can I celebrate this historic moment??
Kohli & Shastri press conference 😋🤤
Pant & Jadeja decimating the Australian attack was delicious……
– Batting time
See it or fold
– Pornhub Exclusive
From hosting great content to creating unique content
8.1.19
– Citizenship Amendment Bill
– Mutual mentoring
– Balm of Gilead
&
Balm in Gilead
Mahalia Jackson
Negro spirituals
9.1.19
– asymptotic
Web app
Post-exilic restoration
– Verses of the day:
1 Jn. 5:14 + Isa. 55:6-7 + Mat. 5:6
Whenever you desire justice, or need to be forgiven, just seek, call & ask the LORD, and you will never be disappointed!
11.1.19
– Ice-fishing village

WASSUP

15.12.18
– Magnificat @ Christ University:
Enjoyed! Few outstanding performances – Prologue to Gospel of John, etc.
Ushering in the festive season in the right spirit…? (I usually make it a point to attend a choral service during Advent)
The first Christmas was a stark contrast to such gaudy spectacles!
“Shall I play for you, on my drum?” – ONLY (for/before/to) you!
The real epiphanies occur in secret/silence and they are spontaneous/mysterious
– Baudelaire – if you wanna touch the sky, then keep digging the earth, until you hit rock bottom. Then, when the bottom gives way, you will reach the point where the sky and earth meet!
Sade – aesthetics as ethics! Compare with the friendship/fellowship/brotherhood of the sadists in “I Saw the Devil”. The unnaturalness, and therefore, the unimportance, of coherence/rationality/integrity in the Sadean ethic. Power/control – the ultimate pleasure?? Distinguish victim and novice. Distinguish pleasure and happiness.
– rakes
Jawan turned terrorist
– Great works of architecture always bedazzle me, because of the sheer human effort, expertise, coordination, ambition and ingenuity involved.
These monuments are the exact opposite of the self-creating individual……!
– Is self-esteem essential or antithetical to the truly abundant life?
I was a somebody who has now intentionally become a nobody.
But why??
To see if there is anything other/more to one’s life than what I see around me……
False truths
Vs.
True lies
– You are in the system, because you believe that you gain more than you lose by that choice.
I am outside the system, because I believe that I gain more than I lose by this choice.
But the majority will agree with you, not me.
So what? That doesn’t say anything about who is really better off……!
– For me, not to suffer is happiness
How can I break the false dichotomy of pleasure and pain??
17.12.18
– Movies:
“Daughters of the Dust”
Black, female, poor filmmaker……
Past ~ roots; future ~ wings
Past Vs. Future
Vs.
Past as present
What is (my) identity??
Who you are, who you wanna be and who you ought to be
Who are your people? What is your place? Where and when do you come from?
“Spiderman: Into the Spider-verse”
IMAX 3D!!! 🙂
It’s a kids movie, but can be enjoyed by adults too
Compare with Jordan Peterson on the Christ
You don’t have a choice ~ leap of faith ~ save the world
Tie your shoe-laces!
Superpowers – blessing or curse??
The terror(s) of growing up/old – perpetual adolescence
Multiverse ~ after/before-life ~ eternity
Salvation via difference/repetition/death
You’re not alone in being alone……!
18.12.18
– Movies:
“Zorros Bar Mizwa”
Schooling/education/parenting/socialization as indoctrination
Bat mitzva
Just give (your) children the tools to their own independence, along with all the other cultural shapings
Am I ready to be a parent? Do I want to be a parent? There are those who are ready but do not want it, and those that are not ready but want it. Which of these would be better at it?
Contemporary faith = ancient revelation/scripture + historical tradition/ancestral events + current contextual forces/personal factors
Film as document and document as film
Docu-fiction
Jews with Spanish roots living in Germany
The pseudo-spirituality of social religion and the pseudo-religion of isolated spirituality
What we need is deliberate innovation for the future as opposed to a simplistic accommodation of the past to the present
– Jordan Peterson’s idea of law/reality/God may be too static/rigid…?
What if the relation between individual desire and the nature of life/world is more dialogical than hierarchical?
19.12.18
– The more integrated I am with my own shadow self, the better I will be able to relate to others…?
– Christian theology as ideology
Vs.
Christian theology as critical theory
– On the lam
The relation of form, & spirit, to truth
Culminating work
Subtle interanimation
Reclaim & revive
Critical history
non-interventionist
Encounter & decision
Modernizing the Reformation and reforming modernity
The dialectic of differentiation and unification
Mutual scrutiny
Complex critical and constructive position
Crisis and creativity
Academic habits
Inter-religious ecumenism
Pure promise
DjVu
– Distinguish:
Renewal
&
Innovation
Ressourcement
Aggiornamento
– Theoretical knowledge
Vs.
Practical morality
– “Behold your GOD!”
WOW
The tabernacle, Adam & Eve, the Law, Nature, Christ, Church, you & me……….
20.12.18
– CFNM
nettle
Secret society ~ theater stage
Distinguish cruelty & injustice
Justine Vs. Juliette
Worthless intuitions
The deceptive heart
Moral convictions ~ social manners
Justice as artifact
From pseudo-civilization to super-civilization
Tacit consent to the pre-(or post-)contract position
Institution & acquisition
Blinded by the iron logic of civility
The commonwealth as the artificial state of nature
The Sodality & Silling
Virtuous fool
Public control & private enjoyment
– Is reaching very high levels of pleasure a genuine achievement?
Does it have any value in this socio-economic world?
– Movies:
First Man
Karen Armstrong & JFK
Spiritual astronaut
Was he depressed?? In love with his dead daughter AND bored/disgusted with domestic life……
Outer space ~ inner abyss ~ multiverse ~ eternity
21.12.18
– Compare:
Nietzsche’s nihilism
&
Hitler’s Nazism
– I am/create/imagine/become my own context!
– Restriction & transgression ~ work & pleasure
Excrement ~ excitement
Boredom, erection & exhaustion
Crime, cruelty, debauchery and pain
Anal rape
phallocracy
Happy struggle Vs. abject surrender
turd
Scatman (“I’m the…..!”)
Self-negating arrangement
Totally unexpected moves
Ecstatic style
Education ~ liberation ~ subversion
The professional whore as untouchable mother goddess
Dream, interpretation, performance & discharge
– Become your own narrator!
– Let order/word and chaos/drives be equals (or mutual slaves/masters, alternately), in the duel/dialogue/dance/play of life!
– Jesus, Santa & Grinch
– Can one be(come) a full adult without sex &/or reproduction?
– Distinguish:
Inter-subjectivity (pluralism)
&
Objectivity (dogmatism)
I’m a qualified/weak relativist
– Rank according to your centre(s) of gravity:
Emotion/feeling; Intellect/analyzing; Will/doing
2-1-3 – contemplative thinker
Or maybe I’m 3-1-2 – (emotionally) repressed (sexual) fucker; relationally retarded headman
– Levels:
Quantum/universe – chaos (over order)
Our galaxy/earth – order (over chaos)
Society/culture – order (over chaos)
Person/subconscious – chaos (over order)
Chiasma/sandwich pattern!
– Christmas – what is the meaning/significance/myth/moral of the virgin birth?
– Reality/Nature/Life:
Chaotic & destructive
Vs.
Survival of the fittest
Vs.
Blessed are the poor in spirit
Sade, Darwin & Jesus……
– The logic of capitalism – spend more, earn more!
– Opposition grand alliance
Boxing Day
Yule
noel
Society – spectacle & surveillance
– The Nativity – maybe I should repent of my view of the/my baby as a rampant parasite/unnecessary burden…?
The child as the promise of new life – absolute vulnerability & awesome potential compactly bundled together!
But I still DON’T want to be a father……
– WHY do I feel angry/upset when /he/she/they……?? 😡😳😞
How do I deal with these difficult emotions?! 🤪
Mostly, whenever I have opened my wounds to others, they have only made it even worse.
So I should learn to help myself and deal with my own issues.
Can I never love and be loved??
Try not to get upset about being/becoming upset! Relax & empathize. Reflect, understand & respond.
I am not an economically productive adult male, and I am also not a proper home-maker.
And I don’t want to reproduce.
I also despise (almost all) the glories and norms of this world.
The hatred is mutual ⚔️
Perfect recipe for misery and tragedy……
Buck up, Joe! 😶😐
– Do you like the person(s) you’re living with?
Do you even like yourself?
Do you like this world?
No love without like.
Or is it the other way around (Christian)?
– The easy/simple/nice folks
The greatest wickedness is not passionate murder, it is mindless conformity/abject resignation – the “banality of evil”!
22.12.18
– “Christian Christmas”
Carnatic Christmas
“Sarige” (Kannada)
D-girl
Made guy
Neapolitan
Omerta
– Clarifications:
– Distinguish “I am upset with you” & “You have wronged me/You are offensive”
It’s more about me than you.
– I don’t blame or accuse you… But that doesn’t change how I feel about certain things. So I need to learn to deal with it.
– The reasons for my anger/hurt may be that I am jealous/possessive/insecure/lonely/needy; I don’t like people who overwork, or who I see as not having a rich/deep personal/inner life; I generally do not respect/value the workplace (especially large organizations); I am severely critical of the education system; I am bitter/resentful against this society, etc.
I don’t really know…
– There are certain unique problems when the woman goes out to work/earn and the guy stays at home.
This is because this arrangement is going against the grain of usual nature & culture.
– It’s very easy to scold the other person whenever one is upset with him/her. I hate that!
I don’t want to be what I despise.
– I don’t think I’ve had a high quality intimate relationship with a woman (mother, sister, friend, etc.) before……
And generally, I NEVER share my pain with others (male or female) to get comfort and support.
PEACE ✌🏽
– I’d rather be sad than shallow
– Integration:
Experience ~ past
Practice ~ present
Theory ~ future
Experience informing practice
+
Practice informing experience
+
Experience informing theory
+
Practice informing theory
+
Theory informing practice
+
Theory informing experience
– “Free speech carries with it some freedom to listen.” – Bob Marley
Having equal respect & care for oneself & the other is ideal.
Is one who is incapable of any sacrifice & adjustment truly free?
– “Many much-learned men have no intelligence.” – Democritus
Distinguish education & maturity
Distinguish training & experience
Distinguish knowledge & wisdom
From many/much to rare/precious!
– sortie
pageant
tabluex
Worker’s Music Association
Balangiga Bells; war trophies
repatriate; extradite
Yellow Vests Movement
minibar, sideboard, cellaret
“Be the business”
Aureus, denarius, solidus
Chico Mendes Vs. Darly Alves da Silva
Council >> canon
southpaw
lashings, oodles
conscript, inductee
coinage, neologism
abaxial
compendious
Theory of value
Biohacking
– “One’s past is what one is. It is the only way by which people should be judged.” – Oscar Wilde
Sounds like psychoanalytic theory…?
But what about individual freedom & responsibility?
I’m more interested in your future trajectory!
25.12.18
– What could be more barren than a virgin’s womb?!
– My greatest enemy is ennui/depression/despair/frustration/resentment/resignation/callousness/indifference/apathy
– The link between faith-hope-love (root) and love-joy-peace (fruit) is LOVE!
– MERRY CHRISTMAS!
Merry, merry, merry, merry Christmas!
VERY merry Christmas! 😎🎁✨
What is Xmas?
– Movies:
KGF (Chapter 1)
WOW!!! What dialogue and what action…
Detailed & profound Christology – truly a Christmas film!
John Dominic Crossan – “The Power of Parable: How Fiction by Jesus Became Fiction about Jesus” – so the whole film is actually a fable/legend/myth narrated by the story-teller, one among the slaves in KGF!
Conversion ~ slave >> rebel
RC theology – Mary, mother of GOD
Real salvation/messianic without an actual savior/Messiah (Derrida) – the power of inspiration/faith/hope!
Divine ~ fictional/imaginative/aspirational
The Cross – the lamb led to the slaughter becomes the surprise victor……
26.12.18
– The cigarette as incense stick! 🤪
31.12.18
– Praise & Worship music – for the New Year!
– Believe in beginnings,
And be a beginning!
– Virgin mother ~ the pregnant void
Chastity ~ barrenness
Our emptiness + Grace = fecundity!
Mary, the perfect disciple and therefore our mother/mentor too
Hail Mary >> Magnificat
– “See the face of GOD watching you.” – Anthony de Mello
– Pub theology
1.1.19
– Critical heritage
2.1.18
– BTS
THC Vs. CBD
– New Year 2019 dinner – Chianti @ Vega City mall – fettuccine Lamb bolognese + virgin piña colada! 😇
– Azar, LivU
3.1.19
– mistletoe
rapporteur
– 27-30.12.18 – Valparai trip with Chellam, Chris, Solan, Francis-Jenitha & Abel-Lydia
– Movies:
“Mandy”
Masculinity & negative emotions – converting weak (sadness & fear) into strong (anger-violence & lust-greed)
Trippy!
Some things are meant to be just experienced, not understood……
Midnight movie
B-movie
“Pulp Tarkovsky”
Declaring war on GOD & fate, in the name of love!
“Venom”
Guilty pleasures
Compare with the comics I read
The underdog always wins!?
Who/what is your best friend??

JOTTINGS

4.12.18
– Lo-fi
– Crucifix – (the voluntarily/actively) suffering man, as the Christ – the divine savior of the world!
5.12.18
– bangers
– anyhow
trestle
bier
doorkeeper
pinstripes
padre
hearse
concertina’d
factotum
Heat haze
Old boy
Patent leather
dapper
braided
tobacconist
lading
hors d’oeuvre
draggled
6.12.18
– Compare & contrast:
Boys Vs. Men
&
Girls vs. Women
– Moor
Berber
Black Pete
embargo
Jolt of delight
Pride of reverse order
– What if the traditional idea of GOD is the greatest “graven image” in history?!
And how is humanism too a form of idolatry?
– Distinguish:
Man
&
Male
– Authentic ~ creative ~ original ~ unique ~ unusual ~ peculiar ~ abnormal ~ evil
So be it!
– Imagine – different AND equal!
– Theomorphism (man created in the divine image) ~ anthropomorphism (GOD as human creation)
– Modifying the non-negotiable obligations of (my) religious belief…!
7.12.18
– wharf
jiffy
sandbag
Cricket – jaffa/corker
oilcloth
palings
dungaree
– Movies:
“अन्धाधुन”
My parking – P1 (floor) F8 (pillar)
Theater of the absurd!
The final wisdom – Ha ha ha ha! 😂 👏🏽
Blind chance/fate/God rules!
Sadean style ~ ride the waves of Nature
The cockroach outlives the dinosaur……
Compare the last scene with the blind song in Mysskin
Also contrast with the blindfolded Lady Justice
8.12.18
– malobserved
pannikin
de trop
titter
9.12.18
– lectern
soapbox
Natural languages
Generative rules
Universal grammar – UG
I-language
E-language
Species property
Subsystem
Innatism
Idiosyncratic dialect
Interlanguage
Distinguish language & knowledge
Distinguish cause & evoke
Unteachable abilities
Principles & parameters
Approximate systems
Deep structure(s)
Communicative competence
technocrats
10.12.18
– Lyric video
Ray Donovan (Season 1)
12.12.18
– Distinguish:
Enquiry/request,
Complaint/grievance
&
Suggestion/feedback
13.12.18
– Baudelairian system of contradictions
alexandrine
rapacity, voracity
casuistical
The sacred, even divine, right, to contradict oneself!
Insuperable laziness
Vile wastefulness
Outrageously unpredictable
Tense division and controlled complexity
Subterranean laws & dark forces
The spleen and the ideal
Paradox and dialectic
– Reverse voyeurism
– palter
Famous criminal
execrate
– Readings:
“The Stranger” – novel by Albert Camus
Distinguish:
Absurdism
&
Nihilism
The influential underground
The Outsider
Communism
Vs.
Fascism
Banality & awakening
Metaphysical indifference, individual freedom and political revolt
overpopular
Liberal Vs. Revolutionary
Camus Vs. Sartre
Capitalism Vs. Communism Vs. Libertarianism
Distinguish libertarianism & anarchism
Counter-terrorist violence
Soft-pedaling middle position
Confession as oblique attack
Publishing an unfinished work
Distinguish unity & totality
14.12.18
– vitiate
Anti-Enlightenment thinker
baroque
Authentic anti-persons

NOTES

21.11.18
– Perverse philosophy – the practice of vice as a (or the) path to truth!
Classy fucker
– Health/ease & longevity
Vs.
Pleasure/passion & death
  • The Bitcoin bubble – I buy cryptocurrency as an ethical future option, not to grow my money now. And I don’t invest in forex, because it seems unethical to gain from unjust global financial policies.
  • The Diabetes epidemic
The Pilgrim Creed and the Thanksgiving story
William Bradford & Stephen Hopkins – saints & strangers
Massasoit, Wampanoag
fixings
Spiritual ancestors & national rites
Quaint – attractively unusual
blunderbuss
muzzle
– My fantasy of (receiving) unconditional acceptance & aggressive support remains as such……! 😥😡😅
– demisexual
pj
Black vision
22.11.18
– The refutation of optimism & the meaning of perversity
Harm to moral self & imp(r)udent preference-formation
Nature & the void
Luck & transgression
Hedonism & identity in psychology
The parody of inversion & educating vice
The mature as the free
The utopian theater of pain & pleasure
The falsification of phallocracy
Deliberately repetitive style
The ambiguity and grammar of violence
Surface goodness and deep sensation
Sade through the looking glass – Dealing with filthy things
Virtue and control
Dismayed audiences
Enlightenment via engaging the worthless
Difficult subject with paradoxical themes
Analyzing with great care & skill
Liberated from shame
Neither directly visible nor readily thinkable
Forced to face the disgusting/forbidden
Black, clandestine & censored
A systematic study of evil & madness
Enigmatic privacy
Weakness of the will Vs. self-deception Vs. Wicked planning
Truth, in the jungle of nausea & terror
Science Vs. ontology Vs. the artist
Inside-out deformation
The complex procedures of debauchery
Nature as enemy
Transcendence within the shattered limits
The cruel friendship of enlightened heroes
Intellectual foreplay before spiritual intercourse
Buried under the ruins of values
Sadean fellowship
Nightmarish pleasures
Sadean anti-humanism – Mobius strip – one-sided & unique
Theory of action
Inconsistent pedant
akrasia
The celebration of embarrassment
Rhetorical methods of coping
Institutionalized coercion
Patriotic crimes
Legends of duty
Assumptions of a good cause
Dreams of camaraderie
Condemn and correct the pervert
Biography as camouflage
Barthes’s Sade
Fiction as a philosophical tool
Metaphor as argument
The fear of what we might be
Penetrating power
Potential castration
– Conceived in lust
– “L.I.M.P.
Say it
Discover” – The Who
23.11.18
– Poe-perversion
The creativity of the wicked will
Distinguish brutishness/perversion & vice/wickedness
Pathological aberrations
Proto-Kantian counter-ethics
Supererogatory action
Moral perversity
Spiritual hooliganism
Decision situation
ideograph
– “Memories of Underdevelopment”
24.11.18
– Don’t buy clothes, furniture, etc. online
– Chrome – if it’s not working properly in certain secure/signed-in websites, use incognito mode
– Stimulating > pleasurable
Distinguish negligence & akrasia
Enjoyment as the only indisputable & universal value
Reasonable idolatry
Distinguish narcissism & solipsism
Stratify – metaphysical, moral & psychological
Super-Id
Desiring destruction
Heart advice
Harmonizing desire & intention
– Can one emphasize both survival & transformation equally, without contradicting oneself?
No.
I’m anti-life, but not pro-death……!?
But what does that mean??
The exploration of the forbidden is worth the risk of injury/damage.
– The Big Questions of humans will remain unsolved mysteries forever, and that is good news!
– Hero > saint
I.e. Not all heroes are saints.
Are all saints heroes?
A truly great person is one who redefines the very notion of greatness.
– Incessant pleasure/ease is also boring.
So……?
– I feel fine now.
At peace.
I’m slowly figuring out certain things that seemed to be too complicated/opaque……! 😎
– Distinguish:
(Sado-)masochistic
&
Suicidal
25.11.18
– Christ, the eucharistic king – the one who rules, by being broken & consumed……!
You ask, “Does GOD exist?”, but are YOU present to Christ??
– Distinguish:
Sadistic
&
Sadean
– Rehabilitating (the right to) narcissism
Fantasies of self-return
Auto-affection & hetero-affection
Unconscious thought
Adventures in self-love
Medicalized discourse
Metaphysical violence
Deconstructing notions
ipseity
Originary narcissism and the structures of life
The I-pole of the social-biological self
Cartesian egology
Pragmatism Vs. Phenomenology
Natural, premoral state
Mechanical prudence
Society ~ inequality
Right to regard
Species pride
Public esteem – cooperation vs. competition – vanity-contempt/shame-envy
Cultural canary in the mine
Reconciling a right to self-love with sociality and justice
The double hatred of collective narcissism
Paranoid defensiveness
Insecurity –> persecuting hatred
The imagined common denominator
The exhausting & impossible task of sustaining the myth of purity
Self-possession as (mere) positioning
“Desire for the One,” “unitary utopia, ideal totalization”
The spherical trajectory of the specular/sovereign self
The cult of origin(s)
compeer/semblable
Fear of (the other’s) narcissism
The ego as private property
Self-suspicion & self-loathing
26.11.18
– Ostracism –> tolerance –> acceptance –> celebration
– Kannada Rajyotsava
Naraka Chaturdashi
Bali Padyami
Id Milad
Kanakadasa Jayanti
gazetted
Annual events
Urine cotinine test
– Neither bent on self-destruction nor playing it safe – enjoyment that pushes (all) boundaries……!
– misthink
BBMP & The Ugly Indians NGO
Feasibility study
Stop celebrity news updates
UEFA Nations League
Quid pro quo
Reverse dictionary ~ crossword solver
– “My heart is ready, O God! My heart is ready!”
I didn’t know that this line from the movie “The Passion of the Christ” is taken from Psalms (57:7)…
With certain recent changes in me (Stirner, Sade, etc.), I also need to/can say this (just before the official chastisement begins)!
27.11.18
– The im-possible
Nature ~ pleasure ~ void
Causal consequences & intentional results
turd
Orgiastic destruction & self-transcendence
coprophilia
Sade Vs. Hobbes
Scavenger >> avenger >> predator
28.11.18
– Distinguish:
The biological drive for food, shelter & sex
and
The cultural imperative to survive at all costs
– I need a relationship based on pure lust!
29.11.18
– Embracing determinism is the most radical freedom! 🤩
– demi-monde
flaneur
debauchee
– Distinguish:
Incontinence
&
Indulgence
– What’s the difference between someone like Hitler and someone like Sade?
– Humanity (consciousness & culture) as Nature’s self-alienation……!
– Life – neither survival nor suicide!
Hmmm…… but then, what else……??
– Which is more tragic/pathetic:
To destroy one’s worldly self because one refuses to come out of the abyss within,
Or to survive in the world by successfully repressing one’s own Id/shadow?
1.12.18
– Passionate anal-ysis
French artiste
coup d’etat
quay
XCIC
Jeanne Duval
Prose poems
mulatto
Jansenist
Satan, the dandy!
Revolutionary Vs. Rebel
poétes maudits
physiquement dépolitiqué
conseil judiciaire
2.12.18
– Hotstar: CinePlay – Stage On Screen
– Films:
“प्यासा”
Is it a tragedy or a comedy or a…?
“Pink”
Female as female
Vs.
Female according to male (perspective/preference)
Male as male
Vs.
Male according to female (perspective/preference)
Cultural norms Vs. Biological facts
3.12.18
– “If you like our website, please disable adblock to support us”
– ALL destruction is creative!