Whatsup

28.7.14

Exams must evaluate only whether students have understood what they have read, and are able to think critically (analytic & synthetic) about it, & whether they are able to make relevant applications from the knowledge. Their memory (especially of details) should not be tested, and all tests must be open-text!
The quality of their notes, references and assignments can be evaluated. If they are able to recall & present a very brief, simple & clear overview (basic outline) of what they have learnt from the extensive reading, that must be enough!
The final (& main) examination must be a viva-voce with the teacher.

Men are more independent, untamed & less possessive. But women are more attached/dependent/jealous.
Men want to give their wives more freedom, but that is not what they want, and women want more loyalty from their husbands which the men find most difficult to give……
So is conventional marriage a sadistic & silly institution of a stupid & rigid society?!

Ancillary
Subsidiary

Professional ethic – do NOT mix pleasure & work. For any activity, only one can be explicit/deliberate, & the others implicit/unconscious. E.g. Religious, ethical & aesthetic

26.7.14
– What does a person gain if he/she is so very smart, but lacks a singular passion?!
– Prayer is the experience of being naked before the One who clothes us with his own body, stripped & broken for us!
– “The brilliance of cleverness is never enough. One must quietly close one’s door and undergo in solitude the bitter purge of self-catharsis before the ultimate.”
– “To follow Christ as (my) conscience dictates.”
Is that an accurate & adequate definition of discipleship?
– The Sophianic metaphysic!
– Dialogical love, abundant being & soceital tensions
– Finding one’s own way of being in the world
– “Kingdom of GOD” – so, have you identified that one supreme value in your own life for which you would (gladly) sell everything else you have?!
– Life, love, light
– Readings:
“Beyond friendship & eros – Unrecognized relationships between men & women” – John Scudder & Anne Bishop
– Hermeneutic phenomenology
– Sexual authenticity
– Distinguish:
Sex
&
Gender
– Nature/instinct
Vs.
Culture/conscience
– Hey Joe, this alternative rhythm thing, doesn’t it dilute/dissipate any & all intensity & focus? Isn’t ‘variety’ the enemy of mastery?
Yes, but my goal is not to accomplish something great externally, I’d rather become a uniquely beautiful (& therefore powerful!) person.

28.7.14
– It is indeed sad that you don’t know even one person with whom you can be a 100% transparent!
– Freedom – from the external pressure to do, & the internal compulsion to have!

29.7.14
– Instead of 4 hours of M.A. study on alternate days (from Monday to Saturday), 2 hours everyday will be better.
Monday, Wednesday, Friday – work days. Do as many tasks as possible!
Tuesday, Thursday & Saturday – except the 2 hours study, basic daily chores & time-sensitive tasks, you’re free!
– Movies:
“The Spectacular Now”
WOW!
Why can’t I ‘just live’?

30.7.14
– A/C – 2 hours per night – 4 or 6 months a year?
– Saturdays – ministry-fellowship meetings. So no M.A. study
– Experience » journal » blog!

Stuff

17.7.14

Readings:
“The Sexually Promiscuous Male” by Benjamin Morse (up to Chapter 2)
“Creative Confidence” by Tom & David Kelly (YouTube)

19.7.14

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NSA

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Basic matrix – egolessness (bliss)
Foreground – teleological effort (discipline)
Background – basic instinct (indulgence)
1 > 2 > 3 – importance & chronological
1=> 2 => 3 – ontological & logical

18.7.14
– Sex-positive culture
– Run away
Wander
Roam
Relax

19.7.14
– If you follow the alternate day rhythm, then what happens to the weekly Sabbath (Sunday)?
If Saturday was a freak day, then Monday will be work day, & if Saturday was a work day, then Monday will be freak day.
The freak day is not a complete Sabbath. Only the 4 hour fixed study period is supended for extra-curricular stuff – maybe a movie & 2 hours of self-learning.
– I want to run away, I want to stay.
I want to be free, I want to be safe.
I want stability, I want excitement.
I want variety, I want consistency.
I want novelty, I want familiarity.
I want challenge, I want malaise.
I want chaos, I want order.
I want to feel good, I want to be right.
I want to go crazy, I want to become sane.
I want to indulge, I want to serve.
I want, I want, I want,
I don’t want, I don’t want, I don’t want……
I like, I like, I like,
I don’t like, I don’t like, I don’t like……
I love, I love, I love,
I hate, I hate, I hate……
Yes, yes, yes,
I, I, I,
No, No, No!
– 1. Abide in the Always Already (being/apocalyptic/religious/mystical/know/live)
2. Seek the Kingdom (becoming/eschatological/ethical/social/ought/love)
3. Just express it! (doing/instinctive/aesthetic/private/want/fuck)

20.7.14
– I am the Dark Knight by day & Bruce Wayne by night!
– Movies:
Intimacy
Bound

Jottings

17.3.14

– My speciality/expertise:

Spiritual darkness, religious doubts, existential struggles, moral dilemmas, identity crisis, career frustration, relational conflict, social disillusion, economic disparity, political apathy, cultural decay, philosophical confusion, psychological boredom, personal stagnation, etc. etc.

Ha ha…… Just kidding… Seriously?!  😉

– Lord, please have mercy on x (who has left our fellowship), & grant her peace.

Amen.

– Disclaimer – please DON’T make the mistake of assuming that all my journal entries are based on personal experience!

I have a vivid imagination (hypothesizing)…  😉

– Spiritual religiosity

&

Religious spirituality

Once in 2 weeks – church worship; small group fellowship meeting; ministry activity.

Once a week – reading, sharing & prayer for couples.

2-3 times a week – family devotion.

5 days a week – personal quiet time.

Once in 3-4 months – meet mentor/confidant/soulmate (one-to-one)

Annual vacation – family picnic, group & personal retreat.

– Is he self-righteous or just ‘highly principled’?

Is it possible to be orthodox without becoming legalistic?

– Diagram xyz – 3 axes:

1. Vertical – spiritual:

a. Transcendent (upward) &

b. Introspection (inward).

2. Horizontal – personal/career time-line:

a. Past (backward)

b. Future (forward)

3. Diagonal – social:

a. Relational (inter-personal)

b. Structural (issues)

…Junction point/box – the body, the present moment, daily schedule & home!

– Queen:

Did she do right by ‘dumping’ him?

The movie should’ve been half hour shorter.

The link between (traditional) sexual morality & societal control of women (esp. their bodies).

Education ~ travel ~ empowerment ~ liberation. The value of the cross-cultural experience. Self-understanding & realization through wide exposure!

– Respecting (other’s) sentiments

– Religious orthodoxy, sexual morality & social injustice – big-time partners in crime!

– Is sexual frigidity as serious a problem as sexual addiction?

– “More power to ya!”

– Ideology, controversy & tension

– Tackling the hard questions graciously

– Salience