Immanuel Joseph's Blog

27.5.17

– Depression – trying a new method of self-care (as essential to the treatment, along with medication).
Pamper the flesh – just relax completely, whenever you feel miserable. Then slowly, coax the body using the will to move & perform the usual routine, but this time with more awareness & finesse.
Mindful breathing + yoga moves = body-mind integration
Somaesthetic approach…
Let’s see how this goes.
The mind thinks all that the body wants is safety, pleasure & rest, but it is wrong! The mind does NOT know the body. We must stop thinking about, & speaking to, the body, & start listening to it more.

– From the wild animality of the jungle (dangerous environment), we have now moved into the impersonal mechanism of the city (enslaving systems).
How shall we regain the garden again?
Can it ever be??
We, as individuals have lost touch with our own bodies, and as a society we have been alienated from the planet.
Why did this happen, & how can we rectify this?

– The Arts need the Sciences just as much as the Sciences need the Arts.

– Moving from culture as nature to nature as culture.

– Melancholia (film) – is it possible to optimally function in this world, & also be ready (even eager!) for its extinction?

28.5.17

– Uniqueness
Vs.
Normalcy

29.5.17

– Distinguish:
Body/self/man/person/life/thinking/feeling
&
Flesh/spirit/GOD/world/existence/being/consciousness

– Jordan Peterson hates postmodernism, but loves Nietzsche. How come?

– Randomize ~ revolutionize ~ radicalize ~ liberate!

– The antidote to depression is not medication (retreat), it is aggression (offense)!
The war of socio-psycho-biology and philosophico-mystical-spirituality

– True life is neither inward nor outward, it is (all that goes on) in-between!

30.5.17

– Can the pure physiology of UGK & the perfect nihilism of Nietzsche be harmonized &/or integrated?
Spirituality is more than (mere) biology, but it is also less than (contemporary) culture!

– nugatory
homonym
iambic
scansion
arch-expletive
schadenfreude
henology
mimesis
urmark
Zero point
tain
self-alienation & self-knowledge
anodyne
lineaments
subsurface structure
artificer
Originatory & originality

– Cardinality & ordinality
Distinguish:
Cipher
&
Zero
I always used to count the day in which we are born (zero age value) as our first (by numerical order) birthday.
I am the Zero without which you are not one.
I do nothing, so that you can be something!

– Ellipse
&
Eclipse

– Zero, infinity & uncertainty
Negating the negative!
E.g. Solitude vs. Depression

– Precept
&
Percept

– Superficiality & compulsion >> stress
What could be the antidote then?

– Curiosity + criticality >> creativity! 

31.5.17

– Zeroing in
&
Zeroing out

– Tinder as a social psychology experiment

– Distinguish:
Post-
&
Ex-
E.g. I am a post-Christian, not ex-Christian

– Bengaluru – the confluence of North & South (India)
Maybe I don’t need to learn Kannada after all. I can manage with Hindi…

– Intellectual > academic

– Radical ~ negative ~ critical ~ subversive ~ liberatory ~ revolutionary

– Hostility
Vs.
Hospitality
>>

?

1.6.17

– Dusk today ~ 7:05 pm

– Spiritual formation = studying the great + self-examination + dialogue

– Thoughts ~ representations
Rationality & morality
Desire & will
What (beliefs & practices) does it take to have (true) knowledge of the (real) self?

– Trying new non-routines
Dis-&-re orienting… ad infinitum!

– If you have accepted that you are outside the world-system, then why do you still struggle to maintain a social identity??
You are not strong enough yet, to be completely free…!
(but you will become, if you keep at it)

– Remembrance (of my own principles) as reactivation (of my spirit)

– The poet as heterodox prophet/marginal expert

– The politics of the individual
The rhetoric of Ethics and the ethics of Rhetoric
Thinking without knowing, & knowing without thinking
Speaking without loving, & loving without speaking
Believing without doing, & doing without believing
Criticizing analysis and analyzing criticism
Distinguish:
Ideas
&
Beliefs
Madness & magic
Development as modification
“situated” (adj.)
Interplay:
Will/individual/thought
&
Body/context/reality
Social theory & human science
The plural self
Revisionist agenda
Disempowering practices
crypto-missionaries

– How did Critical Theory itself become an ideology?!

– Socio-psychic – all persons are influenced by their culture, but not all individuals are able to affect the society in which they live.

– Is any religion as thoroughly historical (in its theology) as Christianity?
Not even (contemporary) Judaism!

2.6.17

– If to live (physically) is to die, then to die (spiritually) is to live!
Things change,
Shit happens,
Life goes on.

– One can “get used to” almost anything……

– Listen to the silence,
Peer into the void,
Feel the numbness,
Taste the blandness,
Smell the breeze,
Commune with yourself,
Contemplate the ineffable
Narcissus, becoming Leviathan……!

– proem

– Converting the naturally passives into active, and the previously actives into passive…
– What does the (external) climate have to do with the (internal) mood?

– Classical science
Vs.
The hermeneutic approach

– “To know who I am is a species of knowing where I stand.” – Charles Taylor
Hmmm… (my) identity is rooted in (my) morality.
Autobiography as introversion.
Even if one is in constant flux, there is still a place for identifying your position in the present.

– Bible Project – reading the entire Bible as a single, unified (meta)narrative is problematic, isn’t it?

– YHWH
I AM
The Eternal
The One
Hyper-immanent personal process!

– dharna
detente
fray

valedictory

2.5.17

– Ideologue’s guide to perversion

Reverse brain-washing

– I am more contemplative/introverted than most people. But how come I bailed out of the Vipassana course on the 4th day, and the others were able to continue and finish it??

3.5.17

– Is it possible to live (i.e not destroy oneself), once you have fully embraced the truth/fact, that there is no meaning/purpose of life (except life itself)?

– If the negation of life is not death, then what is it?

Distinguish:

Enemy

&

Adversary 

– Nitzschean charity

Divert all funds, from supporting the survival/uplift of the “weak/struggling”, to preserve those (individuals & groups) who are living/fighting “at the edge of time”……!

The death of certain folks/movements is more precious than others…?

E.g

World Vision >> Wikileaks 

Save the Children >> LibGen

William >> Abel

Pownya >> Shanthuru

Etc.

2.5.17

– Meditation – breather >> breathing >> breath!

– God >> GOD >> G-d >> gOd!

– Used Audacity for noise reduction of my positive affirmation recordings… 👍

– Distinguish:

The barking dog

&

This dog barking

3.5.17

– It seems that UGK has somehow defaulted to the Edenic state.

But (according to Christian theology), the way back is barred, and we can only move forward (toward the New Jerusalem) now.

Add Nietzsche’s idea of the “eternal return of the future in the event”, and you get an awesome solution that takes the journey beyond the deadlock……

ENJOY! 😇😎

5.5.17

– Your thoughts & feelings don’t matter.

Even your beliefs & desires don’t matter.

Only your will & actions matter.

Frustration/despair/sorrow is the result of not realizing the above truths.

But happiness/peace/positivity is NOT the result of realizing them!

– Yes, depression is only for sissies.

But there is a sissy in everybody, right?

– It doesn’t matter who you are, or where you are… You are ALONE!

Only very few people have realized this fact, & even fewer have embraced it fully.

First you see the truth, then it kills you, because it destroys the foundational illusions that sustain your current existence……

And after this, if you’re still breathing, it liberates you, totally!

– If there is a lone wolf among a thousand sheep, who is under threat??

6.5.17

– From

Interpretation/evaluation/comparison

To

Deconstruction/transvaluation/invention

– Mind as culture within.
Most of your thoughts & feelings are just experienced (passively) by you. They are NOT yours!
Only what you do (by actively moving against your own beliefs & desires) is upto you (freedom of choice). The will is your ONLY way out!

7.5.16

– I wish I was cool.
Or I wish I was not bothered about whether I was cool.
Now I wish that I didn’t wish…… 😇

– I had another dream of being “reconciled” with Rowan & Vanya.

Does this “mean” anything??

– I must look into the philosophy, theology & spirituality of sleep, insanity & the unknown……

How about mind, language & biology?

– Thinking about thinking 

Praying for my prayers

Believing in belief

Living out (of) life

– Romanticism >> scepticism >> mysticism

8.5.17

– Oblivious ~ cowardly 

Feminist (critical member)

Vs.

Feminism (her movement)

15.5.17

– Thinking out loud:
Based on our experience of the world today, what great/lasting impact did the so-called great ones make??
Maybe we will have to see the world as it might have been if these special persons had not lived……
Then the difference might show itself more obviously!?

16.5.17

– Meditation
Vs.
Sleep

17.5.17

– UGK
Vs.
Christianity
So, both the way back (to Eden) and the way forward (to the New Jerusalem) are blocked to us.
The Garden is closed by the flaming swords. And the City is closed because the human mind is not capable of overcoming itself.
If there is any possibility of divine revelation (& therefore our salvation), our last resort is to probe the wounds for the flow (of blood & water)……….

18.5.17

– “Nannagae Kannada gotthilla”

– Free man from humanity!
Fuck moralism, spiritualism & capitalism

21.5.17

– All successes are also failures.
And all failures are also successes.

– Instinctual discipline
Wild wisdom
The plural/fragmented/conflicted self – the broken body – Eucharist!

– To live, without meaning, is strength.

22.5.17

– I am tempted to try & regain my lost faith.
I am tempted to return to the old disciplinarian regime.
I am tempted to adopt more conventional roles to survive in this culture.

– Teleology/eschatology/theology
Vs.
Apocalypse/meditation/mysticism

– Noise cancellation headphones

– Hygiene
&
Excretion

– Life is not these things.
Life is more than these things.
Life is less than these things.
Life is other than these things.

– Why should you agree to cease?

23.5.17

– Indulgence is a sign of depression.

– Should I alternate periods of mind over body with periods of body over mind, or just equalize/moderate both at all times?
How do I distinguish whether a desire/motivation is arising from the body or the mind??
The bloody romance of flesh & spirit – c’mon, be sportive now!

– Morning ritual – sitting in the dark, looking out through the open window into the daylit outdoors……

– Feeling one’s thoughts,
And thinking one’s feelings.
Is there any way out of this??

24.5.17

– Write an original line everyday.
Stop any & all “reblogging”

– Can doing nothing be a hobby?
What will happen if I continue living like this?
Nothing?
Why not?
Moving from passive activity to active passivity.

– Fascinated by life, but not passionate about living!

– vertiginous

– So Joe, finished your Tinder swiping for today?

– Following moods >> nowhere/anywhere/everywhere
Ready, steady, stop!

– Existence > experience

– The way to cure depression & the way to live fully are diametrical opposites!

– Doing >> being >> be(com)-ing

26.5.17

– UGK – and the Flesh became word, & dwelt among us……!
The grizzly man (Timothy Treadwell)
&
This dog barking (UGK)
&
Diogenes the Cynic

– Depression – the realization that I am NOT the centre of existence is both excruciating & exhilarating!
Existence > life

– All true revolutions are bound to fail.

– litotes