Rantings

19.6.14

Distance education:
M.A. Philosophy – IGNOU
&
M.A. Christian Studies – Madras University

20.6.14

Patient assistance

Useful questions

Clearance reader

21.6.14

Freedom/struggle/truth
Vs.
Enjoyment/well-being/illusion

Ideologies are the secular religions!

Bourgeois
Vs.
Proletariat

What is ideology?

What is the (Lacanian) Real?

WWZS – What Would Zizek Say?

So have I, the adamant individualist, finally succumbed to the pressures of functionalism (both from within & without), and joined the mass of the institutionalised/domesticated (albeit by proxy)?

Uncovering the deeper logic, as opposed to reaching for a higher meaning……

Whatever happened to OWS??!

Movies:
Pervert’s Guide to Ideology

23.6.14

There is a kind of knowledge that is closer to wisdom, and there is a kind of knowledge that is far away from it…

Methics – the ethics of recreational drug use

Methexis – the relationship between actual objects and their corresponding (Platonic) forms/ideals. Participation.

24.6.14

Elitism/idealism
Vs.
Populism/pragmatism

25.6.14

This intractable boredom is a test of my resilience/tenacity! Will I fold easily? Or will I fight in a manner worthy of the Man?

Am I an academic (student/scholar/teacher/researcher)? Am I a medical doctor? Am I a Christian minister?
Or am I none of these things? Is there any other (new!) category into which I can fit? Should there always be a category into which each & every individual can/does fit?

The sage – neither scholar nor saint!
Can one be a good (even great!) thinker without being a trained philosopher?

Should I try to carve out my own unique, original niche, or should I try to fit myself into something that already exists in the world?
After all, isn’t it almost impossible (& hard as hell!), to try to live in this world as an individual without any structural support or classified identity?

26.6.14

Fix your mind on the details of the things at hand always, except during the contemplative periods when you can soar to get the eagle’s eye view of life.

There is no recorded Gospel according to Jesus!

Vanity of life – you have 2 options: Suicide or Spirituality!

There is only one categorical imperative – the 2nd commandment. The first is only the matrix or base for the second.

Self-conscious => self-confident
Self-sufficient => self-stretching
Self-complacency => self-discipline
Self-obsession => self-redemption

Weekdays (6 days a week): Foreground – do what will take you to where you want to reach in the long-term. Background – basic stuff you have to do.
Sabbath (Sundays) & vacation (1 month per year): relax, do whatever you like/want!

The Cross as negative revelation – the idoloclastic icon!

Globalization ~ Westernization ~ Christianization

27.6.14

Every human must have the enabling conditions to give him/her the freedom to choose what he/she will believe-seek & how he/she will live-love.

Cosmo-the-andric vision – If GOD himself is indwelling man & the world, then can they ever be destroyed?
Yes & No!

Primary questions – what, how & why.
Secondary questions – who, where & when.

Thoughts

12.6.14

– Bard

– Back to school for the great fool!

– Is divine law an arbitrarily imposed ethic or a codified explication of the natural order?

– Hostility » tolerance » hospitality

– Is it possible to ‘use’ another human being or oneself, without ‘harming’ that person or oneself?

– The third party (in relational morality)

– If individual freedom is sacred, then am I not prohibited from denying any of my desires from being fulfilled?!

– Threats & offers in inter-personal dynamics

– Moral restriction & metaphysical safety

14.6.14

– Was Jesus a Christian?

– Maybe the caste issue that stalled my application for admission in Loyola College was providential! Now I am going to join dual degree by distance education……

– Emma Gonsalvez 1932 – 2014

RIP.

Murdered?!!

– When confronted be evil, we either fight or flee. Both are expressions of fear. Is there a third way (which is more fitting for the faithful)?

Yes… Stand!

– Soteriology – moving the emphasis from ‘sin’ to ‘evil’!

15.6.14

– “England player sturridge equalised 1-1 before half time and said ‘I love you JESUS’!”

“Mmm… So is this what Christian witness means da??”

– Movies:

“Woyzeck

” (German)
Suffering beyond despair!

“Rock On

” (Hindi)
If you are to chase your dreams, then you must come to grips with reality!

16.6.14

– Rekha Rodwittiya

The endeavour of focus

Personal politics

– Dear family… A kind request: When I am in my room and the door is closed, please understand that I am NOT to be disturbed. Do NOT push the door or barge in suddenly! Please knock and ask for me to respond or open. When I keep the door open, you can freely move in & out. OK?

PLEASE REPLY.

PEACE

– Straddling the 2 worlds of Church & University!

– The System is rigidly inefficient when you are seeking excellence, & when you need some flexibility for your own shortcomings, it is rigidly unforgiving!

But NOT always  😉

– If there is no marriage in heaven, then will we also be asexual?? If so, will we still be human?!

Words

8.6.14

– Be politically incorrect!

Be a rebel, in your own way, even going against other contemporary (so-called) revolutionaries……

– Just find something else to try out!

– Mohallas

– Instantaneity

– Nissim Mannathukkaren

– T.M. Krishna

– Prophets as ‘naysayers’!

– Building frustration tolerance through sports

– Robert Flaherty

– “The World Before Her”

– Eponymous

– Mythology/biblical Studies (ancient) » Theology (medieval) » Philosophy (modern) » Critical Theory (post-modern)

– Movies:

Eyes Wide Shut

Sex, guilt & death – where is love in all of this?? What does marriage mean in this context?

9.6.14

– Buck the trend!

– Headhunters

– Passion for the field, professional competence & social skills

– My self + my world + my GOD = my life

– I am almost 35 years old, & I don’t even know what I am going to do in the future……!  😦

– Think. Pray. Love.

– Philosophy as inter-cultural & trans-religious theology

– Post-modern Platonism

– Should I stay completely outside the system?

Should I collaborate with the system as a freelancer?

Should I get into the system?

System – church, academia, NGOs etc.

– Should/can I compromise my identity (contemplative, maverick, autodidact) in order to fulfill the mission to meet a genuine need (education, philosophy, spirituality) in society?

– Am I wasting my life/burying my talents?

– Should I stop all formal ministry – fortnightly small group meetings?

– Maybe freedom (from making a living) is not without its disadvantages, after all!

– But what about the ordinary/lay people who are not in academia/seminary – who will teach/guide them??

But I am never again going after people to help/serve, when they themselves are not motivated by concern for their own growth!

– Passive seeker

– Does the shepherd need the sheep?

– Spirituality + philosophy = theology!

– I will live, believe & love among few others now. After I die, my spirit (life, words, etc.) will spread and work in & through many more……!

Musings

25.5.14

– The lawless Law-giver

– Turnstiles

– Love = attention

– Tinsel

– KFI, Shantiniketan, Vidya Vanam

– DUB

– So you are taking full advantage of their unconditional acceptance and therefore you’re gonna push the limits of tolerance… Right?!

– Independent education

Distinguish:

Casual

&

Informal

– Stay young @ heart, forever!

– Enquire, examine, explore, experiment, evolve!

– Movies:

Zodiac

Was his investigation worth it, especially because of what he had to do to his family?

Sometimes you just MUST do something, irrespective of the pros & cons!

27.5.14

– The eternal-universal-essential

– Critical ~ vital

– Reactualize!

– Comic theory, tragic subjectivity & theological revolt

– Revolutionary ~ subversive ~ transgressive!

– Genealogical approach

– Metacritical history

– Doctrine of univocity

– Theory, ideology & culture

28.5.14

– Distinguish:

Detachment

&

Indifference

Is it possible to be impassive & compassionate?

– Gen.17:17 – the Father of Faith!

– The basic skeletal structure must be maintained even on the (alternate) freak-out days. But on the 1 out of 7 days (weekly Sabbath) – even that can be discarded and you can experience total chaos!!  😉

– The doctrine of divine sovereignty & the scandal of match-fixing

30.5.14

– Why/how are some persons entirely different from their background?!

ASHOK

– Gentle, pious & lovable father. Inspiration in music.

– Liked Chemistry & Physics

– Worship music

Youth ministry

– Reserved person

Stage fear

– Rich Mullins

Steven Curtis Chapman

Impressed by personal testimonies

– Gaining confidence, developing skill, new exposures

– Gospel of Grace

– Abelraj & Epistle to Romans

– Passionate about reading Bible

– Martin Luther biography

– Parenting & theology

– My response – when you pursue any desire or goal beyond a certain extent (extreme), it becomes dangerous & destructive – that is called passion or excellence!

Balanced people maybe healthy, but they are also mediocre…

31.5.14

– “I just wanted to make things better between us.”

– Nobody knows just how close we both came to divorce and this retreat might never have happened!

Maybe even we both don’t know……

– The spectre of embarrassment

– Carlo & Gracie

Sharyl & Joel

– Why does he want to kill her? Because he hates her.

Why does he hate her? Because she hates him.

Why does she hate him?

– Can one be asexual and fully human?

– Is the Cross the glorification of ignominy?

– I’m gonna write my own marital vows. I’m gonna make a new religion for myself……

– Etiquette

Vs.

Ethicality

– Even in this retreat, what would happen if each of us let go of our usual inhibitions and freely expressed our feelings?

– Into the Wild

– The desire for happiness/meaning

&

The pursuit of truth/GOD

– The bio-psycho-spiritual (individual/internal/subjective) – the GOD within

Vs.

The religio-moral-cultural (social/external/objective) – the GOD without

– What is the right balance between:

What you ought to do now (to get to where you ultimately wanna be)

&

What you would like to do now (for its own sake)

– How can the certainty of death help us to live well now? How does this affect how we answer the previous 2 questions?

– The kingdom of God IS withIN you!

– Eastern religions are better for individual spirituality, & the Judeo-Christian tradition is better for public theology. So how does one handle this problem?

– I think I should make the SFG meeting & online conference once a month. Informal one-to-one mertings can be encouraged. Continue the annual (3-day) retreat.

Any (formal) ministry activity over & above this would be shit. I should also start visiting people (annual) in my inner circle, especially those in the mission field.

2.6.14

– Saving the world

Vs.

Not killing people

Becoming the evil we fight!

– GOD in the other is the counterpoint to the GOD in me! Objectivity through dialogue.

– Person > life > things

Things » life » persons

– Materialist spirituality

Secular theology

– Supposit

– Explananda

– Movies:

X-men – Days of Future Past

Eternity, atonement & Parousia – the Coming One! Since there is One who comes to us from the Future, we are delivered from being controlled by the Past…

If you only knew what kind of future this way leads to, then you would repent & change the past!

Identify GOD, Satan, Christ, Church, World, etc.

– A fortiori

– Civil religion

– Compare:

The false,

The ugly

&

The evil

– Michael Card

– Books:

Siddhartha by Herman Hesse

3.6.14

– How contemplatives can contribute to activists, & vice versa?

– Distinguish:

Speculation

&

Contemplation

– Intuition, instinct & impulse

– All theology is contextual (personal & social), including biblical/canonical theology!

– Cash for votes

– Mmm… Coercion can be internal (sex drive) or external (peer pressure), for (hypersexual culture) or against (conventional morality). But it is always bad!

It is amazing how the line between freedom & slavery is so thin/blurred!!

– When 2 (or more) adults use each other mutually, voluntarily & occasionally for pleasure (sexual, psychological, etc.), is it ‘loving’ (to oneself & the other)??

– The problem of pleasure is no less serious than the problem of suffering! Both have to be made meaningful, if they are to be kept from ‘breaking bad’…

4.6.14

– Searing

– Undersecretary

– There are realms of human life (like sex, business, politics, etc.) where words like “love” (which are more personal & relational – family, marriage, fellowship, friendship) become irrelevant. In such cases, the word “justice” is more appropriate & effective in ensuring moral conduct.

Moving from mere sentimentality to genuine ethicality…!

Priorities in tension:

People

Vs.

Principles

Interconnected, but not identical. Converging, but also diverging!

– Grape juice, milk & honey

– Creative ~ traumatic ~ subversive!

– It is amazing how the same action could come out of either spiritual liberty or bondage!

– I think the main point of the movie “Between Us” is the fact of human brokenness, & the real challenge is not to overcome or conquer sin/evil (pride, bitterness, failure, etc.), but to stay human in the midst of the Fall!

Religion/wealth (Joel), family/marriage (Sharyl), career/success (Carlo), service/morality (Gracie) are all failed saviours! But it takes guts to realize & accept this truth, only then can we survive ourselves…

– Eleazar – martyrdom, not for the sake of certain ancient laws & ancestral customs (against paganism), but for the fundamental human right/freedom of faith & conscience (against tyranny)!

– Is your philosophy able to face & survive the horrors of this world??

– Exhortation to apostasy!

– Is (your) life beautiful, terrible or bland?

– Encomium

– Should I rebuke Vivi for discouraging my mother from attending the retreat?

– If we maintain our humanity in the Fall, then we will become divine when GOD finally annuls the Fall!

– What does hagiography have to do with erotics?

– De-tabooing sexuality & thereby liberating man!

– I don’t like people who drag their feet while walking

– Is it possible that one achieves more through one’s death than through an entire lifetime of work?

– Just stop thinking/reflecting, & start sensing/perceiving for a while!

– When someone compels you for anything, that means they need you. So GOD never nags!

– Religion & culture

Morality & the brain

Philosophy & economics

5.6.14

– Red letter day

– man Friday

– Evince

– “Theory praxis” – that’s a good name for what I (try to) do!

– Living > loving > knowing

– Distinguish:

Anarchist

&

Anti-social

Personalist

&

Individualist

– I need to sharpen the general norm by being the exception (‘rarest of the rare’) !

– Individualism:

Selfishness & originality

Creativity & immorality

– Is sexual freedom essential for spiritual growth?

– How do you approach ‘constitutional problems’?

6.6.14

– The selfishness in altruism &

The altruism in selfishness.

What is love??

Is it to sacrifice your own desires for the sake of the other or to unite your will with another’s?

7.6.14

– Concept & reality

– Elide

– The Protestant impulse & the postmodern spirit

Anti-theological theology!

– Curry (v.)

– Vernacular

– Knowing who GOD is

Vs.

Getting as much as we can from GOD

Vs.

Doing as much as we can for GOD

– The never-ending exploration of, & fascination with, the divine mystery, as worship.

– No Son, no Father.

No Father, no Son.

– Rev.3:12 – tridimensional identity – Naming!

– If identity is radically & totally relational, then isn’t the individual held hostage to historical-social dynamics? And without individual freedom how can there be any (cultural or political) reform/progress?

I am a medical doctor » I am Salome’s husband » I am Immanuel Joseph!

– The diversity within unity – radical otherness IN the self!

– Ps.27:1 – academics & faith

– Particularity & universality

– The eternal implications of historic encounters

– Designer GOD

– “Who does this man think he is?”

– The humour of Jesus

– A lay person who teaches seminarians!

– Gradually & stutteringly coming to faith

– The son is equal to the father!

– The Father is the God OF Jesus.

The Christ is the son OF God.

The Holy Spirit is the spirit OF GOD (the Father & the Son)

– The stone is rolled away, not to let Jesus out, but to let us in!

– The new/higher dimension includes the old/lower, but not vice-versa!

– “The clouds”

– Pneumatology is the key to contemporary theology!

– The Spirit upon, with & in the faithful

– Distinguish:

Chastening

&

Retribution

– The 2 persons united as one composite unit by the 3rd entity – Love!

– Uncomprehension & misapprehension

– In the name (not names) of (the triune) God

– Mas. » Dr. » Mr.

– Jesus spoke much more to GOD than the other way around!

– Personality includes relationality, but exceeds it!

– 1Jn.1:1-3

– Shared life/being/substance

– The Athanasian Creed

– Eternal generation/procession

– Planting sublime desires

– (Spiritual) identity:

Personal, relational & public

– Ubuntu

– One what & three whos

– The Church (& marriage/family) as the best illustration of the Trinity!

– Good theology & bad grammar!

– Godhead ~ mankind

– Woman – an after-act, not afterthought!

– Trinity, gender & sexuality

– The Christian community has abdicated its role in the process of legislation to the secular state

– The revelation of the personal nature of entities usually considered to be impersonal!

– Univocity, equivocity & analogy

– Does (the reality of) GOD overflow the (concept of) Trinity?

– GOD is known partly & unknown largely

– Worshipping the transcendent & loving the immanent GOD

– Before the creation of the material world, there is no time.

– Freedom:

Voluntarism

Vs.

Essentialism

– Is GOD completely/absolutely ‘free’?!

– Sevenfold

Reflections

5.5.14

– Life is just too long……!

I am bored, restless & tired  😦

But I want to live:

I want to laugh.

I want to love.

I want to grow.

I want to achieve.

I want to understand.

I want to suffer.

I want to work.

– I must stop chasing after new avenues for pleasure/excitement. I should just be still and open to opportunities for enjoyment that naturally come my way…

– Artificial needs & manufactured longings

– Holding what you have loosely (with a readiness to let go), is as important as not being agressive in getting something you don’t have…!

– I seek respite.

I seek relief.

I seek release!

– It seems like the more you study, the less you really know, Joe!

– What could be greater than doing (engaging & achieving) & having (holding & getting)?

– A revolutionary conservatism!

– Distinguish:

Leisure-contemplation

&

Luxury-indulgence

– The nihilism inherent in fundamentalism, & the fundamentalism that results from nihilism!

– Experience & reflection

Faith & practice

Community & dialogue

Passion & work

– Could the work of a janitor be noble & creative?

– Distinguish:

Nothingness-bliss

&

Vacuum-emptiness

– The depth of understanding that comes from breadth of knowledge!

– The contemplative lifestyle IS my mission/vocation!

– Distinguish:

Simplicity

&

Contentment

Root & fruit

– Why is my life so dead? »

HOW have I made it this way? » What is the way forward?

– What is (the nature, meaning & purpose of) marriage?

– What you believe Christian > husband

– Theology, pornography & contemplation.

Discipline, marriage & conversation.

Chores, education & ministry.

– Teach me how to waste time productively……

No junk, no recycling!

– Conscientization ~ orthopathy

– The more people change, the more they remain the same!

– Anarchist ~ libertine

Democrat & libertarian

Socialist & communitarian

– Is it possible to have a good life without physical health, financial resources & social support?

– Teacher-training

– Movies:

August: Osage County

The moment of clarity comes oh so subtly & suddenly!

11.5.14

– On the outs

– Death is supernatural!

– Sappho

– Multifarious

12.5.14

– Post-marxist, post-colonial liberation theology!

– Ecclesial reasonings

– Theological oppression

– Liberationists

– Re-contextualization

– Hermeneutic of suspicion

– Social philosophy

– Phenomenological theology

13.5.14

– Flippancy

– How much pleasure or pain can you take without ex/im-ploding?!

I must increase my capacity. But how??

– Faith & worship

Thought & practice

– The Law:

1. List 3 things that (you believe) GOD requires from you now.

2. List 3 things that you desire now.

3. Identify where they converge or come close. That is the New Commandment!

Use this model for your wedding anniversary reflections…

– Love & lust are 2 poles (overlapping in the middle) in the one spectrum of human relations…

14.5.14

– Should I remove the internet filter at home?

Are there any kids staying here?

– Time to move from defence to offence, Joe!

– The bond between sex, love & marriage is religious-cultural, not bio-psychological. The moral is found at the tensive interface of these 2 levels of human existence!

– Punishment

Vs.

Rehabilitation

– Solidarity through mutuality + reciprocity = relationality!

– Hospitals, social-work, churches, civil society, legal services, etc.

– Did the prophets & apostles know with definite certainty who or what they were actually dealing with, & speaking/writing about??

– In each context (historical, geographical, cultural, political, etc.), the articulation of divine revelation (theology) is done in the language prevalent in, & appropriate to, that particular setting…

– Theo-drama

Vs.

Theo-logic

– Post-metaphysical theology

– Waging peace

– Does what I do derive from (my understanding of) who I am?

Or

Does (my understanding of) who I am depend on what I do?

– Theology, philosophy & ideology

– He/she has some peculiar views & idiosyncratic tendencies that may hurt/harm me, but there is no doubt that he/she loves me i.e. their essential attitude/dominant disposition toward me is one of positive affection & benevolence.

Right?

15.5.14

– Global ethic

– How much stress can a relationship take before it permanently breaks??

– Marriage – if I must become more feminine, then she should also become more masculine…

– Open-ended

– Cutting-edge

– Research readers

– International students

– Editorial advisory board

– Contemporary, critical & contextual

– ‘Incerti’

– Neo-paganism

– Fidelity

Vs.

Authenticity

– “This page intentionally left blank”

– Discursive dichotomies

– “Reality is (only/just?) a state of mind.”

– Can love also include hate?

– Prehistory

– Mirror neurons

Selfish genes

– Opinion leaders

– Forbidden crossings

– Uniqueness & exceptionality » superiority & absolutism!

– Christian paganism & pagan Christianity

– Fictional theology

– Half-Christians in the ancient church!

– Ambiguity, compromise & harmony

– Polemics & propaganda

– Artificial borders

– Heresiologists

– The paranormal & the preternatural

– Intertextuality

– Epigraphy

– Non-Christian personal religious experience

– Salutary

– Pseudoscience

– Preconceptions

– Guilty pleasures

– Movies:

Basic Instinct

Why do I like such nonsense?!  😉

– He who has never lived the way one wants, can never know what it means to be who one ought to be.

No freedom, no realization.

No realization, no formation!

– We need a morality that is rooted in the bio-psychic & a religion/culture that is more apposite to our empirical/existential reality…

– Is piety without prudery possible?

– Festschrift

– Defamiliarize

– Decant

– Aniconicism

– Obloquy

16.5.14

– Feint

– Theology is the outcome of the dynamic & fiesty interaction between religion & philosophy!

– Radically alien

– Deconstruction ~ simulation!

– Interregnum

– Deracinate

– Efflorescence

– Architectonic

– Excrescence

– Unconcealing (metaphysics) » signification (linguistics) » simulation (semiotics)!

– Metonymy

– Viral ~ malignant

– Organism = living system

– Bioenergetics

– Onto- » meta- » trans- !

– Eliptical

– Senescence

– Eudemonics

Vs.

Aretaics

– Femme fatale

– Provocative, incisive & lucid!

– Qualia

– Theology » dialogy » heterology!

– Originary thinking!

17.5.14

– The old bandicoots camp

– Resurrection & ascension: He is NOT up there. He is down here among us, in order to lift us to the right hand of the Father!

– Rhythm:

40% do what I want (desire/spontaneity/pamper myself) + 40% do what I ought (will/structure/ discipline myself) + 20% do nothing (spirit/stillness/ being).

The challenge of categorization/ classification is real!

– Be opportunistic, not driven!

Have: get or hold…

No, no, no! Just relax & enjoy.

– Ministry: whatever you are trying, to make your life/self better, help others to do for themselves also. Ok?

– You cannot improve the quality of your life if you are not ready to change yourself &/or your circumstances…

The New Formula:

50-50!

E.g. Adapt yourself to the given situation

AND

Adjust your environment according to your priorities.

– What does goodness have to do with happiness?

What does happiness have to do with prosperity?

What does health have to do with society?

– Public theology

&

Personal theology

Which one is your emphasis?

– Should I go hard after a perfect body?

– Distinguish:

Isolation-withdrawal

&

Solitude-contemplation

Two sides of the same coin?

– Restlessness – anxiety-lust-violence

– Postmodern philosophy

&

Trinitarian theology

The WOW truth!  🙂

– “There is only one thing to do: create the right climate, and then leave the field.”

– Socrates, Diogenes the Cynic, Jesus Christ, Gautama Siddhartha, Jiddu Krishnamurthi, etc.

– Stop fucking around, Joe!

Either you relax & allow your belly to protrude or do what it takes to get rid of it altogether. Stop sucking it in to make it look smaller…!

Don’t be a coward-hypocrite.

– Founder

– Flounder

– Facticity

– Being IS doing,

Therefore being better is doing more!

– Philosophy as ontology/metaphysics

Vs.

Philosophy as the hermeneutics of facticity

– Negation of negation

Virtual being

Transitional object

– Irruption

– Physis

– The hermeneutic of suspicion

– Recollection ~ nostalgia

Repetition ~ kinesis

– Slave morality

– Political economy

– Cybernetics

– Hardy

Bloody-minded

– Internal time

– Différance

– A fortiori

– Distinguish:

Vacation

&

Retreat

– The discipline of sustained chaos!

18.5.14

– Intuitive theology

– Transcendence without mythology

– Bringing alive the Text & throwing more light on the lived reality.

– From person-work to event-context

– From exclusive-exhaustive to definitive-normative.

– Theology, cosmology & anthropology

– Maybe I am neither a theist nor an atheist, but a deist-agnostic!

– GOD – Creator (above us) » Christ (one of us) » Spirit (among us)!

– Why can’t I just be a thinker, explorer, husband, son, brother, friend, spiritual companion/facilitator?

– The metaxological

19.5.14

– The metaphysical thriller!

– Nihilist (metaphysics) -libertarian (ethics) -anrchist (politics)

– Freedom, chaos & love

– Universal crime

– Divine infinity » total identity!

– Negative concern

– Foreswear

21.5.14

– If salvation (self-realization; spirit-filling; resurrection) entails becoming suicidal (immoral; insane; persecuted), then so be it!

22.5.14

– “One Hundred Years of Solitude”

– The only way to salvation is by undergoing spiritual death & rebirth, while you are physically still alive!

– In order for a revolution to be successful, its pioneer must be killed!

– It is easier to gnash your teeth & endure forever in a miserable existence that you are familiar with, than to boldly take a decisive step that will put a final end to the boring old and usher in the terrifying NEW!

– I have taken decisions (for spiritual reasons) that could have destroyed my social support, financial security & physical comfort (includes psychological welfare). But I have gotten away without paying a heavy price (because of my parents’ unconditional love)! What will happen this time?? I am not sure even if they can tolerate this new direction……

– The only way to overcome the monster-pervert is to release it fully!

– Slavoj Zizek joins the list of my mentors!

– I can see now that this (arrangement) was never gonna last…

– All revolutions are catastrophic events. And you thought you could have spiritual revival without social upheaval!

– The temptation to stop Abraham’s hand!

– The conscience beyond morality

– “It has begun.

Amen.”

– I want the freedom to waste my life; to not be accountable to anyone for my choices; to pursue my thoughts & desires to the utmost as long as I harm no one else directly or intentionally.

– She’s right. She’ll be fine (only!) without me.

– What is keeping you from (fully) becoming who you (already) are?

– Trying to forget the eternal (good) by occupying oneself with the temporal (nice).

– NSA – no strings attached!

– Spirituality

Vs.

Religion

Imagination

Vs.

Tradition

Future

Vs.

Past

New

Vs.

Old

Sexuality

Vs.

Marriage

Individual

Vs.

Society

Conviction

Vs.

Consensus

– Teleological suspension – sometimes you should just do “GOD’s will”, instead of trying to always do the “right thing”!

– I guess the time is ripe to incarnate the incubating Word, Joe!

– Loving someone

Vs.

Studying something

– If I am morbid, then so be it. At least I’m alive!

What about you?

– Purgatory & Samsara

– The struggle to make marriage work seems no longer worthwhile……

23.5.14

– Instead of trying hard to believe what is so unbelievable and not thinking too much about these ‘given truths of faith’, why don’t you try to think hard and just believe whatever comes out of it?

– I can identify more with the story of Siddhartha the Buddha, than with that of Jesus the Christ…

– To seek,

To know,

To change.

Relentless and unreserved passion…

My purpose to remake myself from the ground up!

– The psychopath

Vs.

The sociopath

– Can you feel the pain of my numbness?

Of course not!

– Movies: Girl Most Likely

Salome Imogene Divya!

Narrative identity & meaning-making

Authenticity

Vs.

Success

24.5.14

– Decentering identity

– Constructivism

– Raise the ante!

– Does the command to pursue what you want also automatically a prohibition against doing what you ought?

– Overcome curse/evil/ suffering/weakness/defeat/death

– Touch, move, fill

Anointing, fire, spirit, power, glory, victory, deliverance, blessing, consolation, encouragement…

Prayer, praise, preach, faith, obey, rejoice…

– The outstretched Arm & pierced Hand – for each & all of us!

– Revival/renewal/ restoration/purification/empowering

– The living Word that enters through the ears & mind, and breaks & shapes the heart!

– Rebuking, condemning & binding the works of Satan

– Faith of the supplicant + laying on of hands by the saints = miraculous deliverance

– Receive the Spirit!

– Water & Word

– Preaching-teaching (Gospel of the Kingdom), miracle-working (healing & exorcism) & crucifixion-resurrection (work of salvation)

– Sin, sickness & death

– Holy Spirit ~ divine forgiveness

– Holiness, health & happiness

– Jesus loves you – if you fear/trust GOD, your prayer will be answered!

– Maturing through warning

Christian wisdom & counsel

Behold!

Beware!

– The Open Secret

– Roman Catholic priests/nuns

Pentecostal pastors/monks

– Consecrated obedience » knowledge of heavenly/divine/supernatural mysteries.

– Distinguish:

Knowledge (theology)

&

Understanding (philosophy)

– Disciples ~ servants ~ apostles ~ leaders

The perfectors!

– Unity ~ fullness

– Believers » saints » perfected ones

– Anointing ~ baptism ~ fullness

– The GOD-given desire for perfection.

– The benefits of being under the authoritative ministry of the apostles

– Giving oneself over to the Lord and His people

– The official doctrine

– Knowing, loving, & growing in, the divine qualities

– Humility ~ suffering ~ obedience

– Kingdom of GOD ~ Church ~ Heaven/Zion

– Salvation is free gift, but to enter the Kingdom of Heaven, we must pay a (great) price!

– Those who do good works without the motive to gain divine reward are righteous.

– Inreach & outreach

Plumb & stretch

– Suicide & the eternal self

– Let me take in BOTH the Evangelical AND the Liberal stuff, & actively allow them to clash within me!

– “Despising the shame”, because……

“Let us bear (His) reproach”

– Suffer, serve & (finally) sacrifice

– What does this (text) mean for us today?

– Becoming worthy of the Kingdom and deserving of Glory

– Those who live by faith (in GOD) are righteous.

– The right to stand before GOD – the boldness of the righteous.

– Should we love Satan, our enemy?

– All contentious people are sinners.

All unconverted people are enemies of GOD.

– Truthful ~ righteous ~ faithful ~ just

– Entry is free, but advancing further in the Way is costly.

The truths to buy, not sell:

Truth of divine healing.

Truth of holy life.

Truth of consecrated ministry.

Those who live, fight & die witnessing to truth will receive the eternal reward!

– We are Lion-cubs!

– The appointed trials

Jottings

2.5.14

– Individuals & communities outlive & outvalue institutions & traditions!

– Anecdotal evidence

– Signage – identification, warning & direction

– Junta

– Activism is NOT the only way to transformation!

Improved efficiency does not always require radical reform…

– Fatah & Hamas

– 1. Pas. Selvaraj funeral sermon.

Sadha’s birthday sermon.

My birthday wishes – not for ‘many more happy returns…’

Remembering the bomb blast in Chennai.

2. What is life?

Birth + death + resurrection!

The old passes away to make way for the new. The death of the old becomes the ground for new to take root!

The food-chain; life-cycle; skin-cells; earth’s limited resources and the constant turnover of all things…

The sowing of the seed and the springing of the plant. Unless a grain of wheat……

The blood of martyrs is the seed of the church.

3. “Death is the engine of life” – the Good News of Jesus Christ – the power of the Cross!

Birth, baptism, funeral

Womb ~ tomb

The physical as symbolizing the spiritual!

4. The process of continual renewal – overcoming the fear of death (loss, failure, weakness, etc.). Hope of another beginning! Gladly let go of what we are holding on to, so that we might inherit what is beyond imagination!

Spiritual growth – the step from one level to another goes through death & resurrection. Not adding, but substituting!

When we believe & practice this truth, we are truly & fully alive (abundant/everlasting life!)

5. When we sacrifice our life for a cause to make the future bright, we will never lose our soul!

3.5.14

– Whoever says that money is not important has never suffered poverty!

– Movies:

“Who’s afraid of Virginia Woolf?”

Why this title??

Hysterical pregnancy

Feminism & the common woman

The animus in woman

Vs.

The anima in man

The masculine woman & the feminine man…

– BYOB

– Movies:

“The Hunter”

Killing to save!

– But aren’t godliness & contentment opposites?!

– What I must

Vs.

What I want

The resolution:

Just being (without wanting, having or doing)!

– “Hi Masi… I think the plan/idea to make lot of money in order to help others or uplift the poor is NOT a good (or spiritual) one…”

– Movies:

“In the mood for love”

No way to escape regret!

Mixed

26.4.14

– Food is to be eaten (tasted, chewed, swallowed & digested) in balanced/moderate quantities at regular intervals, not just to be accumulated on a plate and stared at!

– Looking at our past experiences (especially negative ones) as a rich resource to deal with the present & future!

Equipped & strengthened by difficulties & challenges…

– The Lord is our healer.

But how?!

Inner resources & external support

28.4.14

– Movies: J. Edgar

“What determines our legacy is often the things that are not seen.”

All in the name of ‘national security’ ~ ‘Kingdom of GOD’ ~ ‘Social justice’…

Unamerican ~ unchristian ~ immoral ~ inhuman

A small man who achieved great things in the world & a great man who achieved nothing much in the world – which one would you rather be?

How far would you go to keep your skeletons in the closet & preserve the public persona?

– NRI philanthropists

– Subtly coerced & unwittingly coopted!

– Homophobia ~ xenophobia

– Theology of eros

Feminist movement

Sexual revolution

– How can I miss someone whom I don’t even know?!

– Burnish

Vs.

Brandish

– Filial trust

– Overcoming the conflict between desire, conscience & will, through the power of faith, hope & love!

– Hope is the source of all courage!

How can disappointment be kept from becoming despair?

– Psychological hygiene

– Movies:

Total Eclipse

29.4.14

– The next stage (of my Journey) begins!

– My heart is heavy with an idea… A plan!

– You can’t have both freedom and security, Joe!

– Marriage, individualism & spirituality

– Personal retreat

Family obligations

Ministry responsibilities

– The grass is always greener on the other side and yellower on this side…

– Loneliness, poverty & addiction

Vs.

Family, wealth & responsibility

Company & inner frustration.

Material well-being & spiritual poverty.

Social acceptance & individual bondage.

– What have we achieved so far with all our responsible, consistent & committed behaviour??

– A new social order born out of coordinated spontaneity, instead of a fixed structure/system!

– Is it possible to be great/revolutionary without being insane/monstrous?

– What is the difference between sacrificial and suicidal?

– The call of Solitude

– Salvation IS the headlong pursuit of the ideal/dream!

– Freeing biology & psychology from culture & morality!

– Marriage, family, nation & religion are NOT eternal!

– Abnormalcy

– Purpose

Vs.

Passion

– Hexagram

– Do you believe in magic, ghosts & astrology?

– Semi-marriage

– Church-worship – only on special/feast/holy days.

1.5.14
– The theodicy of Job – GOD punishes his defenders & vindicates his attacker!

– I think the optimal balance between system & spontaneity could be around 50-50 (including vacation)!
3 kinds of days:
1. Extreme system
2. Extreme spontaneity
3. Moderation

– Coupling insight & initiative

– Can one be both cynical & idealistic?

– Was Jesus a Cynic/Socratic?

– “Fail better”!

– What is black film?

– Faith without deeds is dead
Vs.
Mercy triumphs over judgment

– The royal law of love ~ the perfect law of liberty

Experience

5.4.14

– Culture = religion + philosophy + arts

– Maturity – what are the hallmarks (distinguishing features) of an adult?

– Psychotherapy, religious beliefs & moral values

– Is curiosity a virtue or a vice?

– Can we understand perfection without falling into the trap of legalism?

6.4.14

– Marriage is made (by GOD) for man, not man for marriage!

– Life-skills

– Self-help

– Wellness/health/fitness coach

– First-aid

– Tracklist

– Mentor ~ monitor ~ trainer

– Physical education

– Social & emotional learning

– Personal management

– Resource stewardship

– Erotica – “Ching, ching, ching!”  😉

– “Make available offline”

Free download!

– Preventive lifestyle design

– ALL we have to do is receive & allow!

– Theodicy, spiritual warfare & the final vindication.

– Meditation, proclamation, adoration & celebration of the mystery of Christ!

– Jn.11:21-27

Ordet!

– Charisms – tongues, knowledge, wisdom, interpretation, prophecy, discernment, healing, miracles, faith, raising the dead, exorcism.

Charisms – gifts, fruit of the Spirit, & answer to all your intentions!

– To be anointed:

Repentance, faith, reconciliation & prayer.

– Pray for:

Personal salvation, local community needs & world peace

– “This is Jesus Christ, who came into this world to make you happy, & to be your best friend, forever!”

– Put all your sins, problems & sufferings into His chalice!

– Good Shepherd, Sacred Heart, Divine Mercy

– Divine Mercy:

A – ask for Mercy – pray the chaplet.

B – be merciful.

C – complete trust in the Lord.

– GOD allows Satan to run amock, so that he can later turn it around – in response to our prayers – for his (greater) glory!

– “The LORD is plenteous in mercy, & with him is fullness of redemption.”

– Profound, irreverent & delightful

– Intentionality, improvisation & inter-dependence

– In my dream, I had a mystical experience…!

– Movies:

Mr. Nobody

Is there life BEFORE death?!

Finitude, fallibility & frailty

Choice, time & fantasy

Thoughts

27.3.14

– “Miserando atque eligendo”

– Should I (be willing to) go to the SFG members’ houses for the counseling meetings, or ask them to come & meet me instead?

Do BOTH (alternately)!

– The Gospel according to Baz Luhrmann!

– Download Jesus movies:

Son of GOD

Son of Man

– Journaling – the opposite of film-making – movie » script!

29.3.14

– Movies:

Melancholia

What about Prozac??

The psychotic as prophet!

Religion/faith as ‘magic cave’ – why is apocalypse (unveiling of ultimate reality/Parousia/ushering in of the New Age) always associated with cosmic/global catastrophe?

– I am like my mother:

1. Care-free/laid-back

2. Unperturbed/tough

3. Insensitive/apathetic

I am not like my mother:

1. Intellectual

2. Introverted

3. Organized/focused

– Maybe ‘sublimation’ is just a euphemism for ‘repression’……

– Movies:

Noah

GOD’s will IS human choice!

Mercy IN judgment.

Humanity

Vs.

Humanism

Divine silence & religion/theology

Divine sovereignty & human value

Guidance & mystery

Theology as (resulting from) the interpretation of religious experience…

Musings

23.3.14

– Eucharist – a GOD who gives himself for us to eat, instead of demanding ‘human sacrifice’ on the altar of divine worship. Loving GOD = Consuming Christ (receiving Grace)!

The Lion who becomes the Lamb, so that we creatures might become sons & daughters of GOD……

– The New Commandment supercedes the Great Commandment(s)!

WOW  🙂

– Does GOD want us to please him or does he want to serve us?

Does GOD want us to become more like him or does he love us as we are?

Does GOD take pleasure in us doing what he says or in us enjoying & sharing all that he freely gives us?

– The burning bush

Vs.

Playing with fire

– GOD as commander-in-chief

Vs.

GOD as conversation partner

– Whimsical cinema

– Movies:

Nymphomaniac (I & II)