HAPPENINGS

28.3.20

– Non-nude porn

30.3.20

– QRT
Chaitra Sukhladi/Ugadi/Gudi Padwa

– Donate to support the poor, during COVID-19 pandemic & lockdown:
1. *PM-CARES* (Indian government)
80G IT exemption
https://www.pmindia.gov.in/en/news_updates/appeal-to-generously-donate-to-pms-citizen-assistance-and-relief-in-emergency-situations-fund-pm-cares-fund/
2. *World Vision (NGO)*
80G IT exemption
https://www.worldvision.in/WaysToGive/emergency-relief.aspx#scrolltop
3. *United Nations (International)*
No IT exemption in India (?)
https://covid19responsefund.org/
To be paid in USD (use any internationally valid credit card)

2.4.20

– Reschedule:
Today is Wednesday (chores)
Tomorrow is Saturday (rhythm)
Day after tomorrow is Friday (chores)

– Alternate weekly routine:
Sunday – freak
Monday – work/chores
Tuesday – rhythm
Wednesday – freak
Thursday – work/chores
Friday – rhythm
Saturday – freak

Maybe I can alternate this with the usual/current routine…!?

8.4.20

– Life is nothing but the power to die!

– UGK – he has returned to the Garden of Eden, instead of moving forward into the New Jerusalem!
So, according to Christian theology, is he a failure or a success?? Or something else altogether?!

10.4.20

– brio

13.4.20

– tulpa
Sergio Marquina

– mockumentary
deleverage
Prestige TV
screen-time
Barabbas
Passionist

17.4.20

– Bella ciao

 

STUFF

13.3.20

– The Independent and Public Spirited Media Foundation (IPSMF)
Pragati

14.3.20

– tessellated
Visual meaning

– Decreation & boredom
The structure of destruction
Art Vs. Aesthetics; Being Vs. Ontology; Passion Vs. Ethics
Demonic creation & divine madness
hyperborean

16.3.20

– Dry forests

17.3.20

– Who is Maynard James Keenan?

– Can sobriety be creative?

– bellwether
belletristic

– “Shout! Shout!
Let it all out,
These are the things I can do without.
Come on, I’m talking to you…

In violent times,
You shouldn’t have to sell your soul.
In black & white, you really really ought to know.
Those wandering minds,
Who took you for a working whore,
Kiss them goodbye!
You shouldn’t have to jump for joy… ”

– The Disturbed Gospel

18.3.20

– There’s a trapdoor at the bottom of the deepest hell that opens straight into the highest heaven!

– TV series:
Our Boys
The Boys

– Movies:
Drug War
Spring Breakers

– Stoned dream
Traumatic pleasures & ecstatic agonies

– I could hear that bird’s cry from within, without any psychosurgery!

21.3.20

– Distinguish:
What I like,
What I want
&
What I need

– Distinguish:
Temperament
&
Mood

– impassive
Passionate pessimist
flailing
Zero-sum game
The experience of dusk

23.3.20

– You have rode the tsunami. Now, meditate (while sitting) on the rumbling volcano!

– Ambient metal
Chō-rän

24.3.20

– No(-no)n-sense

RANDOM

29.1.20

– Mr. Negativiti – becoming a purveyor of evil (the gloomy, the dangerous and the useless)!
Aesthetic violence

– bathetic
totemic

– Movies:
“யுத்தம் செய்”
I don’t agree with Bharadwaj Rangan that this is one of Mysskin’s top 3 films – it’s nowhere near “ஓநாயும் ஆட்டுக்குட்டியும்” & “பிசாசு”.
Extreme conditions >> brutalization of the human, and the humanization of the brutal…!
Was my decision to read a lot of reviews/spoilers before deciding to watch his latest film “Psycho” a good one?
How do I distinguish between me rightly judging a film that I dislike as a mediocre one, and a film that is actually very good (or even great) which I am not sophisticated enough to appreciate? E.g. “துப்பறிவாளன்”
Are surrealism and magical realism the same?
Great filmmakers can & do make bad movies too! 😉

– Mr. Robot (completed series) – recaps from USA Network, YouTube reviews, articles from entertainment/culture websites, interviews with the creator & cast, thematic analysis & philosophical interpretations…

– My life is somewhat like Nick Kyrgios’s temperament nowadays! 🤪

30.1.20

– Is my current lifestyle, or my previous one, more in line with my own (human) nature?
How do I know??
And is there any real/essential “nature” at all in the first place?!

– Chores, spirituality and entertainment
Is it better to have 3 kinds of days, or all 3 kinds of activities on everyday?

1.2.20

– Integrating empirical analysis & radical critique
Reification & alienation
Ideological mystification
Realism & romanticism
borough; burgess
Reading against the grain

3.2.20

– The pastor as confessor
acolyte; lector
The pious poor
ellipsis
collect (n.)

4.2.20

– Addiction as achievement!

5.2.20

– Perverse logic
meretricious
complexification

18.2.20

– Misery porn

20.2.20

– diaphoretic
Naturalized weeds
estival

21.2.20

– CAA, NPR, NRC
Septuagesima, sexagesima, quinquagesima

22.2.20

– Tragic laughter
Spiritual consequences
Anti-humanist anthropology
Unproductive expenditures

– Crucial fascinations:
1. Bonhoeffer (a pacifist) attempts to assassinate Hitler
2. Nietzsche (a nihilist) faints while trying to protect a horse being beaten

24.2.20

– retrenchment

25.2.20

– Critical (introduction & intellectual) biography
malcontents
Stoned spermatozoa
The proximity of opposites
Non-academic thinkers
tabes
lurch
Lecture as public conversation
Screen memory

– Believe-IN the IM-possible

– Was Dostoevsky a Christian?

– familycide

26.2.20

– hendiadys
Maharishi Dayanand Saraswathi
Shivaji Jayanti
International Mother Tongue Day ~ Maha Shivaratri
Meatfare Sunday

– Intensities ~passions ~ sufferings ~ extremities

28.2.20

– Nataraja – dancing on my own grave!

3.3.20

– Flexible skeleton
armature
Negative shape
Foreshortened view
Gestural line
Atmospheric perspective
Linear perspective
Interior space

– Learning how to see

4.3.20

– The mistake I made in the previous retreat (Body-focus) was to allow language back into the game!
The sharing sessions should have been limited to only non-verbal forms of expression & communication ☝🏽

6.3.20

– “I will be right here”

7.3.20

– The celebration of boredom

10.3.20

– Double entendre

– “Ok what’s the ultimate goal
By doing or being in the pursuit of something if it’s makes u happy I totally agree
But if u get lost in the process n find urself unhappy what’s the purpose of it” – XYZ

“To experience life in all its fullness (with no distinction between “positive” & “negative”) and grow in understanding (in-depth and impartial)
Ah! I’m against “happiness” as the goal ❌
What if the lostness is just a realization of one’s current state??” – ABC

BROWSING

15.1.20

– Fake celebrities

18.1.20

– Movies:
“Marriage Story”
Why this title?!
Did they ever try marital counseling before going for divorce? Doesn’t look like a couple who’s beyond hope.
Commitment cannot survive, if chemistry & communication are not nurtured. Is adjustment a fourth element or is it also a part of communication?

“Ford vs. Ferrari”
WOW! Action-drama
Passion – I don’t know if I will ever find mine, before it’s too late……
Maybe I am called to transcend purpose itself, but I might not be up to that level of crazy.
My 7,000 rpm ~ stoned (weed)
I’m Ken miles, leading and then accompanying, the other 2 Ford drivers (Chris, Solan, Shanthuru, etc.) – is this just hubris??

19.1.20

– Cinematic texts
Diacritics
Alienation & instrumentalization
Postmodern Marxism
Demystification & undermining
Ethology
Umwelt
Intransigent contingency
ISA – ideological state apparatuses
curmudgeon
truncheon
Althusserian

– “All I know is that I am not a Marxist.” – Karl Marx

21.1.20

– I’m neither a conformist nor an activist.
Maybe that’s why I’m depressed……!
Most people find happiness by losing themselves in certain things (roles, values, activities, achievements, relationships, etc.), but maybe I am called to suffer living with myself forever.
One can only look at oneself naked in the mirror for so long, without going insane……

– barf
git

– Content ~ conscious
&
Form ~ unconscious

– Pornography & the Lacanian image-inary
Developmental psychology
Vs.
The symbolic self (Lacanian arbitrary/slippery/tentative ego)

24.1.20

– TV series:
“Mr. Robot”
Psycho-analysis, cyber-world & multiverse – could all this be overlapping somehow?
An explicit, articulated & evolving theory/theology/spirituality, along with the personal, relational & political aspects of the story, could make it more complete…
Just as psychology can be seen as the basis of philosophy, the opposite is also true!
Sentimentality is meaningful only in the context of ultimate concern(s).

– synaxis