WORDS

1.8.18

– Meena Kumari – actress cum singer cum poet
Female pornstar thinkers & activists
Conservative intellectuals – oxymoron!?
Ilona Staller
Colby Keller

– Culture says you’re a decent man, but nature says you’re just another prude!

– Restraint Vs. Dissent
Polemics & advocacy

– Distinguish:
“?!”
&
“!?”

– “Tell me your full name”
Master-disaster
Widow’s peak
“The Orson Welles of crap”
Mythical filming conditions
Internal befuddlement
Jacobean
Sleazy slow jams
The distinction of being the weirdest
Content regulations
Dadaist
Absurdist vision
The story (of the person) behind the story
Hilarious & poignant; Exorbitance & desperation; Excess & cluelessness
A would-be auteur whose primary creative stamp is his bad judgment!
James Gatz –> Jay Gatsby
“I am Tommy”
……Immanuel Joseph loves James Franco loves Tommy Wiseau……
Midnight screenings of cult classics
Performative audience interactivity
How does Tom Bissell fit into the whole picture?
Deep dive
Celebrity fan-base
Ironic enjoyment of bad entertainment
Social capital/cultural currency
The outsider superstar!
Startling cruelty, unbelievable inventiveness & real joy
Why people keep watching “the worst movie ever made”??
fan-work
The “genius of the artist” lies in the mind of the audience!!!
Immanuel Joseph’s blog ~ Tommy Wiseau’s film
Leonization [sic] – distinguish the Tommy Wiseau according to Greg Sestero and the Tommy Wiseau according to James Franco

– Tragic inspiration – “how I found life and freedom on death row”!

– Ethics:
Rules & consequences >> virtues & desires!
Distinguish:
Doing what is best for me
&
Prioritizing happiness
Is everyone focusing on their own flourishing ultimately the most conducive for everyone’s progress?
What about the personal need for social contribution?

– Body-respiration – let the spirit revive your whole soul!

– Movies:
“The Disaster Artist” (2017)
(& “The Room” – 2003)
Perfect movie for my current manic phase! 😅
Which one should be seen first?
Immanuel Joseph/Tommy Wiseau > SFG/The Room – this is why I liked Franco’s film!
The crucified Christ – the artist who entertains, by making himself a laughing stock……
Compare with “The Wrestler” (2008)
Is compassion weakness or strength? There is a certain kind of compassion (trying to spare the other) that is weak and another kind (seeking to sharpen the other in one’s own flint-fire) which is strong.
“Exactly how I intended…” 😛
Lisa (the lover) ~ The Room (his film)
“Whatever is worth doing, is worth doing badly!”
What does it mean to say that a movie is the “greatest bad”?! Is it just nonsense?
I don’t understand why those people in the beginning of the movie are raving about “The Room” 🤪
Title – what is “the room”??
The protagonist’s need for fame/success is definitely his Achilles heel
Distinguish:
Ambition/drive
&
Vision/passion

– Innocent child, political activist, passionate lover, wild animal, spiritual guru, intellectual giant, etc. – all-in-one! 😃👏🏽

– Can you find lyrics for “Baby love” by Cicciolina?
Google couldn’t!

– Positively schizophrenic
Romantic predator
Actually Huizenga
Extreme situations & desperate courage
Self-possession
Elam
Sargon of Akkad

– From good/bad to strong/weak
Able to be free irrespective of the situation, and/or able to change the situation to be more conducive to one’s expression – strong
Adjusting oneself according to the situation – weak
Can the strong adapt WITHOUT compromising??

– YouVersion – make your own Bible verse images with Calligraphy Name & Canva!

– News:
Contrast the 2 incidents of –
Cops being beaten by an angry group of people inside their own station (in AP, for beating some folks in the society)
And
DMK workers beating a restaurant staff (in TN, for denying them free lunch)

– The joy of the LORD is my strength – what exactly does “LORD” mean here, for me?
That which is channeled via all the means of Grace made available to me?
That which is inward/mystic/cosmic/eternal, but still accessible to me?

– Ps. 121:1-2
There is no question in the Tamil versions! Why?
Jussive, subjunctive
Song of ascents
“May your protector not sleep”
I look up to the mountains (religious observance), but my help comes from their Creator (the Reality behind/beyond the symbols)!
Don’t mistake the finger for the moon – distinguish signifier/pointer and signified/referent

2.8.18

– Suspension bridge

– Why is the gold Redmi Note 5 Pro, white in front?! 🤪

– When someone has no DP on WhatsApp, what does it say about them?

– What do you mean by “mean”?

– Innocent lust
meetup.com – only SFW? Ha ha ha ha ha……

3.8.18

– Happy fapping!
Follow your favorite models/pornstars on Instagram/Snapchat
Pornhub’s sexual wellness center
Free trial for paysites
Metcams
#PHtaughtme

4.8.18

– Chrono download manager for Chrome

– Ogle, flirt, seduce – detaboofy!
Unfreedoms

– Bill (The Tale), Lane (MI:6), Thanos (Infinity War) ~ JIJ! 😈

– Dear folks… August 11th is my 40th birthday.
So if you would like to express your appreciation for my invaluable (yet free) contribution to your life so far, you can give your generous cash gifts to me (I have some sexy stuff waiting on my wishlist)! 😬🤙

– How to find things google can’t – Google Search

– Yesterday, a dog intimidated me!

5.8.18

– Where has theooze.com gone??

– SFG – F: Formation >> Friendship
And, get rid of the G!

– Lost my specs in the bus to Madurai

– Life is……
Difficult enjoyment!

– Evangelicals are poor in raising teens. Is that any wonder?!

– The Messianic secret + the Great Commission = ??

– Christ as the anti-prophet!

– First Reformed (film/Joe) + priestly ordination (Solan) + vocational crisis (Mahima) = ?!

– “Xyz:
– Vocational crisis >> psychological depression in adolescence……?
– Distinguish:
Doing what I want
&
Doing what I am
– Counseling = self-knowledge + unconditional support.
HOW can a parent help his/her child to UNDERSTAND himself (as a unique individual)??
I think xyz must be strictly prohibited (by his parents) from pursuing NEET!

– Confess, & repent of, your sin of self-negligence and naïve obedience before the LORD your God!
Be ye delivered from this demon of “being nice (to people)”……
Amen.
GOD’s will – decision as discovery!

– Ordination sermon:
Do not jump to conclusions about, and hastily judge, people.
And never use the Scriptures for your personal agenda for/against others.

– Who the hell is Anjezë Gonxhe Bojaxhiu??

– Movies:
“நடிகையர் திலகம்”
Compare with “Dirty Picture”
Keerthy Suresh and Savithri; Vidya Balan & Silk Smitha
Was Samantha Akkineni’s character also “real”?
Is this film feminist, because of its depiction of female empowerment or exploitation, or both?
I identify more with Gemini Ganesan.
The ripple effects of the revolutionary’s martyrdom – more like a long drawn out tsunami!
A film for film-makers – Compare with “The Tale”
Who would’ve thought that an alcoholic’s death would produce such a great resource for alcoholics’ liberation?!
The dream outlives the dreamer, IF the dreamer does not give up until the end, irrespective of whether they succeed or not……

6.8.18

– (t)rap
thang
Dubstep porn
knickers; G-string
Pu$$y
Label conflicts
Follow-up mixtape
The New Classic
glen
Gaelic
Pornograffiti
Fleshlight girls

– Finish last, and beat everyone!

– “Split” – the beast is my cock!
And it’s on the move, so you better beware…… 😈
Virgin pussy Evangelicals
Vs.
Monster cocky Christians
“What up, bitch?” – Iggy Azalea
“I got one less problem without you”

– Dream:
Chatting with Danny, Vivi, my dad.
I wonder aloud how the MCU manages to turn out awesome movies one after the other…!
There are patches of cockroaches and worms all over the hall floor – needs cleaning.
I tell Vivi the learning in SFG is open, not curricular, so there’s no hurry to meet deadlines & targets. Danny talks about how the wink of a black beauty is torturing him……! 😎

– segue (say that sexy sound!)
My favorite camgirls – have you ever chatted with them?! Are they really real??

– Yesterday, when the அருட்தந்தை (CSI அருட்பொழிவு, அருட்பணி, அருட்செய்தி) was preaching about humility, obedience & kindness, I felt like strangling him right there…… 😠
Making pussies out of everyone, in the name of the paradigmatic cocky 🖕🏾

– 🤲🏽
Vs.
🤝
Vs.
🤜🏿🤛🏿

7.8.18

– Movies:
“First Reformed”
The death of faith-hope-love >> the birth of freedom-passion-life!
This movie is so timely for where I am now (spiritually) – “I have found a new way to pray”, “why deny yourself?”
From psuedo-theology to sexual spirituality! 💣💥
“The Last Night” (book) – from a servant of normative abstractions (eco-warrior and religious priest) to the wild individual! From human-sacrifice to ideal-murder…… 🗡️
Michael – Christ figure – deicide >> salvation!
“What does a man profit if he gains the whole world and loses his soul? Or, what can a man give in exchange for his soul?” – Jesus of Nazareth
Compare with Ingmar Bergman’s “Winter Light” & “Diary of a Country Priest” by Robert Bresson.
Why did Paul Schrader make this movie? Is there anything new or different in his work from what has already been made? Maybe he just wants to be a contemporary finger pointing to those classic moons, because without it, the present & future generations might never see what they miss……
These film-makers have a PhD in depression and are therefore certified counselors!

“Ant Man”
I watched it in 2 halves separately. I hesitated to continue watching, but the 2nd half made up for the first!
The smaller the weapon, the more powerful it is.
Ants – harnessing the power of Nature to combat unnatural/artificial/man-made culture…
I can never understand characters who are so much in love with someone else that they virtually live & die for them!
Sentimental superheroes disgust me. To me, they are not worthy of the name.
Quantum level ~ death/eternity – the One who returned!
Loving relationship
Vs.
Higher cause
Vs.
Individuation

“Ready Player One”
Compare with “Tron: Legacy”
Cyber-game ~ spiritual warfare – the battle FOR (the sake of) this world is NOT waged IN (or according to the ways of) this world!
The people’s champion (Messiah)
Vs.
The ruling class (The powers-that-be)
Compare with the movie “Avatar”
“You’re not an avatar, are you?!” – what is the resurrected Christ?? Not just a human/person or a memory/influence……
Anorak, Halliday & the Curator
You can be inspired by causes, but you can romance only a real girl!
WHY didn’t the villain shoot the hero when he had the chance?! He’s human too!
Spirituality – wandering as winning…… 👣👍🏽

– “Girls rescued from shelter home”!

– I was not born to my parents, but dropped down from Heaven… or rather, came up from Hell!?

– Why are letters given on a phone dialpad?

– I think Peter Kreeft’s comment, “their semen has backed up into their CSF” actually applies more to the theology of the unnaturally repressed (E.g. Catholic priests who molest children) than to the philosophy of the promiscuous (or the “sexually impure”)!
Reference:
“If we analyzed the blood that their hearts pump into their brains, might we find it mixed with fluids from their lower organs?”
– From “Happiness: Ancient and Modern Concepts of Happiness” by Peter Kreeft

– Can this sermon be preached to non-human species?!

– Can someone who (says he) is a spiritual leader have a tummy (plenty of belly fat)?
Can I be a cultural influencer without being a leader of people?
Introverted revolutionaries!

– Take a loan & buy a house. Then rent it out and repay the EMI with that income…

– wickedride.com 👍🏽😎
Solo trip/walkabout/adult’s timeout (“The Affair”)
High-time you did it, Joe!

8.8.18

– SAIACS Annual Consultation

– Is Evangelical Christianity just an idolatrous response to the human craving for certainty and satisfaction?
– Peter Rollins

– Liberal colleges like UTC idolize social causes like justice,
And Evangelical institutions like SAIACS worship their evangelistic theology.
Is there any Christian organization dedicated to the open & fearless pursuit of true knowledge?

– Distinguish:
Apologist
&
Philosopher
It’s not enough that we know, we want to know that we know, and then we want others to know that we know……

9.8.18

– Weed – joint (with tobacco) or cannabutter or vape – choose (the form of) your poison! 😎

– fountainhead

– Distinguish:
Adolescent tantrums
&
Radical individualism
The repressed gentleman
&
The responsible (empathetic) adult
Ayn Rand
Vs.
Friedrich Nietzsche
Holding the door for the elderly
&
Ogling at women in public

– Yucca brevifolia
Joshua Tree
National park
Cultural festival
Connect with the outdoors and be inspired by the spirit!

– Voice journaling!

https://mega.nz/#!qA4ByRiK!7nJxf7JEb1qNMKC3SMupcVcZ0XB52yJ3iEqk7_irBfA

– What is the OASIS (Ready Player One)??
The Imaginary becomes the greatest weapon in the battle against the power of the Symbolic, for the sake of experiencing the Real!

– I am a lesbian-feminist! 🤪😳
i.e. Inspired by (the great) women

– WhatsApp – saving others’ DP (those I like) to my gallery.
Hmmm…… Is that okay? 🤪

– Everyone is equal – inherent worth
Everyone is not equal – the value created from what is given

– There’s just too much energy coarsing through my body ⚡, I feel my brain will explode 🤯!

– “First Reformed” – body ecology!

– Short top & leggings! 🙃😳

– Start using advance booking in Ola & Uber

– MomentCam
MMF
defloration
Virgin masturbation
XXX Games Network

– A.P. Bio (TV series) – S01 E01-02
Advanced Placement 😅
Attacking bad philosophy is the best way to redeem & renew this techno-capitalist culture! And this can be done by ordinary people (even youth!), if only they have a fearless (& eccentric) leader……
Not all comedy sucks! 😝👍🏽

– If you could change your name to something more reflective of your character what would it be?

– Is the Übermensch just another normative abstraction that threatens to enslave you & me?
No!
Why?

LINES

25.7.18
– Biosphere reserve
Cosplay-themed, elaborately exposed video interview
babydoll
– Movies:
“The Tale”
Definitely one of my favorite movies! Most powerful……
Don’t I resemble Bill the most?! Was he sexually abused (as a child) too??
Salome also must watch this.
Body-morality
Vs.
Mental culture
What happens when you replace sex/Jeni with spirituality/mankind……?!
The angel of light and the banalization of evil
– Does “cultivating happiness” also include “consuming pleasure”?
– I’m proud of my blog (& my other ministries)! 😎👏
– “Empowerment is being able to inspire others by comfortably expressing yourself.” – Lana Rain
– BTS
Create NEW folder
Merge duplicates
– Distinguish:
Self-overcoming
&
Self-improvement
– How old am I in “dog years”?
– Is GOD really (not) good all the time, or does it only seem that GOD is (not) good all the time?
– Ersties interviews
“Real porn”
Manyvids
– The tyranny of the repressed!
Victims of the marginalized……
– Catharsis – emotional vomiting & spiritual shitting
Male menstruation!
– Was I sexually abused as a child??
I was abusive as a young adolescent, right?
Where nature/biology and culture/society merge……!
– Dream:
I am the First Man, who utters the word “What!?”……
I am also asked (by Salome?) to be the in-campus counselor in Christ University. I am excited about this opportunity.
Wonder is the root of language.
The first (fundamental) question is NOT “What is the meaning of life?” or “Who am I?”, but “What IS this (life/world/reality/consciousness)?”
– Distinguish:
Dominate-manipulate
&
Moderate-facilitate
– If your orgasm was explosive, you might have to cum again after a while, for full release…! 😛
26.7.18
– Zach Venice
Stock photos
SFW mischief
David Hener
Windows mixed reality
Tamil/Hindi “items” slo-mo edits
Zeenat Amaan
Kajal Agarwal
True colors
IDGAF
nwjs
Flashforward
Bollywood kissing
– Is non-nude/non-fucking erotica, “porn”?
– Time to start creating content, Joe……
GO!
– Progress in intimate relationships (like marriage):
1. Keep working on yourself – find ways to deal better with negative emotions
2. Improve quality of communication – connect at a level deeper than the usual words & actions
3. Real acceptance, understanding & appreciation of each other, rather than just contrived behavioral adjustments!
“Cooperation, within adventure, is always a slow, autonomous and negotiating process.”
– Distinguish:
Consumerist conformity
&
Subversive hedonism
– Comradeship of egoists
The ontological horizon of lucid dreaming
Cooperative action within the dream-scape of reality
Self-narrating heroes, as opposed to puppet champions
Happy orphans of the moral codes of dominant abstractions
Death as life’s hidden poten!tial and happy ending
Sailing wake
The atheistic civilization of my inner populations
– Cartographic discovery
Vs.
Mythopoeic traveling
– Poetry
Vs.
Rhetoric
– Better pleasures:
Dopamine
Vs.
Serotonin
– Dreams:
I am flying just above the road! I’m in ecstatic bliss……
(This is definitely one of my favorite! I came in the end too ;-))
– “Power is crystallized obedience” ~ Faith is crystallized doubt
– Giphy
Bitmoji
Kinemaster
– The self wants to exist!
From being, to doing, to becoming……
27.7.18
– Update, sync & backup – spirituality, sexuality and software!
– Cock – make space for expansion!
– “Most art stinks”
And most porn is shit.
– Forza Motorsport 6: Apex – WOW, it’s free… just can’t wait! 🤩
System requirements NOT adequate 😶
– Genius annotations for lyrics!
Bookmark & Save to Pocket
Instant app – try now!
Musixmatch
Video memory
– The Us is nothing but the response of the many Me’s which are confronted by the We!
– I think I have found the cure for (my) depression!
– Why is it that when the “homemaker” says bye to the “worker”, on a weekday morning, it is ONLY the former who wishes the latter, “Have a good day!”?
– Your personality is nothing but the overlap between the body/flesh/biology and the society/culture/context.
Instead of saying I (essentially) AM an introvert, just say I (usually) LIKE being alone.
Can you see the crucial difference between the two?
– When typing, never see the screen, only the keyboard.
You can read & check what you’ve written, once you finish the input.
– Phone call:
Fix an exact appointment beforehand, or just try whenever you’re free.
Is there a third way?
Yes!
Keep a reminder on the day, and check if the other person is available.
– Is there anything for which there is no app?!
28.7.18
– Kika!
– Stopping anti-depressant >> mania! 🤪
– tweak!
Animoji
Calligraphy apps
– Who/what is her muse?
Does Katy Perry get old too??
– Improve your taste!
– 1Cor. 5:21
“God MADE Christ… FOR US… so that WE MIGHT…”
WOW!
Christ – the one who is made to pay the price, by GOD, for our fulfillment!
Saving each other, by entering into the evil in each other……
2Thes. 3:3
Identify and work on your weaknesses, otherwise you’re damned!
– Adventurer ~ entrepreneur!
– Gaming console (PS4 etc.)
Vs.
Gaming laptop
29.7.18
– Movies:
“MI 6: Fallout”
– WOW! Enjoyed (with loved ones) on IMAX 👏🏽
– “Your mission, should you choose to accept it, is…… ” 💥
“Whisper to the soldier – a storm is coming.”
The soldier whispers back, I AM the (coming) storm!” – 😎 compare with the Breaking Bad quote.
– Where’s the fallout?! C’mon, if the mission is truly impossible, then the hero (& his team) must fail… that’s better Christology! Marvel’s Infinity War was more realistic (theological)……
– Spiritual warfare – the conversations between the hero & his wife reminds me of some tense & candid discussions between Salome & me……
“But, how’re you gonna do THAT??”
“I haven’t figured that out YET… Still working on it. I WILL get it done!”
– IMF is just a codename for SFG!? 😁
– I think I am a cross between Lain (villain) & Hunt (hero). Maybe even more like the former!
30.7.18
– workaround
Non-linear poetics
Media & business poetry
Revolutionary ideals >> bloody failure
Avodah; Piyyut
Vimeo Music channel
– Weekly outing – done?
– Designer babies
Anti-aging therapies
Biological philosophy
Shifting/erasing red lines
DW News
Musicologist – Song from the Forest
Unconstitutional, according to Mugabe
Sham elections
Right to asylum
Central America
Child laborers
Conflict Zone with Tim Sebastian – Confronting the Powerful
Kino movie magazine
spayed
Gaming emulator
peurilities
Patti Smith
Sensory deprivation tank
– We’re almost there, at certain sci-fi technologies!
– Distinguish:
Full
&
Busy
– Save (another’s WhatsApp) DP in (your) gallery
– “This app/service is not available in your region”
What’s the fucking point of a free, global network?!
31.7.18
– Distinguish:
Patti Smith
&
Patty Smyth
– Dirty mind and ultra-revolution
Immortal technique
Intoxicate & detoxify!
Invert the order – rightside up!
Cult classic disasterpiece
“Who is America?”
– I am more of a soldier than a civilian,
She is more of a civilian than a soldier.
If not for civilians, what would the soldiers eat?
And if not for soldiers, who would protect the civilians?
They wouldn’t survive without each other!
Soldiers, do not despise them,
And civilians, do not hinder them……
Civilian ~ flesh
Soldier ~ spirit
The flesh is saved by the spirit, and the spirit exists for the sake of the flesh! Get it?
Survival for the sake of transformation!
No transformation without survival?
– Redmi Note 5 Pro – use full-screen mode on freak-out days! 👌🏽
– Movies:
“The Disaster Artist”
The Lightning Rod Man
“Rebel Without a Cause” – James Dean
Civilized man, caged animal & free bird
“The greatest” lists are not the only ways to discover great art!
– Am I a bipolar case?!
What?? Fuck that shit!
– Bittorrent Now
– Buy 1 pant/shorts + 1 t-shirt/shirt every year (maybe on my birthday)
– Gaming console (PS4 etc.)
Vs.
Gaming laptop
I found a third cheap option – Android game pad + Chromecast! 🤓

THOUGHTS

13.7.18

– Erotoscope

Judicial murder

– Repressed sex (id) >> increased violence (superego)!

– Are Wilhelm Reich & Osho connected somehow?

– Why Rajneesh >> Osho??

– Movies:

“Baby Bump” (Polish)

What a waste of my precious time! I can’t rely on critical acclaim or artiness (as much as I used to) anymore, to guide me to the good stuff……

WHY was this featured (out of the 30) on Mubi??

“Ex Libris: The New York Public Library”

Would’ve been a good film, if it was exactly 1 & half hours long (instead of the 3 & 1/2)!

– The harmony of the wild

Transcend ~ debase!

Using cyber-technology for radical reincarnation

From cultural animal to brute spirituality

Natural violence

Vs.

Artificial peace

– Would art & sports be that entertaining, if their creators & performers were not dead serious about their craft?

– [7/14, 1:59 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): World cup colourless this time.

[7/14, 2:00 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Oh no! It’s full of surprises 👏🏽

[7/14, 2:10 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Yeah!  Full of surprises but off colour and thrill.

[7/14, 2:16 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Few matches really good.

[7/14, 9:33 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): Well done Nadal. You gave your very best and all. The result doesnt reflect the tenacity and determination.

Lets see how things go in the remaining play.

Maybe the break is good for Nadal.

[7/14, 9:35 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Ah!

Tennis > Nadal (or Federer, or any other great player) 👣

[7/14, 9:51 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): But Tennis will lose its charm, colour and beauty without a man called Nadal.

He is such a joy to watch like Brazil playing artistic  football in all its beauty and splendour.

[7/14, 9:55 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): True Joe.

But I am telling how much he has contributed to  the game of Tennis.

[7/14, 9:59 AM] Appa (Jayakumar Rajapandian): I will not sit throughout night to watch a player other than Nadal.

When Nadal plays with Federer or Djoko they give their very best and also bring the very best from him

[7/14, 10:15 AM] Immanuel Joseph: Hmmm… I too thought this World Cup would be boring because of Brazil’s & Germany’s (my favorite teams) exit. But then, I have surprisingly realized that I was wrong!

[7/14, 10:16 AM] Immanuel Joseph: I want to become a connoisseur of the Game rather than just a partisan fan

– Use the intellect, to subdue the mind under the body, rather than society.

– Integrating the shadow self (Jung) ~ curing the soul with the flesh (Wilde)

– Bojpuri item numbers

Indian soft porn

– Thus Spake Zarathustra – UGK is the Superman and I am on of the bridges that join the common man to this ultimate ideal……

14.7.18

– Bio-logical

Vs.

Psycho-social

Does the denial of the so-called “higher powers” condemn us to mediocrity & conformity, or is it the only basis upon which genuine transcendence & greatness can be pursued……?

– Continual self-overcoming

No sacrifice of self, no growth in life

– Can the fruit of knowledge be redeemed, for the sake of life?!

Can language ever become an instrument of true creation rather than just perpetual reordering?

– What if our greatest truths are just the most persistent lies?!

– Zarathustra > Zoroastrianism

NOT the other way around!

– Distinguish:

Self-denial

&

Self-overcoming

– Individual

Vs.

Humanity

Contrast:

Superman

&

Selfish man

– Jordan Peterson – a distorter and domesticator of Nietzsche?

– Medicalization as maladaptation

– Kazimierz Dabrowski

“Positive disintegration”

The mentally ill as “differently abled”

– Government of USA

Vs.

Rajneeshpuram

When they use the law of the land for their own survival, you say, “You’re (legal, but) immoral!”

When they flout the law for their ideals, you say, “This is illegal (although moral)!”

– “Defacing the currency”

The Diogenes Syndrome

Sisyphean achievements

Artificial desires

Indulging in the simple pleasures

Untraining and retraining

The misery of laziness

The joy of/in freedom

15.7.18

– Erotic liturgy

Porn mass

Rethrone the (crucified and resurrected) Body!

– Recruiting technology, language, intellect and the arts, to subvert culture!

– Proxy tunnel

Dynavap VapCap, X-Max V2Pro

What are the most efficient ways to get really high?

– Have you learnt to embrace pain yet?

Sissy! (or is it kiddo?)

– The herculean task (humanly impossible) of giving up (spiritual suicide)!

Life

Vs.

Self

16.7.18

– Fuck the (prescribed) anti-depressants. Make your own (natural ones)!

All hail (what’s the antonym for fuck?) weed!

(Stopped Escitalopram a few days back)

– Documentaries:

“WR: Mysteries of the Organism”

“Pervert’s Guide to Cinema”

– Movies:

“Calibre”

Legality

Vs.

Morality

Vs.

Vitality

1 < 2 < 3!

– Suck it up, and bite the bullet!

Cloning realities

One of the great weirdnesses

It’s time to get beyond “knowing what’s really going on”!

It’s better that we are all barking up many trees…

E = mc2 – what does this equation have to do with time (& space)? I thought it only had to do with energy & matter… how foolish!

How to type superscript and subscript

Insights Vs. Results

The quantum mechanic

Schrodinger’s religion

What is life?

Ordinary uncertainty and extraordinary absurdity

Experimenter/researcher ~ biblical scholar/analytical philosophy. Thinker/theorist ~ theologian/continental philosophy

We are not in the business of ruling out any questions

Please start to stop doing that!

Probabilistic determination

– Alexandra Daddario

Sophia Knight

– Ma Anand Sheela – what a lady!

Kindle Unlimited!

– “Why would anyone want what UG gave us?”

Great question!

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– Vandalism & revolution

Kindle app for PC

Enforced fun

Unforgivable obedience

Live tiles

Normative abstractions as pipe dreams

The antidote to medical poisons

frenemies

Ikigai

potlatch

Nuremberg Virgin/Iron Maiden

Torture museum

sarcophagus

Squandering methods

Self-abolition

Tragic parables

crapulousness

Disrespectful (shameful, or rather shameless!) opportunists

Punk ethics

declination

Magnetic north pole

Celestial equator

Respect ~ wealth/character/achievement – social status ~ economic/moral/professional/religious capital – legitimated (& glorified) resources!

neoprimitivist

Prefigurations of autonomy

Till money

Carnal reasoning

Perfect criminals ~ silent parasites

Clown army – non-violent (jubilant) warfare

Neo-anarchism

“Infinitely demanding” – Simon Critchley

Interstitial distance

Unperceived non-freedoms

Conversing with ethnic cleansers

Instrumental reason and pseudo-individuality

Orgonomic functionalism

From damage limitation to positive ethics

Sex-pol – psychoanalysis, sexuality and Communism

Humanitarian interventions

Extinction marathon

Individuals in relation – voluntary (anarchic/autonomous) associations

The practical skepticism of lucid dreamers

Language as a tool of immortality, the dream of civilization!

The actual translation of potential narratives – the structure of sense provided by normative abstractions

Political populism – umbrella concept or empty signifier

Mortal, fragile lifes – individual biospheres

Existential fiction

Love, without the fall

Bullshit jobs

– Distinguish:

Unbeliever

&

Disbeliever

– Negative frontal opposition

Vs.

Mild moderation/regulation

– “What can be done, when nothing can be done?”

“How are we to understand the perspective of squandering in relation to ourselves?

Us – canon fodder, working flesh, trapped between global capitalism and the nation state?”

“What can our slavery to money teach us about Work?”

“How are squanderers to enter the world of Work?”

“What, in the end, do contemporary squanderers have to squander?”

“Yet, what options do we have, if we don’t want to submit?”

“Is it ever really possible to defeat our immaterial masters?”

The project of social autonomy always comes up (short) against the immortality of normative abstractions…!?

“Are we really sure that for the desire of a radically atheist freedom, we are available to renounce all the advantages brought to us by civilization? And paradoxically, wouldn’t that become a religious position in itself?”

– From

Disciplining the body

To

Being disciplined by the body!

– Is this sky bluish white or whitish blue?

– Kindle page flip

walkabout

– Ripples:

You go around spreading your death which feels like life,

And I will keep dispersing my life which smells like death……!

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– Calibre e-book management – convert all my ebooks to pdf and then use Adobe Reader (with document cloud)

Read out loud

commensalism

Remote sensing

– The strangulating regimes of dominant abstractions

Friends as comrades

Personal dictionary

centroid

Intimacy as reciprocal trespassing

The union of egoists

“Everything must be, and I want it to be so.”

Repeat your new mantra

– Ludwig Feuerbach

Vs.

The New Atheists

– “Metamorphoses of Rebellion: A Fable” – from “The Last Night”, a book by Federico Campagna – should I read this and upload to YouTube (but I’m lazy!)?

Compare with Peter Rollins’s “The Orthodox Heretic”

– “Everything I know about morality and the obligations of men, I owe it to football” – Albert Camus

– The void-excess of inconsistent multiplicity

The count-for-one; dominant ideology; the order/state of the situation

The excluded part; unbelonging; non-foundational; anomalous phenomenon; alien intrusion

Foreclosure strategies of repression & recuperation

Identity-less

Generic humanity/bare life

New representations beyond conceptualization

The practice of scission

Traumatic transformations

Supernumerary – counts-as-nothing

Evental site

Reflexive identification

Radical contingency

Maximal intensity of appearance

Subverting existence via the creation of connections

Ruptural relations and possible worlds

Revolting against prevalent discourses & habitual prejudices/assumptions

Puncturing the organization of reality

Changing the (formal) structure, rather than the (material) elements

Revolutionary history

The Maoist Event

Permanent revolution

Future reality

Invisible subjects

Redefining the situation through insurrection

Political revolts & social transformations

Quasi-revolutionary eruptions

Truth-procedure

Inter-group conflict

Colonial exclusion & capitalist exploitation

The decision to name the impossible –> crisis of calculation

Non-ontological entities

Ungrounded choice ~ leap of faith or gamble

Random/nomadic movement

Axiomatic decision

Conservative critic

Classical decisionism

Suspension of chronological time

The futur anterieur

Anti-immigrant apparatuses

Autonomist

World-systems view

– Stop treating the body (your real self) like a dumb mule!

Mind, FOR the sake of (NOT over), body……

– Enjoy ~ flourish

Flourish ~ enjoy

– When you feel hungry, eat.

When you feel tired, rest.

When you feel horny, fuck.

When you feel bowel movements, shit.

When you feel bladder fullness, piss.

When you feel stiff, move.

When you feel energetic, work.

When you feel threatened, fight or flee.

When you feel comfortable, relax.

When you feel disturbed, get shelter.

– Distinguish:

Radical atheism

&

Other atheisms

– Cannabis culinary expert

Cannabutter

– What do I do??

Part-time husband + part-time home-maker + part-time self-educator + part-time spiritual growth facilitator

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– Alternative arrangements:

Monogamish

Swinging

Polyamory

– “Are you upset with me?”

Come on, I’m asking you to give it to me……!

– “If this don’t make your booty move, your booty must be dead!”

Crazy English stoned rap sound

– Adblock Plus – block element on webpage

Sign into Metacritic & Rotten Tomatoes with Facebook

Critiquing the critics – who are your favs?

– I am tempted to listen again to my own voice in the SFG meeting recordings!

So, am I a narcissist?

When I was telling Chellam, that the next time depression strikes, I need to be more kind and gentle with my own body, I felt a deep discomfort inside myself!

Why??

Am I a (sado-)masochist?!

– Joints & spliffs

Headrush

Headshop

mereological

Theoretical computing

Manifestation without virtualization

Changing the world through perfect passivity!

Edificatory integration

Feeling, as thinking without words (&, numbers or images)

Foundational affectivity

Divine pathos

Abstract experience

Life’s self-dissimulation

Tireless reflexivity

Figurative art

Non-referential picturality

Hyper-subjectivities

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– kawaii

Dark public places

– Melodrama:

Plot

Vs.

Character

– Think global/awesome/eternal

And

Act local/efficient/temporal

– News:

Rahul Gandhi the buffoon!

– When you don’t like a movie, you should try to think about it a little more – Why you don’t like it? What do you like about it?, How could it be made better?, etc.

21.7.18
– Has your partner/spouse viewed your WhatsApp status?
– Dream:
Something very bad is happening to Chellam (being attacked by disfigured guys – zombies?), and I am in agony……
and then, I (almost) awoke, shouting aloud!
– Today, I met a transgender ⚧ who was begging. I gave her Rs. 10, but then she asked me to take out all the bills in my wallet. So I did, then she took & bit them, touched her groin area with them, and gave them back to me! Then she took the Rs. 20 note and blessed me.
It was a weird & interesting experience!
Should I now expect some kind of bonanza? 😛
– Attended my first story-telling session today @ The Narrative, Chennai (Indu Divya & co.)
22.7.18
– We both must somehow learn to support each other’s trophy processes, otherwise we’re not gonna make it as a couple!
Or, at least get some outside (third-party) resources to help navigate the mire (within), and diffuse the tensions (in-between)……
– Hot damn!
Holy shit!
Jesus Christ!
– “Following the body” DOESN’T mean JUST doing whatever you feel like, and not doing whatever you don’t want. I must dissect and discern all the signals in my head in each situation, before I decide on the action……
I know, the “natural state” is totally free of the “interference of thought”, but I’m not there yet, and might never attain it.
But that’s okay! 😌
– Movies:
“The Endless”
I didn’t like it, but it was a good film nevertheless…!?
NB: the 2 unknowns in the opening quote
Nothing breaks the barriers between us, like facing (& surviving) death together!
Compare the 2 time loops (within and without the camp). Is there a third alternative?? There better be!
Bringing closure to our desire for closure……
Abrasive affection
– Dream:
I am so depressed & angry, that I want to rip my own limbs out! 😣
23.7.18
– Dream:
I am lost, along with Salome, when trying to get to our house in Bengaluru! We then enter what seems like a gents hostel where our room has been shifted without any notice. Then two of her (male) students arrive and one is flirting with her and the other starts flirting with me. I react angrily.
After this, she suddenly throws my (new/favorite) mobile into the drain. I’m shocked and react violently.
Once I recover my mobile, I find out the way home using GPS. On the way, I get into a share cab cramped with women. 3 of them get into my house along with me. I react aggressively.
The entire dream has a very bad feeling/mood/ambience! I have had 3 consecutive nightmares now. This is very unusual. Is something happening to me (maybe like UG’s “calamity”)?!
– Nietzschean gauntlet – are you strong enough to destroy what you love (now), for the sake of the Future (the life/self that is yet-to-come)?!
Self-contradiction as the necessary condition of self-evolution……
Distinguish:
Death
&
Extinction
– From Body to body.
From Spirit to flesh.
From God to soul.
– Deep Time
Dog years
braggart
Pro rata
Live show
One-track mind
– I wanna fuck (or am I in love with?) Miriam “Midge” Maisel!
Or is it Rachel Brosnahan,
or is it Amy Sherman-Palladino……?
Ha ha ha ha ha ha!
But don’t I want to fuck almost anyone & everyone I see?
Hmmm…… Do I??
I don’t think so…
– TV series:
“The Marvelous Mrs. Maisel” (S01 E01)
WOW! WOW! WOW! 😃 👏🏽
Glory hallelujah 🙌🏽
C’mon Joe, let’s go!
The marvelous Mr. Joey
Salome Joe(l) Maisel? 😉😛
“Fleabag” ~ Midge-bitten – OMG! I love those crazy bitches……
“Sharp Objects” (S01 E01)
Compare with “Patrick Melrose”
The beauty of sadness and the eroticity of death!
24.7.18
– Life Selector
myfreecams
XBiz
AVN Awards
Fancentro; Snapchat