Thoughts

12.6.14

– Bard

– Back to school for the great fool!

– Is divine law an arbitrarily imposed ethic or a codified explication of the natural order?

– Hostility » tolerance » hospitality

– Is it possible to ‘use’ another human being or oneself, without ‘harming’ that person or oneself?

– The third party (in relational morality)

– If individual freedom is sacred, then am I not prohibited from denying any of my desires from being fulfilled?!

– Threats & offers in inter-personal dynamics

– Moral restriction & metaphysical safety

14.6.14

– Was Jesus a Christian?

– Maybe the caste issue that stalled my application for admission in Loyola College was providential! Now I am going to join dual degree by distance education……

– Emma Gonsalvez 1932 – 2014

RIP.

Murdered?!!

– When confronted be evil, we either fight or flee. Both are expressions of fear. Is there a third way (which is more fitting for the faithful)?

Yes… Stand!

– Soteriology – moving the emphasis from ‘sin’ to ‘evil’!

15.6.14

– “England player sturridge equalised 1-1 before half time and said ‘I love you JESUS’!”

“Mmm… So is this what Christian witness means da??”

– Movies:

“Woyzeck

” (German)
Suffering beyond despair!

“Rock On

” (Hindi)
If you are to chase your dreams, then you must come to grips with reality!

16.6.14

– Rekha Rodwittiya

The endeavour of focus

Personal politics

– Dear family… A kind request: When I am in my room and the door is closed, please understand that I am NOT to be disturbed. Do NOT push the door or barge in suddenly! Please knock and ask for me to respond or open. When I keep the door open, you can freely move in & out. OK?

PLEASE REPLY.

PEACE

– Straddling the 2 worlds of Church & University!

– The System is rigidly inefficient when you are seeking excellence, & when you need some flexibility for your own shortcomings, it is rigidly unforgiving!

But NOT always  😉

– If there is no marriage in heaven, then will we also be asexual?? If so, will we still be human?!

Words

8.6.14

– Be politically incorrect!

Be a rebel, in your own way, even going against other contemporary (so-called) revolutionaries……

– Just find something else to try out!

– Mohallas

– Instantaneity

– Nissim Mannathukkaren

– T.M. Krishna

– Prophets as ‘naysayers’!

– Building frustration tolerance through sports

– Robert Flaherty

– “The World Before Her”

– Eponymous

– Mythology/biblical Studies (ancient) » Theology (medieval) » Philosophy (modern) » Critical Theory (post-modern)

– Movies:

Eyes Wide Shut

Sex, guilt & death – where is love in all of this?? What does marriage mean in this context?

9.6.14

– Buck the trend!

– Headhunters

– Passion for the field, professional competence & social skills

– My self + my world + my GOD = my life

– I am almost 35 years old, & I don’t even know what I am going to do in the future……!  😦

– Think. Pray. Love.

– Philosophy as inter-cultural & trans-religious theology

– Post-modern Platonism

– Should I stay completely outside the system?

Should I collaborate with the system as a freelancer?

Should I get into the system?

System – church, academia, NGOs etc.

– Should/can I compromise my identity (contemplative, maverick, autodidact) in order to fulfill the mission to meet a genuine need (education, philosophy, spirituality) in society?

– Am I wasting my life/burying my talents?

– Should I stop all formal ministry – fortnightly small group meetings?

– Maybe freedom (from making a living) is not without its disadvantages, after all!

– But what about the ordinary/lay people who are not in academia/seminary – who will teach/guide them??

But I am never again going after people to help/serve, when they themselves are not motivated by concern for their own growth!

– Passive seeker

– Does the shepherd need the sheep?

– Spirituality + philosophy = theology!

– I will live, believe & love among few others now. After I die, my spirit (life, words, etc.) will spread and work in & through many more……!

Musings

25.5.14

– The lawless Law-giver

– Turnstiles

– Love = attention

– Tinsel

– KFI, Shantiniketan, Vidya Vanam

– DUB

– So you are taking full advantage of their unconditional acceptance and therefore you’re gonna push the limits of tolerance… Right?!

– Independent education

Distinguish:

Casual

&

Informal

– Stay young @ heart, forever!

– Enquire, examine, explore, experiment, evolve!

– Movies:

Zodiac

Was his investigation worth it, especially because of what he had to do to his family?

Sometimes you just MUST do something, irrespective of the pros & cons!

27.5.14

– The eternal-universal-essential

– Critical ~ vital

– Reactualize!

– Comic theory, tragic subjectivity & theological revolt

– Revolutionary ~ subversive ~ transgressive!

– Genealogical approach

– Metacritical history

– Doctrine of univocity

– Theory, ideology & culture

28.5.14

– Distinguish:

Detachment

&

Indifference

Is it possible to be impassive & compassionate?

– Gen.17:17 – the Father of Faith!

– The basic skeletal structure must be maintained even on the (alternate) freak-out days. But on the 1 out of 7 days (weekly Sabbath) – even that can be discarded and you can experience total chaos!!  😉

– The doctrine of divine sovereignty & the scandal of match-fixing

30.5.14

– Why/how are some persons entirely different from their background?!

ASHOK

– Gentle, pious & lovable father. Inspiration in music.

– Liked Chemistry & Physics

– Worship music

Youth ministry

– Reserved person

Stage fear

– Rich Mullins

Steven Curtis Chapman

Impressed by personal testimonies

– Gaining confidence, developing skill, new exposures

– Gospel of Grace

– Abelraj & Epistle to Romans

– Passionate about reading Bible

– Martin Luther biography

– Parenting & theology

– My response – when you pursue any desire or goal beyond a certain extent (extreme), it becomes dangerous & destructive – that is called passion or excellence!

Balanced people maybe healthy, but they are also mediocre…

31.5.14

– “I just wanted to make things better between us.”

– Nobody knows just how close we both came to divorce and this retreat might never have happened!

Maybe even we both don’t know……

– The spectre of embarrassment

– Carlo & Gracie

Sharyl & Joel

– Why does he want to kill her? Because he hates her.

Why does he hate her? Because she hates him.

Why does she hate him?

– Can one be asexual and fully human?

– Is the Cross the glorification of ignominy?

– I’m gonna write my own marital vows. I’m gonna make a new religion for myself……

– Etiquette

Vs.

Ethicality

– Even in this retreat, what would happen if each of us let go of our usual inhibitions and freely expressed our feelings?

– Into the Wild

– The desire for happiness/meaning

&

The pursuit of truth/GOD

– The bio-psycho-spiritual (individual/internal/subjective) – the GOD within

Vs.

The religio-moral-cultural (social/external/objective) – the GOD without

– What is the right balance between:

What you ought to do now (to get to where you ultimately wanna be)

&

What you would like to do now (for its own sake)

– How can the certainty of death help us to live well now? How does this affect how we answer the previous 2 questions?

– The kingdom of God IS withIN you!

– Eastern religions are better for individual spirituality, & the Judeo-Christian tradition is better for public theology. So how does one handle this problem?

– I think I should make the SFG meeting & online conference once a month. Informal one-to-one mertings can be encouraged. Continue the annual (3-day) retreat.

Any (formal) ministry activity over & above this would be shit. I should also start visiting people (annual) in my inner circle, especially those in the mission field.

2.6.14

– Saving the world

Vs.

Not killing people

Becoming the evil we fight!

– GOD in the other is the counterpoint to the GOD in me! Objectivity through dialogue.

– Person > life > things

Things » life » persons

– Materialist spirituality

Secular theology

– Supposit

– Explananda

– Movies:

X-men – Days of Future Past

Eternity, atonement & Parousia – the Coming One! Since there is One who comes to us from the Future, we are delivered from being controlled by the Past…

If you only knew what kind of future this way leads to, then you would repent & change the past!

Identify GOD, Satan, Christ, Church, World, etc.

– A fortiori

– Civil religion

– Compare:

The false,

The ugly

&

The evil

– Michael Card

– Books:

Siddhartha by Herman Hesse

3.6.14

– How contemplatives can contribute to activists, & vice versa?

– Distinguish:

Speculation

&

Contemplation

– Intuition, instinct & impulse

– All theology is contextual (personal & social), including biblical/canonical theology!

– Cash for votes

– Mmm… Coercion can be internal (sex drive) or external (peer pressure), for (hypersexual culture) or against (conventional morality). But it is always bad!

It is amazing how the line between freedom & slavery is so thin/blurred!!

– When 2 (or more) adults use each other mutually, voluntarily & occasionally for pleasure (sexual, psychological, etc.), is it ‘loving’ (to oneself & the other)??

– The problem of pleasure is no less serious than the problem of suffering! Both have to be made meaningful, if they are to be kept from ‘breaking bad’…

4.6.14

– Searing

– Undersecretary

– There are realms of human life (like sex, business, politics, etc.) where words like “love” (which are more personal & relational – family, marriage, fellowship, friendship) become irrelevant. In such cases, the word “justice” is more appropriate & effective in ensuring moral conduct.

Moving from mere sentimentality to genuine ethicality…!

Priorities in tension:

People

Vs.

Principles

Interconnected, but not identical. Converging, but also diverging!

– Grape juice, milk & honey

– Creative ~ traumatic ~ subversive!

– It is amazing how the same action could come out of either spiritual liberty or bondage!

– I think the main point of the movie “Between Us” is the fact of human brokenness, & the real challenge is not to overcome or conquer sin/evil (pride, bitterness, failure, etc.), but to stay human in the midst of the Fall!

Religion/wealth (Joel), family/marriage (Sharyl), career/success (Carlo), service/morality (Gracie) are all failed saviours! But it takes guts to realize & accept this truth, only then can we survive ourselves…

– Eleazar – martyrdom, not for the sake of certain ancient laws & ancestral customs (against paganism), but for the fundamental human right/freedom of faith & conscience (against tyranny)!

– Is your philosophy able to face & survive the horrors of this world??

– Exhortation to apostasy!

– Is (your) life beautiful, terrible or bland?

– Encomium

– Should I rebuke Vivi for discouraging my mother from attending the retreat?

– If we maintain our humanity in the Fall, then we will become divine when GOD finally annuls the Fall!

– What does hagiography have to do with erotics?

– De-tabooing sexuality & thereby liberating man!

– I don’t like people who drag their feet while walking

– Is it possible that one achieves more through one’s death than through an entire lifetime of work?

– Just stop thinking/reflecting, & start sensing/perceiving for a while!

– When someone compels you for anything, that means they need you. So GOD never nags!

– Religion & culture

Morality & the brain

Philosophy & economics

5.6.14

– Red letter day

– man Friday

– Evince

– “Theory praxis” – that’s a good name for what I (try to) do!

– Living > loving > knowing

– Distinguish:

Anarchist

&

Anti-social

Personalist

&

Individualist

– I need to sharpen the general norm by being the exception (‘rarest of the rare’) !

– Individualism:

Selfishness & originality

Creativity & immorality

– Is sexual freedom essential for spiritual growth?

– How do you approach ‘constitutional problems’?

6.6.14

– The selfishness in altruism &

The altruism in selfishness.

What is love??

Is it to sacrifice your own desires for the sake of the other or to unite your will with another’s?

7.6.14

– Concept & reality

– Elide

– The Protestant impulse & the postmodern spirit

Anti-theological theology!

– Curry (v.)

– Vernacular

– Knowing who GOD is

Vs.

Getting as much as we can from GOD

Vs.

Doing as much as we can for GOD

– The never-ending exploration of, & fascination with, the divine mystery, as worship.

– No Son, no Father.

No Father, no Son.

– Rev.3:12 – tridimensional identity – Naming!

– If identity is radically & totally relational, then isn’t the individual held hostage to historical-social dynamics? And without individual freedom how can there be any (cultural or political) reform/progress?

I am a medical doctor » I am Salome’s husband » I am Immanuel Joseph!

– The diversity within unity – radical otherness IN the self!

– Ps.27:1 – academics & faith

– Particularity & universality

– The eternal implications of historic encounters

– Designer GOD

– “Who does this man think he is?”

– The humour of Jesus

– A lay person who teaches seminarians!

– Gradually & stutteringly coming to faith

– The son is equal to the father!

– The Father is the God OF Jesus.

The Christ is the son OF God.

The Holy Spirit is the spirit OF GOD (the Father & the Son)

– The stone is rolled away, not to let Jesus out, but to let us in!

– The new/higher dimension includes the old/lower, but not vice-versa!

– “The clouds”

– Pneumatology is the key to contemporary theology!

– The Spirit upon, with & in the faithful

– Distinguish:

Chastening

&

Retribution

– The 2 persons united as one composite unit by the 3rd entity – Love!

– Uncomprehension & misapprehension

– In the name (not names) of (the triune) God

– Mas. » Dr. » Mr.

– Jesus spoke much more to GOD than the other way around!

– Personality includes relationality, but exceeds it!

– 1Jn.1:1-3

– Shared life/being/substance

– The Athanasian Creed

– Eternal generation/procession

– Planting sublime desires

– (Spiritual) identity:

Personal, relational & public

– Ubuntu

– One what & three whos

– The Church (& marriage/family) as the best illustration of the Trinity!

– Good theology & bad grammar!

– Godhead ~ mankind

– Woman – an after-act, not afterthought!

– Trinity, gender & sexuality

– The Christian community has abdicated its role in the process of legislation to the secular state

– The revelation of the personal nature of entities usually considered to be impersonal!

– Univocity, equivocity & analogy

– Does (the reality of) GOD overflow the (concept of) Trinity?

– GOD is known partly & unknown largely

– Worshipping the transcendent & loving the immanent GOD

– Before the creation of the material world, there is no time.

– Freedom:

Voluntarism

Vs.

Essentialism

– Is GOD completely/absolutely ‘free’?!

– Sevenfold

Notes

4.5.14

– Maybe the Apocalypse is (primarily) an unveiling of our own eyes!

– Maintain equilibrium by increasing both the extremes instead of augmenting the middle!

– “World of worship”

– Distinguish:

What you ought

&

What you must

– Possessive/female/ conservative

Vs.

Covetous/male/progressive

– Needy – the dependent AND the ambitious

– Faith as sight

Vs.

Faith as blindness

Fideism/rationalism

Vs.

Empiricism/scepticism

– The complementary

AND

The contradictory

Enjoy being played (pushed & shoved)!  😉

– Fantasy/imagination/ dream/hope

Vs.

Experience/reality/ memory/context

– Passion

Vs.

Purpose

Vs.

Peace

– “Spirit of GOD, descend upon my heart, wean it from earth.

…I ask no sudden rending of the veil of clay…”

– Encounter ~ confront

– “If a man does not stumble in what he says, he is perfect.”

– Jas.3:6 – “course of life” ~ “wheel of birth”!

How can my tongue corrupt my own body?

– Freedom is solitude,

Solitude is freedom.

Company is security,

Security is company.

– Boast (self), rebel (GOD) & slander (others)

– The whisperers

– Non-malicious, but still destructive!

– Mutual pastoring

– We have legs – neither roots nor wings!

– Feeling good about oneself when savoring the fall of another!

– “Meekness of wisdom”

– Bitter jealousy ~ selfish ambition

– Integrity » impartiality

– “My brothers & sisters, this is how things are, but they ought not to be so.

Who is wise and understanding among you (concerning this)?”

– Self-deception is always involuntary/unconscious!

– He who dares to walk in external darkness will experience the inner light!

– “If you love somebody,

Free, free, set them free!”

– Creating & using religious, moral & social categories/norms to compensate for the lack of personal spiritual/ existential/psychological adequacy……

The frail/pathetic individual seeks shelter under the wings of marriage, family, church, office, government, etc.

– State terrorism

– Retreat from ministry ok. But what about:

Retreat from marriage?

Retreat from religion?

Retreat from work?

Retreat from law?

– Am I just sawing at the branch on which I myself am sitting??

– Recognize ~ acknowledge ~ appreciate

– Horrific comedy

Bizarre, surreal, macabre

– Too clever for your own good!

– Picaresque

– Is all you want just to break her, force her to surrender & confess your superiority?

– Randy

– Who is Vatsyayana?

– Boudoir

– Ingenue

Naïve, curious & enthusiastic!

– Frigid (sexually) & caustic (socially) women

– “One Hundred Years of Solitude”

– ‘Chinki’

– PDSO

– Mapping the sexual landscape of contemporary India

Reflections

7.4.14

– Should I be paid for my ministry?

Would this be good for the members of the fellowship groups also??

Rs.500 per head may be a good amount……

8.4.14

– Even C.S. Lewis was not a seminary graduate!

– Do this:

To be accepted by family.

To be respected by the society.

To be admired by the church.

To be appreciated by your colleagues.

– I am an eccentric, reclusive contemplative, autodidact. Period.

– Maybe I am the exception. Maybe even a genius……!

– From degree (without education) to education (without degree)!

– feckless

– “Why are we (always) the good guys?”

– Is it possible to be too intense/focused?

– When are you releasing your manifesto?

– Elections – but what (happens) if the majority of Indians are fools?!

– Off-field events steal the spotlight!

– Ira Trivedi

Lavina Melwani

– Purloin

– Gallivanting gallant

– Excalibur

– Debonair

– Research & fiction

– Greatness is NOT good enough for these normal folk!

– What is the purpose of life, but to wrestle honestly, courageously & creatively, with the confusions, contradictions & conflicts of our existence?!

That is ultimate human faithfulness……

– History, identity & aspiration

– Uniform Civil Code

– Is the ‘Modi wave’ a reality or is it just a media hype?

– If GOD loves, accepts and celebrates us as we are, then why can’t we do the same for him??

– Who I was & how I lived will be my greatest legacy, even more than what I taught!

– Nuanced ~ accurate

– Historical imagination

– Post-modern rationality

– Organized irrationality

– Jamboree

Words

25.3.14

– Renaming ‘lust’ – whatever happened to ‘passion’?!

– “Aankhon Dekhi”

Flying or falling?

Philosophy – the contemplation of freedom in the light of death, & vice versa.

Finitude & creativity

Imagination & inquiry

NOT afraid to make a fool of myself!

Bringing that something extra-special – a vital nuisance – to those I live with!

Being consistent, no matter what the cost……

– “The Third Testament for the Third Millennium.”

– naff

– “lobbyist briefings dressed up as scientific research”

– Detritus

– Conviction without certainty

– Re-enchantment without supernaturalism

– Empathy & rage

– Desire without cruelty can never be called ‘lust’!

– Inter-religious theology

Wow!  🙂

– Interlopers

– Subtext

– Parvenu

– Authoritative commentary

Expository explanation

– Dharma – cosmic, moral & social order

– Hymns, proverbs & parables to doctrine, philosophy & ethics

– Metaphysical ~ spiritual ~ divine

– ALL revelation is both natural & supernatural!

– Karma (ritual), jnana (knowledge) & dharma (morality)

– Cosmos, matter & consciousness

Self, man & GOD

– Dvaita, Visishtadvaita & Advaita

– Indenture

– Exposé

– Fructuous

– Riposte

– Space law

– Warrior-saint

– Logophilia

Post-liberal, post-evangelical, post-theist, post-Christian, post-secular – can I be all at once?!

Realism/crisis & idealism/irony

Free, open-ended enquiry, autonomous value judgments & openness to divergent views

Contemporary credibility

Meaning + purpose = value
Ultimate orientation

Nihilism is ALSO a way of making sense of things!

The interaction of religion, culture & personality in (dynamically influencing & determining) one’s faith is fascinating!

Philosophy is basically our attempt to face & cope with the contradictions (intellectual), tensions (existential) & conflicts (relational) common to the human condition. And theology is doing this with reference to a transcendental/eternal/ultimate framework…

Self-centredness & the impersonal universe

Intentionality, improvisation & inter-dependence

Green governance
Environmental rights